Hare Krsna H.H. Hanumat Presaka Swami maharaj
please accept my humble obeisances,
all glory to Srila Prabhupada and Gouranga
I have not sent a letter in a while; I am still here in Boise residing with my grandparents Robert & Anita Connor. I'm also grateful they are willing to accept me despite their advanced age; and even better tolerate any devotional activities. My fathers case is still pending and my mother is somehow doing fine by herself out in Europe. It's what she always wanted and probably needed ~
I admit maharaj I have not been doing much more devotional activities outside of coming to the temple every Sunday and occasionally associating with Sri Arjun and Sri Hari dasa, I've been more focused on college education for next years spring semester at BSU. Luckily I've taken the first step and got my GED this October, but then now there's many more steps (Taking ACT or SAT test, more Writing and Math tests to qualify for classes, etc) Sadly I don't happen to be the sharpest tool in the shed when it comes to maths. So I don't feel very confident about taking more tests past the GED until I can re-iterate on algebra by taking a class. Because I'm already so late on getting registered full-time for BSU, my grandparents wanted me to consider community college for next spring (cheaper, no required ACT/SAT or tests past the GED as far as I know..) THEN transfer as a full-time student to Boise State. Next January the Shoshone Bannock native indian tribe can also assist me with possibly getting financial assistance because I was born part native indian.
Otherwise all the academic nonsense I humbly wanted to ask some questions Maharaj,
My grandmother is a very kind hardworking woman that is strongly Catholic faith based like her sister. I can't remember a day she hasn't been there to help my mother, father or help raise me and my siblings when in dire straits. Even now she is very caring & supportive and my grandfather and her let me live here peacefully. But she still like most people nowadays, cooks and eats meat. What does this mean for her Karma or her next life? Its hard to imagine her becoming an animal or going to a lower plane, etc..
HpS - AGTSP. Paoho. Hmmm? Prabhupada says that we can see this "compassion" even in lower species like the wolves. They feel sympathetic for the pain in other wolves. remain faithfull to marriage relations etc. It maybe mostly a thing controled by the laws of nature S.B. 5.18.12 with nor much personal credit. I don't know the details. Do they know where the meat comes from?
What can I do for my siblings? They are with my other grandparents have to eat meat and other things. Of course my brother Ryan and sister Claire don't so much mind it anymore, but my youngest sister Cara feels subjected. I feel somewhat guilty that this is my fault and I cannot really assist her after the whole Europe carousel. She was attached to krsna-consciousness.
HpS - Why do you think it is your fault? Of course, Prahlada Maharaja was subjected to a terrific monster as a care-taker but he just chanted Hare Krsna and was O.K. It is kind of like that. Even if we can't do good 100% we can definitely make some positive contribution to our situation. BG 6 says, "One who does good my friend is never overcome by evil".
your fallen servant,
Reilly G..
HpS - No rounds???????? ?? Reilly G!!!
Todas las Glorias A Sri Sri Goura Nitai
Todas las Glorias A Srila Prabhupada
Todas Las Glorias A usted Su Santidad HPS
Querido Gurudev:
Esperando que todo marche bien y que su salud este estable.
Mi reporte de sadhana no cambia mucho desde la ultima vez que le escribi, me levanto a las 5:30 am, leo el SB a diario, canto 17 rondas a diario, sigo estrictamente los 4 principios, por las tardes leo el BG y en la noche estoy leyendo karma, samsara y el tiempo, tambien un poco el Krishna Book, bueno y a diario con mi hijo vemos mangal arati de mayapur( aca es de noche).
Mi servicio es ayudante de pujari ,cambie el horario para los sabados en la tarde, trato de ir los sabados y domingos para asi tener mayor asociacion con los devotos y poder escuchar las clases.
En este tiempo he tratado de aprender muchas cosas, pero un me cuesta, pero si siento que cada dia me aferro mas a mis rondas, tambien trato de ser tolerante y compasiva con mi entorno y eso es algo dificil para alguien como yo llena de ego, tambien me he dado cuenta que mi corazon esta lleno de prejuicios, pero estoy trabajando dia a dia por superar estas cosas..... solo puedo decir que quiero servir a Krishna y a usted donde sea y como sea. Ya espero con gran ansiedad que venga y poder contar solo con un granito de su infinita misericordia y que me pueda ayudar a salir de esta ignorancia.
Necesito mejorar mi conciencia al momento de hacer mi servicio, al momento de cantar mis rondas , en el momento que medito en usted..... aun asi creo que recibo mucha misericordia del Señor dia a dia y eso me motiva a seguir con felicidad y entusiasmo el camino de la conciencia de Krishna.
le pido perdon por todas mis ofensas, aun no aprendo nada, pero solo quiero servirlo
oink!! oink!! esperando instrucciones, se despide de usted
Bhaktin Carolina Castro (Maipu)
PD: le envio fotos de mi hijo, de mis abuelos y mias....... Jay Gurudev!!!! :)
HpS - TlgSP. Muy bien!!! Pero otra vez, como hace su dia? Vendiendo Prasadam? Escuela. Gracias los fotos. Nos vemos despues de 1 - Enero!
Todas las Glorias a Sri Guru y Sri Gauranga¡¡¡¡¡
Todas las Glorias a Srila Prabhupada¡¡¡¡
Todas las Glorias a Usted¡¡¡¡¡
Querido Gurudeva por favor acepte mis respetuosas reverencias a sus pies, disculpe el no aver escrito antes pero Krishna me desapego de mi computadora y ahora es mas dificil para mi entrar al maravilloso internet, pero bueno aqui seguimos cantando 16 rondas, 4 principios y mangalartic todos los dias ,
ASA - Super! Devuelta a Casa guarantizado.
...sigo en el templo con servicio todos los dias y ahora intentando hacer un poco de sankirtan provando otro tipo de servicio.
Considerando nuestra ultima platica he hablado con mis ahutoridades sobre el que yo pueda viajar a España para el proximo año y me dijeron que si, asi que ya estoy empesando a ver los medios por los cuales pueda comprar mi boleto y el poder hacer un buen contacto con alguna ahutoridad de aya, por favor Gurudeva deme sus bendiciones para que Krishna me permita poder tener esa experiencia tan maravillosa y poder servirle en cualquier lugar
Por favor Gurudeva perdone todas mis ofensas a sus pies
Su Sirvienta Saranagati Dasi
HpS - ASA --- Jaya bueno. Hay buen centros en Guadalajara, Barcelona, con Ashrama, y otros en Madrid, Malaga y mucho mas. Espero que unos devotos de Espana lea esta carta y responder con informacion para Vd.
Dear Guru Maharaja, Please accept my humble obeisances. All glories to Srila Prabhupada!!
I hope this finds you in good health. I wanted to let you know that we decided to give our daughter the name Audharya.
My husband found the name. It means most munificent and also refers to Mayapur dhama. I also want to tell you how I am having a really difficult time chanting all my rounds while taking care of my daughter.
It is really stressing me out that I can't finish them. I know you told me that I should keep this vow strictly but my time gets taken up by Audharya. Someone suggested to me using a counter instead of my bead bad as it can be easier and practical. Is this ok to do?
I am keeping track of how many rounds I need to make up. I feel like such a rascal. Please have mercy on me maharaja. Your aspiring servant Rasa-mandali dd
HpS - AGTSP paoho. Nice name!!! Nice baby!!! How much time does Audarya sleep each day?
AGTSri Caitanya Mahaprabhu and Sri Nityananda Prabhu,
AGTSRILA Prabhupada.
Maharaja, hope you are in a good moment of this life and plenty of health and nice moments surround you. We´re very happy to know soon you´ll be with us here in Argentina.
This morning after daily bath I had a memory and meditate in that memory and got a "don´t know what to do" conclusion, this is why I got close to you to ask for advise: It is good to say sorry to another devotee just because Vaisnava protocols? Even when you do not feel it that way, or it is better to not say nothing till you really got the honest feeling?
HpS - ASA --- Jnana-misra-bhakti yoga is the platform where our service is done because we understand it is the correct thing to do even if we don't have profound feelings about it. If you don't feel sorry then maybe you should not be sorry. Look for a deeper reason why you don't feel sorry. Then maybe you should not apologize or apologize from a different perspective etc.
Ask devotees who know the situation.
Kind of hard to struggle with such feelings, you know many times you cannot coordinate with everyone and you know what is right to do but you cannot so easily to make mind understand that (or heart like stone, not sure).
I´ve did what I thought is better, that is asking for him to pardon me but I feel, I mean I know, I have not been so sincere and really, I do not want to have contact with that devotee anymore, its like perceiving his environment and cultural patterns do not match with me.
Sorry for this letter, I feel in ignorance right now, please Maharaja take away this darkness.
All glories to you lotus feet,
David.
HpS - So many detailed situations, detailed relationships. Best to focus on our practical service coming from Srila Prabhupada and then these details will work out nicely, no?