Dear Hanumatpresaka Swami,
Please accept my respectful obeisances,
All glories to Srila Prabhupada!
I hope you are getting better.
Thanks for your DTC's, Kapi Dhvajas and tweeting those always inspire me a lot.
I think about You nowadays many times but i'm a lazy pig and just procrastinate the writing :(
It comes into my head everyday how much help i got from You.
Your words are in my mind and if i'm in a difficult situation i'm always can recall it.
Our life is very hard nowadays the sankirtana is very heavy here. The English people don't like reading and they are not appreciate spiritual things.
In addition i'm always sick nowadays. There is inflammation in my body. I try to cure it but it always comes back. It started in 2010 with a heavy hair loss and in the previous months i was ill several times. Nowadays there are complications of this inflammation. In the last months i had tendonitis in my leg and couldn't walk for 10 days, after that i had iritis for a week i felt somebody poured acid into my left eye and couldn't open it from the heavy pain and watering and now i have sinusitis and pneumonia and i haven't got voice. So the life is beautiful in the material world :)
But all in all i'm very happy in Krisna consciousness and i get so much strength from the chanting and reading.
I definitely need a full health check up but i don't have insurance and without it the consultations are very expensive. Nowadays we struggle to maintain ourselves so can't pay this.
Need to find a part time job or beside book distribution have to do something else e.g. sell prasadam and collect more money.
Actually the health check could be for free as well but Krsna has an other plan (or Maya)...
Your Godbrother (Tribhangananda Prabhu) who was the previous TP here proposed us to claim housing- and council tax benefit and with it we can get free medical treatment also. He arranged it for few devotees previously.
He asked the present TP to write us a paper that we are Iskcon voluntary workers and it's enough to the council.
But the leadership thought they will change the text of the form and it wasn't good for the Council so they rejected our claim. We appealed and finally they said we can get the benefit if we show them lots of paper about Iskcon and us. But the centre didn't help us so we gave up.
Krsna's plan or Maya's trick who knows....
Sometimes i feel i have to take part in the preaching an other way. By Lord Caitanya's mercy I was always good in the book distribution but nowadays i'm very inefficient.
Maybe Krsna tests my determination but after a year i feel myself totally useless here in England and i don't know what is Krisna's plan because the sankirtana is either very hard or i can't do it due to my sickness.
We do books directly and here almost everybody collect donation for drug prevention and supporting the mental problem people and sometimes they give a book for the giver.
First my mind tried to convince me it would be nice because this is an easy money but i don't want to do this. I did it when i was a brahmacarini because it was the TP's instruction but now i'm grihastha and i don't want to maintain myself from collecting money for non-existed things.
But anyway in Hungary would be worst. Here from a part time job (16 hours/week) people can pay the rent, the bills and the bhoga so everything.
The life is easier here financially.
I don't want to give up the book distribution but i'm sure i have to do something else beside it. We are thinking of prasadam making and distributing as well. These people are unable to accept spiritual things except the prasadam and the harinam and here nobody sells prasadam. So it can be a nice opportunity.
Maharaja, I would like to buy from your TPP book and would like to try distributing it here in England as well if it's possible. Can you give me infos about it? How many pages how much is it? etc...
HpS - AGTSP paoho. Wow! Your body is fantastic! It is FORCING you onto the mental platform.
The TPP-CB's are photo copy of the hand written composition books. If want, just give me an address and Monkey and Piggy will mail them immediately!
Thank you very much for your supporting and help and sorry for my long and not so interesting letter!
All the best!
Your servant, Sri Radhe devi dasi
HpS - ASA -- Super letter. Super life. You are like in the battle of Kurukestra. You don't have to go back to Godhead, you are already there. Finding new ways of Sankirtan is like the Gopas finding new ways to promote Krsna amongst the Gopis.
