Trying to serve KSDD

10 years, 4 months ago by Cruz Santa in Personal Sadhana Reports

Dear Gurumaharaja please accept my obeisances

All glories to Srila Prabhupada

I hope your health is well.

     HpS - Our heart has been strong.

It has been long since I last wrote but I read the blog frequently, many times it seems you are talking directly to me. I have had some difficult tests in my devotional service lately, especially because of the administrative matter, sometimes I want to "throw in the towel", but I prefer to hold on to my chanting of the holy names and deal myself to other service. This service has helped me to put more effort to value Vaisnavas’ qualities and overlook their “faults”, I pray to Krishna to be able to value the qualities of his beloved devotees and to be thankful of all the effort they put towards being a part of Srila Prabhupa’s mission.

Dear Gurumaharaja, I feel sad because the more I struggle all the time against my ego and lack of humility, the more I am dragged by them, so therefore I am trying to occupy most of my time to do service and take my mind away from those desires.

Crecer Vaisnava (Grow Vaishnava) is expanding; we distributed recently material in the transcendental Ratha Yatra’s Festival in DF to collect funds and support artistic events for the temple. Lord Jagannatha’s books, also Lord Jagannatha’s puppets, foam deities and many other articles to stimulate Krsna consciousness in children.

We are also publishing every month a digital magazine for parents that is called “Homeschooling for Grow Vaishnava”, besides this; we publish material so that parents and instructors print them and use them with the children. Also tips to give lessons and many other things. We have a group for children programs’ instructors in ISKCON in which we share experiences and make programs; we share Srila Prabhupa’s classes in Spanish and many other things like these. It’s a very beautiful service.

HpS - ASA - So, you are going to participate in the Symposium in Chile January 31st, no? Give us the links to your resources. I hope Jagat-guru Das is reading and can collect them.

We recently open a Twitter account @crecervaisnava and on Facebook where we have most of our work it’s Crecer Vaisnava, you can find us with this link https://www.facebook.com/crecervaisnava, in fanrx section can be downloaded in Spanish classes and devotional music for children.

HpS - Ahhh! Our desires are instantly fulfilled.

They can also find in other less popular networks like ISSUU (digital magazines) SoundCloud (download audio) and Shared (file storage)... in all these networks can also find us as Crecer Vaisnava (Grow Vaisnava). We have seen that so, we expand the field because all these are free applications in smartphones and tablets.

Dear Gurumaharaja we hope that one day our service can please you and can be offer to Srila Prabhupada. We beg for your instruction so we can please you with this service of Vaishnava Growth.

Thank you for so much mercy, your servant Arya-Srestha Das and Karuna-Sakti Devi Dasi, we are looking forward seeing you soon, we constantly dream with you and your transcendental association.

We are completely grateful for so much mercy.

Your aspiring servant

Karuna-Sakti Devi Dasi

HpS - ASA - Jaya! Very nice news. I hope Jagat-guru Das, others can be in touch so that all the work in Mexico can be useful to other Latin American groups.
Biggest way to dump the false ego is to help devotees, Karmis, do their service.

"How can I help you?"

Then the mind, SEES, what they are doing and we naturally respect them and fell humble.
 

Question for highlighting my darkness

10 years, 4 months ago by mukta singh in Personal Sadhana Reports

All glories to Sri Guruji Maharaja and Gouranga Mahaprabhu

Radha Krishna Ki Jay and Goura Bhakta Brinda Ki Jay.

I am submitting my humble obeisances unto Sri Guruji’s padmachanran and asking my darkness for highlighting that in the purport of Bhagavatam 3.25.39 here mention that “ Kuvera is one of the eight demigods who are in charge of different directions of the universe. It is said that Indra is incharge of the eastern side of the universe, where the heavenly planet, or paradise is situated. Similarly, Agni is in charge of the southestern portion ……….. and Kuvera, the treasurer of the demigods, is in charge of the Northern part of the universe.

  In this purport, it is clearly mentioned the eight demigods but written only seven who is the eight one?

            They are :       1) Indra, king of the demigods                                 -           Eastern

                                    2) Agni, in charge of fire                                          -           Southeastern

                                    3) Yama, who punishs sinners                                  -           Southern

                                    4) Nirrti  ……………..                                            -           Southwestern

                                    5) Varun, in charge of water                         -           Western

                                    6) Vayu, in charge of air                                           -           Northern

                                    7) Kuvera, in charge of wealth                                 -           Northeastern

Looking on the internet, Wikipedia, we went through three pages and got Siva as the Dig-pal for the Northwest!!

And what is the responsibility of Nirrti (4) like Varun in charge of water, Vayu in charge of air. Please highlight my darkeness.

HpS - ASA - Back to the Wikipedia!  . . . . . . .   Not much detail. She is mentioned in the Rig Veda etc. Ni = no, rta= law. So lawlessness. No more clear details.

Yours fallen servant
Yamunesvara Das

HpS - ASA - How was Narendra Modi's visit to Manipur??

R1

Todas las glorias a Sri sri Caitanya y Nityananda
Todas las glorias a srila prabhupada 
Todas las Glorias a Hanumatpresaka swami
(Maybe 3%)

Accept my humble obeisances  Gurudeva

This last friday i was in the U.S consulate in Monterrey Mexico applying for mi Religious visa. Showing myself with devotional clothes, and was an instant preach. The woman in the interview just did two questions. What you gonna do there? And are you single?. I don't show any paper just my passport, and she approved the visa! :D.

HpS - ASA - Jaya! Super'carini!!

Definitely Krishna have a plan, i don't know what it exactly is, but trying to follow your instructions I'm sure this is the right path. I want to thank you for your support with all this and i hope to do good service in Goswami Academy.

Also i want to thank to Saranga Thakur prabhu, Subra mataji, Syamasundar prabhu, deepti (lawer) and all the devotees involved.

Im chanting this last weeks my japa, but with many offenses. I pray to Krishna for less material desires, and at the same time i feel like a lier to ask for that. Forgive me Gurudeva.

HpS - Why are they "material". If you want a nice husband, nice car, nice house, nice partys, nice friends, nice babies, then.... you are in the right place. Of course, maybe you have other material desires. I kind of want my teeth to stop aching. Hole in my face where the Tommy the Tooth came out five days ago it singing a little!
You can get Vasudeva type person for a husband and then get Krsna for your baby. (Ooops one little family problem!)


Im taking time with family, and visiting old friends. My parents really like worship my Nrsihmha deva deity. (So do we!)
I come back to Houston by December first.

(Please call us after you get settled with the CCD/SDD)
 

Reading Upadesambrta and Human devolution ( M. Cremo), taking my old books from home :)

Gurudeva. Are you gonna be in Tennessee for you vyasa puja? Because some devotees in Mexico want to be with you in that special day 

Forgive my offenses
I hope your been well of health

ys
Govinda Pramodini GG 

HpS - Poor Govinda, has such a bewildering Girl Friend! And you are serving, Her!
We'll be in Tennessee, but no place to stay here. Snow and polar bears chasing rabbits, but I think we will be on line and of course send all the cookies and crackers you want. We will offer them to Vyasa-deva.

HpSwami c/o R. P. Singh et al
2129 Stratford Road
Murfreesboro, TN 37064

 

We will see you in Texas on February 18-28th, I think!  Now you are a Resident Alien!

Many Services and Bad Japa

Hare Krishna gurudeva, please accept my humble obeisances.
All glories to Srila Prabhupada!
All glories to you!

How are your health?

HpS - AGTSP!!! About the same yours will be when your donkey turns 66-years!<img alt="cheeky" height="23" src="http://www.hps.monkeywarrior.com/sites/all/libraries/ckeditor/plugins/smiley/images/tongue_smile.png" title="cheeky" width="23" />   Good preparation for death and other delights. Hope your Rathyatra is SUPER!

I want to tell you I’m very focused on service and I realized that I’m not reading and I’ve lost my concentration in my japa. I never leave to chant but I can’t chant good rounds because I’m on passion modality all the time,

  • thinking about pendings things that I have to do,
  • thinking about new things to do,
  • thinking about to preach non-devotees,
  • thinking about atitudes that I have to change,
  • thinking about attitudes that I have to improve,
  • analyzing myself to be better,
  • trying to make strong relationships, and
  • thinking about what devotees teach me with their attitudes.

I think also that If I try to act in the goodness modality like I did before, I couldn’t do all the service that I want to.

ASA - Oink! -- It's all service! [{(We will now give to you a Secret Mantra that is hiden from all the Vedas. Don't share it with anyone)}}
http://www.vedabase.com/en/sb/10/9/5

And Krishna is giving to me the opportunity to do all these service, so I can't neglects them. It’s hard to me looking for a balance. Sometimes I feel too anxious and can not focus in my japa.
I remember my spiritual master said that Krishna sees our effort even if we are not chanting good. He sees our effort to chant better. But sometimes I don’t put any effort to chant because I want to finish my rounds quick to do more service. I don’t have any taste. How can i understand this if the chanting is considered as a service to Krishna too?

HpS - Answer above, no? And how to get the BG 10.10 mentioned, there? [[[Call "Hare Krsna, Hare Rama"}}} If you chant minimum 16-nice rounds on beads then ALLL the other services will improve at the maximum possible speed!


On the other hand, I want to read again like I used to, but I can't find the time to do it.
I put all my energy in the service, sleeping little bit, and when I have a "free" moment I'm so tired, without energy that I only want to take a rest and even trying to read, I fall asleep.

How can I looking for a balance ? I'm happy doing service but I think that my whole sadhana is not the best.

I'm very happy and anxious to see you on January! :)

My respects,

Hare Krshna!

ys,

Belen.

ASA - Milk, milk to quench His thirst. Which one shall I get for Krsna first?

SHELTER

11/24/14

DEAR GURUDEV:  ALL GLORIES TO MIGHTY SRILA PRABHUPADA!!!   PLEASE ACCEPT MY DUNDAVATS AND PRANAMAS.

THANK YOU MOST SINCERELY FOR YOUR MERCIFUL ACCEPTANCE AND SHELTER.  IT WAS VERY MUCH NEEDED!  EVERY MISERY IN MY LIFE, FROM BIRTH UNTIL NOW, IS MOST DESERVED WITHOUT DOUBT.  AND, AS YOU POINT OUT, EVEN MORE RETRIBUTION IS ACTUALLY CALLED FOR.  BUT, THE SUPREME LORD IS MERCIFULLY MITIGATING MY JUST DESERTS; EVEN APPLYING THEM WHERE, WHEN AND HOWEVER THEY WILL HAVE THE MOST PURIFYING EFFECT.  THIS I KNOW TO BE TRUE.

HpS - ASA - tat te nukampam susamiksamano

bhunjana evatam krta vipakam

hrd, vag, vapubhir, vidadhan  . . . 

......  daya bhak.

can't remember the rest!   Let's look it up!    {{{Vedabase.com [[[Search....}}    Got it!
http://www.vedabase.com/en/sb/10/14/8
Verse for the Heart.   Prayers of Lord Brahma. . . Just for all the lost Yoginis!!!  Whos depth is taken but worth unknown.

HAVING SAID THAT, IT IS STILL TRUE THAT I KEEP GOING AND GROWING ONLY BECAUSE OF THE SUBLIME PROCESS OF KRSNA CONSCIOUS BROUGHT TO US BY HDG SRILA PRABHUPADA, AND YOUR MERCY.  THERE IS THE FEELING THAT MY LIFE ENERGY IS BEING CONSTANTLY PULLED OUT OF ME AND THAT MAKES EVERYTHING I AM TRYING TO ACCOMPLISH SO DIFFICULT.  THE ONLY PROTECTION I KNOW OF  IS THE MAHA MANTA.  I CANT ALWAYS TELL IF IT IS WORKING BUT I ACCEPT ON FAITH THAT IT IS.  THERE IS THE FEAR I WILL COLLAPSE FROM WITHIN AS THE DRAIN IS SO SEVERE AND HAS BEEN GOING ON FOR SO LONG.  BUT, IT HASNT HAPPENED YET.

HpS - Sounds like you are having good, good, good training for DEATH!!    Do what you can now to make things nice now, and to build s better platform in the future.

HOUSE HUNTING CONTINUES IN ORDER TO HAVE NUCH NEEDED MORE SQ. FOOTAGE AND TO HOPEFULLY BE CLOSER TO ASSOCIATION IN SAC AND FOLSOM.

HpS - ASA --- Nanda Bobba and the other Vraja-vasis had the same problems!
http://www.vedabase.com/en/sb/10/11/21

WHAT ARE YOU LEARNING AND BENEFITTING FROM IN YOUR JUNG READING?
 

HpS - ASA - Thank you so much for the question. Following Srila Prabhupada's indication in "Dialectial Spiritualism" we seem to have found the community with "the most sense of all of them" in the Western world. We are just about to write a very well considered Letter of Introduction and Proposal of Co-operation to Sonu Shamdasani and The Philemon Foundation. Of course, it will be published here and on such secondary Blogs as Dandavats also.

I PURCHASED A SET OF DVD'S OF SRILA PRABHUPADA WITH YEARS OF FILM FOOTAGE FROM MATCHLESS GIFTS UNTIL HIS DEPARTURE TO THE SPIRITUAL WORLD.  ITS IS VINTAGE AND SUBLIME!  WHAT HAS REALLY STRUCK ME SO FAR (AND IVE JUST BEGAN TO WATCH IT) IS HIS ENDLESS PATIENCE WITH THE MOTLEY CREW OF YOUNG PEOPLE WHO FLOCKED TO HIM.  I KNOW HE IS AS PATIENT WITH ME.

HpS - ASA - Ha! Ha! Enthusiasm to use them!!! Monkey warriors, addicted to fruit!

I WISH YOU WERE CLOSER SO I COULD GAIN INNER STRENGTH FROM TAKING THE DUST OF YOUR FEET.

HpS - Here we are. How's the Deva-prastha???? Is he writing, gardening? Gotta get that Old Bear out on the prowl each day!!!

I AM PRAYING FOR YOU.  PLEASE PRAY FOR ME.

HARIBOL!  YSW,

KALINDI DEVI DASI

HpS - Hare Krsna, Hare Rama!!!  Jaya Sri Vrndavana Dhama! Stay with us!! It is actually a short journey to the next port!!

This title is completely random

Dear Gurumaharaja,
Please accept my humble obeisances.
All glories to Srila Prabhupada.

I hope this letter meets you in good health and good spirits. It's been a while since i last wrote you. In my last letter i wrote that Benelux council cancelled the magazine, and that i felt like dropping the service that would follow. After writing you, i decided that would be very childish and i decided to do whatever came up. Besides that, i filed a complaint against the impersonal tactic of making decisions without asking input from those involved, and because of that the council decided to keep the magazine on for one more year to see how things developed. That was interesting.

     HpS - ASA - AGTSP paoho.  Very nice to hear from you!!!  How is your family?  Also very nice to hear about your dealings with the Administration and the magazine. Paper copy magazine? On-linne Blurb?   Seems little paper copy by someone in parallel with the the E-zine, no? Best damn periodical in Europe! People clammering to submit articles.

The Benelux yatra is in heavy weather. Amsterdam Temple council was disbanded, and it is almost like a rudderless boat. Temple activities are going on but several groups of people have different ideas (some have only those, without helping practically). Deity worship is faltering, that is main concern for most people. With the upcoming obligation to move (August 2015) these are challenging times. I don't feel like involving myself in any way, because the list of people who got fried is endless. So is the list of people from the old days who got together again recently and are willing to do something for Srila Prabhupada. That is brewing. Time will tell what will happen.

HpS - Do what you can. This movement depends on you!

The Nama hatta's are also experiencing bad communication, and lack of strong and present national leadership is said by many to be the reason, also for Amsterdam. 

Myself I experience dry times. I had a 5 day 64 rounds retreat during kartik, and that brought me much good, but at home i struggle to get up early and chant with gusto. Some days i've missed my rounds. Caught up pretty much everything, but i go through a drought. In my own leading kirtan also, the substance feels like missing. In our family i am the only one doing sadhana right now, and i feel like Srila Bhaktivinode Thakur, when he is singing:

ekākī āmāra, nāhi pāya bala,
hari-nāma-sańkīrtane
tumi kṛpā kori', śraddhā-bindu diyā,
deho' kṛṣṇa-nāma-dhane

One thing i learned after the retreat was done, was the enormous clarity i had and penetrating power of mind. It dawned on me that generally your classes from Hawaii, for the most part, seem to fly right over my head. This frustrates me. It is humbling.

The Journey Home book translation is halfway, so far so good. It's a personal struggle, and that is good. Of course, my drought will also change, as things tend to do usually, but in the meantime i have not much else to share. Family life had some big hills to climb, but this yajna is so necessary and i'm happy to get the chance. But in general, i think the main topic is that i'm an external devotee, wanting to get more internal and realistic, but struggling to do so. I guess i should see for a bigger timeframe where to see things in, accept things as they are. Is there anything you can say about that, Gurudeva?

With gratitude,
Your servant in the mission of Srila Prabhupada,

Raghava Panditas dasa

HpS - AGTSP. From your letter you seem to be doing quite well. Things are tough all over. This is Kali-yuga. Do what you can to help Lord Caitanya in Mission of giving he fallens souls the science of Krsna by getting inspiration from the Param-para, Rupa-Raghunatha, Srila Prabhupada, and then when you reach your limit pray for Krsna and Rama to help! Hare Krsna, Hare Rama and they will send people. Self-motivated people.

A King for Benelux!

Yesssssssss. . .  Big Picture.   Then you don't get bewildered by the little ups and downs and lefts and rights. If your family is following the four principles then they will be inspired by whatever example you set. Shoot for nice time together in the morning and evening.

Finally, the Full-Morning-Progarm [FMP] results because we have association. That's how we are doing it. Our Buddy, our Body, says, "Just five more minutes of  szleeeeeep!!!", but our ego, says, "Hey, Buddy, everyone' gonna be on line at 4.30AM and you better have a good report and join the show!".

So, get some European partner. Call each other up. Have a conference call, daily, occasionally...

Give us more feedback on Hawaii Friday's we are trying to improve, make them part of our, your, Sankirtan!!