Letter from the Forest

6 years, 11 months ago by hps in Personal Sadhana Reports
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
On ‎Tuesday‎, ‎September‎ ‎18‎, ‎2018‎ ‎02‎:‎34‎:‎28‎ ‎PM‎ ‎CDT, 
 
 
Please accept my humble obeisances dear Gurudeva
All glories to Srila Prabhupada, All glories to you!
HpS - Actually the formal etiquette in ISKCON is that we should be addressed as Maharaja (or Dude). Initiated disciple can use "Gurudeva", but we certainly don't want anybody to think that we are "Gurudeva" for them in any way that eclipses our real Gurudeva, Srila Prabhupada.
 
Maharaja we are emailing you to stay in touch.. We want to thank you for your association in Boise. We apologize for being so selfish and not being able to serve more nicely while you where sick there. Please forgive my offenses.
HpS - Please, please, please write to our Blog. You can find it through our Web-page: http://www.JayaRama.US.    Direct link is: http://www.MonkeyWarrior.Com <img alt="Emoji" class="yahoo-emoji-wrapper" data-inlineimagemanipulating="true" src="https://s.yimg.com/nq/yemoji_assets/latest/yemoji_assets/1f913.png" style="padding:0px 2px; vertical-align:middle; width:16px; height:16px" title="Emoji" />
 
 
We are coming to grips with the fact we have gotten ourselves into this nasty predicament and getting some understanding how to pull ourselves out of it. We have been trying to cheat and have been caught red handed stealing enough times we are seeing we just can't trick Krsna (Karma Kanda? and 4th class intelligence?). Imagine that! We can't trick Krsna, What a fool we are HAHA.
HpS - Alexander the Great, Julius Caesar et al also tried.
 
This grihastha ashram is certainly one of those situations. However, we are accepting it and getting some understanding of how it works. Again can't cheat! Learning how we can preach in this capacity. The more we surrender the more Krsna helps us see that it isn't as bad as we think/make it sometimes and there is some advancement to make!
HpS - Rama and Krsna were both Grhasthas!
 
Winter is coming up here in the Northwest and we think we can feel and see the collective conciseness of the area starting to fall asleep. In the past we have fallen into what we used to call "depression" but we pray with your, SP's and Natai Guranaga's mercy not to go there this time and make it something different! Time for some serious advancement while others sleep????
HpS - Yes!  Do a lot of internal programs!   Puppet shows! <img alt="Emoji" class="yahoo-emoji-wrapper" data-inlineimagemanipulating="true" src="https://s.yimg.com/nq/yemoji_assets/latest/yemoji_assets/1f601.png" style="padding:0px 2px; vertical-align:middle; width:16px; height:16px" title="Emoji" />
 
We also have been getting some understanding of what we have been told is "bipolar". We been diagnosed as "bipolar" and we think this so called Bipolar maybe a gift if we can use it for serving Krsna or see it as Krsna's mercy? Or maybe it just goes away? Or maybe some of both? What do you think Maharaja?
HpS - Best thing is to try to use it for Krsna. When you are in the high side you are a fanatic with lots of energy. O.K. Fly for Krsna, and when you are in the down side you can't even answer the door. O.K. Get ready for death. It is a very 'depressing' situation, but .... you can still chant, and now it is your soul that is chanting, not just your mind and intelligence.
 
In the past we have gotten these big ideas and with it has come some huge frustrations for us. We have gotten ourselves in a BAD situation and aren't very happy a lot of times. However, we were listening to a Srila Prabhupada lecture and he was explaining if we build a nice diamond throne for Krsna in our heart and ask him to sit there, then we bath his feet then THIS IS NOT FALSE! Oh what relief this has given us. We are building temples, making preaching programs in our heart and offering it to you, SP and Nitai Guaranga. We understand we need enthusiasm and are praying to Krsna to make us fit to help the mission. Things are getting more clear. We are hoping for a trip to India this winter, if not maybe we travel there in our heart and offer the best serves we can to Lord Jagannatha! 
 
While in Boise you mentioned that association with devotees can be making Handkerchiefs for Jahanmastami and distributing them. We weren't able to tell you at that time but we have some screen printing equipment in our garage that we received by some arrangement quite awhile ago and have been pondering what is the use for it. It needs a few pieces for the whole process of screen printing but shouldn't take a lot of money to get together. It's with deep sadness that we weren't able to do something for this years Jahanmastami, however, this is in our heart to make proper use of it and in hope please you, SP and Krsna. What do you think Maharaja?
HpS - It might be easier to give the design to others to do, but taking it up as a experiment might be very nice. Engage the whole family.
 
Oh and this is very funny to us. You mentioned that in the Srimad Bhagavatam it is said that women will appreciate their breast when lusty (i believe it was lusty?) and men their genitals. We had a very difficult time for quite awhile before hearing this that women would put attention to their breast while we where speaking to them or just being around them and we would think we aren't looking at them LADY!  We would get all kinds of disturbed by it. Now after you explained it we just giggle and move on. HAHA! 
 
It saddens us how bad of situation we have gotten ourselves into that we aren't able to serve you, SP and Nitia Guaranga better. When we think about you saying you may leave your body soon or 2024 we tear up from embarrassment that we have gotten so tangled up in non-since that we may not ever be able to take initiation. BUT WE WILL DO THE BEST WE CAN! We pray to Srila Prabhupada and Krsna to make us fit to serve you and chant Hare Krishna Maha Mantra with the best attentiveness we can and strive for advancement in that.  We are working on our enthusiasm, confidence and patience!
 
Hari Bol! Hare Krsna! 
 
Bh. Big Foot
 
HpS - ASA -- That was a sitation from Prabhupada that lust is usually aroused in female body in the breasts, and in men in the genitals. I was especially citing it to show that Prabhupada exposes the naked truth about this reality. He acts as a Sannyasi sometimes.
Really your situation seems pretty good. Just learn how to be a Grhastha and make your current situation more Krsna conscious, then Krsna will give you intelligence how to proceed, eventually taking Sannyasa.
We will post this in the Blog with a different name.
 
 

URGENTE

All glories to Srila Prabhupada All glories to Sri Sri Goura Nitay My obeisances Maharaja Dear Maharaja, how are you? Here in Chile feeling the separation of your association

. . . .

First, a small report: 4 principles: OK Japa: Not so Ok. I am aware that I must improve my singing.

Now, I want to tell you that as a result of the call to a meeting in the temple about "Caring for the devotees", a public denunciation of a fact of child sexual abuse committed by the one who was a member of the congregation is made, at present and for efforts of the victim herself, this person is prohibited from entering all the temples. On this topic, the devotees began to talk about respect among Vaisnavas, and to address issues of sexual violence .. . .

HpS - [As you have asked we are not publishing the details of the situation but have shared your letter with Jiva Goswami Das in Houston who is our student and finishing his work for his Master of Social Work diploma]

Please, Maharaja help us in this struggle with his light and his words. Your servant, Ma. Soledad.

HpS - ASA - This is the material world, even when Krsna was personally present in Vrndavana there were demons causing so much terror that the girls were having miscarriages. There is no real peaceful way to live in a mental hospital, except becoming doctors, good patients, with the aim of getting people out.

Considering who we are we don't want to stay in ISKCON Chile. We should only look at it as a transit place to ISKCON Goloka.

O.K.?

Beyond this you can contact the GBC Secretary, Zonal Supervisors. I have done this and was not satisfied on certain issues, so I took it to two more GBC Secretaries and was still not satisfied. It may not be that they are less competent or sincere than I am, but just that the way the institution is structured, the world is structured they cannot help.

Then, we can and have gone to Srila Prabhupada directly. We pray to him etc. and are working to solve the problems ourselves. Of course, it is hard but we don't feel frustrated. We are doing what we can.

You can do that.

O.K.?

If you DO SOMETHING then knowledge will come how to do more. It is the DOING, Bhakti, that gets the progress, not just making extended plans.

Be eveyone's well wisher. The Evil One is the one who is suffering the most. Find His fault and help him.

URGENTE REPORTE GOVARDHAN CUSCO MANDIR, FELIZ SRI KRISHNA JANMASTAMI Y VP DE SRILA PRABHUPADA

HARE KRISHNA DEAR GURUMAHARAJA, AGTSP, PAMHO.

Dear Gurudeva, first of all, you want to develop some fiery feasts and that the Mercy of Sri Krishna and your Gurumaharaja His Divine Grace AC Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabbupada, always be poured out on you. I also want to thank UD and Srila Prabhupada for allowing me to continue and be part of this great ISKCON, and try to contribute something, even if it is insifignificant, we realize that we need to do something more, but of course, you have to improve first, we only ask for intelligence to to do it, and our promise to you and Srila Prabhupada is to improve each day more so we can serve you in the best way. All glories to Srila Prabhupada !!!!!!

HpS-ASA - Hare Krishna!

For being away, it is very difficult to do a service for the Temple in Cusco, but whenever I can I go to the programs, the last time I was in the Temple, I felt the annoyance of some devotees. LAD, once told me they see me as disinfected by the TEMPLE, but hey, I know they see the glass half empty, or they see my reality, but surely they must be right, nobody has ever asked me how I am, if I am Well, once I wrote to P. Gourarupa, comment on my activities, keep him informed, but hey, sometimes you also have to know how to give to receive.

I wanted to give the class for the Balarama Festival, it was Saturday, and I made arrangements to be there. It could not, the service is not cheap, I know. They had already organized, the party was held the following Sunday, the class was given by P. Astavarga. Those days I was very bad for a strong flu (change of climate), that Sunday I went to the hospital to give me some remedy, I could return to my house, but I wanted to be in the Temple, and so I went wrong, we believe that was Our desire, and by the mercy of Sri Balarama, can participate in the kirtan, although I did not stay long, I saw how beautiful the party was. I saw P. Amalakaruna and P. Jagaisvara, I could only greet them with joy, I saw them very well, also the family of Jagaisvara was there, how beautiful it is to see all the devotees gathered.

We could not participate in the Sri Janmastami and Srila Prabhupada parties on weekdays, and the work and my memte, did not let us participate. But we did fasting, we broke at midnight and at noon, glorifications in silence but with much love, we sang our rounds, our sadana, we felt that we improved little by little.

Dear Gurumaharaja, thank you very much for your time to read this letter of stupid servant, thank you very much for your mercy without cause, and although we have so many limitations and problems, we try to maintain, we try to improve our sadana, our family, although with many problems , but we know that everything will improve too. We will tell you more things in our next report. May the mercy of Sri Krishna, always be poured out on you.

Hare Krishna Dear Gurumaharaja.

Your useless servant

Govardhana dasa

HpS - ASA . Thank you for your report. Now your family. It's then will here in the Blog! ! !

nehabikramo naso sti, BG 2 about 40. You are making eternal progress. Krsna  will give you better  and better and better association. Preach.

Urgent.i write so many letters

7 years ago by stopngo in Personal Sadhana Reports

You're Grace.

So many letters I've written,somehow not shown.

Do I have to have new password everytime.

I know youre busy,such a mundane question.but would like to answer you're questions

Ys mj

HpS - AgtSP   paoho.  Yes, this travel is incredible.  Now we are in Barcelona, for three nights. We were in Brihuega for one night and go back on Mionday. Everywhere packed audiences serious to hear.

We will get to the mail.

Urgent I will never leave Krsna

Hare Krsna Beloved Gurudeva

AGTSP

PAMHO

Ufff,  as I told U in my last letter I am nowadays more aware that everybody of us are facing differents challenges.

ASA - "Even the President of the United States must some times stand naked, " Bob Dylan

My mom's cancer is advancing grade 3 to 4, she refuses to have chemotherapy treatment and I respect that, I am more time with her, I said did you chant your rosary today? and she says oh no and started chanting She developed her dharma as a mom pretty well. Ther most amazing thing is that I am not sad or depressed or negative on the contrary I have the strenght to accept what her Karma is, and help her as much as I can, with all the alternative medicine that we have, but most importantly I am there for her giving support, love etc. My sister and I work but we try to be with her as much as we can.

HpS - It is so stupid if we think of death as a bad thing. If nothing else, she is going to have a new body after she finishes this one. So why be so afraid of leave this old wreck?    She must realize that she really has one very close, old friend, Jesus, God, Krsna who is laughing at all her antics in the material world. Whe she looks at Him again, she will see all of her family there, but in truth!!  Get to work. Wonderful progress to make every day.

The lines that I am going to write are not my ego talking I hope,  so haha, but it is very important that we take care of ourselves, spiritually, mentally, because we do not know how many people we are inspiring, some devotees and people in general sometimes aproach me, and due to all the coaching, therapy, years of being a devotee (12 years of having taken second initiation), I feel that in some way or another I have helped them, of course is Krsna using me, but I really love that , I love the feeling of selfconfidence, but that comes after a lot of suffering, something that now I can thank

For instance, Yasoda dd one day before Balaram Purnima called me "Candra can I help you in pujari in the festival? " and I said oh wow I remember your words in a class Gurudeva when U said that SP said "haha You all  now have come to Krsna and now You can not go away"

I was not going to the temple due to my mom 's situation, but this week when I had some free time I went to the temple because is near my job and I had association with Yugala, etc Also Palika she is a extremely nice person I am so lucky to have her as one of my best girlfriends The point is that being in the temple surrounded with devotees reminds me that Srila Prabhupada gave us a BIG FAMILY, a place where everybody can live, I feel supported and safe and that for a girl is very important

Your daily association is our treasure, thank U for that

Yesterday we lead the abhishek, puja, etc for Balaram Purnima, every festival is so useful

Janmastami is on Monday so I can not go to Chosica. Is too far and next day I have classes so my Janmastami is going to be at home with my deities. Umm  maybe I can join another sanga, are you going to have some internet connection for Janmastami?

HpS - ASA -- If live that long at the travel works, we will be in Spain, Brihuega, with Radha Govinda candra and maybe three hundred devotees!!!     Six hours earlier than Peru.  We try to broadcast a lot!!!!  Tweet!    Tweet!!

Thank U Gurudeva I am calm, happy and in peace. nevertheless I know that everthing changes (sukha, dukha) but now I am not a drama queen, haha

Thank U Thank U

Calendar development soon I will write to you about calendar proposals, coordinations with temple authorities, Artd, etc

Hope to see U soon

Trying to be your disciple

Candramukhi dd

HpS -

Lilly told her friend: "When I was in college, there was this one lady. She taught our English class and I could always rely on her to be half way sane, even though all the rest of the school and my life was tumbling this way and that. That was like thirty years ago now. I wonder whatever happened to her. You know I think she was a Hare Krsna. Do you know them?"

Thanks to much for the fotos. See you in a few weeks. (In Lima or Goloka).  Lot of work to do!

URGENT From Spain

Hare Krishna, Maharaj AGTSP PAMHO,

My name is Prema-rasarnava dasa a disciple of Krishna Ksetra Swami, from Argentina, I lived with your disciple Adi Yajña for several years, and served you in some occasions while you visited Buenos Aires Temple. I am married to your disciple Sukanya Sita and we are currently living just 20 minutes from Jara Mara Hari das,  working to establish ISKCON Cantabria in north Spain, and supporting other projects like new Vrajamandala with Erasmus + projects, gathering youth and second generation devotees accross Europe.

I received diksa in 2011 while in Buenos Aires.  My wife recieved Bhakti Sastri in 2011 from MIHE, and since you will be visiting Spain  very soon, I wanted to ask if you consider appropiate that Sita takes diksa from you along with Jara Mara Hari das and Pablo in Nueva Vraja Mandala.

your servants

Prema-rasarnava dasa and Sukanya Sita devi dasi

HpS - Many, many thanks your letter. I have been wonder what happened to you all and just because of that it seems to us that to make decisions about Second Initiation just a few days befor the event is wild! I think it is a good direction to go, so let us work on this while we are in Spain....