su eterna aspirante a sirviente

9 years, 8 months ago by apsaragopi in Personal Sadhana Reports

todas las glorias a srila prabhupada!!! 

todas las glorias a sri nityananda y gouranga!!! 

todas als glorias a usted gurudev!!! 

hare krsna gurudeva: debo informarle que mis 16 rondas se encuentran estables gracias a su misericordia. Debido a que tuve la oportunidad de viajar a cusco y estar bajo el cuidado de mis hermanos mayores prabhu gadai y madre  nadiya logre estabilizar mi sadhana  levantarme a brahma muhurta, claro por la buena asociacion, estube haciendo sankirtan en cusco es probable que Radharani en mi diminuto y contaminado servicio  me haya estado probando pues para mi no fue muy facil, pero fue un nectar, gracias a krsna y a usted logre aprender mucho, pude  hacistir a los devotos en el pujari por lo cual estoy muy agradecida, me encuentro muy agradecida por la infinita misericordia sin causa que recibi y aun recibo solo pido poder manterme aferrada al dhoti de Srila Prabhupada quien en definitiva es el salvador de toda entidad viviente y a sus pies de loto. Los cuatro principio se encuentra   siendo ejecutados  estrictamente tambien estamos leyendo el Srimad Bhagavatam, realmente es increible, estoy en el tercer canto capitulo 31   es muy iluminador en todo sentido para mi. 

HpS - ASA --- Vd. puede ser servienta intima de Rani Devahuti.

Este mes deje de trabajar como auxiliar contable y estoy tratando de hacer sankirtan por las mañanas esta semana comence la universidad otra vez haci que estudio por las tardes y asisto a clases de bhagavat gita en el templo por las noches, mi servicio de pujari tambien lo sigo realizando. Oro a Krsna y a Usted para que puedan permitirme servir de todas las maneras posibles y seguir las ordenes de sri caitanya mahaprabhu.

Espero poder verlo en agosto en chosica ojala logre llegar.

mis humildes reverencias gurudeva  me encuentro muy agradecida a usted, a Srila Prabhpada, a Bhaktisidanta Sarasavati Thakura y a toda la sucecion discipulas quienes nos  brindan oportunidades de poder salir de la ceguera en que nos encontramos, y por todo lo que krsna me probee ya sean  pruebas o satisfacciones. 

gurudev!  gracias por otorgarme esta gran felicidad que es la conciencia de krsna

su aspirante a sirviente

apsara gopi devi dasi   <img alt="laugh" height="23" src="http://www.hps.monkeywarrior.com/sites/all/libraries/ckeditor/plugins/smiley/images/teeth_smile.png" title="laugh" width="23" />

HpS - ASA  - Jaya!

Hare Krishna Gurudeva !!!

9 years, 8 months ago by Mitravinda devi dasi in Personal Sadhana Reports

Hare Krishna Gurudeva ! Por favor acepte mis Respetuosas Reverencias a sus pies de loto !!!   TLGASP !!! 

HpS - ASA - Pies de loco!

Recien le escribo al Blog después de muchoooooooooooo  tiempo...

Estoy muy contenta de poder hacer Mangala Artik con usted todos los días a través de Start Meeting y ahora por Mayapur TV...en Houston....siempre es muy inspirador verlo a usted hacer su Sadhana....nos inspira a nosotros para hacer nuestro Sadhana con mas seriedad y fuerza..!

HpS - Es raro para nosotros, en television, 'funny', divertido. Para nosotros es igual inspirador que Vd esta en SM.  Ya, claro en Mexico no hay.

Como le dije hace poco....estaba tratando nuevamente de levantarme todos los días a cantar rondas a las  2 : 00 a.m....como le dije...siempre he sentido que es lo mejor para mí  !!! ....pero, no he podido mantener ésto siempre....otros días levantando a las 4 : 00  a.m   ó   3 : 00  a.m.....y así.....variando.....en éstos tiempos realmente me parece difícil mantener éste Standard de " todos los días "  levantarme  2 : 00 a.m  para cantar.....puedo durar así unos días...y luego otra vez levantándome a las 4 : 00 a.m.....pero, nunca más tarde que eso...

ASA - Necesita un companero. Puede llamar uno a otro. Si, es super cumplir temprano con sus rondas. Entonces tiempo para leer temprano, escribir.

Igual...cualquiera que sea la hora que me levante estoy tratando de cantar mejores rondas....."entendiendo intelectualmente" que hacer ésto es lo  UNICO  QUE  NECESITO  para estar bien....

Gurudeva, ahora no estoy distribuyendo libros de una manera regular, como antes....que salía a Sankirtana con regularidad....ahora sólo distribuyo libros a veces....de vez en cuando....cuando se presenta una oportunidad<img src="http://cdncache-a.akamaihd.net/items/it/img/arrow-10x10.png" />....cuando estoy en el Templo a veces distribuyo algunos libros a los visitantes que llegan...o cuando conozco alguna persona nueva...

Desde hace como 4 años tengo un problema físico en la cadera y la pierna que me limita mucho para estar parada mucho tiempo o caminar por mucho tiempo...es por eso que dejé de hacer Sankirtana en los buses....no puedo caminar por mucho tiempo o estar parada por mucho tiempo..

Desde hace 4 años estoy viviendo con mi familia....no es tan malo...aunque a veces si hay algunos problemas....pero, en verdad Gurudeva yo quisiera vivir en un templo otra vez  !!! en realidad me gusta mucho la vida de Templo....la vida monástica.....pienso, que en realidad soy una "monja"...aunque en los últimos años no he querido aceptar mucho ésto....pienso que tengo mucha "naturaleza" para ser una " monja"....tengo a Saturno en casa 7...aspectando mi ascendente Acuario ( Astrología ).....aunque a veces he tenido la mente muy "confundida"....yo NO soy "Grhasta"....no me atrae esa "forma de vida".....Gurudeva, usted cree que más adelante yo pueda ir a vivir a un Templo otra vez ?....como antes ? yo quisiera ir a vivir a un Templo otra vez , pero, en otro país.....ya no aquí.....usted qué piensa ???

HpS - Pienso en el futuro Vd va a vivir en Goloka. Puede servir a Purnamasi en las riberas del Yamuna. Ella tiene una cabana alla de hojas.

Bueno, Gurudeva....me despido por ahora, Muchas Gracias por su Asociación todos los días !!! es muy inspirador poder hablar a veces con usted por Start meeting !!! 

Gracias por toda su PACIENCIA para conmigo !!!

Nos vemos pronto otra vez !!!!

Perdone mis Ofensas por favor !!!

Hare Krishnaaaaaa !!!!!!!!!

Mitravinda d.d

HpS - ASA - Nos vemos Miercoled, Jueves... en Lima.

Apologies, status and dealing with death

9 years, 8 months ago by Nityananda-rama dasa in Personal Sadhana Reports

Gurudeva,

I write from sunny, sweltering San Diego.

I would like to offer my apologies for being so terrible at maintaining contact. I try to minimise my use of the internet as I spend so much of my life in front of the keyboard for school that sitting down in front of one for anything else can feel like a great austerity and as recreational use of the computer causes me to misuse time on so much nonsense, I forget the great association that can also be found and I never feel that I have anything that is worthy requesting your time.

I must also apologise for the rudeness with which I answered the phone. Due to my recently broken finger, I was awaiting a call from a doctor to tell me whether or not I would need surgery for nerve damage so mind mind was very much in the material modes when I received your call.

HpS - Honestly, AGTSP, paoho, I did not notice anything. Ha!  Ha!  Ha!  Maybe you are just generally a nasty rude person (with a heart of gold).  I enjoyed the talk.

Your merciful phone call however, reminded me of how recalcitrant I have been.

Spiritually I am staying afloat . Japa is being chanted and the regulative principles are being followed, though due to my schedule, I occasionally have to go chant a lone round in a quiet classroom between courses to keep up instead of chanting them all at once.

HpS - You are a hero, hero, hero!!    The witch hates you!!

I am also not getting much association as getting to the temple can be hard, though, admittedly, if I made it a higher priority I could go more regularly.

Materialy, as I mentioned when you called, I am beginning a masters program in Linguistics, and hope to write my thesis on the language of the devotees and hope to one day turn that into a doctoral dissertation on how the mood of Prabhupada and his mission are transmitted to new devotees via the language that is used to discuss those things that we value and those things that we do not.

Gurudeva, should you have the time, I do have a question for you. I have recently received word that my maternal grandfather is preparing to leave his body. Being cold hearted and far from equipoised, I have no great affection for him, yet his imminent passing has my mother who, while far from being a devotee, has been greatly supportive of me in both my spiritual and material pursuits. I am unsure what is appropriate behavior in this situation as an aspiring Vaisnava and as someone who still has strong familial ties. Is there anything that I can do for my grandfather as he passes or afterwards and is there anything that I can do, spiritually or practically, to help my mother through this?

HpS - All I can say is just listen to them. As a 'pure devotee' by chanting your rounds etc. you have a good heart and just listen. Then you will know naturally what you can do.  Formally, about ten days after he departs you can have his picture in the Temple and offer Mahaprasada to him and talk about him a little and sponsor a Sunday Feast or Kirtan.  The devotees will think of him and that will influence his subtle atmosphere. Ask the Pujari about the Sraddha Ceremony.

Thank you once again for your boundless mercy.

Nityananda-rama dasa

HpS - AGTSP.   One of Krsna's qualties is that He is expert in all languages. Can you talk to cats. I get along a little bit.

Stages

9 years, 8 months ago by candra108_mukhi in Personal Sadhana Reports

Hare Krsna Beloved and respected Gurudeva:

AGTSP 

PAMHO

I hope U are always fine and joyfull as I always see U in your tweets, SM, etc... we are listening to the audios that u share on twitter .. thank U all so much¡¡¡

News: I have my job back.... now I am going to teach in the Pyschologist faculty and also in communications... 

I am taking yoga and pyshoterapy.. (by the way I have to change the physchologist...He was a man and his treatment towards me started to be improper.). I am kind of intelligent and I am not going to try to cover some emptyness or problems that I have with anyone  that is just nonesense... 

My physchology now is a lady one of my sister's colleagues.. she is nice she has 2 nice children... I love to be around them

I am doing yoga also really nice..

I started to think about one conversation that Madhumanjari dd had with me long time ago regarding too much exposure.. so I resigned my facebook account and also I am not joining SM due to I want some time of introspection.. not too much contact with the internet world I have encountered many things that are just fake...with all my imperfections and failures and pride i just try to convey that so I trust... but now I want some introspection... 

Gurudeva i just want to thank U for all your support, and all the things that U do in order to contact us with the sankirtan movement... we are waiting for U... I hope that U gave me all the forces that I need due to U are a transparent media through Srila Prabhupada so then we can reach Lord Krsna...

See U pretty soon at the airport¡¡¡¡ We are making all the arrengments with Gandharva prabhu..junta etc..

My deities are eating now....

Thank U thank U Thank U

Your eternal insignificant servant

Candramukhi dd

HpS - AGTSP   ----  Krsna is waiting so much for us to just sit with Him! That may lead to a quick death, but that is good!

BEFORE YOU LEAVE USA

9 years, 8 months ago by bhaktanicasio in Personal Sadhana Reports

Hare Krishna beloved and esteemed Gurudev,

Please accept my humble obeisances,

All glories to Srila Prabhupada,

Gurudeva, thank you so much for being a living representation of Srila Prabhupada's teachings, for your clear example, for extracting the most precious nectar from this refined philosophy. For giving us so much association through blog, SM, tweeter, Kdh, etc.

You are an ocean of good qualities gurudev, i can not take everything you have to give, in fact i take so little, what a fool i am.

4 principles ok, 16 rounds ok (although i have a recorded debt that im cancelling little by little).

I'm alive in the sankirtan movement, many things are going on here in mardel.

I listened to the audios you post on tweeter, today i listened to HH HDG presentation about the need of establishing a philosophical committee in ISKCON. I feel his an your preaching are so much avant garde, is like you are ten years in advance.

This is the big question, what do we need to cease to be a small cluster of people living a parallel reality to become leaders who influence the global status quo?

I face often with clever educated people who leaves our center El Loft because they feel that devotees dont practice what they preach or because they see different kinds of faults in devotees. What can i do for this persons, to help them discover how much nectar there is within ISKCON? 

I was away one week on vacations with formidables Manu and Benja, had very good time many adventures. I feel they are coping great with the fact that their parents are divorced.

Their psychologist told me that they see their parents as good friends.

I'm also doing  psychotherapy. Is really helping me a lot. 

I feel that very little by little I'm making advancement, tiny but important realizations!!

JAYARAMA!! Gurudev!!

Latin America needs your wisdom!!

I'm sure you will impact so many people.

Sadhu sanga, and Krishna Katha!!

Harer nama eva kevalam,

At your divine and sweet soft lotus feet!!

Nikunja Bihari das. 

AGTSP. Paoho. Thank you for you letter. I don't know how to save the wise men who leave the Loft. If they are sincere they will learn how to separate the garbage from the gold in ISKCON. Krsna will push them.

We will be in Peru soon and talk with all your associates there also!

Tulasi Devi Dasi Report

9 years, 8 months ago by hps in Personal Sadhana Reports

All glories to Srila Prabhupada.

Dear Gurudeva, please accept my humble obeisances at your lotus feet.

ASA - AGTSP... Lettuce feet.

I am sorry for not reporting on the last months but I did not want to bother you with my problems. I was serving Sri Sri Radha Madana Gopal for several months and in the meaning some things happened and I decided to wait to tell you.

One year ago aproximately I began a relationship with Bhadrasena das, Harikesa Swami's disciple. After some months I decided to go out the temple to . . . and to know him better.  Since one month we decided to live together in his parent's house and to test to live together. We are aware that it is not the Vaishnav protocol. Now we are expecting a baby and we are going to formalize our relationship as soon as possible. To avoid some criticism in the temple, only a few devotees know it. We are expecting some advise from you if you want to. I beg for you pardon for my offenses to you. I trying to chant my rounds and I hope in some moment recover the service at your lotus feet.

Would you please to change the names?  We don´t want any one to know by now.

HpS - ASA -  Names changed, but you said some people already know.

Your hopeful servants:
Tulasi devi dasi
Bhadrasena das.

HpS - ASA - Everyone in the village probably knows about your relationship. Krsna knows. If you were living together in his parents house that means they approve the relationship and basically you are married.

Be an upright lady. A lady only has children by her husband. This is not an "experiment". An experiment has to be carried out according to certain procedure. So, as a result you probably did not get much information from this irregular experiment.

When you took initiation you knew that 16-rounds and 4-principles were essential for human life. O.K. Were your stupid actions (basically all of us are doing greatly stupid things, like this, or smaller stupid things) done after full effort to act properly? Has this been an accidental falldown, or an intentional falldown?

In any case take a vow of a certain number of rounds that you KNOW you can do daily until Janmastami and then do them for your babies welfare that he will be a devotee of Krsna. Then tell us the result.