Letters to the editor

Hare Krisna!!!

Beloved and dearmost Gurudeva,
Please accept my humble obeisances at your divine lotus feet,
All glories to Srila Prabhupada,

Sri guru carana padma, kevala bhakati sadma,
vandon mui savadhana mate,
janhara prasade bhai, e bhava toriya jai,
krsna prapti hoy jaha ha te

 This last months have been very intense for me. for who they werent?
Many challenges in my personal life and balancing sva dharma with sanatan dharma is a day by day struggling.
Due to different reasons i wasnt having a good sadhana, and as you know i left behind in my japa and of course as a consequence of that i broke a regulative principle.
The result bitterness in my heart i have lost the bliss of connecting with the holy names. Sorrow, etc
i feel very ashamed of course and stupid for what i have done.
Now somehow or other i woke up and little by little i'm recovering. Returning to a healthy pace.
I'm asking for your help gurudev, i really want to be a useful tool in this sankirtan movement and i know that strenght comes from purity.
Your answer to Dianita Lalita dd  in  http://www.hps.monkeywarrior.com/node/4303  is pretty clear about the way to go

"  HpS - ASA - AGTSP! Paoho. It is amazing. Every single letter so far has been exactly the same:
Please forgive me for not writing so hard, I have been forced to work like an ass, I am struggling to chant and follow principles, I have bad association.

Ooooof!   Amazing!   Any "psychology" that minimizes the value of Japa is insane. Carl Jung, the whole world of competent psychologist can recognize that introspective chanting of the Names of God following the process of Rupa Goswami is without equal, if you really want to become secure, happy, ecstatic.

We love to drown in self-pity. Give ourselves rewards for our suffering, but it is all little pig like pleasures that don't even satisfy us but we try to make ourselves so stupid that they do.
We are all in Goloka!. We have become confused. Krsna is saying "Wake Up! Wake Up! Wolves are attacking the cows! We need your help!"

Put your Japa first and to hell with your family, body, life, country, fruitive activities described in poetical language. To hell with it all. Make universal happiness not universal blood-sucking!

This is what we tell our mind daily!!!"

Japa first, who doesn't know this, but why we skip this point so easily? i guess BG. 3.37 is the answer.
The reallity is that i'm not feeling so well in a daily basis. I feel myself in a dangerous position because of not having a definite asram.
You always say that good advice comes from many different advisors, so i consulted about this with different senior devotees and they all agree that i should get married again.
Then i remember your instruction about to wait until second initiation to define one's asram, cause then intelligence will be in the mode of goodness.
I'm in a dilemma gurudev. Please if you kindly bring some light for me in this situation?
Currently I'm 64 rounds behind, and determined not to act stupidly again.
We want to improve.
Please help me gurudeva.
Your unworthy disciple,
Nikunja Bihari Das.

HpS - ASA - Jaya!  AGTSP!    paoho....  You are almost as stupid as we are. Well I guess if you try hard you can catch up. Just put everything else in second place and chant at least 20 entusiastic rounds per day for the next 16 days.

HpS - ASA - Jaya!  AGTSP!    paoho....  You are almost as stupid as we are. Well I guess if you try hard you can catch up. Just put everything else in second place and chant at least 20 entusiastic rounds per day for the next 16 days.

HpS - ASA - Jaya!  AGTSP!    paoho....  You are almost as stupid as we are. Well I guess if you try hard you can catch up. Just put everything else in second place and chant at least 20 entusiastic rounds per day for the next 16 days.

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Tell us the results as often as you can.

Hare Krsna Beloved Gurudeva ¡¡¡¡

AGTSP

PAMHO

I hope this meets U in really good health ¡¡¡

HpS - ASA - Oink!   AGTSP!!!  Hare Krsna!

I miss all so much iur saint association during our rounds ¡¡¡But we understand that your preaching is really important. And we feel happy and proud to try to be iur disciple.

ASA - Yeah! This tour has been hell on wheels in many ways. Ooof! Will be interesting to go to Goloka!!!

Our life has encountered too many changes. I always been afraid of changes,but I am asumming them with dignity integrity and character. 

Our schedule at university is too overwhelming, we have been forzed to leave many services in wilson ¡¡ we are still in charge, but is a struggle at every step. THis year Gaura Nitai did not go to Janmastami :( a new junta resolution. FOr me has been always a tradition that They go, but They won't go anymore. I can not understand that resolution because for me Chosica is our main temple and all important celebrations as Gaura Purnima and Janmastami should be there, but now GN won't go to visit RMB anymore ... Despite all this.. Gurudeva this Janmastami was the best ever¡¡

I went one day before with Palika dd and her family spent the night in the house of a family of devotees, attend mangal artik, we did the puja to GN , Gaura g invited us ¡¡Then I helped to dress Sita Ram ¡¡¡ nice SB class and the whole day we were on pujari helping we finished our service at 2 am ¡¡¡¡ it was so nice I felt really blessed ¡¡

We have our Ratha Yatra on November 9th, we are collecting funds but it is a struggle... we need the support of all the community. I am thinking in new ways of collecting but since I am not a vaisya is a struggle for me...

we are really looki ng forward for your trip to Sudamerica ¡¡¡ we hope we can help a little bit in your preaching , I have talked to the devotees in charge of the programs in Chile, argentina and Peru and all of them agree about the calendar that U proposed SO we are waiting your final decision

We are fixed on 16 rounds 4 principles strictly sadhana regular SB reading but still it should be better . It was so nice to talk to U a little bit on Janmastami.. Gurudeva jayarama.us is not working it appears this message: Our site is temporarily unavailable, but will be back online shortly.<img alt="frown" height="23" src="http://hps-d6.monkeywarrior.com/sites/all/libraries/ckeditor/plugins/smiley/images/confused_smile.png" title="frown" width="23" />

In attached some photos from Janmastami since mangala artik ¡¡¡

Thank U all so much Gurudeva for your inspiration and kindness 

Always trying to be your disciple

Candramukhi dd 

HpS - ASA - Yes!!! Some problem! We will try to correct it!!!! Thank you for so much news. We spent 45-minutes trying to get a good ticket for South America. Ooof! Everything like $2,000! However we are very enthused by the Carl Jung project. We had excellent program at the University yesterday. There were more people in the program than we saw on the entire rest of the campus that day!

O.K. We check our Jayarama.us

We think of you all often are looking to see how Krsna is arranging our visit to Peru!!

NICE pictures.

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HpS - ASA - Jaya!!! So nice to see your letter here. Yes! We are leaving for San Francisco tomorrow! See you in about 64-hours!

Hare Krishna Dear Guru Maharaja,
Please accept my humble obeisances.
All glories to Srila Prabhupada.

Sending report.

We are in Europe (Czech / Slovakia, currently Slovakia). Got new Student VISAs for India last week and coming back to Sridham Mayapur on 24th of August. We are looking forward to be back at Holy Dham!

HpS - ASA - AGTSP! paoho. You are so, so, so, so fortunate!!! It is very hard to get these Visas. I think in the future you may not be able to get it. Hmmmm!?!   Just be able to visit India for some time. Maybe last few months there before you go to Goloka!

Recently Madana Priya dd and me got our legal and Vedic marriage. Vedic marriage was specially nice. Our priest was Mahendra Prabhu, who told us that he had very nice feeling from the ceremony.

ASA - O.K! Now five kids!!!

Few days ago I finished core of new version of vedabase.com. Design/theme is more intuitive and improved to facilitate new features without distraction. There are huge backend changes which were needed for some features like categorization which will come shortly (hopefully) after launch of new version. In June there was over 39,000 visitors, now it is less due to holidays.

ASA - AGTSP. Paoho. We promote it wherever we go! We know you are busy and are anxious for the Index, Personal Accounts with Bookmarks etc.  Looks like there is some work at vedabase.net.

After new version will be running I will try to find some remote programming job for some time. It will allow me to stay in Mayapur and same time get money needed to pay for flat we are going to buy. 

Starting SB 10.11, right now. 16 rounds, 4 principles. Brahma-muhurta wake up problems.

ASA - Usually wake up problem is "stay up late" problem, no? What do we wake up for? If is nice program then we want to wake up. We get more work done better!

Your servant Prahlad Nrsimha Das

ASA - Thank you so, so, so much for this Blog!!! Our respects and congratulations to your good wife!!! Priest!!! All Dhama vasis!

DEAR GURUDEVA THIS IS YOUR LAST REPLY:

ASA - HpS - Please use translate.google! Thank you for your letter. They make us very happy. This world is very lonely without news from you and the other Mahatmas in Chile. We would like to call a taxi now. Put a few things in our bag and go to the airport and go to Santiago, Valpariso, Dog Pianist, everyone!!
We feel like Krsna in Mathura writing to Radharani. Ha! Ha! Ha!

I think Krsna will take us to South America January, February, March, April next year.

So good to hear about Oscar. We are trying to advance the work with Carl Jung but first is the Bhakti vaibhava and Education in ISKCON work. We will finish that soon then we can turn to Jung with full enthusiasm.

In terms of the poems, why not do this. The current Tpp-CB is dedicated to our good friend Lokanatha Das. Guess it will go until July 4th. Then the next one can be dedicated to you all. You can select poems from that and other work. If they have any value it is because Lord Caitanya's mercy goes to the most fallen first.

Please write us some news about yourself in general. Your life is an example for many others and we can discuss the general points here!

How is the Arjuna Das?

See you soon. HpS - ASA

GURUDEVA THIS IS MY NEW LETTER FROM TODAY: (translation by Google)

All glories to Srila Prabhupada
dear Gurudeva
Please accept my most humble obeisances

Here is bhakta Rodrigo Hernández from  Santiago de Chile. Sorry. Sorry. I can’t to write  before!

The  last two months have been very intense and complicated for me!

Thank you very much for your last letter / reply. Your letter is the most beautiful letter I have ever received in my life. Fortunately I was able to save on my computer 90% of our letters and skype conversations.

This is a personal letter. I have not been very good in recent months. Many problems with the mind and body. Also many concerns, they are all from the material world.

Your mercy is so great that you do not see my flaws, ofenses and Anarthas!

Every winter we must adapt to living with little sunlight. The lack of light affects our mood, our mind and intelligence. We use more electricity light. Our energy is very low. Sometimes we drink ‘bebidas’ that contains some caffeine. The problem is that this breaks principles! I'm sleeping so much and  I'm not chanting 16 rounds!!

Bipolar depression is our enemy for the last 17 years (In Octuber: I'm 40 years old). Every night we take our medicine (900 mg de Quetiapine. It’s a high dosis).

NOW I'm attending Adaba therapy, the therapist is very good. She is helping us a lot with our health. Also we are attending yoga classes! 2 times per week. More one day or two with sports.

On the other hand, our fear is falling in love with a non devout girl, fall in love with a beautiful woman but not practice Krishna Consciousness. Our fear is stop practicing Krishna Consciousness.

(We know two devout (girls)  who have left the process! They fall in love with a no devotees men.)

 
Actually we are confused with our emotions and feelings. There are some girls interested in us. How to make the right decision, if our heart and mind is bipolar and surrealist?
 

Also, there is many problems and anxieties at work. We are organizing two major cultural projects:
* One is with the Embassy of Portugal, Camoes Institute and the National Library. An exhibition in December.
* Our second project is a full day of activities in honor of the 120th anniversary of the Chilean poet Pablo Rokha (1894-1968). He is one of the great Chilean poets, He was suicide!


I write this poem for you:

Nosotros somos tan tontos que cantamos a la belleza del mundo material
mientras que los Paramahansas, los cisnes de Srila Prabhupada,
viven y sueñan con el Señor Supremo.

pd: Andre Breton was a french poet and the big boss for all surrealist! I send you a cover's book very famous!

With my most respectful obeisances
Ss Bhakta Rodrigo

HpS - ASA - AGTSP - paoho. Thank you so much. I think that your life is complicated. If you can work at such a high level of professional art and have a personal life of lust for a wife and family, this indicates a lot of intelligence. Maybe you were Indra in your last life.
What you could do if you were not manic-depressive?!

Actually you sound like you are just normal-depressive!
The solution must be very personal. You must chant as much as you can, read Srila Prabhupada's books as much as you can. Find devotees to read and chant with. Make reading and chanting group.

Preach what you know. Then you will see a good solution through practical means.
I will ask Nitai-gauransundara Das about you. He is psychiatrist.

Really you are doing pretty well. Just be enthusiastic to do what you can do.

Hare Krishna Maharaja, please accept my obeisances. Agtsp I'm camilo from sydney. The reason for this post is that I've been considering the fact of spend a few years in the sydney temple as monk, by many things, for example that I need to learn how to train my mind, and also learn how to serve the guru properly, and at least have a basic understanding and study the vedas to preach much better. Because I thought that if I move in to govindas ashram, which is a good place to have a glimpse of bramhacari life or what live under a spiritual authority means, and to develop a service attitude ,is Okey. But isn't like a real temple life, really absorbed in Krishna and having no association with women. So I said, better to do it all at once, or better to do it as it should be done to get the spiritual benefits of it. And the other reason is sort of like an astrological thing, because I did a chart with a devotee and she said that I have to do it before being married. I just hope to receive the mercy to be qualified to do it and don't fall in the mind , because I'm very emotional sometimes hahaha. And another thing I've been thinking is if I should talk about my tendencies, like for example, I love music and play mridanga, harmonium, piano, etc. Well, I think that's all. Thanks for your time. Hare Krishna Maharaja. Trying to be your servant, camilo.

HpS - ASA -- AGTSP. Why not try it for some time. Then see the result!!!