Dear Maharaj,

PAMHO AGTSP

Maharaj, thank you so much for your time and wonderful guidance despite so many health problems! You dedication to serving Guru and Krsna is unfathomable 🙏!

HpS - Hmmm! 60% sincere??? AGTSP!!!!

My limited capacity, becomes enough due to your guidance 🙏. Trying to maintain decent sadhana. Chant 16 rounds 5:30am (sometimes unable due to insomnia/anxiety caused by marriage. Those days I try to chant up to 32rnds to make up for it). 1hr hearing daily, and 1hr reading (not stable yet). Aartis I haven't been able to include yet. Cleaning and cooking regularly. Trying to add nice words of praise spoken to husband daily to this list as part of my sadhana.

HpS - 🙂 We really really hope that your marriage becomes nice!!! Yet, is Kali yuga so maybe it will be a well fought failure! 😁 Even that is very satisfying and then we die! How many husbands have we had in how many lives??? Krsna is waiting for us and all those husbands and others to get back in the proper place. 🙄

Sometimes his mood is very tough to handle. He has assumed a mood of my way or highway very strongly, so when I find it deeply humiliating I take shelter of hearing. I've decided not to speak any harsh words. I understand any confrontation means I have to yield, otherwise there will be a head on collision. Most unpleasant interactions I have resolved by rerouting my methods of fulfilling my needs to not incorporating him. I experienced unforseen difficulties in above practices when we went out on weekend and shared hotel room (our sleep schedules are almost 4hrs apart) and when I got very sick recently. Some expectation for love and care appeared in my heart, but was met with invalidation. I understood to not expect anything from him even in the worst situations.

HpS - Hmm! That is real love. Love is not a sentimental reaction. It putting the welfare of others first. What was Mandodari's relation with Ravana?

I struggle to assume mood of "how can I serve". Whenever consciousness is deteriorating I hear lecture to survive this phase of marriage. Recently I heard that although Kunti Maharani herself was going through so many difficulties, when she met Krsna she was enquiring about the welfare of others 🙏.

HpS - .... and still she fell victim to the beautiful smile of Surya Deva?? 🙂 After killing Duhsasanan, Bhima addresses him say, 'Farwell cousin, we were not born to be happy."

Such exalted personalities. I'm trying my best 🙏. Some days I feel a lot of dismay, is it going to stay like this forever.

HpS - No.

Then I have to remind myself, nothing stays the same for long.

HpS - Yes! Just a fact!!! What's next???

But this narrative of don't tolerate insult, don't stay where people don't respect you, don't deserve you is so loud at times, it drowns out the be self-satisfied, compassionate, forgive, tolerate for higher principle narrative. Again at such times I try to hear 🙏 and reset consciousness.

HpS - Have some fun. Be enthusiastic to help people in their Dharma, but also have some patience and some nice time with your brother.

We have a question regarding intimacy in marriage, as an application of the 4th relative principle 🙏.

HpS - Ooops! 🙊 🙉 🙈 😎 This doesn't seem like a topic for a Sannyasi. For this you need an Ashrama guru. Nice Ghrastha lady in ISKCON. It is like the Pandavas had Dhaumya and Drona as two different types of Gurus.

We are Diksa gurus, and Siksa gurus in certain terms?

Going to be initiated soon?

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I guess this letter is an account of my strugglesome, shaking practice 🙏, my lack of spiritual intelligence to fathom how to act in the situation and my many strong anarthas 😔🙏.

HpS - Interesting. That is mostly why we write the Kapi Dhvaja!

We have and continue to survive only by hearing your loving voice in our mind 🙏. Our only motivation now, to not fail you, who have invested so much in us from childhood. All other material reasons to remain in this marriage Krsna has mercifully shattered 😂.

Your aspiring servant,

Yajnaseni DD

HpS - If you have to walk out of any situation on to the street with nothing but your breath, to save your constant Hari Kirtan, do it. Then Krsna will give you a nice place to sit down and after doing more Hari Kirtan he will give you intelligence how to confront the situation, and He will also take a personal hand in the situation while you are out in the fresh air!!

Then they will add our names to the list:

Kunti.

Draupadi.

Mandodari.

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Please accept my humble obeisances, all glories to Srila Prabhupada!

I would like to thank you, Gurumaharaja, for your response to my last letter.

Since I last wrote, things in my life have changed dramatically, so an update feels appropriate.

ASA - !!! 💨

Due to complications with my partner's job, we have relocated to Ogden, Utah, a town about 45 minutes north of Sri Sri Radha-Govinda's temple in Salt Lake City. I have been chanting at least 8 of my 16 rounds at the temple almost every day. I am attempting to meet the Devotees here so that I will be able to have some association. The temple does not open until 7:00 am, so I am still doing mangala arti alone at home, but once I am situated in our new home I am hoping I can find local devotees with whom to have a proper morning program.

HpS - We have been doing online for like ten years. Yes, live is super, but as Crosby, Stills, Nash and Young said, as we remember, if you can't be with the one you love, then love the one your with. Loving online Mangala arati is a conscious process!!!

I also plan on returning to San Diego in early November so that I can celebrate Govardhana Puja with Sri Sri Radha-Giridhari and Their faithful servitors in Their holy dham.

I am chanting 16 rounds, following the four regulative principles, regularly going to the temple and actively seeking out the association of local devotees. Most of my book are in storage, but I am reading daily from Bhagavad Gita and NOI.

Your aspiring servant,

Nityananda-rama dasa

HpS - If you follow this process you will get stronger and stronger!!! More and more awake. Move as fast as you can. Make local people devotees so you can have immediate association!

Read the KRSNA book daily!!!!

TLGASP!

TLGASSHpS!

Jaya Gurudeva!

Por favor acepte mis humildes y respetuosas reverencias. Le suplico perdone mis ofensas.

Gurudeva espero de todo corazón este Ud. muy bien.

Hoy en día, rondas, principios, Lectura sistemática del Srimad Bhagavatam con devotos (Cultura del Bhakti).

Además, Gurudeva estoy buscando una explicación a mi camino devocional. Yo estaba al 100% en rondas, principios, estudios, y servicio. Por favor Gurudeva ¿Qué paso conmigo? ¿Me faltó inteligencia para mantenerme? ¿Qué sucedió conmigo?

Quedé enferma y muy deprimida durante todo este tiempo. Fue como una pesadilla. Ahora me estoy recuperando. Sería muy bueno si me ayuda a responder esta pregunta, y así continuar con mi vida devocional.

Me postro a sus pies y espero su misericordia.

Su discípula

Rohini dd.

TLGASP!

TLGASSHpS!

Jaya Gurudeva!

Please accept my humble and respectful obeisance. I beg you to forgive my offenses.

Gurudeva I hope with all my heart that you are very well.

Nowadays, rounds, principles, systematic studying of Srimad Bhagavatam with devotees (Cultura del Bhakti).

Also, Gurudeva I am looking for an explanation to my devotional path. I was 100% in rounds, principles, studies, and service. Please Gurudeva, what happened to me? Did I lack intelligence to support myself? What happened with me?

I was sick and very depressed during all this time. It was like a nightmare. Now I am recovering. It would be great if you help me answer this question, and continue with my devotional life.

I prostrate at his feet and await his mercy.

His disciple

Rohini dd.

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HpS - ASA -- AgtSP... Paoho... Of course we are remembering you and Draupadi Devi Dasi and The Ananga-manjari Devi Dasi often and wondering, "What has happened to these nice devotees?" "What has happened?", but we are actually very little people and don't have the power to be the Supreme Friend!!

So it is Krsna who saves us: https://vedabase.io/es/library/bg/5/29/ but, of course, He is motivated by the desires of His devotees and uses His devotees.

All glories to Srila Prabhupada!

Why we fall away from the path back to Krsna may have many causes, no? We have heard that every psychological circumstance we can meet is in the SB. There is the fall down of Bhrata Maharaja, Vyasadeva writing so many indirect spiritual guidance.... We come to this human body after millions of lifetimes, so if we have different educational side-trips then it is no so surprising, no? We only hope that all of our experiences are determined by Srimati Radharani and Krsna and they have very deep significance and effect.

It is so nice to hear from you!!

We hope that this Blog and the Kapi Dhvaja will be very useful in the next steps in your life!! That we are all with Srila Prabhupada in his Sankirtan in our next chapters!!!

Hare Krsna GM.

PAMHO.

AGTSP!!!

Muchas gracias por Su respuesta.

Jagannatha y 2 devotos más visitaron a Piyari Mohan el viernes pasado. Tomaron prasad con él y su familia, cantaron y conversaron. Estuvieron con él como 6 horas. Esperan visitarlo otra vez. El esta bien, con su psiquiatra y siguiendo su tratamiento.

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Extrañamos Sus visitas a Santiago Mandir, quedarán en nuestro corazón.

Si todo sale bien, podremos visitarlo en enero junto a mi familia en Ashoka Van, y si Krsna quiere podremos estar para el día de Su Vyasa Puja.

Jagannatha hace lo mejor que puede en el servicio de la administración, junto a los devotos (Maha Anandini Radha dd y Dina Dayal das).

Y me gustaría distribuir libros en diciembre, veremos qué se puede hacer.

Gracias GM.

Su aspirante a sirviente

Priya Sakhi dd

HpS - Muchas gracias. Piyari tiene mucho hacer para corregir esta situacion tan, tan grave con la pobre Mataji!

Ooof.

Mundo material.

Esperamos noticias acerca del calendario de Enero pronto.

Es super que ISKCON tiene reputacion ayudar todos sus miembros, aun a veces ayudar es un fuerte pata en .... .

Dear Gurudeva 🙇

Por favor acepte mis respetuosas reverencias.

Todas las glorias a Srila Prabhupada.

Ruego al Señor Nrsimhadeva para que lo proteja siempre.

Sigo cantando mis 16 rondas, 4 principios, gayatris y pensando diariamente en usted que es mi mayor refugio.

No pude quedarme New Asokavam porque había perdido mi equilibrio emocional. En ese estado no podía hacer un servicio adecuado.

En estos momentos me encuentro en casa de Arjuna.

Quisiera tomarme un tiempo a cierta distancia de todos.

Espero recuperarme pronto y tomar su asociación nuevamente.

Perdone mis ofensas Gurudeva.

Su aspirante a discípula....

Lo extraño mucho....

Karuna Mayi Devi Dasi.

Dear Gurudeva 🙇

Please accept my respectful obeisances.

All glories to Srila Prabhupada.

I pray to Lord Nrsimhadeva to protect him always.

I keep singing my 16 rounds, 4 principles, gayatris and thinking daily of you that you are my greatest refuge.

I couldn't stay in New Asokavam because I had lost my emotional balance. In that state he could not do an adequate service.

Right now I am at Arjuna's house.

I'd like to take some time away from everyone.

I hope to recover soon and take your association again.

Forgive my offenses Gurudeva.

His aspirant to his disciple ...

I miss him so much ....

Karuna Mayi Devi Dasi.

HpS - TlgaSP. Thank you very much! Our mind and body are 73-years old and we want to help so many good people as you and others, but we don't have the strength to do too much as personal consultant any more.

Right now three different devotees, families, are asking for URGENT advice. All very nice people. It makes us feel bad that we cannot help as a counselor.

Mangala ananda Das said something that we remember about three years ago in BsAS: I has taken we seven years to realize that you are my spiritual master and not my psychologist. Yet we are certainly willing to help with as much strength as we can in whatever way we can.

We have heard from Patraka Das about some of the problems that you all have had in your Ashrama, and our basic perspective is that it is not so important what happened as what is happening.

Your determination to chant etc. is guaranteed to put you back in the battle very soon. We only to die a wonderful death and then follow behind Srila Prabhupada into the next sacrifice.

Send us more news or questions as necessary. If possible we can take help from devotees like Patraka et al and even discuss these topics a little.

Thank you.

Please accept my humble obeisances. All Glory to Sankirtana Movement by Gaur Nitai & All Glory to Srila Prabhupada and his faithful devotees.

ASA - 😁 😁 😁 😁



Dear Gurudeva: How was your travel? no doubt your constant activities in devotional service are very inspiring to continue in this way, (sato vṛtteḥ) the Sankirtan's way. I chant everyday and I like reading Srila prabhupada books, I constantly try to share what I have learned, (dadāti pratigṛhṇāti).

It is very difficult for me to serve others, it is sad to know of devotees who were very enthusiastic, good preachers or pujaris and now have lost their faith, or have left the movement, especially when new people meet them and they are their reference about the devotees.

ASA/Buck White: https://vedabase.io/en/library/sb/4/31/6/ !!!

Pracetas were good devotees, go deviated, but came back. Is a common story, no? So, we have to look for devotees who have deviated but because of their experiences are now ripe to hear the advice of Narada Muni!

Even within ISKCON there is a lot of disunity, it's difficult to be honest and humble, but even there are devotees who do not believe this is essential. I don't stop trying to get a better sādhana, I'm still a very neophyte, although I feel very fortunate to have your tireless effort on this path, you're a great example for me to follow. I'll keep by your grace chanting Hare Krishna and sharing what I learn from the Bhāgavata.

your crew member AniruddhaKrsna Das.

HpS - ASA --- You are getting bigger challenges so you can be a bigger devotee! Maybe you will be Vidura in your next life!!!!

More news as it develops.

Use the PC in the Kapi Dhvja.