Hare Krisna, por favor acepte mis humildes reverencias mi querido Guru Deva espero que se encuentre bien.
Doy gracias a Krisna por haberle conocido, por su gran inspiración en conciencia de Krisna.
16 rondas, 4 principios, GBC HRida Caitanya Prabhu, Prema Murti Prabhu.
intentando ser su eterno sirviente Jagamohan Das
HpS - Gracias. Pone esta en canal de "Reports" aqui en el Blog POR FAVOR!!!! Super!
Toda gloria a Srila Prabhupada
Por favor, acepte mis humildes y respetuosas reverencias
Hare Krishna Maharaja Hanumatpresaka Swami:
16 rondas diarias desde primera iniciación y 18 rondas diarias hace unos tres años aproximadamente.
ASA - !
Sigo los 4 prinicipios regulativos, gracias a Srila Prabhupada
Mi autoridad es Prabhu Karuna Krishna de ISKCON CHOSICA, Hanuman Prabhu del BBT.
Seguimos proveyendo de libros a los templos y algunos sankirtaneros.
Seguimos en Bhakti Vriksha.
Su sirviente
Caturatma das
HpS - Jaya!!!! Vd es estandard para muchos de nostros. Vamanos. Mas cartas! DTC.
Hare krsna gurudev.
All glories to Srila prabhupada.
I don't know I feel completely lost . From every angle in my life everything is going bad . My faith is no more strong . I like Krsna Consciousness but I don't feel inspired to do anything. I feel clinically depressed and am getting nightmares. In dreams I have visions that our connection is also broken (that is strengthened by the article I read in Guru Tattva that a guru cannot act as diksha guru when disciple stops following). I am still trying to follow the regulative principles mostly (I drink coffee to get energy
ASA - Jaya. AGTSP! We wonder what happened to you! We are very happy to hear from you, but as a medical man isn't it a fact that the 'energy' we get from coffee, caffeine, is from artificially whipping the liver? The result is some temporary low class energy, but with permanent damage to the liver.
). My friends who are not devotees are in better condition both materially and spiritually. I am bitter from inside and feel rotten.
ASA - If you didn't have any goodness in your life you would not "feel rotten" you would just "be rotten". Only if you got a perspective of what is good can you see bad.
Everyday I pray that from today I will do better ..but that today never comes.
ASA - We pray the same. We are stronger in the morning because it is the mode of goodness and we have good association, but as the day progresses we get hit by the same problems, but... we do make progress every day. Not as much as we wished but something. For example, you can chant one more Maha-mantra today than you did yesterday... Boing! bONg... bing.... eternal progress!
I have been a failure in both spiritual and material life . I have resigned from work few months back and don't want to work now for few months.
Sometimes I get visions or feeling that even my death will be tragic and full of suffering with lot of pain and diseases. I feel scared ..if this is how Krsna will reciprocate in my latter days then suicide seems better....And suicide seems more logical and easy way to end this life. Its like I have something in my control because everything else is not. I was talking with a patient he gave me this perspective. As I see my life going I feel after few years I wont be left with any friends or contacts ...and as it seems our connection is also broken (from the dream) I don't feel inspired to do anything . I need to know one thing Maharaj are my offences that serious that you have given me up. One devotee adviced me to directly ask you and get clarification regarding this dream that I had.
HpS - You are and eternal servant of Krsna. You have an eternal, beautiful, blissful body and more friends than you can barely handle. Nothing you can ever do will ever change that. You get sucked...
S U C K E D
S U C K E D
S U C K E D by your attachments into the mud along with the rest of us frogs, but you are still pure, like a diamond in the mud.
The Guru-tattva on line is clear and real and nice. As you describe your condition of course we cannot be functioning as you Diksa Guru. You are not acting on the standard of a Diksa disciple. It is like trying to put gasoline into a bicycle, but, as it says, we are very happy to function in a relationship as Patha-pradarshika, Vartmana-pradarshika Guru and get you back on the path again.
O.K? That can be our relationship? We are always pushing to have a relationship with you. As I said we wonder where you have gone. People ask about you. Krsna pushes you in dreams.
SB is FULL of falldowns. Which kind are you, me, having now, but it is also full of people who corrected the situation and got back to work.
Jaya! O.K. You will let us function as Siksa-guru?
Krsna never forgets even little service I read and he reciprocates .... but I do not know the things happening with me little difficult to understand . I accept that it is completely my fault and I am being punished for my actions but how long more will I be punished for things that is in my nature.
ASA - Until you change your nature. Haw! Haw! Hare! (smiley faces aren't working)
I was reading an article where mother Teresa had mentioned about her loss of faith (externally she was praying but internally she was lost , book name "come be my light") is this some strange stage of bhakti at all. Please help me understand.
HpS - I don't know the details. Can hardly know the details. We are exchanging letters like once a year at this pace!! Write more, every month. Every couple of weeks to start.
I do hope to meet you for few days when you reach on 23rd January 2019.
HpS - When were? Got to have plans!
If possible please do not publish this article for everyone as I don't feel ready to reveal myself (maybe if you can change my name) but it's upto you Gurudev.
HpS - If we don't publish it how can you get an answer? Beyond that don't feel so bad! You are in a LOT better condition than most ISKCON devotees, most of our "disciples".
Sorry for the long letter but I am not feeling strong enough to keep everything to myself and needed to get your opinion .
HpS - ASA -- Well we gave it. About time you wrote! Waiting for your answer to our question.
Hare Krishna .
Dandavat pranam.
Hare Krishna Gurudev!
Please accept my humblest obeisances. All Glories to Srila Prabhupad!
It has been a while since I’ve written to you. I apologize for being so distracted with mundane life which consists mostly of work/further study and temples only on Sunday.
HpS - ASA --- Haw! Haw! Haw! AgtSP. Paoho. It has been months for us to answer this letter. We are also are occupied, but these things are not mundane. The battle of Kuruksetra was not mundane, no?
My morning program routine has fizzled out but I’m trying to bring it up back again.
ASA (Tom Brown/Buck White) - Do it or suffer the consequences! Actually everything will improve if you have a good morning program. You will get much more monkey (money!).
Reading also stopped for a period but I’m trying to bring it back in,
HpS - Sanga!!! Get partners!
. . . even if a chapter before bed.
ASA - Or the Lila-amrta during breakfast...
Rounds have been terrible both quality and quantity wise. I’ve been in denial about this but I don’t remember the last time I struggled this much. Yesterday I figured because it was Krishnas bday-they’d magically get better- but not so much, even with fasting and constant chanting/kirtan – I feel distant. But there is still much mercy! I was lucky to get darshan from 3 diff temples on Janmastmi (pics below!)
Please send some mercy gurudev to help me out of this miserable slump. This past weekend I traveled to Houston for KirtanFest – I was in the temple room one quiet afternoon in front of SS Radha NilaMadhav chanting japa and suddenly my eyes watered up. It felt very cathartic and I felt very hopeful that I’m not a gone-case.
In regards to other ‘phases’ of life- the idea of finding someone is still floating.
I was talking to this one Indian guy who also is God-conscious (he is Sikh). I’ve talked about Krishna, Bhagavad Gita, and the reasons behind the 4 principles- and he understands/accepts it. But deep-down, I don’t think it will go anywhere because I’m realizing that this is a lifestyle which doesn’t offer much room for compromise. He isn’t Vegetarian (but is attempting to be) … so I figured even if this doesn’t work out- maybe he’ll have made some positive change in his life at the end of this. Is this an appropriate thought? I’ve prayed to Krishna but He might have other plans – or I need to develop patience. Or like you said much earlier on- ask Radharani to share haha.
That’s mostly what has been happening. Please guide me gurudev on what mindset I should cultivate and not be so distracted with mundane work life and also to transcend these human/ sense gratification thoughts. How can I get my mood of chanting back? How can I reinvigorate my relationship with Krishna again and make it not feel so distant?
Please keep me engaged and sheltered gurudev. Sorry for slipping- I know I’ve been letting myself down the most. I’m always learning how strong maya really is and how hard it is to control these fleeting thoughts.
Thank you for your mercy.
Your fallen [still attempting to be] servant,
Sugopi dd
HpS - Well, what's the report now? Almost for certain you have made progress. I have the same challenges. We go forward, one way or another. Being kicked in the posterior by Maya or running toward the big, ripe, orange carrot in the sky, Goloka (cows love carrots).
What is the news?
Always do the best you can do. Or course getting up early and getting our rounds done is a super focus.
Waiting for your news.
Haré Krishna Gurudev acepte mis reverencias por favor.
Hace un mes estamos en Islandia Zúrich - Suiza,
HpS - TlgaSP... pfrnrh.... es era tres meces pasado. Viajando no pudimos responder a estas cartas! Ya que pasa?
...nos invitaron a venir por 3 meses intensos viviendo en el templo y ocupados en cocinar para Deidad, Tallelas, Harinam, Prasadam.
HpS - Aah! Haa! Aun alla? Habla Ingles?
Y a finales de octubre regresamos a vrindavan.
Usted vendrá a India este año Gurudev?
HpS - Espero que si. Nuestra calendario esta en el Kapi Dhvaja. 23 January - 27 Marzo en India.
Por su ejemplo y la misericordia de los vaisnavas se puede ocupar en el servicio con algo de bhakti.
Siempre agradecido y endeudado por su señorío Rohini Kumar das
HpS - Que pasa. Como esta? Cuales es su posicion el Sankirtan de Srila Prabhupada?
All glories to Srila Prabhupada!! All glories to Guru Maharaj ! Please accept our humble obeisances at Your lotus feet!
HpS - I guess lotus feet means above the waters of illusion. We have to be careful because we are still influences by them. If it means that Srila Prabhupada's lotus feet are mine by his mercy then, yes obeisances to them.
Hare Krishna Guru Maharaj,
Thank you so much for the reply. Thank you so much Guru Maharaj. Its like a heavy load is being lifted from my heart. After we posted on the blog, we received a mail from our temple president, HG Radhacharan Das Prabhuji to kindly request Guru Maharaj somehow to stay till 22nd March. We are enclosing the mail....
Sun, Dec 2, 10:09 PM (8 days ago)
to me
Respected Mataji,
Hare Krishna!
I have a very humble suggestion that since Maharaja would be fasting for Goura Purnima (21-03-2019) it shall be appropriate for all of us to serve him and his associates with prasadam on 22-03-2019 and arrange his back journey ticket from Imphal on 23-03-2019 or latter date. Please request Maharaj to oblige the arrangement.
With warm regards,
Your humble servant,
Radhacharan Das
HpS - We bought all our inland tickets for India except the ones after Gaura Purnima. We are waiting to see what the developments are and this is one. We must have breakfast in Manipur.
This mail gave me sleepless nights......and we are so happy that all our wishes are fulfilled by Guru Maharaj. We read the reply of Guru Maharaj to Yamuneshwar Prabhu. We are so happy for the news.
HH Bhakti Ananda Haridasa Goswami Maharaj will arrive here today for the Vyasa Puja of HH Swarupa Damodara Maharaj.
Yesterday we had a teertha yatra at 9 Vaishnava holy sites in Manipur....4 buses and 2 mini vans...quite a huge crowd...we wish we could send the pics.
HpS - So nice. Just chant Hare Krsna, dance and take Prasad when you are tired.
About the online Bhakti Shastri, the latest information we got from Mayapur Institute is that we are starting the English one from February next year. We will try to get information from Chowpatty too.
We are eagerly looking forward to having Guru Maharaj's transcendental association here at Manipur.
Your ignorant servant,
Sarada Gaurangi DD
HpS - Yes, let us work on the itenerary for the visit now as the dates are fixed. Please help us to be useful for your Sankirtan.