Hare Krishna Beloved Gurudeva
So sorry I have read that You need to rest your eyes
I just want to express that I am almost detached from my mom. Today she was bleeding like nothing.... It was really scary her pressure was 5.6 she almost passed away. It was really awful she your own mother covered with blood. I do not want that she suffers, she is stable now. But for how long? Cancer is one of the worst illness that we can suffer. We need to forgive a lot, and take our spiritual process really serious, but then I recall Bhakti Thirta S. He was a very honest and serious man. Why he had to suffer? My mom is a very chaste, honest, wonderful lady....
Then I think who will take care of me? Maybe I can join yugala and take care of each other. Being lonely is the worst thing. I was thinking about how I am going to die? Very selfish of myself. Sri Krsna will take charge right?
Well Gurudeva is a great opportunity to be more Krsna conscious. Please forgive my stupidity. I just want to share this with U. I feel unprotected :(
My mom will go soon. I guess that it is about time to be more serious and be conscious that we are preparing our next body
Jaya Sri Rama.
May the Lord protect U always
Your insignificant ser
HpS - ASA -- Hare Krsna! Just call out to Krsna, "Are you there?"
Krsna - Of course, you idiot! We are always here. It's just a movie show. What if you were a child alone in Bosnia in the snow with your Mother Father Sister, Aunt and Uncle blown to pieces.
Can be a wonderful movie even if it is a war movie.
Cancer is the conclusion of everything. The whole material world rots. Have to accept that everything we know will rot, but... rot is good... all the flowers, wheat, bread, is born from rot. Fall, Winter, Spring, Summer. Around and around.
Make it simple. Help your Mother accept the rotting, pain, as the creation of the new body and then focus on waking up. Hare Krsna. Make her a pure devotee in the next few days, weeks.