Pain of Betrayal Becoming Unbearable

3 years, 2 months ago by yajnasenidd in Personal Sadhana Reports

Dear Maharaj PAMHO AGTSP,


We spoke to the husband of the women my husband is romantically involved with, he didn’t seem very concerned about the issue. He said, "My wife has many guy friends and she mentioned about your husband to me too".


He asked me if I wanted to speak to his wife or if the 4 of us should get on a conference call.


He did say he wanted to wait to first speak with his wife before he reacted. He didn’t seem very bothered. He’s our only hope for controlling this woman. He told us his wife is with him, so the Singapore danger averted.


The biggest problem is that my husband keeps his heart shut to me and is wasting time finding his fulfillment in other women, damaging us more, and blaming me that I’m not fixing relationship.


I have tried so much praying for him as well as writing sweet messages to him, I just get “hmm, I have to go work now” and a virtual kiss maybe.


I’m in a deplorable condition, feeling so neglected and abused, always crying and lonely, while he spills his time enjoying other’s wives who are also living with their husband.


Sometimes the pain is so unbearable! I just want to leave this dimension of consciousness/existence and return when all this is over, as I’m not able to bare betrayal anymore… I am chanting in morning and praying as much as possible 🙏❤️.


I sometimes feel great disgust towards my husband, how will I even overcome from these things even if he manages to return.


Your aspiring servant,

Yajnaseni


HpS - ASA -- AgtSP!!! Thank you for your letter. It is a very big issue. In SB there is the story of Dhruva's family: His father, Uttanapada... his mother, Suniti... and his step mother Suruci. Suniti expresses her sentiment to Dhruva (you know this, no?) when he comes to explain the problem he had of being pushed off his father's lap.

"I am like a household servant".


As you describe the situation best thing is to distance yourself from the situation.

Just chant Hare Krsna with sufficient intensity to take your mind away from the problems and see what alternatives your intelligence offers.


I have tried this in situations where I was personally crying because of emotional abuse in ISKCON also.


Krsna gave me intelligence of how to react, plan, what positive action to take, and He did things from His side too: Had a senior devotee threaten to shove the mean devotee out a second story window.


Of course, the new plan of action was scarey, but I felt assured within and from consultation with devotees without, and it has a great step forward in my Ashrama.


Maybe go live with parents, brother, sister and brother in law. Start to work in a new Yatra?


Of course, that is a response to the situation as you describe it.

Having talked with people directly involved, Other-Woman's-Husband, may be better advice than we can give.


Srila Prabhupada is my personal friend as soon as I chant. He is yours too if you just look to him.

Hare Krsna, Hare Krsna.

Offering for H. H. Jayapataka Swami at his Vyasa-puja 2022

3 years, 2 months ago by abhiramdas in Personal Sadhana Reports

Hare Krishna respetado Gurudeva panhr, TLGASP!! TLGAHpS!!

La madre Ojasvini Radhika dd me pidió que la ayudara a hacerle llegar, por este medio, la invitación, para usted, de los encargados de la publicación del libro de Vyasa puja de SS Jayapataka Swami:



"Mi muy querido y apreciado Siksha guru, Su Santidad Hanumatpresaka Swami Maharaja, por favor acepte mis respetuosas reverencias a sus pies de loto. 

Todas las glorias al liberador del mundo entero de toda la miseria material, Srila Prabhupada ki jay 🙏


Querido Maharaja, los discípulos de Su Santidad Jayapataka Swami encargados de la publicación del libro de Vyasa puja, nos acercamos a usted con todo respeto y cariño para preguntarle si usted pudiera hacer una ofrenda para su querido hermano Su Santidad Jayapataka Swami Maharaja y de esa manera embellecer y exaltar más nuestro libro de Vyasa puja del 2022.


Muchas gracias maharaja, a la espera de su amable respuesta

Su sirvienta y siksha discípula, que aunque no le escribo en el blog, si lo sigo en sus clases y tomo como mía, también, su misión de educación Vaishnava como una de las cosas más prominentes en mi vida. 🙏🙏🙏


Su sirvienta

Ojasvini Radhika dd"



HARE KRISHNA GURUDEVA, su insignificante sirviente, Abhirama Thakura Dasa.

JAY SRI RAMA!!!!


HpS - AgtSP... Paoho... We were looking forward to writing this appreciation of Maharaja, but then we were absorbed in the Temple Opening and Rama-navami Festival in Richmond along with initiation ceremonies online and Bhakti Vaibhava final examinations!


We had some close association with Jayananda Das, Hansadutta Swami and our Sannyasa guru, Bhakti Svarupa Damodar but with H. H. Jayapataka Swami, not too much. Of course, he is our GBC Secretary in countries like Peru where we travel, and we come in contact with His Holiness in other Hispanic countries while preaching, but we will only have a little to say.

In general, we have had a few amazing experiences with Maharaja that also happened in the few times we had direct contact with Srila Prabhupada. We have seen Maharaja's inexhaustible travel schedule and his ability to relate intensely with a variety of people, many very intense in themselves.

We tend to be formality bound Sannyasis in many ways but Maharaja's dealings with people are much more flexible and go to a level beyond our ability to evaluate his depth. We have heard that Srila Prabhupada commented on different occasions that he must have been an associate of Lord Chaitanya in his previous life.

Our basic relationship with Maharaja is of one observing a very large and potent phenomenon and desiring to know more.

On this occasion we wish Maharaja the best of wishes for his true abilities to manifest and to expand the Sankirtan movement where ever he goes.

Thank you,

Hanumatpresaka Swami

Grhastha Ashrama

3 years, 2 months ago by hps in Personal Sadhana Reports

Hanumat presaka Maharaja,

Please accept my humble obeisances and all glories to Srila Prabhupada.


My husband is not cancelling his ticket to Singapore to go and meet a married woman (his romantic interest).

Maharaj, should I try to prevent him from going? I have tried to bring up reasonable arguments to his parents and him and he agreed to cancel, but no cancellation still.

If he goes I’m pretty sure he will be physically intimate with her and I won’t be able to stay in this relationship, and I’m not sure I’ll be able to follow the 6 years no remarriage rule you describe as well.

How can I protect my dharma?

Today I threw up my hands and chanted in great prayers to the Lord to please protect my honor, help me follow my dharma as ordered by you, my spiritual master 🙏.

Please help us know what is our duty as a Hare Krsna wife in this regard.

Do we have the right to prevent him by other means?

Your aspiring servant,

Bhaktin Caroline


HpS - All glories to Srila A. C. Bhaktivedanta Swami, Sri Sri Gaura Nitai.

I don't really know the situation perfectly nor am an advisor on the level of Lord Caitanya, nor Srila Prabhupada.

Seems to me that you should not engage in any physical violence but entusiastic argument and threats of threats from a chaste wife are not excessive.

You can spend your time praying to Krsna for some really scarey sounding curses.

https://vedabase.io/en/library/sb/7/11/28/

Is Srila Pabhupada's first class advice.

Of course one may not be able to chant 16 rounds a day or follow other instructions for initiated standard.

Then one should work sincerely to do the best they can and Krsna will adjust our life and help us to come to the proper standard as quickly as possible.

He appreciates one who is too attached to follow the standard but is not angry at the standard and wants to advance as soon as possible.

Off to the evening program etc.

Your servants,

HpS ASA!

Good luck with you happy progress in your VAD and Sankirtan.

Cookie Recipe, Sadhana, Sankirtan

3 years, 2 months ago by i8themaha in Personal Sadhana Reports, Special Category A

Hare Krishna!

Please accept my respectful and humble obeisances, all glories to Srila Prabhupada!


Dear Gurudeva!


If it's not too late for cookie recipes, here goes...


In a food processor, blend:


20 dates

1 1/2 cups cashews


This will make the "date flour". For more chewy, add more dates. For a harder cookie, add less dates.


Then add a banana, and blend again.


Next through the top keep the pulse button going, while gently pouring a sweetener (agave, maple syrup, honey

..) until the mixture turns into a ball.


Then flatten out onto a cookie sheet and cut into squares.


One option is to roll the squares in coconut flakes for a nice crunchy finish (for Lord Narasimhadeva!!) Or I'm sure Lord Narasimhadeva might also like these with fresh peanut butter spread beneath the coconut flakes!


This recipe can be interchanged with any type of fruit, any type of nut, and any liquid sweetener.


I used to work at a raw vegan cafe, so the only recipe I know is the "no bake" one..


Also, I just wanted to let you know that Iskcon Houston now has Nectar of Instruction on their book table..,😊🌲🌲🌴🌲😊🌲🌄😊🌲


I'm still good with the FMP daily, Mangala with Radha Kalachandji! 16R/4R zero K!


And I spoke with Paramesvar Prabhu, he has agreed to teach me the science of distributing Srila Prabhupada's books. I think I can join him in early August at the national parks....mode of goodness...



Haribol!


Your servant,

Jaya-hari Das


HpS - We are sitting in Richmond getting ready for the PanAmerican Symposium on Education.

Your recipe and news are super motivational for any even 25% sane human being.

Book distribution may become an inescapable addiction!



Lalita Madhava Das

3 years, 2 months ago by LalitaMadhavadas in Personal Sadhana Reports

All glories to srila prabhupada

Please accept my humble obeisances, dear gurudev

I apologize for not writing so often, I have had some health problems and my poor coordination of time.

To begin with, I want to express my great interest and gratitude for allowing me to help you in the service that you practice daily and especially with the film that you direct.

In this regard, I had health and family problems that did not allow me to be very capable of responding promptly to all the requirements, but trying to make the best effort in those difficult moments.

In the same way, I sent my sincere apologies and audio material to Abhirama T. Prabhu, which were not accepted, excluding me from any possibility of being able to perform a service at his lotus feet, which made me very affected and sad.


HpS - Krsna has a better use for you music. 😁 I can see that we are all just little parts of Krsna's orchestra and He is really the only one who knows are ability and sincerity. The saintly Vaisnavas my think ill of us by Krsna's will, but we need to satisfy Him.


Due to the great brotherhood that I have with Juan (table player, Om Bhakti) he understood me and wished that I could collaborate, recording with him some pieces for certain scenes, hoping that they have reached his hands and being to his liking .(attached link to download music)

https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1AMC0z4enPlIWUHIwDRSZdAIBl8P-_7iP?usp=sharing

I am always willing to help in the mission of serving the Lord and facing these difficulties that test my determination and serenity.

Together with Manjuali DD we continue to distribute prasadam to all kinds of people, a service that keeps us in frequency and united.

We were able to get a date for the civil marriage process for April 11.


HpS - The day after the appearance of Lord Ramacandra!


Once I have the document I will present it to the temple authority.

Manjuali Dd continues his service to the deities on Wednesdays and has started his study of Bhakti Sastri.

Excuse my long letter, you are our refuge and guide day by day, our krishna consciousness in your example dear guruji.

Hoping to qualify myself day by day to be at your precious service, your sure servant

Lalita Madhava Das

March 2022, listening "Hanuman Chalisa"


HpS - 😁 😁😁😁😁😁😁😁

😁😁😁😁😁😁 😁😁😁 😁

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We have to pay for electricity, gas.... and also for the air we breath.

Should we chant one one Maha-mantra for each breath.

With our lips or in our heart?

We will fail in our "material" dities?

Really, leave as soon as possible.

I think there will be too much opportunity for music for these movies.


JayaRama - nueva etapa

3 years, 2 months ago by piyari_mohan_das in Personal Sadhana Reports

Hare Krishna Gurudeva


Please accept my obeisances


All glories to Srila Prabhupada



How are you? It is miserable to live in a material body, as you repeat, it is not that this body gets sick, this body is a disease.


ASA/HpS - Let us become prison guards, psychologists in the prison. Then being in the hospital is Vaikuntha, no?



In my case the subtle body is not doing very well, but with medication it can be controlled, as you said in a previous letter, I am struggling with my illness.



I want to know how I can remedy what I did. Do you have any advice?


HpS - Talk with local devotees who know the situation and the people involved. Many. Then you can have good idea.

"Victim" will feel... Hmm... in the end it has all worked out with big profit for everyone, for Krsna.


I wish to be able to apologize to mother Guru Govinda soon. For this I go to the authorities of the temple, but they have told me that she continues with psychological treatment, just like me. That is why I have not been able to send you my letter.


HpS - Yes, you are doing well.


After that I want to make an apology to the congregation, I think it's good to do it.


I wanted to tell you that yesterday, March 25, I had my first visit to the institute. They gave us talk about high school and career. There are 2 years of study, this was one of the reasons why I chose the digital communication career. I wish I could finish the race, please your blessings for it. I will be able to learn various tools that can be used in the service of Srila Prabhupada and in a professional way.


HpS - 🙂


Sometimes I think that maybe I should have gone into music composition, but I'm already up and running with digital communication.



My psychiatrist asked me to take vitamin D, at first he made me take concentrated doses and now I have to take normal medication.



There is a Chilean company of vegetarian and vegan vitamin supplements. They have a vitamin D3 option that is vegetarian, which is made from sheep's hair, I didn't buy it as I thought it would break the principle. What do you think? Can this medicine be consumed?


HpS - Seems O.K. Sheep have a lot of hair. Doesn't hurt them.


Well thank you very much Gurudeva


says goodbye


Piyari Mohan Das


obeisances



HpS - Go ahead. Show your sincerity and repentance and your adjustments to avoid this problem again.

Leave all material bodies and help others to do so.

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Hare Krishna Gurudeva

Por Favor acepte mis reverencias

Todas las glorias a Srila Prabhupada


¿Cómo se encuentra? Es miserable vivir en un cuerpo material, como bien usted repite, no es que este cuerpo se enferme, este cuerpo es una enfermedad.


En mi caso el cuerpo sutil no anda muy bien, pero con medicamentos se puede controlar, como usted dijo en una carta anterior, estoy luchando con mi enfermedad.


Quiero saber de que manera puedo remediar lo que hice. ¿Tiene algún consejo?


Deseo poder pronto disculparme con madre Guru Govinda. Para ello acudo a las autoridades del templo, pero me han dicho que ella sigue con tratamiento psicológico, al igual que yo. Por ello no he podido hacerle llegar mi carta.


Luego de ello quiero hacer una disculpa a la congregación, creo que es bueno hacerlo.


Quería contarle que ayer 25 de Marzo tuve mi primera visita al instituto. Nos dieron charla sobre el instituto y la carrera. Son 2 años de estudio, esta fue una de las causas por la que elegí la carrera de comunicación digital. Deseo poder terminar la carrera, por favor sus bendiciones para ello. Podré aprender varias herramientas que pueden ser usadas al servicio de Srila Prabhupada y de manera laboral.


A veces pienso que tal vez debí entrar a composición musical, pero ya estoy en marcha con la comunicación digital.


Mi psiquiatra me pidió tomar vitamina D, al comienzo me hizo tomar unas dosis concentradas y ahora tengo que tomar medicación normal.


Hay una empresa chilena de suplementos vitamínicos vegetariano y vegano. Tienen una opción de vitamina D3 que es vegetariana, la cual se hace en base al pelo de oveja, yo no la compré ya que pensé que rompería principio. ¿Qué opina usted? ¿Se puede consumir ese medicamento?


Bueno, muchas gracias Gurudeva

Se despide

Piyari Mohan das

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