Dearest Guru Maharaj,
Please accept our most humble obeisances Guru Maharaj and All Glories to your divine service and all glories His Divine Grace Srila Prabhupada.
During moments of each day your words and instructions are always there. You’ve asked during your classes: Do you speak, think, act from the heart? Do you even know if you have a heart? Honestly Guru Maharaj, to understand how to truly give from the heart we have an amazing example that follows in the footsteps of Srila Prabhupada to such a great length. A monk as you have called yourself, by the name of Hanumat Presak Swami has been an exemplary example since I was 18 of a servant of Krsna that truly knows how to give from the heart. Somehow this amazing monk even chose to see a small spiritual spark, a rough microscopic diamond in the rough when encouraging an aspiring prasadam cookie solicitor to keep engaging in Krsna’s service :o).
I remember during the first few sessions of the Wednesday Bhakti Sastri class this fall after being on a heitous I could do nothing more than burry my head under my shawl. Of course no one can see me at my house but this is how I feel in just hearing your words: completely humbled in the presence of a great soul that truly relishes and lives the scriptures, and that there is only one true shelter in this world when I am able to hear the realizations and guidance from you, Srila Prabhupada and shastras. This has always been my favorite time of the week Guru Maharaj, and without your weekly classes and your merciful association I think so many of us would be eaten by Maya the witch. Your educational programs and how you conduct them yourself, single handedly, have given us a true direction in our Krsna consciousness. And really there is no other direction: it leads us to be inspired in our services and association and chanting. It’s a wonderful spiral as you say, where we perform these activities and revisit these scriptures again and again and find new relishment. Its ingenious and important. I hope we can offer to you this year a humble Sunday school curriculum we are starting up this New Year, and in the future with your mercy so much more.
Early January before your last Vyasa Puja, your talk about what a real marriage means. Without your advice coming directly from Krsna and scriptures, no blessing or auspiciousness would have been there Guru Maharaj. We did not even know how to go about obtaining such blessings. You told us with marriage a whole village is involved. And in this way you connected us to getting the blessings of the Vaisnavas and other significant others. Being so merciful to see that yes, your spiritual children are, well, still children and need to hear the advice of their father is a true blessing. You could have decided we are too fallen or a lost cause or that you have other important matters to deal with. Instead you tolerated us and guided us during our attempts to dovetail our karma and desires and in this way through your mercy we can swim through these incessant waves by helping us understand how to serve and dovetail everything to Krsna while in this ashram. If we didn’t have this, I can see by so many examples around me that married life can be truly unsuccessful materially and spiritually in Kali Yuga. We hope to someday please you as your spiritual daughter and son by our service not to our own desires but to you, Srila Prabhupada, and Radha Bunkabihari eternally.
Guru Maharaj, the lowest point of this last year in March I was truly stunned by your mercy. There I was, with Aja who had horrible asthmatic pneumonia and was completely beside myself trying to single handedly pack and move out of the preschool we were staying at to get further care from my family in Idaho. The first time you ever directly called was at this time to get a teacher’s contact number. During this low point you were genuinely concerned about Aja but reassured us that Krsna has plans for us in Boise. Your compassion to us when I was so mentally weak helped me through such a tough time letting us know Krsna’s hand is behind everything. In the Isopanisad it says “He who sees everything in relation to the Supreme Lord, who sees all entities as His parts and parcels, and who sees the Supreme Lord within everything never hates anything, nor any being.”
Thank you Guru Maharaj on this auspicious Vyasa Puja Day.
Your aspiring servants,
Kamagayatri and Aja
HpS - Thank you. Just chant Hare Krsna and be happy, Mataji. Krsna and Radha love you more than you can imagine. They are planning Aja's life more than you! They love you all very much. Any time, just chant Hare Krsna and be happy.
Plans, plans, they come from God,
When we chant His Names, He gives His nod.