All Glories to Sri Sri Radha and Krishna
All Glories to Srila Prabhupada
Hare Krishna Gurumaharaja PAMHO ¡¡
This is an anonymous letter to protect my identity
ASA - AGTSP We (Monkey and Piggy) know what you mean. Yet ultimately our identity is very clear, we are all servants of Gokula ranjan!
I hope you can understand that, sorry for the inconvenience. I am writing to tell you that my spiritual life is not going well, because I lost the enthusiasm in spiritual life but not faith in the process, the point is this… after going through a good time in the constant company of service with devotees I had to get away from them due to I was punished by the authorities,and not allow to serve Prabhupada, and this has had me in a stupor in which I can not be totally happy and every single moment I can hardly keep myself in chanting japa, I feel that I've been fixed only for SP’s mercy and yours but by my own strength I can not go on like this. The problem lies that no devotee has worried about me since the moment I made a mistake and being punished, on the contrary I was prosecuted and discriminated by my condition of being a fallen person, so I condition was so so I wrote to the President of the temple to see what can we do about this and how they could help me, after several emails they never answered me and every time I saw them in person we did not discuss this topic and talk to me quickly without asking me how I was been,vjust one godbrother was really worried about me and charged me with enthusiasm He is now in India, but I never saw a response from the temple authorities who are supposed to be safeguard for the spiritual life of the devotees and not exclude them when they make a mistake, especially after so many years on which we made service together for Prabhupada. The problem is I am desperate with the issue and not know what else I can do to keep my spiritual life without being able to have the association of devotees, because whenever I go to the temple I feel discriminated and sorry because I could not sing or do some service. It has been more than a year since this incident occur. Please I humbly request that U give me encouraging words because I do not know what to do, I'm totally desperate I do not want to lose my spiritual life. if you want I can give you more details privately. What hurts me the most is to bother U with these issues, I feel ashamed of my own person due to I'm not a good servant to you, please excuse me and please save me from this black hole in which I am immersed.
your ashamed and fallen disciple
Hare Krishna
ASA - Jaya! AgtSP! Thank you very much for your letter. It could be the same letter that 15,000 other ISKCON devotees send. Thank you.
Why didn't you write sooner? Honestly we can't handle letters in Yahoo from 500 people a month! We would get like 25 letters a month like your good letter. Now we can give our ideas here one time and 24 more people, at least, can see what we have to say.
1) I personally heard one reporter ask Srila Prabhupada, "Swami Ji, are there problems in your Temples?".
Srila Prabhupada was on the Vyasasana and laughed and said, "This is the material world, there are problems everywhere".
Even when >> KRSNA << was personally present in >>Vrndavana<< there were demons coming, and their threats were so strong that it caused the girls to abort their embryos!!!!!!!
I don't think it is that bad in most of our current ISKCON Temples.
2) I as expelled from the Temple one time {:o). I thought it was totally unjust, but at the same time I was thinking, O.K. It's a fact, I have done so many little dishonest things in Devotional Service. A lot of little things is a big thing. This angry, stupid Temple President (my opinion) is just acting as an agent of Lord Jagannatha. Really I deserve so much more chastisement. I deserve to be banned from the Temple, not just asked to not stay in the Ashrama.
O.K. We deserve what we are getting. We have to learn our lesson. Surrender and not think it is too big a chastisement and advance.
Yet, the "Stupid" Temple President was chastised by Krsna for harrassing an "Innocent" Devotee (me (my opion)) who didn't support his "arrogant" administration and apologized.
3) Yes, we can discuss in detail by confidential Yahoo, but maybe better to talk with authorities when we get to your city????
Are some ideas to start with. Your ideas? ?????
ASA - Monkey/Piggy et al!
