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Hare Krishna Hanumatpresaka Maharaja,
Please accept my humble obeisances. All glories to Srila Prabhupada. All glories to you.
Thank you for answering my letter. you could have just as well advised me that the process is not for me.
I will try to follow, but even if I am following I am not qualified to have the association of devotees. It is my hope that through their mercy I will not lose their association. It is almost guaranteed that I will fall down, but I will do what I can. The only reason to be alive is to chant and follow the process. I will look inward and see if I can keep with the process. Then after some time I will try to report back.
Aspiring to be your fallen servant,
Captain Blue Dog
HpS - AGTSP paoho. If the process is not for us, if we are not on the stage of Bhajana-kriya, then we can maybe work on the stage of Sadhu sanga. See BG 4.10 for the stages. There are details paraphrased in NOI-7 or 8. Every body is different. I amy be at Nistha but not ready to work at Ruci. We will always, always, always see higher and lower platforms. Most people where you live don't even think about an eternal life.
They think Budweiser beer can solve all the problems in life.