Letters to the editor

Hare Krsna Gurudeva,

Please accept my most humble obeisances.

All glories to His Divine Grace Srila Prabhupada!

I read on the blog after Vyasapuja to write back again at another time because you were flooded with offerings! 

On your Vyasapuja we made some attempts to be a monkey servant: peanut butter cookies, soup, air popped popcorn and bananas to Krsna and shared with Bala, Lalita and Bhaktin Andrea. I had a dream last night where I told you I went to work part time as a new therapist at a community health center downtown (I just started working, so this part is true).  I was very happy that you laughed at my emerging false ego and very seriously assured me to keep up with rounds. 

I apologize for not attending the last week of classes. You mentioned that you would like to do a Pada Padma meeting before class, will this be for Ananta Rupas SB chapter one reading notes and discussion? Please let me know how we can best participate.

HpS - The Saturday morning class is in flux. It definitely seems to be going forward. The Bh. Vedanta part is getting more organized with Vaisesika Das participation. We cannot find out if there any morning classes in the Boise temple right now. You can see our daily and weekly class schedule in the Kapi Dhvaja. Hope you get a chance to help people in you job!

Jahnavi Nila picture and family below. Hari bol and Thank you from our family Maharaj. Please let us know how we can better serve you and Krsna. We are stumbling along. Ananta Rupa is gone and Murari does evening and mangal arati services at least 6 days a week as well as take care of Jahnavi while I work!!

HpS - Super man!!!!!

Right now he is surprisingly not overwhelmed! He may also go to Spain soon.

We are born with these endless desires Maharaj, (when your young your asked do you want apple juice or orange juice?? Does it matter what kind of juice that we have ??) and I can see that following some kind of Varnashrama has helped my mind be less disturbed over the years. Striving for regularity in habits and schedule, austerity/misery/baby cooing  that comes with having a child. At some point how do we get get rid of a niyamagrahah yuppy mentality complacency in KC.  Sometimes thinking about the clock that reminds the masquerade folly of death and mortality in the Edgar Allen Poe prose poem http://www.online-literature.com/poe/36/ helps!!!

Your servants,

Kamagayatri Dasi, Jahnavi Nila and Aja

Now there are days outstretched like empty seed lots 

Fields the farmer is too old to tend to

Thirty five and looking at the expanse

I am tired and she is wearing Me like a thin coat 

The donkey skiffs and skoffs with the stillness of the 5:30 slow rise 

The Sita Hanuman picture glows on as an omen 

To greet the ether world with grace 

And the knob of the old crackly radio 

is our fog horn to stop an increpid disease of jiva jago humdrum 

"Anjana Suta Academy recording ABC Workshop Canto Seven, Bhakti-vedanta Curriculum!"

The sadhu birds awakens the nearly half frozen folly 

With Rupa Nuga prayers 

Two drop offerings of charanAmrita butter milk 

And tales of sleeping under a new tree every night 

Suddenly our nest looks small, silly and  Brittle 

So much bothersome gathering 

Of small sticks

And mud for this..??

Wings together in prayer the fields now seem to breathe and awaken with every verse sweetly sung by the sadhu Sanga

A flock to follow 

Take your children and start anew 

Scoff at the empty seed lots 

And glide to a new Bihari Vrindavan tune 

The dew mixing with a watery tear 

Sentiment at its best

Whispers one bird to another 

"I'm finally going home..."

ASA - "And the world revolves like an ancient woman gather fuel in a vacant lot", T. S. Eliot.
Beautiful inspiring poetry.   If we season all this with the KRSNA book we may be "1"s before all of our "0"s.   Go ahead, more news.

Dear Maharaja Accept my most humble obeisances at your lotus feet !!

All Glories to Srila Prabhupada! 

All glories to Sri Gauranga Nityananda Ram!

 I'm doing much better since i wrote you the last letter. My sadhana is improving as well and attending to Mangal Aarti has healed me up so much. My boyfriend broke up with me because he doesn't want to get married and he blames on me that we both broke principles and after all he says he is confused and he doesnt know what he wants right now, he says im crazy, controlling and bossy (which might be true, except for the being crazy part) (he is also a devotee, with the second initiation) ... he also keeps coming back to say he is sorry and he wants me back, that he loves me and he is trying to reach me with mellow words but his behavior has taken me to be exhausted, he comes and goes as he pleases, and he keeps acting in very disrepectfull ways towards me,  and i don't want to be disrupted by anything right now, i want to keep focus on recovering from what i did, which i still feel ashamed about so i decided to stay away from him and all the troubles that being with him bring to my spiritual path.

HpS - Wow!   AGTSP  Sounds exhausting, like raising and family and keeping two jobs. You're right: Just chant Hare Krsna and Krsna will adjust all these things so everyone is happy. 

It was hard for me to come out with the truth about breaking principles but it was also very relieving.

HpS - Here is good just to discuss things in a general sense and go into details with devotees you know more closely.

I think that in order to become close to the lord i have to be sincere, because no matter hiding the truth,  the consequences will still be there, so there is no point for lying or trying to hide things. i appreciate every single of your kind words and ask for nothing but forgiveness.

HpS - We remember that Rama told Laksmana, that there is no mistake we can make that we cannot correct. We just have to do it.

I get up between 2 and 3 am to chant my 16 rounds, and I'm also chanting extra rounds. i get up, chant my rounds, sing Sri Nrsimha's aarti then do a reading of the Bhagavad Gita. this i have been doing for a week now. i want to make this my daily routine. I'm doing my daily service at the temple and attending to mangal aarti, Bhavagad Gita and Bhagavatam classes and Sadhya aarti. two weeks ago we went to the city to do Harinam and Sankirtan and i did Sankirtan for the first time! very beautiful experience!! looking forward on going on HarinamSankirtan again! 

i want to thank you for taking time to write and guide me thru all of this constant fighting between who i was, who i am and who i shall become in order to serve to the lord as a sincere and humble devotee. 

I'm looking forward into moving to Peru because economically speaking I'm not doing so well here in Panama. migratory laws are really hard on us Venezuelans, because of the political condition back there. everybody is running out of the country and moving to many different countries, there in Peru they are giving us humanitary help. All glories to Peru and Peruvians!!! 

How are monkey, piggy and scientist doing? How are you dear maharaja? how are you feeling lately? how is your health?  let me know if everything its good and also if it's not! i'll appreciated a lot hearing from you.

HpS - We struggle just like you. We are maybe two steps ahead of you and maybe less sincere. Keep readin this Blog and the Kapi-dhvaja and we try to post our news here. Yes!   Be enthusiastic, but also patient.

thank you for being my guidance in this path dear Maharaja!

i hope to hear from you soon !!! HareKrishna!!!

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Gurumaharaj por favor asepte mis humildes reverencias, todas las glorias a Srila Prabhupada, . . . . . . .tu insignificante aspirante a sirvienta Ānanda maya devi dasi 
HpS - Hare Krsna!  Aqui somos para serir Vd, pero... como describimos en www.jayarama.us/kd/lte.htm no podemos ocuparnos en conversaciones privados con damas porque somos todos aqui b'caris y sannyasis (BG 16.1 purport "saucam'). Entonces POR FAVOR escribanos otra vez de sus temas importantes de una manera general eg. tenemos problems con la familia, comunidad, mente...,  etnonces podemos responder.     pronto con perspectivo general, y eso es muy importante, ysi hay necesidad de.  hablar privado podemis hacer un arregla con asociacion de una grhastha correcto.

Bien? Esperamos su respuest entre horas.

Dear Guru Maharaj,

Please accept my most humble obeisance and all glory to Srila Prabhupada and your mission in his service.

I am not at all qualified for the service that you have  said. It is only your mercy that you are trying to positively engage a lost soul like me.

I am abiding to the rules and regulations but my attraction to the Holy Names is wavering.  I find that my mind is more attracted to chanting when it is done in a melodious song. But when it is recited without music, it is harder for me to stay attentive. This makes me wonder if I am attracted to the holy name or just the music. I think my mind is contaminated and is still in need of a lot of purification. As you have taught, the only solution is to take shelter of the holy name and therefore I am going to start chanting again to finish my rounds after sending this letter. 

Your aspiring servant,

Aja govinda dasa 

HpS - When you chant with enthusiams, like lifting weights in the gymnasium, after 16-rounds you feel good! Later comes Jnana yoga. Do it everyday and you will develope so much realization of the benefits to health, moral and mental strength, that you can write books about it.

What is your Houston calendar?? .

Hare Krsna dear Hanumat Presaka Swami!

All glories to Srila Prabhupada.

Please accept my humble obeisances.

It's Bhaktin Marta, Jara Mara Hari Das's wife.

How are you? Hope you are feeling fine in all aspects.

HpS - ASA -- We have had the same question in the last three letters. Ha!    Ha!!    Ha!!!!  There must be a lot of doubt.  We are little soldiers in a big army, mostly fighting our little battle directly with you association!

Today we have a great issue to celebrate and I want to share it with you and all:

Today it's been 20 years since Jara Mara took initiation from you (it was January 25, 1998, in Madrid)

So thank you very, very much!!!

HpS - Happy anniversary to him!      Happy anniversary to him!   Happy anniversary to himmmm!  Thanks to him!!!

What to say. I feel so grateful and so happy for this, for him and also for myself...

Jara Mara is such a wonderful person and devotee, and I am so fortunate to be his wife and to have received such a knowledge and mercy through him.

We are thanking and celebrating with nice Prasadam made with veggies from our beautiful veg garden, a piece is for you, Hare Krsna!

Your eternal servant,

Bhaktin Marta.

HpS - ASA -- Are you going to get fornally initiated. It is like the 'boda'. It is a formality but not a meaningless formality.
Ask The Jara-mara Das to send a little bio-graphy here!

Thank you so so much for this letter.

All glories to Srila Prabhupada's  lotus feet.  All glories to you dear Gurudeva Hare Krishna, please accept my humble obeisances to your exalted personality.

ASA - We hope we can lose some fat!  Started putting on weight as soon as we entered Jupiter.

Congratulations Gurudeva for your Vyasa Puja, I hope you have been very happy.

HpS - Ha!!  Ha!   HAre!     Some thoughts in the other letters today. Have you read them? We feel happy sometimes, but mostly we just feel selfish or duty. Duty is like Santa or Dasya-rasa. We don't want to feel happy. We want to know Krsna with Prabhupada and see what He needs and arrange it and then feel happy when we see it was useful. Thank you for the question, wish!

Here in Mumbai, the family makes a small  celebration trying  to glorify his person,  read some of his writings, and remember some pastimes that we have lived or heard  about you.  It was very emotional  and filled with a lot of inspiration and it also we fell ashamed to see that we making nothing to compared with everything you have done and continue to do for Prabhupada's mission,  his service is so perfect that it motivates us more and more . 

Then 2017, was a year with many stories, extraordinary moments and others with hards distractions. For the month of February it was 9 months of a home school where my daughters developed many skills and knowledge, developing attraction in Krishna consciousness,  studying together the Srimad Bhagavatam, different classes, with many expert advice, good time to sing the rounds and wake up early, was very well. But, in another hand, also I was one year like married woman, and yes, we had some problems in the marriage,  disagreements, but finally, thanks to a good devotees association and advice, the difficulties are overcome :)  

In March we traveled to Moscow, Russia for 2 months, to meet my husband's family,  because of the compromises, trips and new things that can must learned, the home school and the Sadhana paused and then stopped doing . I had a depression time,  maybe because  of the cold, or I don't know why, I didn't have much energy, it was a very complicated time. So, I pray much more to Krishna and Srila Prabhupada,  that if we were already so close to India, that please he permit to live there with my family for a while, and that's how it happened, after that,  the year improved for me and my family. 

Already for May we arrived in Mumbai and it was absolutly better, everything else,  it's easier to wake up early in India,  maybe by the heat,  or the pious energy, I'm not sure, So, I'm worship the deity, chanting the rounds, reading books is something that  I could not achieve very well,  very little, I want to improve that. My daughters enter to a school, to learn English,  seems that everything  is going well. We adapt very well to living in India, even with its austerities such as pollution and traffic. 

In September, for the first time, we were able to visit Sri Vrindavan dham, Gurudeva is true that as you once told us, Vrindavan is not India, Vrindavan is the embassy of the spiritual world, nothing is equal to what is felt, heard or seen before, Well, I probably forgot it and I remember it again, even though we could only visit a week, It felt like a year, we tried to take advantage of every second of that trip, visit as many temples as possible, absorb ourselves in hearing the holy name and observe the beautiful form of Radha and Krishna. My favorite time and place was to visit Radha Damodar temple, upon entering Srila Prabhupada's room, I felt as if i was state in the center of the universe,  where ISKCON began, remembered his biography and the time he lived there. so emotional, Sorry I am so sentimentalist that although I still don't understand a drop of the ocean that is the holy dham. Every day I remember it,  want to return to one day to Vrindavan dham, I thank you very much for giving me your blessings, your protection and a family to accompany me on this journey to back to God, I felt really protected. 

 The last blessing of that year was his visit to India, melancholy of don't see see you in Vrindavan, and then my heart stopped when I saw that you was in the city where we live, Navi Mumbai. My husband and I want to thank you very much for the invaluable time you allowed us to accompany you, the words are insuficient over and it is now with facts with which we must respond to so much mercy.  Thinking a lot about past, it gives affliction, thinking a lot about the future, gives anxiety, right?. Gurudeva, how would be the proper way in which a devotee plan for the future without anxiety.

We promise put more effort, at least try be not so stupid and slow, and put ourselves entirely to service to you for Srila Prabhupada and to finish our rounds every day.  Please consider us if we can serve Gurudeva in something one day.   please forgive my offenses. 

Hare Krishna 

Your aspiring servant, Satyabhama devi dasi

HpS - We remember meeting you in Navi Mumbai in Rama-giri-dhari Das' building.

Plans [memories] are another way we look at our present moment. Make plans are to improve your Bhava, attitude toward the present moment. We are living the future, plan, right now. Hare Krsna.    Say this I remember. Everyone can see my 'secret' thoughts and actions if Krsna wants them too. When you stop being absorbed in the movie you can see what everyone around you is wearing.

First priority, always love Krsna, smaranam. First daily priority, chant 16-enthusiastic rounds.

Such nice pictures!

Good rounds, good moring program, good Sankirtan.