Jay Govinda. PabloParikrama
<cite>Hare Krsna Maharaja</cite>
<cite>AgtSP</cite>
<cite>Agt Guru and Gauranga</cite>
<cite>Radha Govinda Candra Ki Jay!!</cite>
<cite>I am PabloParikrama from Spain.</cite>
<cite>I hope you got better from your eye, and that you have recovered many strengths.</cite>
<cite>HpS - Much better! AGTSP!</cite>
<cite>I do not know what to tell you about when it is best to come. I selfishly wanted to advise you to come when I had Varuna on summer vacation ... hahaha ... but the mother told me yesterday she does not want me to be with her this summer ...but with my parents there is no problem…hahaha …but I can think, of course, and I can say to You something in the next letter. Thanks.</cite>
<cite>I guess because she does not want Varuna stay with me in Nueva Vrajamandala, and I will not go back to continuous problems with the mother, again. Varuna is already 10 years old by the time he is 11, and he already knows everything. She will know what she does.</cite>
<cite>I have already sacrificed a lot to be close to him all these years (and I have done it with pleasure and duty), but I think it is time for a change. I had for a long time the idea of waiting until I was 12, but it's almost the same.</cite>
<cite>In the previous letter I told You that everything was fine in Nueva Vrajamandala because I did not want to bother You with so many external things, which are always the same ... problems.</cite>
<cite>I would like to open up a bit to you and explain a little about my current personal situation, especially psychological, and how I see my future, in the light of the mother's ongoing problems (she has lost her head the sense of reality) and of my decision to enter vanaprastha. I will try to be brief and no mentally Maharaja</cite>
<cite>First I want to say about Nueva Vrajamandala, that it is a miracle that this temple still exists, because when people are more concerned with looking at what their neighbors do and trying to sabotage their projects, and trying to take advantage of others by learning mediocre mystical powers instead of advancing spiritually ... that's the way it goes, really a kind of hell.</cite>
<cite>HpS - We heard from Srila Prabhupada's lips in 1975 in San Francisco when a reporter asked him, "Swamiji... are there problems in your Temples?". Srila Prabhupada (laughed?) and said, "This is the material world, there are problems everywhere". We are hearing problems from Bolivia, Idaho, here etc. Of course, we deal with them but don't neglect laughing at them also. We can make everything perfect with the Maha-mantra. (https://www.vedabase.com/en/sb/12/3/51)</cite>
<cite>I am 85% determined to go to another country when I come back from India (especially now that the mother wants me to be living in a stable place, apparently the temple is not), and I had almost certainly thought of going to Peru to do service, at least one year, and meet other communities. The truth is that throughout my life, I have been about to go to live in Peru two times ... one married and one already separated, and I am very attracted to the idea of knowing Radha Madana Vihari and her community of little monkeys Hps.</cite>
<cite>HpS - Wow! I think one thing you may learn is that the number of crazy devotees in Peru and Spain are equal.</cite>
<cite>Regarding vanaprastha, I am determined to continue like this ... or rather, to deepen more and more. I think that at one point or another I should wear saffron, I think everything would be more natural externally, but I do not know if a vanaprastha should do it. This decision is linked to the decision to learn to absorb more and more in devotional service, as my last path in this body, hoping not to deviate (It worry me more than to fall) and not to fall. I just want to find a community where I can feel that I am in the right place, and I do not feel it here. I'm only here for Varuna, really.</cite>
<cite>Maybe Krsna's plan is that I do not find an exact place, I do not know.</cite>
<cite>And I am also very attracted to the possibility of being with You longer seasons, learn to help You in Yours proyects, and being able to be initianted ... of course I am also afraid, since I do not know if I am ready to be able to be close to the Guru, but I would like to take a chance and try it.</cite>
<cite>I think the speech has been pretty boring.</cite>
<cite>Thank you very much for all Maharaja, and please, let me know your opinion without hesitation.</cite>
<cite>Yours.</cite>
<cite>PabloParikrama.</cite>
<cite>HARE KRSNA</cite>
<cite>HpS - Thank you very much for this letter. I was surprised that you were not reporting problems in New Vraja Mandala. We have the same problems at our level. Just like I guess Varuna has the same problems at his level.</cite>
<cite>How long have you been at NVM? Have you been following standard for initiation for six months? Longer? Yadu Swami will recomend you for Shelter? Initiation?</cite>
