asa[e] guru tattva; disciple falls from vows.

Dear Gurudeva,

PAMHO. AGTSP.

I am writing this letter to tell you that I am losing myself spiritually. For several weeks I have not been keeping fully the promise I made to you of chanting 16 good rounds and the Gayatri mantras, and I feel very, very bad.

You always say that if one is not keeping the vow, you are not his/her spiritual master anymore, and I understand that.

HpS - As Diksa Guru, but if you or someone in this position wants, then we can try to function as Siksa guru, Patha-pradarshika guru, again. That is Guru who tries to get us on the formal path, the vows and promises.

Of course, Srila Prabhupada is doing this for all of us through so many media.

It is only my fault. I ask your forgiveness for having failed you and Srila Prabhupada. It is clear that I am not up to the standard. Please, I hope you don’t think that I am getting lost by engaging in sense enjoyment, I mean, more than some weeks ago. Truly, that is not the case.

I have simply complicated a little more my life with my new personal situation. At the same time, I am getting older and I have less material strength, and it seems also less spiritual strength. The daily life of a worker woman who lives alone with two children and several bills to pay at the end of the month consumes a lot of hours and energy.

I have the feeling of sinking into a spiral that swallows me and pushes me away from the devotees. Sometimes I think am a burden for the devotees: Jayanta is better living in Brihuega and the devotees who live around here are only interested on when Jayanta can come to have a lecture and a sat sanga meeting.

And I totally understand it. I am only good at my job, driving and some sports.

I would like to thank you for all these years in which, through your great mercy, you have allowed me to remain close to you and benefit from your association, knowledge, and realizations.

I am deeply, deeply sorry for not being up to the level of you, your spiritual master, or your disciples. What frightens me most is that I don’t know if I will ever be able to be. But I am going to keep trying. This soul is fighting.

If you allow me, I would like to continue connecting, whenever I can, to Japa Joe, FMP, and the Sunday classes. Also, whenever needed and if you consider it appropriate, please count on me to help with NIOS.

I am sorry to have to write you such a letter.

I hope you are in good health.

An aspirant hoping to be able to serve you again.

HpS - As usual you are a heroine and leader for so many people. How many people are in the same position and have not taken the brave and honest steps to write here.

Thank you.

Can we act as your Siksa guru?

Vartmana, Patha, pradarsika guru?

Of course, Krsna does not forget all the effort you have made.

It is like taking the rope He is offering from the shore and pulling us closer. Eventually we get to the point that even though we still go under the water, our feet now hit the bottom and we can use that to push ourselves up, as well as take the pull from his rope.

Later we will be 50% out of the water.

Yet in all cases we hold onto the rope. Even 50% of the rivers current can carry us away.

Of course, the rope is 16/4 with enthusiasm.

If we lose the connection we are headed back to the Samsara of the river flow. Again, it is different for one who has chanted than one who has not.

If we have the strength and intelligence to go to work etc. then we have the strength and intelligence to chant some Japa and follow principles to some practical extent.

No whiskey.

No betting on horse races.

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Keep track of how many rounds you owe Krsna.

Take a vow to chant a certain number of rounds daily that you know you can do for a certain period. Eg. "I will chant four rounds per day until Christmas".

Then see the result.

Then take a vow to chant fixed number, more or less, during the next period.

At least one round every year on Janmastami? 😆

This is what Srila Prabhupad and we guess Rupa Goswami recommend in the NoD.

Sangat sanjayate kamah.

Our desires develop from the company we keep.

If you are giving so much help to Nimai the Great and Sarasvati the Charming, then why aren't they chanting with you?

Has Jayanta Das moved full time to Brihuega?

Does he not help with the care of the minor children?

Are the two of you enacting your Spanish lila of Sancho and Teresa?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oo7VlD66ISM

asa[e] VAD; grhastha ashrama; divorce

"The divorce act is encouraging prostitution, and this should be abolished."

https://vedabase.io/en/library/sb/1/17/38/#bb17253

"If her husband is fallen, it is recommended that she give up his association. Giving up the association of her husband does not mean, however, that a woman should marry again and thus indulge in prostitution."

https://vedabase.io/en/library/sb/7/11/#bb47099

The entire Verse and Purport give very clear advice on this topic. Please study them nicely! https://vedabase.io/en/library/sb/7/11/28/

For even more detail:

"Actually the qualified brāhmaṇas are meant to give direction to the kings for proper administration in terms of the scriptures like the Manu-saṁhitā and Dharma-śāstras of Parāśara."

https://vedabase.io/en/library/sb/1/9/27/#bb15336

We found a translation of Parasara's Dharma Sastra at the University of California Berkeley, Law Library.

A copy is at: https://www.jayarama.us/archives/parasara.doc

As we remember it explains that for a woman whose husband dies or takes Sannyasa, it is first class for a woman to follow her husband in the same fire of sacrifice.

If he dies she enters the funeral fire.

If he takes Sannyasa, then like Visnupriya, she followed the Lord as a woman by dedicating herself fully to taking shelter of the Holy Names while staying at home.

As we understand, she would collect one grain of rice for each maha-mantra and then cook what she had collected by 2pm.

She was as good of a Sannyasi as Lord Caitanya.

This is first class Dharma for a woman, wife.

Second class is that she does not enter the fire, but she enjoys life in a civilized fashion but does not get remarried.

Third class, and still progressive in Kali-yuga, is that she gets remarried after six years.

Any comments?

asa[e] history; secular

Hare Krishna, Guru Maharaja,

Please accept my humble obeisances. All glories to Srila Prabhupada.

As directed, posting few links I found online relative to Japan's peace overtures prior to the atomic bombing and Justice Radha Vinod Pal's dissenting judgement at WWII Tokyo tribunal

The Search for a Negotiated Peace: JAPANESE DIPLOMATS ATTEMPT TO SURRENDER JAPAN PRIOR TO THE BOMBING OF HIROSHIMA AND NAGASAKI by Justin H. Libby in World Affairs journal

https://www.jstor.org/stable/20672371?

https://fair.org/home/the-japanese-were-already-defeated-and-were-seeking-peace/

https://www.nationalww2museum.org/war/articles/justice-radhabinod-pal-tokyo-war-crimes-trial

https://icds.ee/en/the-dissenting-opinions-of-justice-radhabinod-pal-at-the-tokyo-war-crimes-tribunal/

Your warmonger servant,

Gopal

HpS/ASA - AgtSP! Esteemed Mongering servant. we consider ourselves your servant.

we are so inspired by your library service.

hope!!!

you are keeping an index and can share it.

we want to have a NMDhama ASA symposium on Cinema as Dharma, Caitanya Cinema Circle, including NoD, Viola Spolin's theater improv. book. main audience = b'caris looking for career path. that incudes you also, no?

The articles on Japan's surrender before Hiroshima are so interesting.

History gives us chance to live properly in the current moment!

asa[e] moon beams from a larger lunacy

... 🐵

🐷

... we are continuing this from whatsapp group. because it is a longer post about more general thoughts.

and don't want w/app to get the reputation of being anything more that moon beams from a larger lunacy, not the lunacies themselves.

blog is place for larger lunacies.

[[[https://www.gutenberg.org/ebooks/4064]]]

[[[[[[https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Stephen_Leacock did srila prabhupada know him?]]]]]

it, position of the sun, in houston, texas, is 2.28pm

we are here now.

you are here now.

past and future are illusions of the external energy.

hare krsna.

Jaya!

past is a current perspective created by memories, which are one kind of thoughts, that we use to orient to the only thing that actually exist, the present.

looking at the past from a broad perspective, feeling that my wife in my last ashrama and in-laws and son, would be verbally, violently critical that i am a failure and have wasted my life with no result, we feel that that we should consider such fantasies, but not with detail or any direct necessity to action.

i guess that many of our readers have a collection of personalities, situations, events, that they live over as more or less, harsh, violent, attacks.

Hare Krsna!

🙂

Most of them just arise from the current condition of our bodily energy, etc.

getting up early, 12.40am, and getting our rounds done well, gives us really fundamental perspective on life, the subsequent day.

there is no one like srila prabhupada!!!

anyone who is like him, like jesus christ, socrates, shakespeare, dwight david eisenhower all say the same thing.

take initiation from a bona fide spiritual master and follow his instructions with more and more precision.

so, are we doing o.k.? taking advantage of this human life. know more than mark twain or e. a. poe?

we have chanted 16-nice rounds first thing this day, with so much help from several venerable ladies and gentlemen.

we have followed the four principles, of which the only one from which we have had any agitation is no illicit sex.

even, no illicit sex, has not been a gross agitation.

it is what appears to be, from srila prabhupada's and others comments, an automatic reaction from the Karma, Destiny, of the birth we have taken, and the reactions to earlier actitivies.

I guess, our readers, currently in Western female bodies have the same reaction but from their perspective.

kind of like one step up from being born as a dog.

yet we can navigate around the agitation, and it does not really stick, and it seems that we can come to the point, during ekadasi etc, where we can regularly come to such bhava, that we can wash it off our soul completely.

[daily bath in the sankirtan of the holy names.... ?three times or more, daily bath.]

yes,

because we are in the material world,

we will get the modes of material nature smeared on our body body from time to time, because

1. we have some subtle attachment still,
2. Krsna wants us to get into the modes for preaching.

Hare Krsna.

2.45AM

not bad, to be under the Sun 😎, no?

he is a really great dude.

yet, we have to go beyond him to go to goloka, reawaken our eternal form, and even take advantage of lord caitanya's mercy to expand our vaikuntha svarupa into a braja svarupa, no?!

murari gupta knows about rama. is 100% dedicated to Him, but he enters Gaura lila and then can integrate Gaura kripa with Rama Krpa.

Spiritual life means that we only add stuff to reality, no?

We don't eliminate anything.

[https://vedabase.io/en/library/bg/2/16/]

We are still Baptized Episcopalians, no?

Just added Srila Prabhupada as my Christian Bishops would want me to do.

Bhakta Sun God

GBC Advisory Board Member!

Should call Upendra Das. He called us and we were in the meeting with Jagatguru and Parampadam Das, and H. H. Dhanvantari Swami about Chile Sankirtan.

the only project we are leading, managing, now, is constant chanting of the Holy Names.

at our age etc. that is authorized GBC, Temple President, Founder Acharya project, no?

other projects we are available for advise, and spontaneous participation.

Joe Banana: "You no write, us, we no write you!"

1. tonight Radha Natabar sanga at 8PM.
2. take some more water. maybe milk.
3. call upendra das
4. whatsapp mail caught up.
5. look at blog mail
6. don't check yahoo mail. only do that every few days.
7. VDM. asa[e]
8. i love lord nrsmha deva [brass divine murti]. hope we can be worthy of His association.
9. legs object to the idea of walking to the temple.
10. baked apples are good, but raw are tough.
11. hare krsna.... kkrsna kkkk rsna hare .. hare.
12. it cause us a lot suffering when people 'offer their obeisances to our divine lotus feet', have even politely asked some of them to stop, but I guess they are engaged in Karma yoga not Bhakti yoga. Srila Prabhupada has been tolerating worse from us for all eternity. 🙏
13. 3.01pm, call upendra das, look at blog, read vdm, work on asa[e]

thaanknk you all.

be like a bird with the six goswamis in braja?

what is srila prabhupada's form in gaura lila?

asa[e] - Science and the Veda; Preaching and making devotees from a scientific/academic community

Dear Guru Maharaja,

Please accept my humble obeisances. All glories to Śrīla Prabhupāda!

HpS - AgtSP. Paoho.... I started putting obeisances to Prabhupada first, because I thought that I cannot even actually offer obeisances to devotees without his mercy!!!

I vaguely remember that you once mentioned a statement—perhaps by Śrīla Bhaktisiddhānta Ṭhākura or possibly by Tamāla Kṛṣṇa Goswami—regarding preaching to the scientific or academic community.

The idea was that preaching to such persons requires great effort and energy, but if one of them becomes a devotee, he or she becomes a very valuable devotee.

Could you kindly elaborate on this?

HpS - I remember that it was one of the many letters and comments by Srila Prabhupada to H. H. B. S. Damodara Swami that I saw while I was working with the Bhaktivedanta Institute.

Srila Prabhupada told him that every scientist that you made a devotee was worth a thousand ordinary people.

I think SP made similar comments about high court judges et al. I think he said, preaching to these "sresthas", social leaders, was like shifting the preaching into second gear. Whereas preaching to common people was like 1st gear.

Yet, our experience has been that it takes about 1,000 times more effort to make one scientist a devotee, so whether you want preach, PREACH, P R E A C H,.... to one scientist for 1,000 days or you rather go out on the street and preach to a thousand different people, is a matter of choice.

Need Officers. Need Foot soldiers. No small parts in the drama, just small actors.

O. K.

Find your style of preaching, develop it and go out!!

Thank you very much for your time and kindness. I am aware that I have written several letters with questions recently, and I am grateful for your patience.

Your servant,

Namacarya Dās

asa[e] holy names; sacred sounds.

where do we start?

...life is running in many parts.

~ ~family.

~ ~community.

~ ~horse and domain.

internet can enrich you, or your life-blood drain.

start with the transcendental sound of "haaaaaaa" [as in, "hare"].

air pushes out from the lungs, traichea, mouth; then a little bit we pinch the vocal-cords and they begin to vibrate.

haaa.a.a.a.a.a.

lips purse, ... air ... then vocal cords vibrate... shaped by the pursed lips and..

raa.a.a.a.a .... lips unpursed. mouth little opens and

r.a.a.a.a ...... r.a.a. .e.e.e. .... the .e. is generated from a constriction in the throat with the mouth rather open.

try it. experience what happens in the different internal parts of your.

guess it is more easy if you have a more brahminical body.

-0-0-0-

life is running in many parts.

but we chose to start, entering our control, with breathing and vibrating: haa.a.a.a re.e.e.e.

then krs na!!

haw ray.... krsna aaaa.

krs naaaa krrrrs na... hare hare!!!

hare rama..... hare rama.... rama rama hare hare!!!!

-0-0-0-

hare krsna, hare krsna, krsna krsna hare hare!!! . . . . . .

chose to die.

go where the Maha-mantra plane does fly.

now!