Letters to the editor

"Back home back to God"

Back home, back to God

On this sacred day of your Sri Vyasapuja, please allow me to glorify you by placing your life on the altar of my heart, admiring you as the perfect instrument through which Srila Prabhupada continues to expand Krishna Consciousness throughout the world, helping humanity to emerge from this miserable Samsara of material existence.

HpS - AgtSP. We can accept that we are a perfect instrument as are others in Srila Prabhupada's ISKCON, the same way a very imperfect harmonium can be used as a perfect tool in the hands of a perfect musician, Srila Prabhupada. As far as we are concerned, think we have more work to do from our side before we become an independent 'perfect instrument'. Same for you et al?

 You continue to show us the path that Srila Prabhupada left us: chanting the Holy Names, reading his books, rendering service to Krishna,... in the condition we are in, we are not perfect, you. He does not say: a crooked branch is better than a straight branch... with his personal example and beautiful smile he encourages us by telling us: "come on, we are learning the lesson, following the program is easy and you will be happy with Krishna eternally" jay!!

 After saying goodbye to him in Santa Clara (Peru) with the plan to go to India and stay there until he left the body,... I remained silent trying to understand between tears how Devastating it would be when you. leave this world... it is pathetic to recognize that in my childhood I suffered abandonment from my father and suffering from my mother,

it was a trauma that I wanted to overcome throughout my life,...running away, getting away from everything... I thought I had already overcome it, but, again, the pain and suffering resurfaces,...

I walk away, I run away, knowing that it is and is not cushions my pain,

I know it is a lot of Ego, I am working internally to overcome this condition ,... I implore you to forgive my offenses if I have put you in anxiety..

 I remember reading, when Srila Prabhupada was very serious he told his disciples: there is no reason to cry, the old die, that is natural, so do not cry.... when the disciples told him we will not know how to communicate with you.. Srila Prabhupada responded:

 "Oh, I will communicate with you through your heart, I will come to you in your dreams as caitya-guru"

Between cries I try to understand the sacred principle of Faith that unites us to you. through following his instructions that are the legacy of Srila Prabhupada:

 Chanting the Holy Names, reading their books, doing Service to Krishna in a humble and devotional state of Mind... having full Faith in His Mission, that we will be earning our Ticket to return home, back to God, and continue serving Him. You. Beloved Gurudev and Radha Krishna eternally.

 Hanumatpresaka swami, ki jay!!

 His useless and clumsy servant

 M. Jambavati d.d.

HpS - Thank you. We hope th

at we are doing a little to communicate the vision of Srila Prabhupada and Krsna that this wonderful Vyasa-puja offering contains.

On our altar is the little tryptic of your Gaura-Nitai dieties and [?] Vrndadevi, Gopal; and Piggy. Monkey left his body some time ago and we the remains on a branch of the pear tree that we planted on Radhastami a few years ago.

Please improve your association with devotees. You have so many Mothers and Fathers and Big Sisters and Big Brothers!

Next meeting, Nabadvip with Nimai and Srila Prabhupada!!!!

P.S. We have many other offerings collected into one file. We hope to get to it.

We also have to read the official Disciple Reports to report to Srila Prabhupada.

How much is our fault in doing this lazy, lusty character?

Right now it 🌞

is at 7.49PM. Have a headache coming. So cannot do much more writing.

• Will join FES with Sri Sri Radha Natabara Sanga.
• Others might ask to join the Whatsapp Group.

Maybe one more Blog post.

So, many nice ones here.

We are all, already half dead. 😃

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 "De vuelta a casa de vuelta a Dios"

De vuelta a casa de vuelta a Dios

en este sagrado dia de su Sri Vyasapuja, por favor permitame glorificarlo poniendo su vida en el altar de mi corazon, admirandolo como el instrumento perfecto a travez del cual Srila Prabhupada continua expandiendo Conciencia de Krishna en el mundo entero, ayudando a la humanidad a salir de este miserable Samsara de la existencia material.

Ud. nos continua mostrando el camino que Srila Prabhupada nos dejo: cantar los Santos Nombres, leer sus libros, rendir servicio a Krishna, .. en la condicion que estemos, no somos perfectos, ud. no dice: es mejor una rama torcida a una rama derecha .. con su ejemplo personal y hermosa sonrisa nos alienta diciendonos: "vamos, vamos aprendiendo la leccion, seguir el programa es facil y seras feliz con Krishna eternamente" jay!!

Despues de su despedida en Santa Clara (Peru) con el proyecto de ir a India y quedarse alla hasta dejar el cuerpo, .. permaneci en silencio tratando de entender entre llantos lo Devastador que sería cuando ud. parta de este mundo ...  es patetico reconocer que en mi infancia sufri abandono de mi padre y el sufrimiento de mi madre, fue un trauma que quize superar a lo largo de mi vida,..huyendo, alejandome de todo .... pense que ya lo habia superado, pero, nuevamente, el dolor y sufrimiento vuelve a aflorar, ... me alejo, huyo, saber que esta y no esta amortigua mi dolor, se que es mucho Ego, estoy trabajando internamente para superar esta condicion ,... le imploro perdone mis ofensas si lo he puesto en ansiedad ..

Recuerdo haber leido, cuando Srila Prabhupada estaba muy grave les dijo a sus discipulos: no hay razon para llorar, los viejos muere, eso es natural, asi que no lloren.... cuando los discipulos le dijeron no sabremos como comunicarnos contigo ... Srila Prabhupada respondio: 

" oh, me comunicare con uds. atravez de vuestro corazon, vendre a uds. en sus sueños como chaitya=Guru "

Entre llantos trato de entender, el principio sagrado de Fe que nos une a ud. atravez de seguir sus instrucciones que es el legado de Srila Prabhupada:

El canto de los Santos Nombres, leer sus libros, hacer Servicio a Krishna en humilde y devocional estado de Animo..  tener plena Fe en su Mision, que estaremos ganando nuestro Boleto para volver a casa, de vuelta a Dios, y seguir sirviendole a ud. Amado Gurudev y a Radha Krishna eternamente .

Hanumatpresaka swami, ki jay!!

su inutil y torpe sirvienta

M. Jambavati d.d.

Hare Krsna Dear Gurudeva, please accept my humble obeisances, all glories to Srila Prabhupada.

 For a long time we have prayed to Nrshimhadeva of Mayapur for his [your?] health... Now we have Him here very close...

 I send you this report, which is actually a copy of my diary:

ASA -🐵 🐖🐖🐖 Thank you!

From Deli to Calcutta by plane and from Calcutta by taxi to Mayapur... We arrived in the afternoon and after a bath we went to ask permission from Lord Siva to allow us to enter the Dham... The altar of Lord Siva was closed, but you could see it from the window in the temple of one of the Vaisnava Gaudiyas (there are many temples around here) and then we went to take darshan at the Iskcon temple...

We have seen Panca Tattva, Radha Madhava, through photos and videos for so many years.

Astasaki, and Nrshimhadeva, seeing them in person was a very difficult experience to tell...

ASA - 🐒 Can break even a stone like heart!

From some signs, I always thought that I was more attracted to Vrndavan... Actually I don't know... But I feel very good here in Mayapur...

HpS - Mayapura is a confidential part of Vrndavana, where Lalita and Visakha try to explain to Krsna the feelings that Radha has for him, no?

There is something to Chosica, where I lived for more than fifteen years... We have already visited several historical and sacred places... And I would like to stay... But I still have to see Vrndavan...

We nhave been here in Mayapur for almost a moth and we have been very busy serving in the Bhakti Marga Swami theater team, this year "The Age of Kali" will be presented, which they say was presented before and Srila Prabhupada liked it very much...

 Here in Maharaj's team there is also Parama Karuna [Das!], he is the lead, he is Kali in the theater, and he was the one who recommended me to Maharaj... I am taking charge of the lights...

 Yesterday the official presentations of "The Age of Kali" began and many great personalities, Gurus, sannyasis, SP disciples, Kirtaniyas, etc. came.

ASA - Outside guests? In the Samadhi Auditorium?

 We will be from March 6 to 12 here in Mayapur and from the 13th there will be a small tour ending on March 18 in Deli... That day our service ends and we are thinking of going to Vrndavan for a few days to return for Gaura Purnima to Mayapur ...

HpS/ASA - 👳 🐒🐒 You are so fortunate. Hope all you friends and family are following you and so many personal relations being corrected.

Mother Saci even committed offense to Advaita Acharya and had to ask for forgiveness!

 Please bless me to enter Vrndavan, we don't know what will happen when we are in Srila Prabhupada's Samadhi or when we see Gaura Nitai, Krsna Balarama and Radha Shyamasundar in person... We have longed for that moment for a long time...

ASA - ... and Govardhana❗❗❗

 I hope to see you again here in the Holy Dham, I hope that is one of Krsna's plans for me...

 Your aspiring AmD servant.

HpS/ASA - AgtSP!!! Hare Krsna.

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Hare Krsna Dear Gurudeva, por acepta mis humildes reverencias, todas las glorias a Srila Prabhupada.

Desde hace mucho tiempo le oramos a Nrshimhadeva de Mayapur por su salud... Ahora a Él, lo tenemos aquí muy cerca...

Te envío este reporte, que en realidad es copia de mi diario:

De Deli a Calcuta en avión y de Calcuta en taxi a Mayapur... Llegamos en la tarde y después de un baño fuimos a pedir permiso al Señor Siva para que nos permita entrar al Dham... El altar del Señor Siva estaba cerrado, pero se podía ver desde la ventana en el templo de una de las Gaudiyas Vaisnavas (hay muchos templos por aquí) y luego fuimos a tomar darshan al templo de Iskcon... Hemos visto por foto y videos tantos años al Panca Tattva, Radha Madhava Astasaki, y a Nrshimhadeva, que verlos personalmente fue una experiencia muy difícil de contar... 

Por algunas señales, siempre pensé que me sentía más atraído a Vrndavan... En realidad no lo sé... Pero me siento muy bien aquí en Mayapur... Tiene algo a Chosica donde viví más de quince años... Ya hemos visitado varios lugares históricos y sagrados... Y me gustaría quedarme... Pero aún tengo que conocer Vrndavan...

Ya estamos casi un mes aquí en Mayapur y hemos estado muy ocupados sirviendo en el equipo de teatro de Bhakti Marga Swami, este año se presentará "La era de Kali" que según dicen fue presentado antes y a Srila Prabhupada le gustó mucho...

Aquí en el equipo de Maharaj también está Parama Karuna, él es el protagonista, él es Kali en el teatro, y fue quien me recomendó con Maharaj... Yo estoy haciendome cargo de las luces... 

Ayer empezaron las presentaciones oficiales de "La era de Kali" y vinieron muchas grandes personalidades, Gurus, sannyasis, discípulos de SP, Kirtaniyas, etc. 

Estaremos del 06 al 12 de marzo aquí en Mayapur y a partir del 13 habrá una pequeña gira terminando el 18 de marzo en Deli... Ese día se termina nuestro servicio y estamos pensando ir a Vrndavan por unos días para regresar para Gaura Purnima a Mayapur...

Por favor bendiceme para poder entrar a Vrndavan, no sabemos que va a pasar cuando estemos en el Samadhi de Srila Prabhupada o cuando veamos en persona a Gaura Nitai, Krsna Balaram y Radha Shyamasundar... Hemos añorado ese momento por mucho tiempo...

Espero volver a verte aquí en el Santo Dham, espero que ese sea uno de los planes de Krsna para mí...

Tu aspirante a sirviente AmD.

February 20, 2024

Dear Maharaja Hanumat Presaka Swami,

Please accept my humble obeisances, All Glories to Srila Prabhupada!

Bhaimi Ekadasi is underway, and thoughts are beginning to sway, best I find something to say. Japa is resting for a moment, after 16 rounds of fulfilment this day. 

While fasting, am packing cookies to restore meager offerings to others, though this batch was not so easily matched with pillaged dough and distraction shown.

Dry mixes all astrewn, butter was fluid, seemed to be doomed, my only hope would be the Lord’s boon, for my mind was swooned...again.

Well, kept the faith and mixed it straight, came out great, these cookies have been offered since 98’, only the Divine saved me this time.

Age is showin’ have to keep goin’,

for too eager for the everlasting past,

regardless,

changing bodies remind us we don’t last,

time to pass... going out with a biscuit blast.

On to the gift of “now”, we’re present to expand our presence,

best yet with an essential vow...

may our minds be supine like Tulsi, resting on Govinda’s brow [?], then our frivolous pride will humbly bow.

Under the sway of Ekadashi, then Lord Varaha pulls the Earth from the ocean's waves. That’s not all to say, next is dear Sri Nityananda’s day, so be it, within this week’s superb spin.

Still composing with a poetic license, though I only have a learner’s permit, unable to fully commit my trips, I will not try your patience or stir agitations with half-baked citations.

Thank you for your patience and compassion, for this fool is ingracious, an obscure bastion-pouring shards of mental debris upon innocent beings.

Concluding, self-diluting ways, arriving to surmise, I have a kaleidoscope for a mind. Thus your flexibility in our banter has forged some intelligence, I'm becoming a chanter. Am grateful for your miraculous subtle touch for I feared so much, this brain could have gone insane, and my japa would not regain.

Now in doing so, ventures are tenured where they grow... I only have to do the needful and flow, always remembering your examples in Sadhana goals which do not encumber our Guru’s Souls, but free their glories to fulfill the eternal toll of God’s Love, priceless and whole.

Enough of my tumultuous tittering will leave you with another's offering, “The Butter Thief” from a real-deal poet who knows it and shows it.

Thank you for your most valuable time!

 c.c. das

HpS/ASA - Thank you!

Thank you for the box of cookies.

They were here when Nandulal Das brought us.

In the rush he forgot his box, but we gave it to NgD and local constituency.

What about minimal sweet, biscuit?

Hare krishna gurumaharaj

Please accept my most humble obeisance on to your lotus feet

All glories to srila prabhupada

How are you gurumaharaj ? It has been more than a year while we had your last Darshan here in India, at Radhakund.

You told me to write to you whenever I had doubts in anything.

Your book Tava Pache Pache has been such a wonderful guide to Nectar of Instruction that whenever I read it, it guides me what to do and I feel your presence.

I never wrote before as I was having tough time fighting with Maya and completing my 16 rounds on time. But now , from last one month I have been able to get up early by 4:30 am and complete my rounds on time.

HpS - Very nice! ! !

By your mercy i'm able to chant 16 rounds properly so I took a pen and wrote to you giving my sadana report.

My service of small giriraj at my home is also going on.

I decorate him everyday with sandelwood paste as you suggested me.

Gurumaharaj, can I do bhakti shastra course, which book should I start reading?

HpS - If you are in Radha kunda you could do it with Bhagavata Maha-vidhyalaya, no? They are near Govardhana. Try to contact them. Sukadeva Das may have their contact information.

Please guide me as I will proceed as you guide me

Thank you gurumaharaj

Hare krishna

Ys- panchali Devi Dasi

HpS - Thank you for wonderful news. Where are you staying in more detail. How long have you been there?

Dear Gurudeva:

Please, accept my humble obeisances. All glories to Srila Prabhupada.

Thank you for the continuos opportunity to get your association in live, trough Go to meeting and another media.

Very soon it is going to be Nityananda Trayodiasi.

These last days, I am being role playing, in the classroom, the pastime of Govardhana and some fighting with demons. I am sending you some pictures.

I have also writen a short story about genre [gender?] violence for a contest, since one school friend has encorouge me to do it. I included the Maha mantra. This way, I think the judges will read it. I am also sending it to you.

Still working, day after day. Life is hard and sometimes I feel tired. but thanks to devotees asociation and chanting japa, I am still in the fight, triying you to be satisfied with my minimum aportation to Srila Prabhupada mission, which is the real goal. Practicing sports also helps me. I practice triatlon adapted to my age, body and very few abbilities. Running allows me to reduce stress and anxiety after a difficult hard day in the classroom, with 17 child minds plus mine! Sometimes, I run, sometimes I swim and, less often, but sometimes as well, I ride the bike. And I do it with Nimai and Sarasvati. We all go together but Sarasvati with kids of her age. In the triathlon group, some people call me Purnamasi, since that is the name that appears in my WhatsApp and they like it.

Nimai is almost finishing his last year of school before the University. He still doesn’t know what to study, but his preferences are International Relationships and Economy. He is a good student and, most of all, a good person. Sarasvati, she is 10, very positive girl. Everybody likes her so, she is popular.

Thank you very much for your mercy.

Hoping one day being able to serve you properly.

Purnamasi devi dasi

HpS - Thank, agtSP, you. It is awesome when we think that there must be thousands of people like us in the world now.

You meet all the Purnamasi type followers of Srila Prabhupada and you all laugh to see how much the same you are and that you all are trying to do something and it is not just one of you but one thousand!

Thumbs up.

Encouraged to do your work.

I meet the 1,000 hps types, nimai meets the 1,000 nimai types.

\srila prabhupada has put life blood into the world.

things are changed.

iskcon is going into third phase.

what does jayanta das think about nimai's studies?

maybe try a lot of different things.

what about cinema?

PAMHO AGTSP! All glories to Sri Sri Guru and Gauranga!

Hare Krishna!! How r u Maharaj!?

HpS - AgtSP!! Do you get our Tweets?🙂

Well here go some of the issues I was telling you in the former letter.

I began experiencing some problems with the mother of my child, some of them are pretty private, and the ones I can mention are:

1. She threatened me and my family, and took my kid away certain day with the police
2. She’s moving to a town a little far away from where I’m living, so I won’t be able to see her that often, and I’m really close to her so that caused me certain distress, and the accumulation of all this things caused me to get a little bit attached to tobacco, thank you and Krishna I didn’t fall so deep, I’m trying to follow your advice of at least not smoking before 6pm and I usually don’t smoke really much
3. She sometimes feeds my kid with certain egg-containing foods

Sometimes I’m feeling sleepy, and I force myself to stay awake because of the stressful situation.

I started a treatment with a counselor in order to quit smoking and seeking new ways to improve my health.

Could you please give me an advice?

HpS - No. Not really. 🙂 Nothing new. Go ahead with the tools Srila Prabhupada has given you. Be bold in chanting Hare Krsna loudly, often. All the:

Tobacco

Witches

Attachments

Etc

Will just dissolve like the fog as the Sun comes up.

Go ahead. You are on the right path. Just stick to it and lean how to progress on it better by practice.

Well beside all of that the quality of my rounds I feel have been better than ever, and also of my reading.

Prabhu Govinda Damodar referred me to a text in which Prabhupada says that in difficult times Krishna gives more mercy.

Also I’ve been feeling myself more enthusiastic.

Thank you very much in advance Maharaj!

Federico Molnár

HpS - Jaya!!