I'm afraid that my japa is still cut, a thousand excuses not get it to be continuous, uncut.
Varuna normal, barely see, and Virginia only cause me problems, you may need to be a long time without seeing Varuna and the truth is that scares me a little because I am very difficult to control my mind in that situation, but I learning to have a more global vision, or so I would like.
They really need my japa is continuing to be well, I know very well, and I wish you much, but I can not.
My mind makes problems eat my day, my steps, plans and the truth, I'm trying to break a stone wall, fought with everything and just look away all that is around me. I do not think that is bad, but it affects me.
My brother needs my help on the ground at 100 km W of farm madrid, Varuna need me and I him, and I can not end under any order to do my duty well, not even sure I can see Varuna 4 days a month.
I would love to take refuge in ISKCON but I can not leave my brother alone in the ground with everything he has done only by the best and highest intentions. I can not leave Varuna, and all my efforts can not solve the problems.
Yadunanda Swami said one thing that will stay with me "acts as if everything depended on you, knowing that everything depends on Krsna" ... When you throw in the towel?.
I feel betrayed Krsna not protecting me, but how can I abandon my immediate obligations?, What example would give?, How to live with myself not knowing if I did the maximum I could? ... That Krsna forgive me so I will say, I find myself unable to leave anyone, least of Varuna, so helpless. I am young, crazy, arrogant and immature, but Krsna is Almighty, He knows everything, He knows many things. He knows how I am and know I'm crazy for running to his arms, but, how can I live with my faults, my situation, my duties and my divine natural duties ?
Karma says Varuna will not learn anything from me, but he will feel admiration for me and surely will be so, but I will do what I have to do, until Providence oblige me to be somewhere else.
Is it wrong to act like this?
Maharaja forgive me if it has been long, I needed to express myself.
I see you everywhere, thanks.
Thanks you very much.
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HpS - AGTSP pamho. Yes, it is long, but it is in O.K. English so we could pass through it quickly. Sorry little slow to answer. We are in Buenos Aires with Temple programs, outside programs, Bhakti Vaibhava programs. All I can say is that I do not know everything. You have brother, good friends amongst the devotees in Spain. Talk with them.I do know that even if we do 15% perfect in our Japa vrata, that is for sure and certain eternal, best efficient result.
Sometimes I cannot stay awake but I go on chanting, wake up, chant, wake up and eventually my body has the rest it needs and we can chant 100% alert.
So go on trying to chant 16 nice rounds minimum, and then your body, mind, family will take what they need and eventually you will be able to chant 100% with your family as perfect help.
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