Hare Krishna, my dear and always remembered Gurumaharaja 🙏🏻

Please accept my sincere obeisances 🙏🏻

All glories to our savior Srila Prabhupada 🙏🏻

HpS/ASA - AgtSP!!!

Dear Gurumaharaja, I hope you are in good health. I always see you well. Although I know you are always smiling for us, your students in the spiritual life.

Gurumaharaja, I apologize for not being able to join the GoTo program these past few weeks, but since the last time I spoke to you, my life has been like a whirlwind, and for now I'm happy about it. I have a few things to tell you; I'll try to summarize:

ASA - 🐵 🐵 🐵

By Radharani's arrangement, we got a larger space to spend the summer season. We are in a village very close to NVM. We'll probably return to NVM in the winter because the owner of the house doesn't want us to install a fireplace (God's arrangements?).

I was accepted for a temporary job (6 months) at the town hall, cleaning in the villages near Brihuega. I am very grateful to Radha Govinda Chandra for the opportunity to collect.

HpS - Super!

I left my service caring for the 92-year-old devotee. We took care of him for two years. It's time to step back and allow others to collect (I feel incredible peace not being responsible for someone else's life).

I still maintain my service at the inn (I really enjoy working with Jambula; he always reminds me of you. Jambula is organized, not a Hare Krishna fanatic; he's protective; he's one of the few best godbrothers I have). I also keep the mini-room so I can rest (I think a woman should always keep her room in her family's home, for safety. Even though I'm married, etc., I'm a single woman in a foreign country and continent).

WHAT AM I?

ASA - WHO.... are you! 😃

Gurumaharaja, I've been analyzing my life in this material world, the various jobs/services I've performed, and I'm still not clear on exactly WHAT AM I? I remember the first time I spoke to you, you asked me, "WHO ARE YOU?" and when I told you my name, you told me YOU ARE A SPIRITUAL SOUL, WE ARE SERVANT DOGS OF SRILA PRABHUPADA (and you showed me the kanti saying that it was our leash) I was very shocked. Every so often that I meditate on the subject I ask you, another day you told me YOU ARE BRAHMANA (my father and brothers are lawyers) VAYSHA (my mother and her family are business merchants) AND SUDRA (we all are) I asked the same question to several devotees and some said "I am a brahmana, I am future vanaprastha (oh no!), I am a leader, I am a grihastra, etc etc" I am not very clear at what stage or what I really am, BUT I know that now I HAVE TO COLLECT.

I've worked as a teacher (15 years), ASA - Brahmani

a waitress in a bar, ASA - Sudra (survive each day!)

my dad's secretary, managed my mom's family business, I'm a wife, I was a pujari for over 10 years, etc., and now a cleaning laborer, ... and I feel tired of EVERYTHING... Once you told me "you're an old soul, you've lived through almost everything before."

In Vrindavan they told me "you're a Westerner, contaminated, you only chant HARE KRISHNA and take prasadam." I feel that THAT ANSWER is the essence of my existence. And one day you told me, "You are my third-class disciple." That's the answer that makes me feel completely happy (whenever I remember you, I AM HAPPY).

HpS - Third class?????? I don't know what that means. You seems to be doing pretty good as an affectionate mother to whomever you meet. Nice person. Someone easy for everyone to love.

Current world is a mess!!!!! Have your noticed! Relatively speaking ISKCON is pretty good. In some respects it is good in that it does not deceive people too much into thinking that it is great.

So, your life is materially chaotic and it is going to get more so. At 77 years plus, mine gets more more chaotic daily. I have control over smaller and smaller world but.... that is GREAT! Sages and Sagginis pray for Kali yuga. No way to get attached to anything more than 27% and just pause and chant:

Hare Krsna

.. in the presence of your Bead Bag. [Keep it nearby, tied up all day] and you are a liberated soul and you are going more and MORE and M O R E back to Goloka.

1. So, keep chanting more and more.
2. Look more and more for Sankirtan Partners in whatever institutional relationship.
3. Be ready to grab the mercy when it passes.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ozX0KazFoDk

INDIA

VRINDAVAN, EXTERNALLY, IS VERY SIMILAR TO PERU... BUT IT IS A SPIRITUAL PERU... Vrindavan is a place I would like to return to... RADHARANI❤️ I think I saw my Gopal in the form of a child in some places in Vrindavan (am I going crazy?).

HpS - Yes.

I had many beautiful experiences and experiential teachings in my short time in India. I felt like I had lived there before. I dressed as a man, and when I went out on the streets, I felt so natural... Wow! Thanks to the monkeys and motorcycle horns, I was able to realize I was in the material world... RADHE RADHE❤️ Without her, nothing happens! RADHE is the queen of everything and everyone!

SPAIN

Gurumaharaja would like to ask you to pray. Please have the mercy to visit us soon in New Vrajamandala (NVM). Gurumaharaja, without you, I feel like I don't want to be in this place anymore... I feel so alone without you... When I clean the NVM staircase, I remember your feet stepping on each step and I get so emotional!!! I remember you staying at NVM and the service I receive seems so beautiful... I beg you, please have the mercy to visit us again... 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻 We will organize everything better than the last time you visited us. We will welcome the godbrothers with more devotion. Please 🙏🏻 We are an HpS team at NVM Yugala, Tarangakshi and I (it's only because of you that I'm still at NVM)

Missing and remembering you every day

In vain, trying to be your third-class disciple

Yasoda Devi Dasi

May Lord Nrisimha continue to protect you 🙏🏻

HpS - We only plan to chant HK. Dream a lot of Sankirtan. Act as a sleep walker in the sensual world.

Seems that we will be Camped in Nila-madhava Dhama, Houston, ISKCON, until December, with another visit to ISKCON Nashville in November. Maybe another in January on the way to Spain. Stay for some time with my heart meds, then go with Yadu Swami to India/Radha Kunda.

Of course, Putin may start a nuclear war, but seems likely because that would stop the internet, and FOX Communications Corporation would not like that!!!

Please, adorado Gurumaharaja, accept my humble obeisances to your lotus feet ,🌹💐💐🌹💐🌹💐🌹🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏

All Glories To Srila Prabhupada!!!

All glories to You, mi adored Spiritual Master!

I wanted to respond to your comment that you made to me telling me that you can only be our Guru siksha diksha, if we accept Srila Prabhupada as our personal Guru Uthama Adhikari

Yes, Gurumaharaja. It is a great honor to have Srila Prabhupada as my Guru uthama Adikari. Just reading, hearing His name, makes me ecstatically happy!

I believe He is always the Guru of all sincere devotees because we simply accept His books as our supreme authority. But it is thanks to You, GuruMaharaja, that we are able to understand and love those books! Because this is revealed knowledge. It is not just theoretical or academic. By serving You, we are able to love this movement, this process, this blissful life. That is why I honor You so much, but also because of the love that is naturally born in our hearts for You. There is nothing to say, it just is born, grows, blossoms, and keeps blossoming more and more, as happens to me when I read the books of His Divine Grace. It is a personal contact with Him, He speaks to us with so much love! And our love for Him grows more and more. This is spiritual life!!! It increases all the time, it is not something still. It is always increasing, as You told us happens in Goloka... it is always increasing! I can feel this in my heart and understand thanks to You, As Srila Prabhupada said: It requires nothing but sincerity.

Tomorrow is the appearance ceremony of Srimati Radha Rani! I will be able to celebrate because of you, GuruMaharaja, and because of Srila Prabhupada! This is what I see, I can celebrate, I can remember, honor, love, all because of you! I feel so fortunate! I have no words... What is one or a million thanks? I want to do something to give back... I am so limited... but Krsna is not limited! I only surrender to the dust of your feet, Gurudev, and so I can continue surrendering to the dust of Srila Prabhupada's lotus feet, and so to the entire parampara. That is why I want to continue honoring you, but also because you are the way you are, you with your dedication, humility and so many of your qualities, make us surrender. Srila Prabhupada speaks of the importance of surrender in the preface to Caitanya Caritamrita that I was able to read thanks to you. Only through you will I be able to love, to feel love for Govinda, to awaken my latent love.

Without the blessing of Srimati RadhaRani, I cannot reach. Please pray to her for me. You ask me if it is good to awaken this love and like the fool that I am... I don't understand well... the only thing I can understand is that... maybe it is dangerous... because it damages your health, people will look at you like you are crazy, your family will say that you are crazy, your friends... they can move away.. you can stay "alone" but we are never alone: ​​1: it took me years and a lot of silly crying to feel that I am not alone and 2: I don't care how dangerous it is, I want to awaken my love for Govinda right now, I am willing to do anything. Now I thank you again, It is all thanks to You...I'm listening: we are to blame for Your madness" 😊 it doesn't matter, thank you for making me immensely happy!

all glories to my spiritual master who prays for me to wake up. I used the word "advance," because our beloved Acarya says in the Nectar of Devotion: "...it will be revealed to you how to advance further...and although I am not capable of achieving that alone, I ask for Your merciful help.

Please forgive any offense in this letter."

Japa Prati Jalpa Radha Devi Dasi

PST data: I sent these letters the day before Radha Astami, but I checked today and noticed some errors in the Google translation. So, to try to express my feelings as best as possible, I edited them today. Please forgive me, Gurudeva, if I have caused you any inconvenience.

HpS/ASA - Thank you for your letters and Sentiments. We made most of our little comments in the other Blog Post. Thank you.

Thank you for your glorification of Srila Prabhupada. That really gives us and I guess all other readers of these Posts and comments very heartfelt, eternal nutrition.

It, the sun, is at 7.43 after the meridian here in Murfreesboro, Tennessee. Fall seems to be starting and we have to use the heater at night.

We spent three hours with Abhaya today working on NIOS accounts. One hour walking in the forest by the river with NgD.

Now our eyes are starting to defocus from the strain of writing, so we should stop.

At 8PM we will join NgD and the Sri Sri Radha Natabara evening Zoom sanga. Now Gayatri. See you in Gayatri!

Jaya Gurumaharaja!

All glories to Srila Prabhupada!

All glories to You! My eternal spiritual master!

HpS/ASA - All glories to you, also, our eternal spiritual master in many aspects. All glories to our common Guru, Srila Prabhupada!

Please accept my eternal obeisances to the dust of Your adorable lotus feet.

HpS - You can see them? I can't!!! We all have eternal lotus feet, or hooves, no?

Each time my heart desires to glorify You even more, but last time I became a little sad thinking that I had offended You. Please forgive me, if that was the case. It is difficult to associate with such an advanced devotee as You. I always feel that I am committing offenses at Your feet, and that is what I am terrified of doing.

HpS - I think we are like maybe 20% perfect, but that is practical, substantial progress. It is probably far more than we realize just because our Guru, Srila Prabhupada has been pulling us, as he is pulling you all along!!!

When I read the last paragraph of Upadesamrta text 6, I realized my mistake. I heard you speak in Chosica, and I've never forgotten: the disciple has the duty to offer everything to his spiritual master, and the spiritual master has the duty? .. to reject everything! Please forgive me for asking you to accept my glorification of you. Please 🙏🙏🙏💐🌹💐🌹

I couldn't find the YouTube page you sent me. Said Video not available.

HpS - Also have that result some times!!

We recorded a Gaura Artik with Franco for you, but he says it's no good. I've already passed your message on to Franco. He'll send it. I hope Gopal gets around to recording it soon.

Franco uses most of the land we have to grow vegetables, etc. I'd really like to have flowers too, but I hope I can take care of them. I almost always come home exhausted from the street.

We have some neighbors, three families. At first, I was very enthusiastic about letting them know about the preaching center, but then I got discouraged because, most of the time, when I talk to some of them, I feel a tendency to investigate more than make friends. But I have distributed prasadam to them. I still feel a duty to let them know. There's a girl who recently tried to commit suicide.I spoke to her, and she told me she'd read a few of the books I gave her. But it seems she doesn't really have much interest in them. I wish I could help.

At least I can preach when I go out to other places to sell things. I've always been very idealistic. I would love for everyone to go with the devotees and be happy. But sometimes people have strange tendencies that I prefer not to know about. I really only help those who want to listen a little.

Thank you for your response, Sri Balarama and everyone! Thank you for taking the time to write to me about how to fix my beloved japa. I greatly appreciate your time and dedication, Gurudeva. You are a treasure in our lives.

I spoke with Mother Madhumanjari about being the guide for the woman who wants a guru. I hope that woman can become a devotee and be happy.

I understand that, in reality, my singing isn't very good, and it's true. I wish I had more time to sing more calmly and with more love for each pronunciation. I always have things to do. My Gayatri too... is so beautiful, and almost always I don't give it the beautiful attention it deserves. Someone speaks to me, or I already think about what I have to do. Perhaps because of my bad singing I haven't been able to organize more festivals.

What happens to me is that what I really like is to dedicate myself to singing attentively, and when I do, I always neglect something else that they later point out to me. And it's funny trying to do everything well. It's not possible for me. Through singing, I will do the best I can. As the song says: My dear brother, savor the singing, the holy name, even if it's just once in your life!

Thank you for all your wonderful inspiration. I adore your feet, Gurudeva, your manner, your way of being. You are wonderful to me. Thank you for being in this world and saving us with your presence alone. Thank you for the opportunity to praise Srila Prabhupada all the time! Please allow me to always follow you! Your lotus feet are always dancing in my heart.

Please forgive me for any offense in this letter or the others. As you said, I have hooves 😊 I'm just like a silly little animal who wants to always be with His masters and desires nothing more. I don't know how to glorify properly, I don't know so many things... but I wish to always be at His feet forever ♾️

Your foolish disciple who adores her wonderful spiritual Master, I feel very grateful and indebted. My gratitude to you is that I continue to talk about Srila Prabhupada to others... for now, that's all...

Japa Prati Jalpa Radha Devi Dasi

HpS - Jaya!!!! We go on to your next letter. Learn to sing the Mangala arati song, especially. Learn the word by word meaning and then sing with meaning during the Brahma muhurta. Report the result after practicing that for some time.

Maybe you already are doing that!

[8/29, 10:17 PM] Yamunesvara Das - Manipura: Hare Krishna, Dandavat Pranam.

How is Guruji's health? Is there any plan to visit India especially Mayapur and Brindavan next year? Please advise me to increase Radha Krishna Prema.

: During Goura Purnima. I am reading Prema Bilas in Manipuri translation. The characters of Srinivas, Naratom and Shyamananda are the next Avatars of Shri Gouranga, Shri Nityananda and Shri Adwaita Prabhu.

HpS - AgtSP. Paoho. Sankirtan!

At our age, our only realistic plan is to really consider that each breath maybe our last.

So, we are working on practical plans to be chanting Holy Names whether our gross body is here or there.

Please help us keep our subtle body with Guru and Gauranga in Radha kunda, Manipur, Nabadvipa.

Doctors estimate that with medication and mechanical enhancements we should be functioning at our current capacity for three maybe five more years.

So some discussion is there amongst the ASA Supreme Undiferentiated Absolute Commado to visit Spain and Radha kunda like January or February with Yadunandana Swami.

Hare Krishna, beloved Gurudeva:

AGTSP, PAMHO

Thanks for your daily inspiration

HpS - Thank, agtSP, your fortnightly inspiration!!! 😃

Gurudeva, my health is not so good. So I have to take some medications that make me sleep more than I used to. That is why I was not joining the FMS

I am going to make an effort this week.

Hope to see you soon

Trying to be your disciple

CMDD

HpS - Thank you. We... always doubt any medication that does not let us chant Holy Names during Brahma muhurta???! Even if we leave this body doing so!

We have our doubts.

Of course, Krsna can personally sit beside us as even tell us to be the death of 640,000,000 people, so anything is possible if he desires it!!!

Wonderful! Wonderful! Wonderful! Opportunities can happen at any moment if we are pure devotees of Krsna.

Look at the persona who is teaching us by example!

He as an old man, nearly dead, no success as he was hoping for and then.

! Boom!

Hare Krishna

Siksha Guru Maharaja, please kindly accept my most humble obeisances; all glories to Srila Prabhupada; all glories to your good self for your own exemplary service to Prabhupada and Krishna; all glories to all the devotees of Lord Chaitanya Mahaprabhu.

HpS/ASA - AgtSP!!!!! Thank you for your association and Siksa!!

I trust that all is going well for your.

HpS - This is the material world. It is 7.22PM. It is getting dark. We sit alone in a ramshakle ashrama. We are struggling to eat properly. Going blind, senile, vertigo, deaf but other than that thinks are pretty good.

Our future is dark if we chose it to be.

We don't want our "Projects" to be successful.

We want to stay at the feet of Srila Prabhupada perfect, personal, service, and then in the association of others in that attitude.

Has Krsna made him our Guru?

We have free will!

Do we chose to worship Krsna, even if He handles us roughly by His embrace???

....although I think about how you are fairing in your health. I have been meaning to write sooner, but other things keep getting in the way. So many thoughts come to my mind that I would like to share, but almost always during japa or mangala arotika: and my memory retention fails me because of so much material energy throughout the rest of my days.

As of lately, Krishna has been very merciful to my wife and I. Whilst we do grieve about our poor involvement with the local community of devotees, we do get some friendship with one particular family, which I will not mention by name, due to his anxiety if his name is mentioned in this letter.

Recently, Srinivasa Prabhu was in Boise, and he surprised us both with a personal visit and some amazing prasadam from Sri Sri Radha Nila Madhava. We had a very nice morning program the day before he left to return to Houston. About a week later we were in SLC, as my wife had a medical appointment there with a specialist.

We celebrated Janmastami in SLC. I met Agnideva for the first time, and he invited me to chant beside him for the entire evening. That was an awesome occasion for at least three hours. By Krishna's grace I was invited to be the first priest to bathe Their Lordships with the first three substances (milk, yogurt and honey); and then again for the final rinse. It was so much more than I had hoped for, or deserved.

A few days after we returned to Boise, some very nice, young traveling brahmacharies stayed as our guests. It was like Krishna's mercy wasn't finished yet. They had gotten my name and contact information. They stayed the night and we had a very nice morning program, and plenty of Krishna katha over prasadam: sharing realizations and sankirtan stories. I had asked them to please pass our names on to all other traveling sankirtan parties so that our good fortune of serving the sankirtan devotees would continue.

My wife's health is not so great; she may need another surgery. She is in so much anxiety over her health, and that puts me into anxiety as a result. My sadhana is still holding, the books are still going out (although not in great numbers), and the rest of our world is still the same, as it was before Janmastami. Celebrating Janmastami was a lifesaver. I definitely need to do this more often. Srila Bhaktivinoda Thakura has said that these festivals like Janmastami are the mother of devotion. And I really need a mother: these days more than ever.

I will close here, hoping that you are doing well: Hare Krishna.

Your lowly servant,

Balabhadra dasa🙏

HpS - Jaya!

Jaya!

Jaya!

As long as we can breath we can chant, no?

Is that not enough mercy, that the Holy Names appear on our lips!

Thank you for this letter and your association.

Maybe we sometimes get very little external association because Krsna is pushing us do develop our internal association.

You, me, whoever is reading this, we are all going to have to leave our external association behind, no? Of course, if the external world has been Spiritualized then it already has its internal component and the external replica of Vaikuntha merges into its original source.

So, nice to see everything as a replica of Vaikuntha and our only relationship is service, ultimately to the Lord of Vaikuntha, and our Mother, Laksmi Devi, who are all only 16-years old, no?

Like being at Disneyland with our High School classmates, and the Teacher only acting a Chaperones, friends.

We look for any more letters and then maybe TB will post some more.

We only hope for your association more and more intimately.

We talk a lot with Jaya Krsna Das in Dominican. He finds himself in a similar situation as yours also.