A fool's ramblings

Dear Guru maharaj,

Please accept my humble obeisances. All glories to Srila Prabhupada.

I hope this finds you in good health. 

This past weekend, our Bhakti Lounge preaching center had a small retreat for the guests that have been coming regularly to the center. It was the first time I have been in charge of kitchen duty; cooking prasadam for about 20 people is not as easy as it sounds. Some tears, chastisements, burnt granola, sour curry, and vegan lasagna were a few of the highlights; however, it was worth it. A good experience by all means. I'm not sure if I would do it again!

On another note, in my my last post I told you about the dakshina that I collected for you. Your reply was baffling. I might have to cook a lot of potato and squash for Krishna. I apologize for doubting your instruction because I'm a fool. Are you sure you don't want it sent to you? If it is you request that it be used for bhoga then I humbly comply. 

Sadhana is... there. Minimum 16 rounds, 4 regs, not too much reading I regret, sankirtan in some form or another- not neccesarily book distribution. Life is moving along in the temple. My tulasi service is my main concentration although I feel my effort in it is lacking. Do you know how to eliminate spider mites and white flies? There seems to be a slight infestation of both culprits in her leaves.

Jaya Nitai!!! Our bhakti lounge crew meets on Sundays for Srimad Bhagavatam classes. On Nityananda's appearance day, I gave my first ever class which lasted 10 seconds. Speaking in such a way is very scary for me. I did not do a good job. I prefer to sing in public than to speak. I prefer to go out on book distribution than to give class any day. Anyways, too much rambling. It has been a month so I have alot to say! :D

In conclusion, I figured out that Prabhupada is absolutely the boss. I like getting the service to wrap his chaddar around him before he goes to sleep. He is boss :)

Jaya Prabhupada!!

Your aspiring servant,

Rasa-mandali dd

HpS - Jaya!   So nice to hear from you.    Our reporter from Toronto, aye?   No, don't know how to get rid of the white flys but I hear there are manuals.    Devotee in San Jose California has a 9 foot tall tulasi that started from nothing.  In San Jose usually no more than 2 feet tall.

Invest the money in books and then distribute them and whatever income there is we can keep that for Anjana Suta Academy Toronto, a branch of ISKCON!

Very good luck in all your service.

Are you investigating Grhastha ashrama?

HARE KRSNA

10 years, 5 months ago by PABLOPARIKRAMA in Personal Sadhana Reports
Todas la glorias para Srila Prabhupada!
Todas las glorias para Sri Caitanya y Sri Nityananda!
Maha Siva Ratri ki jaya!
Por favor acepte mis humildes reverencias.
HARE KRSNA!
Soy Bhakta Pablo del Parikrama, de España.
Espero que se encuentre muy bien Maharaja.
 
Me gustaria comentar un poco como estoy, revelando un poco la mente, espero hacerlo bien.
 
HpS - ASA --  TlgaSP!
 
Antes que nada, estoy haciendo el programa de la mañana 4 am ( algun dia me he dormido ),
 
 
HpS - ASA  ---  Super!
 
 
adoracion, haciendo 16 rondas entusiasta, estudio-lectura ( tal vez mas lectura que estudio, pero me ha motivado mucho su explicacion de " un capitulo semana, una pagina semana, un verso semana ".
 
 
HpS - Pero eso es Bhakti vaibhava...  Leyendo un capitulo cada semana, memorizando un verso semana, escribiendo una pagina cada semana.
 
 
 
Voy a intentar aplicarlo, ya le comentare. Y programa de la tarde, pero se me olvida muchos dias...uff.
 
Esta semanas he tenido muchos imprevistos.
 
Me ha sido duro mantener mi Conciencia de Krsna, eso he intentado.
 
Virginia no deja de molestarme, y eso me es muy duro para mi. Sueño con que cambie su mentalidad, pero cada vez esta mas cubierta, por lo menos externamente. Realmente se que ella es mi mujer, haga lo que haga ella, pero no me resulta facil librarme de la lujuria. Me atraen las chicas, y me caen bien, se que puedo casarme si de  verdad mantengo y trato en todos los aspectos a Virginia como mi 1ª mujer, no??, por lo menos asi lo siento, pero siento que mi tiempo ya ha pasado, o eso creo, y no se como llevar esos pensamientos personales contrarios. Me cuesta mucho sobre todo cuando Virginia hace cosas muy feas. 
 
Me cuesta mucho no estar a su lado, ha sido mi mejor amiga toda la vida, desde que eramos niños, la conozco como la palma de mi mano, se que necesita mucha ayuda y los consejeros no son buenos. Se que me necesita y no se que hacer Maharaja,... Rezo por ella pero recibo muchas cosas malas, hago lo correcto??. Que Dios me perdone.
 
Como voy a ayudar a otros si yo no se solucionar mis problemas?
 
A veces solo quiero salir por la puerta, no mirar para atras y no volver jamas.
 
Asi creo soy yo, Maharaja, mental y tal vez bipolar?, no se.
 
No consigo mantener claro mi futuro personal, profesional y espiritual, ninguno. Intento meditar en mis cualidades para buscar una solucion consciente de Krsna, pero me cuesta bastante hacer un balance que me alegre. De tal forma las cosas cada vez estan mas claras gracias a la Japa y Servicio. 
 
 
 
.......   HpS - ASA - Pasando adelante sin abilidad leer todo la nectar de nuestra senor Pablo.
 
 
 
Hari Hari! Hari Hari!
Hari!      Hari!
 
P.d: Me gusta escribir poemas, sera en mi una tendencia Sahajija??
 
HpS - ASA --  Hare Krsna.   Comenza la Gaura arati. Hay como 20-devotos aqui en el nuevo Templito de Monterrey, Mexico. Yo pase casi la misma como Vd en mi sendero.  Claro uno tiene pasion para juegos de azar, otro sexo opuesto. . .  pero la conclusion es la misma, si tenemos que pasar por estas experiencias por nuestra Karma, aun esforzamos la mas fuerte que podemos evitar, entonces, adelante, pero no dejar cantando Hare Krsna, Hare Rama, al entrar en la Maya, pasar por la Maya, y despues de la Maya.  El adjustamiento, la desarrolla de sabiduria va a ser  R A P I D O .  Muchas veces solamente UNA VEZ sera suficiente entender claro la ilusion y despues el apego sigue automaticamente.
"Es un reflejo de una manzana, no esforsar para ella mas!"
Jaya!   Arati-kirtana.
Esperamos mas noticias!
(Mas intenso, eso es poesia).

Fernanda Leiva desde chile

10 years, 5 months ago by Bhaktin Fernanda L. in Personal Sadhana Reports

PAMHO, TLGASP!

Hare krsna estimado Maharaja, gracias por su respuesta, usted tiene toda la razón, es todo muy inestable, creo que debe ser porque no se realmente cual es mi deber (materialmente hablando), creo que no se cual es mi varna ni mi ashram, como puedo averiguarlo siendo tan neofita? , espero que no le incomode que le escriba seguido, debido a su atareado programa.

su aspirante a sirvienta, Fernanda Leiva.

HpS - ASA   ---  Jaya!   Muy bien oir de Vd.   Puede investigar cosas pero nuestra esfuerza en esta nivel es como entender somos devotos de Krsna, Sambandha, en cualquier situacion, y especficamente en todos situaciones, por medio del sacrifcio dado a nosotros por Senor Gauranga, el Yuga avatara!

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10 years, 5 months ago by sriradhedd in Personal Sadhana Reports

Dear Maharaja,

PAMHO, AGTSP!

Thanks for your quick answer.
Yes, Krisna shows us the right path.
I'm sorry i didn't sit on the grass with You and your disciple when You were in Mayapur but my mind told me be careful. 2 years ago i was sure i want to get initiation again from one of your godbrother. But he turned out he has difficulties and can't accept disciples. After that i collapsed again and thought i never can trust in any spiritual master. I was suspicious. But now i see i had to learn from this situation. After that i started to pray to Srila Prabhupada and Lord Nityananda very intensively to lead me to a guru who can help me purify my heart and from whose mercy once i can do pure devotional service. And Lord Nityananda was merciful...

From me and my family.
I'm 36 years old, i have a sister and a brother. They are not devotees but like the bhaktas. My brother has lot of books and sometimes he reads Bhagavad Gita. My mother has died 12 years ago, my father is totaly materialist unfortunately. But he visited the temple once he always gives donation to the sankirtana devotees if he sees somebody in the street. And i always give him prasadam.

I live with my husband we don't have children and we don't want to have.
My husband was my godbrother, He would like to follow Sacinandana Swami.
Before our Indian trip I worked for a radio station as an advertising manager and my husband worked for a bank as a group leader. But we wanted to change our life therefore quit our job and gave up our sublet. We like risk :)
My husband writes business plans and essays now. And i will learn to sew. We want to start a business with handmade stuffs. We have few good ideas. If it's not necessary we don't want to work for a big company again. The association is not so elevating there.
Now we live in the countryside in my father's house. My father has a girlfriend and now they live in her flat so this house is empty. Unfortunately there aren't devotees in this city but we are here just ad interim. We would like to find a flat in the capital and want to go to the morning program regularly. Now we get up at 3 am and hold Mangala arti here.
But we don't want to stay in Hungary too long max. halfen year till i learn. When we start our online business we will move. We would like to find a small yatra where we can serve the devotees.
Our "ex" godsister and godbrother are in India at Kusum Sarovara, they are very nice devotees and invited us to join them and serve at Govardhan. They need manpower. We miss their association but we can't imagine our life in Vrindavan for long time. My heart is not pure enough to live there. Madhavananda Prabhus wife was also our godsister and they also invited us to serve in Bhuvanesvara. So we have opportunities to live in India but we would like to find a place in Europe. We will see what is Krisna's plan.

Before India we helped in the pujari room regularly just simple things in the background. Not so easy to serve here in Hungary but we try. First i was very sad when the GBC told me don't chant the gayatri mantra but now i know Krisna doesn't make a distinction between the services therefore i'm happy if i can do anything.
Your blog and your site is very informative and helps me a lot.
I hope once i can be on your assistance.
Thanks for everything.

Your servant,
Sri Radhe dd

HpS -  Jaya!!!!!   AGTSP   paoho               I think BG 10.10-11 give us clear answer to all this, no?    If we can't see who is our Guru in different ways, it doesn't matter. Krsna is always our Guru and if serve Him sincerely then He will give us clear inteligence how to approach Him, appreciate Guru in other more accessible forms!

O.K.   Please send more news as your Sankirtana develops!

Radhe!! Radhe !!

10 years, 5 months ago by Bhaktina Romi in Personal Sadhana Reports

All Glories to Sri Sri RadheSyama!
All Glories to Srila Prabhupada!
All Glories to you!!!

Dear Guru Maharaja:
                                          How're you? I hope you'll can have more rest. 

HpS - ASA    AGTSP    paoho.    We just arrived in Monterrey. Still little chest pain, but much less.  We have to learn to work with a more relaxed attitude.
                    I'm fine, chanting 3 round, at least. Adoring Sri Sri Gaura Nitay, J B & S and Srila Prabhupada :)
                  I download your .txt of Bhakti Sastri, and that's my guide to read the Upadesamrta, and learn about conduct, association, process and content. I read the Manual of Japa by Satsvarupa Das Goswami. But well, my effort is not enough, for the moment, but I have faith to get better.
               We're prepparing your comming. It's so great! I associate, with some spritual brothers who're so kind! They leave me help in some things and i'm so happy about that! <img alt="laugh" src="http://hps-d6.monkeywarrior.com/sites/all/libraries/ckeditor/plugins/smiley/images/teeth_smile.gif" title="laugh" /> I feel that way I can retturn, a tiny part of everything you do, thanks for your mercy, thank you for coming.


Surrender to you holy holy holy lotus feets!
Thanks for your valious time and for your mercy.
-Bna Romi-

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HpS - Jaya!   AgtSP!!!!                    Hare Krsna!              We all try to contributing our special service in the best way we can while we are here!

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10 years, 5 months ago by candra108_mukhi in Personal Sadhana Reports

Hare Krsna Very dear Gurudeva:

AGTSP,pamho

I know that we meet everyday at japa joe with everybody but since a long time I did not write to U,.....

I am very very very grateful and happy for this Japa joe this december 21st my rounds, sadhana etc has improved 108% , thank U very much I feel more energized now.. for instance the other day even if I did all the things that were on my hands I couldn't cover one turn in pujari so I remembered that U tell me that if I just can offer one smile to Krsna that will be Ok and HE gladly will accept it, so I just smile and one mataji tried to help us in that situation <img alt="" src="http://hps-d6.monkeywarrior.com/sites/all/libraries/ckeditor/plugins/smiley/images/09.gif" title="" />.. Gaura Nitay are much more concern about our hear and chant I realized that.....

I will retun to work on March 5th..but I have already bought my ticket to argentina <img alt="" src="http://hps-d6.monkeywarrior.com/sites/all/libraries/ckeditor/plugins/smiley/images/05.gif" title="" />... I will there from March 10th to march 16th... (I can handle that situation at work).. I will travel to U to Mar del plata <img alt="" src="http://hps-d6.monkeywarrior.com/sites/all/libraries/ckeditor/plugins/smiley/images/a04.gif" title="" />.... I will go with Mahamanjari dd (Prahladananda Swami's disciple) but on different flights same dates.... we are going to stay at EKanta bhakti's house due to stayin g in the temple is too expensive for us so I can't be there for mangal arti because it is too far away from the temple.... But we can meet  in Srimad Bhagavatam class ,in the evening programs , etc also in mar del plata we will stay at Arjuna sakha das and erika's house the same I guess we can not meet at mangal arti. ON ekanta'sn we have wifi so we can do japa joe with everybody else yeeeeeee

I have already research about the tickets to chiclayo after this email  I will write to the itinerary email....

I can not wait for starting the third canto so I guess I will start reading....

Thanks for all your inspiration....

Your eternal servant

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 HpS - ASA ---  AGTSP   pamho.  Yes, we are coming to the point where we see that we are going to explode.   Out material life will come to an end and we will have 4, 14, 44 arms and 16 heads to do all the service we want to do!   You Itenary is on our Calendar!!!!!   Hare Krsna.  See you in just like two weeks!