Ter Kadamba dd (Buenos Aires)

23 hours ago by teresa in Personal Sadhana Reports

Hare Krishna, all glories to Srila Prabhupada, my obeisances to you, GM. My previous letter didn't send; browser problems. How are you? I read something on the Blog. Thank you always for your updates.

About me, I made a brief summary: I was living in Bariloche, Patagonia, and I hope to return soon. I came to Buenos Aires to study. I graduated as a flight attendant, and I'm studying languages, but English never sticks in my brain. I also had my first Chinese class, french and german are no the way todo, I always choose difficult things, like my mind, which suffers a lot. I think and demand a lot of myself; I never stop feeling happiness in my activities, but I always feel like something is missing, and my thirty years limit me; I think I'm too attached. I'm also a ceramicist (pottery?) it's my current job, but I enjoy it so much, and it's so therapeutic, that I don't feel like it's work.

I spent six months in Mexico visiting my sister Malati and her family; everything was so beautiful and pleasant, and they were so kind. Guru Maharaja, I ask for your blessings to help me continue and to lower the ego within me.

I always wish you well and the company of the devotees and Srila Prabhupada. Excuse my bad english, your crazy Servant

Ter kadamba devi dasi


HpS - How long, agtSP, has it been since we had a chance to communicate? !!

Did you restring our Japa beads when they broke?


How are you parents?

Gone to Goloka?

Multi-billionaire brain surgeon and famous French fashio designer?

fortunate

Hare Krsna, Gurudeva.

Obeisances.

Obviously we try to see Guru Parampara System (GPS) behind you so AGTSP, AGT-GPS.


HpS/ASA - Of course, we feel successful when we have been able to be a window to Srila Prabhupada.

Please tell us what he says to you.


We generally don't stay physically with ISKCON devotees. However when we are working with so called non ISKCONites, we say that in India there is so much confusion who is God, what He wants etc, it was our fortune to come in touch with Srila Prabhupada books, and then came you and first initiation.


brahmāṇḍa bhramite kona bhāgyavān jīva guru-kṛṣṇa-prasāde pāya bhakti-latā-bīja.


We remind ourself of your mercy by this verse, we do feel pacified, small progress is eternal, correct, progress.


HpS - We seem to be making a small contribution to the whole process, yet it was by the mercy of our Mother, Godmother, and the USA after World War Two that we had our first start in spiritual development.

Then it seems very much from previoius life we took up the work again.

After that, it was Srila Prabhupada who gave us this extra ordinary initiation into Bhagavata Dharma, God as a person.

Specific to India, he is presenting nothing other than the Vedic proposition, the amplification of the Acharyas.

Of course, at any time, in the material world, that is amazing!


in letter 15915 you wrote -"We cannot give too much help!"--well this could direct indication of you might be tired of us, and leaving us to our stubborness/ egoism of not following your instruction but our mind....

so on that line we ask you ..


How can we serve you eternally?


How can we serve you currently ?


four rules intact as never before.

getting up everyday before sun rise ,

current focus is on this tamasic/rajasic body and not so bogged down that four rules break.


you have given us lessons for eternity.


Obeisances

Hayagriva Avatar Das


HpS/ASA - We do not feel tired of your association.

It has always been cause of humility for us since the first day we met you and Mataji after the lecture in Gaziabad.


Any news from her and The Aniruddha?


Are you still teaching at Varanasi?


Getting up early and getting your rounds done, with as much alacrity and enthusiasm as you can apply, and following the four regulative principles as strictly as possible is the very best service for us and Srila Prabhupada.

It is like planting a mango tree and nurtering it.

All wonderful things will come from that.


Seed, sprout, seedling, sappling, tree, sprouts, buds, flowers, green mangos, ripe mangos, trade some mangos for bananas/coconuts/pants and shirt..

Is good idea?

I am falling down

asa[e] guru tattva; disciple falls from vows.


Dear Gurudeva,


PAMHO. AGTSP.


I am writing this letter to tell you that I am losing myself spiritually. For several weeks I have not been keeping fully the promise I made to you of chanting 16 good rounds and the Gayatri mantras, and I feel very, very bad.


You always say that if one is not keeping the vow, you are not his/her spiritual master anymore, and I understand that.


HpS - As Diksa Guru, but if you or someone in this position wants, then we can try to function as Siksa guru, Patha-pradarshika guru, again. That is Guru who tries to get us on the formal path, the vows and promises.

Of course, Srila Prabhupada is doing this for all of us through so many media.


It is only my fault. I ask your forgiveness for having failed you and Srila Prabhupada. It is clear that I am not up to the standard. Please, I hope you don’t think that I am getting lost by engaging in sense enjoyment, I mean, more than some weeks ago. Truly, that is not the case.


I have simply complicated a little more my life with my new personal situation. At the same time, I am getting older and I have less material strength, and it seems also less spiritual strength. The daily life of a worker woman who lives alone with two children and several bills to pay at the end of the month consumes a lot of hours and energy.


I have the feeling of sinking into a spiral that swallows me and pushes me away from the devotees. Sometimes I think am a burden for the devotees: Jayanta is better living in Brihuega and the devotees who live around here are only interested on when Jayanta can come to have a lecture and a sat sanga meeting.


And I totally understand it. I am only good at my job, driving and some sports.


I would like to thank you for all these years in which, through your great mercy, you have allowed me to remain close to you and benefit from your association, knowledge, and realizations.


I am deeply, deeply sorry for not being up to the level of you, your spiritual master, or your disciples. What frightens me most is that I don’t know if I will ever be able to be. But I am going to keep trying. This soul is fighting.


If you allow me, I would like to continue connecting, whenever I can, to Japa Joe, FMP, and the Sunday classes. Also, whenever needed and if you consider it appropriate, please count on me to help with NIOS.

I am sorry to have to write you such a letter.

I hope you are in good health.


An aspirant hoping to be able to serve you again.


HpS - As usual you are a heroine and leader for so many people. How many people are in the same position and have not taken the brave and honest steps to write here.

Thank you.


Can we act as your Siksa guru?

Vartmana, Patha, pradarsika guru?


Of course, Krsna does not forget all the effort you have made.

It is like taking the rope He is offering from the shore and pulling us closer. Eventually we get to the point that even though we still go under the water, our feet now hit the bottom and we can use that to push ourselves up, as well as take the pull from his rope.

Later we will be 50% out of the water.

Yet in all cases we hold onto the rope. Even 50% of the rivers current can carry us away.

Of course, the rope is 16/4 with enthusiasm.


If we lose the connection we are headed back to the Samsara of the river flow. Again, it is different for one who has chanted than one who has not.


If we have the strength and intelligence to go to work etc. then we have the strength and intelligence to chant some Japa and follow principles to some practical extent.

No whiskey.

No betting on horse races.


0--0


Keep track of how many rounds you owe Krsna.

Take a vow to chant a certain number of rounds daily that you know you can do for a certain period. Eg. "I will chant four rounds per day until Christmas".

Then see the result.

Then take a vow to chant fixed number, more or less, during the next period.

At least one round every year on Janmastami? 😆


This is what Srila Prabhupad and we guess Rupa Goswami recommend in the NoD.


Sangat sanjayate kamah.

Our desires develop from the company we keep.

If you are giving so much help to Nimai the Great and Sarasvati the Charming, then why aren't they chanting with you?


Has Jayanta Das moved full time to Brihuega?

Does he not help with the care of the minor children?

Are the two of you enacting your Spanish lila of Sancho and Teresa?


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oo7VlD66ISM



Answer to your questions

1 week, 2 days ago by Nadiya Nivasi Dasi in Personal Sadhana Reports

Hare Krishna Gurudeva, please accept my obeisances.

Gurudeva, I have no problem with the ISKCON authorities, nor am I very close to them.

My service is outside the temples. I currently hold no authority, but I was thinking of taking Maharaj Yadunandana Swami as my Siksha guru. What do you think?


HpS/ASA - Seems very fine. ISKCON is Srila Prabhupada's body, no? So, we should see the the Head, Shoulders, Arms, Belly, Legs are as healthy as possible.


My service is outside the temples: cooking for my deities, chanting 16 rounds, reciting the Srimad Bhagavatam, observing the Ekadasis, chanting the Gayatri, and worshipping my household deities.


HpS - Your attitude seems great. Just work to become a part of the institutional Sankirtan more and more. You must protect the GBC. You are their Mother!


My father's name is Hugo Morales; he is 71 years old. He is a retired math teacher. He is currently not working but owns some properties in Peru that he rents out and runs a small business with my mother-in-law.

My father has known ISKCON since 1994. His friend, who was also a vegetarian at the time, introduced him to it. From then on, my father always taught his family and friends about Krishna consciousness. Thanks to my father, I was able to read Srila Prabhupada's books. He taught me to sing the Yapa chant, to cook, and to worship in our small temple at home.


Nadiya Nivasi Dasi


HpS/ASA - You are such a fortunate person. Become a devotee on the level of Narada Muni by the grace of Lord Nityananda and our Founder Acharya!

Come with us to the Next Letter!