Hare Krishna Beloved Gurudeva
AGTSP PAMHO
Gurudeva today I did not join FMP because my mom nowadays is at home and me and my sister were assisting her.
Gurudeva I was feeling mixed feelings. Like anger, compassion, fear, love. Because I feel good assisting my mom but I feel fear to just focus on her and not live my life. My sister and I nowadays have a very intense time. We are exhausted. I sometimes think that I am a bad person for having these doubts and mixed feelings. I do not like to feel that my mom is a burden.
I am watching YouTube. I have found a channel of a priest who is a Saint Francis follower. He is very nice. His preaching is through YouTube. My soul feels refresh watching these kind of things
When I was a kid I used to have the desire to be a nun. I guess I will be a nun with Glamour haha
Gurudeva tomorrow you start your tour. So what will happen with FMP??? You asked me to write about this on the blog.
I hope to survive during your tour. Hope to travel with You pretty soon .
I have very nice pictures. I will figure it out how to upload them
Your insignificant servant
Cmdd
HpS - Hare Krsna. I guess your feelings are natural. Our current cultural does not educate us how to deal with these natural things. Pretty stupid culture. So work them out yourself with chanting, association of devotees and keeping association with Srila Prabhupada in his books! In the end it will have good result.
FMP. We just did it here alone in Mumbai. RGD got back at 12PM from program. Thank you for writing here. Thank you so much. I guess we have to smile and say, the obvious answser is that we don't know. Here we are in Mumbai after several days and three airports and we are just trying to get internet and telephone etc.
Would you like to be the Organizer? Anyone else? It may be a lot for you, though my experience has been that even in the middle of very stressfull programs, doing the FMP alone while 7-other devotees slept later, it was always very good. I was able to deal with the other programs so much more intelligently and with physical vigor.
You? Others?
We have not had a lot of communication in planning this trip, so now that we are here and can call people, and that we are arriving in a few days in the different Yatras, many things are starting to happen.
Actually, if no one sees any contribution that we can make to their Sankirtan, then it is not necessary for us to travel and visit. Of course, we will continue to look and see how we can contribute, but in general, we do not need to stay in this illusion, no? Your Mother is not dying. Her cell phone is dying.
HpS - ASA in Seawood, New Bombay!! Nice weather here.
