March 20,2025
Dear Maharaja Hanumat Presaka,
please accept my humble obeisances, All glories to Srila Prabhupada! Spring Greetings!
I’ve been missing your association, and find it’s getting complicated even to get a message out. The potency of Maya is relentless.
In fact, I’m beginning to think Maya may be mad at me, for my Sadhana seems consistent, yet my association is splayed.
HpS/ASA - 😧
Hari Nam’s are there, just not regulated. Feeling ecstatic though not pursuing it enough. Grhasta life is engaging, still need to keep K.C. at the axis. Sometimes it seems easy then other times a malevolent torture. Guess Maya’s getting me just what I needed.
P R E
We made it to the Daytona Beach Ratha Yatra, they’re doing it earlier because of the Florida weather. Was ecstatic as ever, anytime with devotee’s always brings Krishna prema closer. We only made it about halfway though, between physical limitations (was really pushed on prior seva at Gaura Purnima) and spring prep on our abode, we had to revive our minds.
P O S T
We booked a Hotel room and returned to get checked in. Both of us forgot about the students Spring Break Beach parties and events, the Hotel was no exception, noisy occupants and overworked Staff were adding difficulties to our getting settled in. All simmered down later, then I had a needed quick swim in the ocean. All in all, we survived though the following morning, after finishing japa, I nodded out for about 20 minute “snap” and my mind was invaded.
On a side note, I also recently read in the Uddhava Gita that Srila Prabhupada was at a late program once, which was quite a ways from the Temple. The devotees secured him a room at a hotel and informed him. Prabhupada’s eyes rose up, and he told them, “I prefer to stay at the Temple. Hotels are just like brothels.” His Divine Grace had spoken.
So, the little ”snap” I took was during the Brahma-muhurta hour and I was resting with my head to the North, usually I aim for the East or South. The ambience in a dream I was having was most sensual and my wife was in the same room, anticipated breaths were subtlety in my ears, then I turned and saw it was not my wife; it was an Asian Succubus, with an accomplice. Some form of seductive temptation was being placed on me, and at the time, I was quite capable of doing so, regardless my Vedic training paid off. Casting away my arousal, I pushed away from the stalkers and awoke. My pranams rang deep in my heart and I was grateful that nothing had happened; it’s been years since any such lower chakra activity was imposing. Completed Gayatri, then awaited the Sun's rise.
HpS/ASA - AgtSP!!!!!
Reflecting on the day before, at the Festival, I did recall quite a few different women in different attires casting glances at me while I was participating in the parade. Then I remembered the Srimad 3.14.30-31 Bhagavatam classes on Kasyapa Muni & his wife, Mata Diti’s request of intercourse for children at inauspicious moments, thus bringing Hiranyaksa & Hiranyakasipu the Universe. Obviously, my Ol’ libido’s anarthas were leaping in that tama-polluted Hotel room. Everything material ruthlessly entices one’s mind. Glad that Bhakti–yoga prevents insanity. Keeping my bija together, I just kept reflecting on Lord Jagannatha & Balarama along with Lady Subhadra, that the only reason were there, in care of Their Mercy!
ASA - SB verse says that devotees meditate on the eyebrows of the Lord to be free from the attack of illicit sex desire. Lord Balarama has very big eyebrows!
P R E S E N T
While all that goes on, we’re attempting to get our garden planted today, pursuing writing time (I'm glad you’re my inspiration), and keeping my spouse happy. Subhra’s friend, Krishna Priya d.d. (Braja Suta’s wife), has come to assist on our groundwork. KP is a very ambitious worker, and she even had Subhra getting engaged in the ”dirt.” Success thus far; we just need a water supply for irrigation..
HpS/ASA - And sunshine, and fresh air, and protection from predators!!!
AND YOU
It seems you’re getting more physically stable for now, going back to your “Office” for now, then seeing you in class today in Houston. I found out that the office can overtake one's free time too easily. Convenient data sources, digital comradery, and even artistic distractions. I’ve got to be careful and keep Srila Prabhupada’s mission at the center. However, as I’ve aged, my service enthusiasm has changed. Regular seva is appreciated, though I’m not seeking more. In fact, I’m turning down excessive service instead of burdening my mind on it.
HpS/ASA - Bob the Builder?
S F R Y
I will still pursue seva at the San Francisco Ratha Yatra, even without truck driver duties, and will see what Prabhu Grantharaja has planned for the event. The SFRY “Handbook” is still in the making and the event is coming fast... need to finish up, editing takes time. The subtle seva’s still need to be performed and appreciated. It seems I’m always creating extra work for later..., which could lead to attachment and may also be a recipe for unfinished services. The rascal mind is still in the background, toying with me.
Well, this is my current events submission for now, looking forward to more organized and streamline efficiency in the near future, would be nice for my closing years, God only knows..
All glories to your service!
sincerely,
Caitanya Caritamrta das, das anu das
P.S.(!)* Noting less use of acronyms these days, At a S.B. *(oops) Class given by Caturatma Prabhu here was about how K.C. *(oops) does not encourage such short cuts in communication. For benefits exist in the full names and not so much in the shortcuts. More to come.
HpS/ASA - TKU 🙂
was very nourishing letter! 9.18PM here. Ekadasi. Let us look at another letter? Join us!
