Letters to the editor

All Glories To Srila Prabhupada

Dear Gurudeva, Please accept my humble obeisances.

I hope you are well and all your planes to please Krsna and Srila Prabhupada are going perfectly.

Here I am, still alive I'm really sorry I couldn't write before and I couldn't sent my report last december, I had nothing to say to you after the meeting we had when I saw you last time in Mayapur. I have nothing to hide and perhaps can be usefull for someone else tahts os goign through the same stage, so I will write what I really been wanting to write you long ago.

It's funny actually or I can say ridiculous but sometimes we get so much and we can't appreciate what we have. Krsna gives us so much and we are so stupid that intead of doing our best and try to keep it up, we are just thinking that this is not true, this can't be perfect and it's gonna finish any moment. Of course everything is gonna have and end but what I'm meaning with this is that "I got so much" I live in a wonderfull place, have a house to live in with all the facilities, nice family, wonderfull devotee husband that appreciates and respects me, an amazing temple with stunning deities 50 metres away and everything anyone could wish for, but last year I got depress with no reason, everything was so perfect that I was just scared that this could end at any moment and instead of doing my best and living the moment, I was just without wanting to do anyhting at all. Dhruva was doing everything he could to make me feel better and instead of helping, it was getting worse, he even took me to India to see you and visit the Holy Places,.... I was happy but still something wasn't right. Until Krsna did a "BOOM" in my life. When we return from India my mother got really sick, the temple she was doing service for didn't care at all, so I took her with us and been spending almost the whole month in hospitals. On the 20th of Dec she had and emergency surgery and she needed full time care, not longer after on the 24th Xmas Eve, Dhruva fall off a wall and broke his arm and again more hospitals, surgeries and full time carer. I've been looking after them day and night. Working to get some income too. So finally realised that Krsna was giving me so much because he was preparing me for the tough times, but silly me wasn't apreciating what he was giving me at the time. So I had to suffer in both, good and bad times. I wanted to tell you that when I saw you but I was so embarrased that words didn't came out, now I'm telling you this in public, leaving my ego aside and accepting that I'm not perfect and for stobburn I had my piece. You can't imagine how good it feels. I've never felt that good after accepting my mistakes before.

Dhruva is getting better, sadly mum is going for another surgery in a couple weeks, dad is moving with us next week also will be going to surgery in few months, my little brother is working hard and helping us out.

So here I am, going to Mangala arati at least 5 days a week, rounds are getting better, dressing the deities twice a week and more if needed (I'm in charge of the Pujari roster) somehow Sri Sri Radha Govardhandari are pulling me towards them. As a work I do the sweets for the Govinda's restaurant. I'm the secretary of the TP (Ajita Prabhu) doing some papperwork at the moment, help with garlands once a week and will be studying Bussiness Administration. Busy life and actually I'm really loving it. I finish the day so tired but I'm happy. Getting my life back and really enjoying the association around. New Govardhan is a nice community and feels like a big family.

We are really looking forward to your visit, I hope you can make it this time. I'm really missing your association and my god-brothers/sister's.

Oh yeah, we are having our Vedic Wedding on April 1st, it's "April Fool's day" but more important than that, that day is "Sri Rama Navami" exactly a year after our legal wedding and 7 years since I took 1st initiation, with all my ups and downs I'm still here, willing to do better and be helpfull in your sankirtan.

Trying to be helpful

Dhanesvari Devi Dasi

HpS - ASA   --  Congratulations. Now you are a lady. AgtSP.   Paoho.

O.K.   Next. . . .     What is you mission in life? The health issues come and go, but does Krsna have a specific mission for you?    Srila Prabhupada told Jadurani dd that she should be attached to two things, Krsna and painting.  What about you???     We have it from good sources that our job in this movement is to see that devotees who come don't go away, and you??

all glory to Srila Prabhupad and all glory to Sankirtan movement by Sri Caitanya

dear gurudev

these day i'm living in Guadalajara, here devotees are very magnanimous with me. They giveme a good example about the bhakty's path. Paundra Prabhu is here too. I hope for your visit. sincerly your servent AKD.

HpS - ASA  -  Srila Prabhupada es como un elefante grande quien establece un sendero que podemos seguir todos nosotros.   Si, nos vemos pronto.  Podemos dejar la intoxicacion de la energia material cuando estamos practicamente fijado en la intoxicacion espiritual, no?

Hare Krishna Dear Guru Maharaja and devotees,
Please accept my huble obeisances.
All glories to Srila Prabhupada.

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Main reason I writing this letter is that I got just scared <img alt="" src="http://hps-d6.monkeywarrior.com/sites/all/libraries/ckeditor/plugins/smiley/images/a11.gif" title="" /> when I saw my name connected to some letters on this blog which I didn't write. If I understand correctly there are 3 living disciples of HH Hanumat-presaka Swami with name Prahlad-nrsmha Das. I am one who lived in Radhadesh for last 6 years who is working on vedabase.com website.

If any of Prahlad-nrsmha Prabhus read this: Can you please always identify yourself more clearly than only by your name?! <img alt="" src="http://hps-d6.monkeywarrior.com/sites/all/libraries/ckeditor/plugins/smiley/images/46.gif" style="line-height: 28px; font-size: 18px; background-color: rgb(253, 226, 205);" title="" /> I am trying to become devotee and to cooperate with other devotees and extreme letters on internet may bring some problems to me and to my services. Thank you. 

Gurumaharaja, I am sorry to use blog for above announcement, but I just cannot leave it uncommented as I don't agree with mood of another devotee who has same name.
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In 2 weeks I will leave Radhadesh, will visit parents and work on one project from there. Than in May, when you will be in Radhadesh, I would like to come to visit also if possible and than I will go to Sridham Mayapur, my new shelter.

I am greatful to Sri Sri Radha Gopinatha for last 6 years, where I could meet you, many interesting devotees and slowly got rid of some bad qualities.

Although I don't really understand what is exactly happening in my life, I feel like Krishna is just carrying me closer to Him.

Your servant Prahlad-nrsmha das <img alt="" src="http://hps-d6.monkeywarrior.com/sites/all/libraries/ckeditor/plugins/smiley/images/39.gif" style="line-height: 28px; font-size: 18px; background-color: rgb(253, 226, 205);" title="" />(ex-Radhadesh, vedabase.com) 

HpS - ASA --              A G T S P !     Yes, it is a problem.    HpSwami has given the name Prahlada nrsmha to this esteemed Prahlada from Radhadesa. Another very nice devotee from Chile. Another from Florida who left his body in old age. And Prahlada to the very nice, but from our point of view too passionate, devotee who is writing about the primacy of book distribution.

Before it was not a problem because Prabhupada and others gave the same names but to people in different places, and there was no conflict.  Yet, now we travel and live in internet so much it become a problem.   We shall personally distinguish the devotees who write to the blog with the same name as much as we can.

Radha-Gopinatha are what's transcendental about Belgium, no? Because Srila Prabhupada asked Them to come, They have come and now Their transcendental existence expands like rays to so many parts of Belgium and Europe.   We are Their servants.

  TODAS LAS GLORIAS A SRI SRI GUARA NITAI TLGSP Y MIS RESPETUOSAS REVERENCIAS A USTED GURU MAHARAJA.

  APEGO A LOS DEVOT@S POR QUE ME APEGO AL TEMPLO POR EL SERVICIO AMOROSO QUE PRESTAN TODOS LOS DEVOT@S .

  MAHARAJA HE LEIDO UNA RESPUESTA QUE LE HIZO USTED A BNA DIANA :

 HpS - ASA ---   Muy bien!!!!   Adelante.  Psyche significa la alma, persona significa la mascara del actor en frente de la alma!  Nos vemos pronto!!

  HE PENSADO PREGUNTARLE ESTO:  BUSQUE EN UN LIBRO DE FILOSOFY AND THEOLOGY SOBRE LA PALABRA PERSONA Y VIENE DEL GRIEGO PRÓSOPON, SIGNIFICAN LOS SUSTANTIVOS: CARA, ROSTRO, SEMBLANTE, APARIENCIA ; Y  PRESENCIA, CARA A CARA. TAMBIEN ES LA MASCARA QUE USAN LOS ACTORES PARA PERSONIFICAR A ALGUIEN O JUGAR A SER OTRO. MI PREGUNTA ES : ¿DIOS ES PERSONA ?

¿SERA POR ESTO QUE SP DEFINE A BHAGAVAN CON EL CONCEPTO PERSONALIDAD SUPREMA?.

HpS - ASA   -   Jaya Srila Prabhupada!!!     Pienso http://vedabase.com/es/cc/adi/7 es mejor manera enender.   Super capitulo.

   TAMBIEN BUSQUE PSYCHE : ES EL SER EN SI, VIDA INTERIOR, LO MAS INTIMO DEL SER ; TAMBIEN: VIDA (FISICA) ; LO QUE TIENE VIDA, SER VIVIENTE, SER HUMANO.

UNA VEZ MAS ACEPTE MIS REVERENCIAS. HARIBOL.

                                                                                             teresa.

 HpS - ASA   -   Muchas gracias la esfuerza de la biblioteca. Nos anima muchio.

Hare krsna,AGTSP,PAMHO. dandvat pranam..

we understand from blog that you had chest pain, our mind remembers that last year also you had chest pain when you were around in San Hose.
we feel concerned esp with the magnitude problems/opportunites you are handling single handedly. we understand the magnitude of your services, therefore manier times do not want to disturb you at all.

you once wrote: HpS gets in all this anxiety thinking about his students when he hears too much or too little from them..

we know we are not your student nor formal student. more or less the above statement is not for us. [ our thoughts are disorganized /focuss less which is visible from diff topics we are hoping on].

we were thinking of submitting you are sadhana report one day after Kapi dhavj is uploaded.. will that be okay?.. if not will be okay if we write to you very full moon day [once in month only]

we want to write more.. but we ask u .. how can we serve you and srila prabhupada?  you told us that our mind[fix] wants something big,  we are trying to find those things, but we hope you definitely can engage our mind in lotus feet or parampara.
we are doing our thesis on Emotional Quotient [mental platform].

we know you time is gold and ours is stool[not cow dung]...we promise to follow you instructions as fast we can...

japa report for last 15 days

avg no of rounds 14                                  / mangal arti attended twice in 15 days /avg time of finishing rounds by 1030      /average sleep 6.5 hrs per day                 / SP book reading avg 15 min a day        /hearing record lect avg 30 min a day..

hoping and day-dreaming to serve your lotus feet as our only savior.

regards, horse [ hope we can move by shadow of whip of ur instruction]

HpS - ASA -        A G T S P ! ! !      Report right after KDh uploades is O.K. We just finished 1-hour SB/PDP  class.  Very nice.  SB2.2.12.   Then B. S. Sarasvati festival and now few letters on the Blog. We have to learn to adjust our schedule. Same for you. This week we are on Krsna Kills Paundraka and the King of Kasi and stories after that in the Krsna book.

ASA - AGTSP    Paho      ---      Follows a letter from Bhakti PV, whom we formerly accepted as Prahlada-nrsmha Das.  There are many many points in his letters that we could slowly one by one address but his response below and a similar letter to HpS in private has led us to the conclusion that we are incapable of serving him as an ISKCON Diksa guru. We are not Srila Prabhupada. We don't the strength of Prabhupada. When we discussed for long time about Guru-Disciple relation these things were clear to him and other devotees.    Now we feel that things have gotten so far from that relation that it is best for us to formally end the relationship and hope that the devotee can make progress with the direct help of others.   I have only read a little bit of the first part of the letter, so I don't know all of the content.     As is our Blog system I could have read maybe the first part within the time constraints of this media and then responded and erased the rest with request for him to resubmit it as another part, but the many citations seem to have been posted as individual citations so it will take too long for us to edit.

O.K.    We are right, you are wrong, we are God.      I hope that isn't our mentality and of course we are open to discuss everything but we haven't strength or resources to do more than what we have done in this and the previous letter.

Thank you Bhakti PV, and other readers.

PAMHO AGTSP!

You say "we erased the following 27-pages of letters that you quoted because we feel that some of your passions are just to  #@$%  to put in print."  First of all I submitted about 2 or so pages of quotes, NOT AS YOU SAY "referenced 27 pages of quotes" and they where all directly from Srila Prabhupada's books, letters and conversations, and are thus meant for the betterment of the world, and for those devotees claiming to be part of ISKCON to make as their life and soul. So it is quite inappropriate and offensive to Srila Prabhupada for you to say about the words of Srila Prabhupada "passions are just to #@$% to put in print  Haw  Haw  Haw!".

In addition to this if your going to erase the stuff I submit to you and then post that edited version then what use is my posting it at all? why don't you just have as you say a Monodialoge with your self. no offense maharaja but really… You say "a dialog rather than a mono-log." Yes so this is what I was aiming for. But how can I do this when you delete my submissions? Isn't that indicative that you are the one having the mono-log?

you then say "What about the citation, "...sell without irritating...", huh?   You didn't highlight that." That is just my point! If devotees are not selling books and are even told by their So-called ISKCON authorities to not sell books then where is the question of selling any books at all?

You say "what do you think about you following his example to improve things." Yes I try, but because I have strong fidelity to Srila Prabhupada and am not a blind follower of the blind GBC and actually follow Srila Prabhupada's orders, and do not support the bogus unauthorized changes to Srila Prabhupada's books I don't have the support that he has. But on the contrary I am criticized instead of made into some type of Hollywood movie star like him. But I would rather be criticized and keep my fidelity to Srila Prabhupada then compromise my principals and become some type of ISKCON movie star. If the GBC would start to follow Srila Prabhupada's orders and support Srila Prabhupada's original books that Prabhupada personally approved of and distributed, instead of demonize those same transcendental books, then I would have some standpoint to preach from, but as the situation is now where the blind GBC is condemning Srila Prabhupada's books, what can be done. 

Srila Prabhupada clearly said: 

Just like in lawbooks, there is some law made already. Whimsically you cannot, I mean to say, erase the words and put something that "It should be changed like this." That will not be accepted….So change means imperfect knowledge. No change means that is perfect knowledge. So we follow that no change policy. No, not that because I think I have become now advanced, I change this to that. That mean I am not advanced.

(Srimad-Bhagavatam 1.3.15 - Los Angeles, September 20, 1972)

Radha-vallabha: So we should just leave it exactly.

Prabhupada: Oh, yes. You should not be more educated.

Radha-vallabha: He wasn't changing any of the words. He was just...

Prabhupada: Nothing of the... This of should be strictly forbidden.

Radha-vallabha: So no corrections. That makes it simple.

Prabhupada: They can divide the synonyms. That's all.

Radha-vallabha: Synonyms. So even...

Prabhupada: That is his tendency, to correct. That's very bad. He should not do that.

Radha-vallabha: So I'll just forget this, then.

Prabhupada: The system is: whatever authority has done, even there is mistake, it should be accepted.

Radha-vallabha: Oh.

Prabhupada: Asa-praya(?) [NOTE: should be - “arsha prayoga”. Arsha-prayoga is a Sanskrit word meaning complete acceptance of what is left by the authorities, as it is, without any change at all] That is ha... He should not become more learned than the authority. That is very bad habit....

Prabhupada: Why finish it? Whatever is done is done. No more....

Radha-vallabha: Well, now that this system of no corrections anywhere, that makes it very simple. Then he can't do anything. I don't think he wants to, either. It makes it more simple for him. It makes him very uncomfortable.

Prabhupada: No corrections.

(Conversation with Italian Woman with Translator - February 28, 1977, Mayapura)

Prabhupada: So you... What you are going... It is very serious situation. You write one letter that "Why you have made so many changes?" And whom to write? Who will care? All rascals are there. Write to Satsvarupa that "This is the position. They are doing anything and everything at their whim." The next printing should be again to the original way….

Prabhupada: So write them immediately that "The rascal editors, they are doing havoc…

Prabhupada: So what to do?…

Prabhupada: So you bring this to Satsvarupa. They cannot change anything….

Prabhupada: So on the whole, these dangerous things are going on. How to check it?…

Prabhupada: So they are doing very freely and dangerously.

(Conversation, "Rascal Editors," and Morning Talk - June 22, 1977, Vrndavana)

Please do not delete these Srila Prabhupada quotes! Let everyone know the truth!