Hare Krsna Guru Maharaja, pamho AGTSP!

Thank you Maharaja for the encouragement. Your responses to my last letter have given us a lot of hope and enthusiasm.

HpS - Thank you. Thank God!!

Sadhu Sanga’s mother is well. She is planning to move to Boise at some point.  And Sudevi speaks Mexican/Spanish, yes. They are really hoping that you can visit Boise again someday. They actually moved here very much anticipating seeing you.

HpS - Alway see you in Goloka!!! We are in a movie house, sitting next to each others. 😜

In response to your question: Do you continue with music?

I’m continuing to write and record. This Karuna virus has served us well in many respects. Not traveling, not playing in bars has been really nice. Incorporating the Maha mantra in a few songs. Had some devotees in the recording studio last month to sing Hare Krishna. It very much improved the songs! Lol

HpS - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Smz7zghQLaY  our favorite song. Hearing it is more and more education.

Not really sure who my audience is or how to find a different audience but there is a record label that will release a couple more albums for Nick Delffs. Hopefully they can be good offerings. And if they are praised I can pass it on.

When I find my self thinking “I am the creator of these songs” or “I am so great” lol I try to meditate on the fact that Krishna is the ability in man. Writing and performing has been a humiliating and humbling process as well.

HpS - ASA -- We do something. It is like a child helping his mother make a cake for his father's birthday party. He actually does stuff and has good ideas. Really.

And yes! YouTube and not needing a big audience! 

Interesting that you sent that Bear Dance painting because growing up it was in our living room and I would always stare at it and just recently we were at my parents house and it was on the wall and I was staring at it thinking about all the bears doing kirtan. Hari bol!

ASA - Support your right to arm bears.

My father was asking about you and he sends his respects. I believe you spoke with him at our wedding.

HpS - Yes, I think so. All your family seemed like rather awake people!

Thank you again Maharaja. I hope this finds well. 

Your aspiring servant, 

-Nitisara das

TB/BW - Local 'spiritual'. 1.20".

Dear Maharaja

Hare Krsna! I have not written to you for more than three months! These have been very difficult times for me. I am very sorry for my ingratitude to you. This blog is a great blessing.

HpS ASA ---- Hmmm.... Materially rough times are a product of not being in Krsna consciousness. As soon as we have the perspective of Arjuna after hearing the BG we have no material problems. 😐 Of course, being KC, using the Blog if it is really a good resource, is a great science. May take a few years (lifetimes) to learn it,,, but every step is eternal, and every level is better than the last!!

I hope you are well. May you no longer have allergies and may your body allow you to continue serving Srila Prabhupada and Krsna.

HpS - Allergys have gone. Pollen is gone. Now we have bitter cold, snow. 😎

As for myself, a lot has happened to me internally. Quarantine is already declining here in Santiago and everything is returning to "normal." However, my heart is sad, Maharaja. I have felt that I have lost enthusiasm in the spiritual life, I feel stagnant.

HpS - Think about why. You can always find your enthusiasm in your intelligence.

My work has taken my life, almost completely. I have had many responsibilities and I have not been able to focus 100% on what really matters to me. I try to do my best, but I don't think it's enough; that Krsna is not pleased with me, I cannot advance, and perhaps I never will.

HpS - It is difficult not advance because KC works. It relieves suffering. Do you want to suffer??? So, you will advance. but...... willit be

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or fast. Our participation helps, required!

I try to stay firm in my sadhana; I chant my 16+ rounds, I get up early to share mangala arati with you and the devotees, I raise my deities, I serve them their breakfast, I offer them flowers, I sowed 5 Tulasi seeds that sprouted and I adore them every day, but I feel that it is not enough.

HpS - Golly ! Gosh! We are not Rupa Goswami. That is very nice. Have fun with Krsna. Do more but because KRSNA likes it. He is not a Sadist. He likes you, always has and always will. He wants to have fun with you and your friends.

I have not been able to maintain my reading habit (so sad to me!), the mental fatigue that has caused me to work so intensely, prevents me. Many times I come home with a severe headache. My eating habits have also been affected, but by the blessing of Krsna and the Vaisnavas, I have continued to get up early and keep my morning sadhana (without difficulty, thank God!).

But, how can I get closer to Krsna and not feel downcast by this conditioned life? This world full of suffering is very intense, Maharaja. I feel collapsed, really.

There is something that happened that I do not know how to face, could you guide me? (I hope not to extend the letter too much)...

The whole subject related to animals is very sensitive to me. The abuses that men/women commit towards them hurt me tremendously, and I try, within my passivity, to help people to see them as beings who have the same right as ours to live in peace.

It turns out that my boyfriend and his family had a beautiful and adorable dog, Achilles, a Rottweiler. A well misunderstood breed, since they are always treated as aggressive.

Sometimes he behaved very badly because he was territorial, and he attacked dogs and left them on the brink of death. They tied him up as punishment under the sun (poor thing), and he always stayed calm accepting his reality.

But one day, Achilles started to get a little more elusive around people, and he started to head them away and jump.

At that moment, my boyfriend's family, fearing that he might actually attack someone, decided that he was dangerous and they killed him (lethal injection), without even analyzing other possible solutions (so many more!).

My feeling may be very stupid, Maharaja, but it is difficult for me not to feel sorry, helpless and anger in the face of this matter.

I question so many things! I am having a hard time feeling compassion for the people who made that deliberate decision, because there were other options that they did not evaluate and took the easiest and cruellest path of all.

How can I not feel angry in the face of these injustices? How can I not feel hurt in the face of this? I understand that it is the product of my attachments or of maya, but what would I do without my sensitivity? Doesn't that make me more 'human'? Should I feel nothing? Would that mean that I am moving towards Krsna?

How to deal with unfair and cruel people? How to accept that act? They generate too much abersion in me and I don't want to share with them again. How to do it after having killed an innocent being?

Excuse all the questions. They may be unnecessary and very trivial. I hope that you and Krsna can help me to better understand this situation and to act in the best possible way.

Thank you very much for always being present. You are a gift from heaven. Your constant association keeps me going. And the hope of being able to advance in the process is still present, sometimes with more force and sometimes with less force.

I hope I can stay in touch more through the blog. I can no longer enter the FMP daily (so sad!); Here in Chile it's 7.30am when the program starts, and at that time I have to get ready to go to work.

Have a very good day, Maharaja. I hope my letter didn't bore you so much. (I used google translate and a little of my knowledge in english. Sorry for my mistakes on grammar)

Your eternal almost-servant

Bh. Nicole Silva.

HpS - "‘śraddhā’-śabde – viśvāsa kahe sudṛḍha niścaya

kṛṣṇe bhakti kaile sarva-karma kṛta haya" find this in NOI 5. Main thing is getting your rounds done. Then you will be the most efficient instrument is reducing the suffering in this world. Krsna is the Supreme Friend. Not you and me.... When we become instruments of Krsna, like Arjuna, we can fight with so, so, many problems, bad ideas, and win.

For specific situations, talk with a lot of people in volved in the situation and then you can see practically the KC participation you can make.

Maybe the dog was someone who did the same thing to dog in their last lifetime.. Hmmm. Focus on nice rounds!!!!!!!

Respected Maharaja,

Please accept my humble obeisances.

I am so grateful for your last reply. It was very helpful for me to decide my next step. You had advised me to find out how to stay within the institution of Srila Prabhupada. We had meetings with Temple President of Patna temple. I have started my service here. Since I was more interested in preaching at Darbhanga ( 140 Kms away from Patna, the main city of Mithila) while Patna required help for preaching, it was fixed up that I would be traveling to Darbhanga regularly while preaching at Patna. Usually I am 2 days in Darbhanga every week.

After some struggle, I got room at Darbhanga. Also, another brahmachari devotee from Haldia/ Kolkata has joined us. Thus I feel more secure now. Our preaching till now was few Sankirtan and house programs.

I was in Mayapur from 23-27 November, praying to Panchtattva for empowerment. I met a devotee who asked me if guru wants me to do what I am doing. In flat words, answer is I am not sure, as all initiatives in whole thing was taken by me personally. This question shook me up. Still wondering about it.

While returning I had planned to deliver the books to Professor Samresh. However, due to lockdown effect and some other troubles, I failed in my attempts. It took me 11 hours of troublesome journey to reach Kolkata from Mayapur, and I had to rush to station to board next train.

Later, a devotee Ajay Prabhuji agreed to do this service. So he collected the books from temple and delivered to Dr. Prof Samaresh within the stipulated time of 2.30- 3.00 pm. Now no books are lying at ISKCON Kolkata.

My laptop had crashed and I am unable to do many things. Due to too much traveling, I find it difficult to manage time. Also many things are in phase of creation, requiring lot of time.

I simply admire the way you are rendering so many services. As always, please excuse me for being so slow in my reply.

Your servant

Purushottam Keshav Das

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AgtSP! Paoho. We are inspired by you! It is so interesting to hear about B'cari life in Iskcon in India! We are so happy the books go tot Dr. Samaresh!!! Please extend our thanks to the B'cari who did this work.

I don't think there is ever any question of 'leaving the institution'. It is just a question of what IS the institution. If the Temple is no longer and ISKCON institution, then we have to take charge of maintaining and developing the institution to the best of our ability. Srila Prabhupada only created ISKCON as the development of Srila Bhaktiseddhanta's institution. Of course, then there is the ISKCON that is the group of friends.

Sankirtan. Sankirtan!!!!!! Everyday see progress in sense control. We are going to die. Sooner or later, but what do we die for?

Hare Krsna Gurudeva!

Agt SP!!

Agt Radha and Krsna!

I hope that you are very well in all aspects.

HpS - Need a lot of improvement, but life is nice in many ways.

I, very good Gurudeva...never materially, of course.

I don't know what to tell Maharaja, because what I like to talk about, or people do not talk, or is confidential, it seems.

HpS - Let your "Inner monkey and piggy" speak for you.

I've been trying for days to find the inspiration to know what to write to You, but since I have not found a solution to the problem, I'm going to write something that seems natural to me.

ASA - Better than something that seems un-natural!!

I often think about life, Krsna, etc.

I imagine that in spiritual advancement, practitioners receive more and more cascades of energy, of all kinds, without discrimination and en masse, like the flow of the river ganges falling on their heads. It seems to me that, a river of life flowing.

HpS - Hmmm. Would seem that we get out of the material stream, which means we see how it is the result of a spiritual stream, no?

Some people only want to wet their face, others only their hair, etc. But in my practical experience, when you discover your face towards the waterfall of life, or towards the massive flow of life, you will not find breezes from the forest brushing your face, but a massive and ruthless force, that like rocks 5 kg, they don't stop putting pressure on our faces. That to me is Parvati and Siva in direct but impersonal experience.

ASA - !

In my opinion, if one opens his soul to that massive force constantly, he will suffer and enjoy massively in every fraction of the time. One second is very long on this matter.

HpS - Yes, requires different kind of body.

My personal experience tells me that pressure increases as one detaches oneself from the world, and I have seemed to experience 2 paths in increasing pressure. One helps us, and another just annoys.

The one that helps us is caused by observing the world and how it works. The pressure is progressive, and it matures in the initial and intermediate stages, in the advanced stages, one, the only thing you can do is receive the pressure and give thanks.

The one that bothers us is caused by plans outside our destiny that are created in our mental dreams.

In both cases, Parvati uses agents of the material world

Everything is my opinion, the fruit of my direct experience

I believe that demonic people, agitated by the dark aspect of Parvati (or of the Virgin Mary), know nothing more than to bother so that Parvati is pleased ... with us, not with them.

The worst thing that could have happened to this world is the industrial revolution, since before the world was a world of regions, laws of the "place", forbidden areas for humans, direct knowledge of other species or different races, or demons of many classes. Physical, non-physical. Human, non-human. Now people are enslaved and educated by butchers, and they answer "good, good" just like sheep.

HpS - Yes. In many ways it began with World War I, no? That was the first really mechanized war.

I always remember some words that the Virgin Mary repeats a lot to seers of all times and countries "whoever says he is mine and does not abandon the path of deception, will suffer". Or as the Bible says, "the lukewarm are the worst, because they are neither one thing nor the other"

HpS - Revelation of John!

I'm sorry Gurudeva that I write to you without order, but I didn't know what to say

I think the same as You Maharaja, this world is depressing.

I hope you are in good health, Gurudeva, and the days pass quietly in Krsna consciousness

My humble obeisances Gurudeva

Hare Krsna Maharaja, buen día.

Hari bolo Hari bolo, Hari Hari.

HpS - Thank you very much!! What are Siva and Parvati called in the spiritual world? In this world we see a reflection of that Vaikuntha form in the mirror of Prakrti. Is very nice letter. Must move from Brahman realization to P'atma, to K como vecino.

Hare Krishna Guru Maharaj,

Dandavat Pranams. Please accept my humble obeisances. All glories to Srila Prabhupada.

This is in relation to the question you asked in my previous letter maharaj: https://monkeywarrior.com/detail/11796/

Yes guru maharaj. I'll try to increase my reading time. Reading Prabhupada's books are the right diet for the soul and for our bhakti!

Your servant

Sriram

HpS - ASA --- The recordings of Srila Prabhupada's K book dictations at www.prabhupadavani.org are very nice.

Hare krsna Guru dev

PAmho

Agtsp

All glories to you

sorry for not write to the blog for so long.

Personally I am striving to be stable in my sadhana, we are worshiping in our Ashram:

• Nitai Gaura Sundara,
• Giriraj,
• Nrsimhadev,
• Vrinda Devi,
• Guru Parampara,
• Srila Prabhupada and You.

Trying to meditate every day with the help of Vaisnava songs.

Some days I miss the opportunity to complete my rounds.

ASA - Whoop! Whoop! Oink! Oink!

BooMmm!

Of course, this is the prime ritual. The grease that makes all else flow, The Mother's milk without which our other projects starve. Of course, we may fall from the standard, but keep track of the debt of rounds we owe, and by trying, trying, trying we will get back to the standard. Sometimes we have to lie flat on our back and just make our mouth move one syllable at a time: Haa! Ray! Krs! Na! but there is nothing more beneficial for our health, family, money, projects, immortality than 16-sincere rounds under Srila Prabhupada's authority.

Not much association with devotees, the highest and best association is with you and ASA.

We are quite alone, we help in a preaching project to a family of devotees and because the pandemic we have only a few possibilities to visit other devotees.

HpS - Same for us, but we are more impersonalists than you all. You and Mataji seem to be human beings.

I don't have a cyber life and nothing through social networks. I also don t have association with non-devotees. I feel like I'm in a cave.

HpS - Write to the Blog seven times a day.

I feel beaten in my emotions, trying to understand not to pretend to be loved but to seek refuge in the ultimate reality under the love of Radha Krsna, praying for the blessings of You and all the Guruparampada to understand how to wake up and feel with my soul, with my true heart.

ASA - Well that may take a few moments. Right now maybe we should be thinking of getting ready to be comfortable in our next mother's womb, no? All glories to good Mothers! I want a womb with wifi and a microwave.

I don't know if I'm a good devotee, I don't know if I'm a good father, I don't know if I'm a good son, I don't know if I'm a good brother, I don't know if I'm a good partner.

HpS - At least we know we are fools. Most people think that they are really O.K.

I feel that I am in transit and have always take decisions with the intention of improving my spiritual practice by opting for the process that Srila Prabhupada gave us.

 A lot of mental and physical pain in this world [motion picture].

 I am grateful and grateful again for the opportunity to have Krsna consciousness to caress my heart and have a teacher like you and the loving perspective of being able to wake up from this dream.

 It is good to know that I am a neophyte to want to stop being neophyte, I really need to get out of dryness.

My faith is being watered by the memories of the Dham, of the association of the devotees, of my desire not to give up and to be able to link myself with the true holy name.

thank you Guru Dev for your patience, love, example and inspiration your attempt as a servant Ambarisa Das

Hare krsna Guru dev

PAmho

Agtsp

All glories to you

HpS - Wow (Caramba). I was feeling that I was the only one with these problems. Now after hearing from you I feel a whole lot better. Mails some cookies to a countryman devotee. Did you like the Kapi Dhvaja yesterday? :>>> Your next letter.

Disculpa por no escribir al blog hace tiempo.

Personalmente estoy esforzándome por estar estable en mi sadhana, estamos adorando en nuestro Ashrama a Nitai Gaura Sundara, Giriraj, Nrsimhadev Vrinda devi, al Guru Parampada, Srila Prabhupada y Usted. tratando de meditar todos los días con ayudada de las canciones vaisnavas. Algunos días pierdo la oportunidad de completar mis rondas. no mucha asociación con devotos, la mayor y mejor asociación es con usted y ASA. estamos bastante solos, ayudamos en un proyecto de predica a una familia de devotos y dado a la pandemia pocas posibilidades de visitar otros devotos. no tengo mucha vida cibernética y nada por redes sociales. tampoco tengo asociación con no devotos. siento que estoy en una cueva.

Me siento un poco golpeado en mis emociones entendiendo no pretender ser amado si no en buscar el refugio en la realidad ultima bajo el amor de Radha Krsna , orando por las bendiciones de usted y todo el guruparampada para comprender como despertar y sentir con mi alma, con mi ser.

no se si soy buen devoto, no se si soy buen padre, no se si soy buen hijo, no se si soy buen hermano, no se si soy buen compañero. Siento que estoy en transito y siempre he tomada decisiones con la intención de mejorar mi practica espiritual optando por el proceso que nos dio Srila Prabhupada.

 Mucho dolor mental y físico en este mundo.

 Agradezco y vuelvo a agradecer la oportunidad de tener concienciencia de Krsna para acariciar mi corazón y tener un maestro como usted y la perspectiva amorosa de poder despertar de este sueño.

 es bueno saber que soy neófito para no querer serlo mas necesito salir de sequedad. 

mi fe esta siendo regada por los recuerdos del Dham, de la asociacion de los devotos, de mi ganas de no rendirme y poder vincularme con el verdadero santo nombre.

Gracias Guru dev por paciencia, amor, ejemplo e inspiracion.

su intento de sirviente Ambarisa Das