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AgtSP.
Paoho.
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Dear gurudeva
please accept my obeisances
I share my husband's email XXX.com and send a copy of this letter to him too.
I am writing to you from project in Brazil. I have many things to tell you, but I have a
special topic that I am going to share with you.
Before your visit to Spain, something happened that has not been easy for me to describe,
but I have seen in recent months that by opening your heart and asking for
help, everything can improve and your false ego decreases. I also want you to
know a little more about me and be more transparent with you.
In December of last year, Narada (my eldest son) had very strange behaviors and outside of his
usual behavior, I was very anxious. Something inside of me, he told me, maybe
he was doing drugs. He began to be somewhat aggressive, telling lies, coming
home late, having bad company and what is common in those cases. I desperately
asked Prabhu Ananda to change schools, maybe move to the city, but he didn't
see it as a problem and we still didn't know what was happening. Some time
passed and he confessed that he had used a few drugs at one time. For me it was
a shock, news that I never expected. It was a very hard blow and I felt
devastated. I felt as if he had plunged me into such a deep pit, there would be
no way I could get out of it. I thought at times that it would be nice if
Krishna made some arrangement that would allow me and my son to die, before
seeing him plunged into drugs. I asked my family, friends, therapist for help,
I didn't know what to do. With this came a whole process of picking up things
from the past, all my mistakes. I understood that I was guilty for being
negligent with him, for being a bad mother, wife and devotee. For not being
patient and loving with him and especially for the countless fights I had with Ananda
since he was very little. I don't know, it could be so many things, but I took
my responsibility (gurudeva, you could not post the topic of Narada and drugs,
I still don't feel ready to share with someone else, maybe you could post some
abstracts of the letter that you think of help to others 🙏).
Prabhu Ananda and I had continuous strong quarrels and repeatedly thought of separating.
Since you are a sannyasi, I will not go into details about it, but I will only comment
on some points that may help someone else or just so that you know the
dimension of my situation and why I feel so grateful to you.
I was very discouraged with the devotees. Feminism, knowing about so much abuse,
information that was totally new to me, criticism and analyzing my marriage,
was too much and very very overwhelming. I was very immersed in mundane
activities at the time, so; the Narada event was like the result of many
activities that did not benefit anyone much.
We decided that we would give full attention to caring for our children and less to work, even
though that meant adjusting expenses, living with less, and prioritizing
spiritual development. When one goes through these situations, what matters
least is money and so many things in which one wastes valuable time. It all
seems so insignificant, because it really is and you just wish you had spent
more time doing activities to strengthen your spirit.
I immediately resigned from my last job in a Montessori school and despite the fact that I
was very bad inside, I sought more serious association with devotees and
searched everywhere for information on how to help my children, myself and get
ahead. . In reality, I did not know what to do, I had many opinions and I tried
to do everything, I even went to therapy that helped me a lot to understand
that humility is required to recognize that we are wrong and need help.
A week later we received an invitation to visit the temple in Malaga, so; we traveled and
stayed for a couple of days. I heard a lecture from H. H. Yadunandana Swami on
the importance of seeking the association of the pure devotee and how valuable
it is to be with devotees. It is as if you are dragged into doing things for
your benefit that seem impossible to do. So, I decided that I had to go looking
for you and that's how I got to Madrid.
So all those things happened before I met you.
And after all this, here I am. Everything started to happen as Krishna knows what is best for
us, it has always been like that, but I had not been so aware of that. I can
tell you that now I feel happy and satisfied. Cows, devotees, Prabhupada, pink
lotuses, beautiful flowers, incense, Krishna, cooking for Krishna, books,
classes, kirtana, everything Prabhupada has given us is so beautiful. Narada
and Rama are happy and healthy, the devotees and the cows have achieved so much
with them, they feel loved, protected, taken into account and little by little
they are liking more Krishna conscious activities. Narada feeds the minor cows
daily, cleans the gosala, always his clothes and body smell like cow dung and
milk 🐄.
I am learning from my easy or difficult situations, but with peace of mind knowing that I
have always had available an effective way to solve problems, to move on and
change your person completely: sadhu sanga and the holy name.
I don't know what will happen to Narada and Rama in the future, but I know that Krishna is
good and always grateful. So, I just have to pray for them and do my best to
provide them with necessary tools to serve them in their adulthood and see what
they themselves can achieve with the help of Krishna and his devotees.
I think that I have not had a successful marriage materially speaking, in fact, it has been
very disastrous, but without a doubt it has brought me closer to Krishna in an
amazing and successful way. Every situation, every problem, every difficulty
has led me to where I am now and I'm so happy about it. I am thankful for
everything I have experienced, but I think that maybe knowing some things
before getting married and having children could help to have a more stable
family without so many setbacks. We have made so many mistakes and I would like
to say that I won't make any more, but my reality is that it is a constant
trial and error.
I would like to share that when you are a mother and trying to be CK it can become very
difficult if you are NOT emotionally stable, it can be hell for you and your
children. So, the best thing is to acknowledge it and ask for help, but even
that is difficult because there may be a lot of ego in the heart, and the shame
or the feeling of wanting to appear normal or dedicated, is an obstacle. There
are many details that may be involved, but if we think that there will be no
consequences in the future with our children with what we are giving them
during their childhood, we are wrong. It is in adolescence where all the good
and bad that you could have taught them comes out; Of course, there is
individual karma, but I think it's better if you spend more love, time and care
during their childhood.
Gurudeva please forgive me for so much negligence and offenses. For so much wasted time.
I especially want to thank you because because of you I am now here alive and
with a purpose. Every morning I am happy to know that I am a FREE being to
serve Krishna, which is the only thing that gives happiness.
Sorry for such a long letter.
He prayed to Krishna that the effort you make to listen and help us may be rewarded and you
may always be happy in your service to others.
Lotus feet of Srila Prabhupada.
Jay Srila Prabhupada!!
Your servant Havisara D. D.
HpS - Thank you for this very nice letter.
We are all violent, egoistic beast, pigs, in Kali yuga.
Look at the good side. You did not kill and eat your husband and children.
We are joking a little, but by contrast we should see that we have done many things right. We have note separated. We have taken care of our children, see that they get food, shelter.
We have not set and example of drug addicts etc for them.
O.K.
Here we are.
Next step.
Of course, send more news to the Blog.
You don't have to write confidential details, but the general principles will help everyone.
More news.
Thank you for all the hard work that you and your husband, and children, have done for this movement.
Hare Krsna, Srila Gurudev
Koti Dandavat at your lotus feet.
HpS - AgtSP. We are just his stupid messengers, functionairies, lettuce feet.
Sadhana has improved by your mercy. Chanting my rounds before Mangal Aarti and then following Mangal Aarti reading Bhagawatam with a devotee friend over Google live. This program is helping me a lot. I am praying that somehow I can maintain this.
HpS - Super, super, super!!! Whatever we learn about vaidhi bhakti is eternal knowledge.
So many attempts I have done over the course of last 7 years but every time I keep falling back to bad habits, sometimes intentionally and others by illusion.
HpS - I have had the same experience. I guess all of our readers have had it, no? You have heard the same thing from other's no????
Maharaja Bharata fell down from Bhava-bhakti. Lord Caitanya chastised Mukunda for keeping bad association.
Yet, whatever sincere effort I make, has an eternal result!
There will always be devotees more advanced than us and others less advanced.
How are we improving our service to Radha and Shyama?
Even in Goloka we will discover newer and newer, unique, abilities that we have.
This time I want to continue without failing, as my donkey is going to be 32 years old in few days and death is becoming a fast reality with my situation.
HpS - 👍
Current problem is the day time drowsiness that I get. But I hope over next few days this will fix itself.
Gurudev your wrote " We will start a series of Blog posts under Category B called "ISKCON WW-9 (Iskcon Warp World Nine)" for Tom Brown's ASA Encyclopedia if... if... if... you agree to collect them that include problems to correct in ISKCON with solutions.
hO.K. Health Care Provider?"
Yes Srila Gurudev I hope to do the service .
The purport 6.6 is perfect for my situation. Root cause of all my problems are uncontrolled mind. So this time effort is to control the mind and then realization of Paramatma will come, I pray.
Question I had regarding Mantra Japa and kirtan.
1) When I do my Japa . I hear the words and then at same time mentally try to visualize the words " Hare Krsna in my mind closed eye or try to see the letters Hare krsna in air "
Will this process be effective ?
HpS - Hmmm. Everyone is different. I am very inclined to draw, write, so I have developed and abbreviated way to write the words and mantra, and then I do it in artistic ways in my Diary. I have seen others doing this.
I think it is fine.
Of course, chanting in front of the Deities of Radha and Krsna is very great, approved, method.
2) In vrindavan, when I was doing japa. You once told me to smile while chanting. If the mood is of prayer, how to externally smile.
HpS - There are five primary rasas, and seven secondary. In Raganuga bhakti we can try to chant with these feelings. It is O.K.
Chanting thinking of Radha and Krsna as your little children.
😃 - happy.
😠 - angry.
😲 - fear.
😨 - wonder.
Gurudev , please keep me in your prayers. And kindly forgive the offenses that I have committed at your lotus feet over last few years, due to my immaturity of your position.
Trying to be a disciple.
Rturaj Krsna Das
Puducherry, India
HpS - Trying to be your counselor! Send another report after two weeks!
Who is your partner?
Todas las glorias a Su Divana Gracia Srila Prabhupada
Todas las glorias usted
Mis más humildes y respetuosas reverencias querido Guru Maharaj
Siempre estaré muy agradecida por haber podido servirle aunque sea de lejitos, haber podido escuchas sus palabras y tener gotitas de su misericordia.
Muchísimas gracias por esos momentos en los que me brindo su asociación.
Todos los días canto mis 16 rondas lo más temprano posible, lamentablemente para mí el poderme presentar a Mangala Arti me es algo complicado. Actualmente vivo con mi padre Hari Bhakti Das, mi hermano Sri Krishna Bhakti Das, mi otro hermano Nrisimha Balarama, mi abuela paterna y mi tío abuelo paterno. Mi mamá se fue por un tiempo al templo de nueva Vrindaban en Virginia Estados Unidos por lo que solo somos nosotros seis.
Somos conscientes de que el cuerpo no es eterna y debido a la edad y las enfermedades de mis familiares más grandes de la casa, ya es algo complicado para ellos caminar, moverse, en ocasiones respirar y muy usualmente el ingerir alimentos, por lo que mi padre y yo nos encargamos de cuidarlos.
Sin embargo anteriormente cuando escribí mi primera carta yo me encontraba haciendo residente en el templo de Ciudad de México. Llegué un 23 de diciembre tengo muy presente y me fui un primero de enero el siguiente año debido a que mis inserte el tobillo bailando en harinama con su santidad Maha Vishnu Swami, yo estuve unos días más con muletas viviendo en el templo haciendo mis servicios habituales hasta que por dolor lo tuve que detener ya que en el templo no se me trató.
Sin embargo durante el tiempo que yo viví en templo asistía a los programas matutinos y vespertinos, tuve la misericordia de poder administrar el cuarto de flores por un tiempo, de este ir a comprar las flores, hacer colecta en la central de abastos pidiendo donativos, la decoración de festivales y hacer las guirnaldas las que faltaran para el día siguiente.
Al mismo tiempo entraba a Rajah Voga la mayor parte de días de la semana, y llegué a cocinar tamales y hamburguesas para restaurante Govinadas. Tuyo
Actualmente cuando se hace el programa de la tarde usualmente me encuentro laborando en la boutique Radha Krshna del templo.
Ocasionalmente leemos en mi casa las escrituras del Srimad Bagabatam y por mi estoy estudiando néctar de la devoción.
Tengo el curso buro discípulo avalado por el GBC impartido por Prabhu Deba Deba Das y cuento con la carta de recomendación del yatra de México y su comité Madre Anuradha Devidasi, Adhoksaja Das y Prabhu Vanamali Gopal Das emitida en abril de este año.
Muchas gracias por su tiempo
Muchas gracias por su misericordia
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All glories to His Divine Grace Srila Prabhupada
All glories you
My most humble and respectful obeisances dear Guru Maharaj
I will always be very grateful for having been able to serve him even from afar, having been able to listen to his words and have little drops of his mercy.
Thank you very much for those moments in which you offered me your association.
Every day I sing my 16 rounds as early as possible, unfortunately for me being able to introduce myself to Mangala Arti is somewhat complicated. I currently live with my father Hari Bhakti Das, my brother Sri Krishna Bhakti Das, my other brother Nrisimha Balarama, my paternal grandmother and my paternal great-uncle. My mom went for a while to the New Vrindaban temple in Virginia, United States, so there are only six of us.
We are aware that the body is not eternal and due to the age and illnesses of my older relatives in the house, it is already somewhat complicated for them to walk, move, sometimes breathe and very usually eat food, so my Father and I take care of them.
However, previously when I wrote my first letter I was a resident in the Mexico City temple. I arrived on December 23, I am very aware of it, and I left on the first of January the following year because I twisted my ankle dancing in harinama with His Holiness Maha Vishnu Swami. I spent a few more days on crutches living in the temple doing my usual services. until I had to stop him because of pain, since I was not treated in the temple.
However, during the time that I lived in the temple, I attended the morning and evening programs, I had the mercy of being able to manage the flower room for a while, from this going to buy flowers, collecting at the supply center asking for donations, the decoration of festivals and make the garlands that are missing for the next day.
At the same time, I went to Rajah Voga most days of the week, and I got to cook tamales and hamburgers for Govinadas restaurant. Yours
Currently when the afternoon program is done I usually find myself working in the Radha Krshna boutique of the temple.
Occasionally we read the scriptures of Srimad Bagabatam at my house and I am studying Nectar of Devotion for myself.
I have the bureau disciple course endorsed by the GBC taught by Prabhu Deba Deba Das and I have the letter of recommendation from the yatra of Mexico and its committee, Mother Anuradha Devidasi, Adhoksaja Das and Prabhu Vanamali Gopal Das issued in April of this year.
Thank you very much for your time
Thank you very much for your mercy
HpS - "In this Kṛṣṇa consciousness movement we require everyone to rise early in the morning, by four A.M., and attend maṅgala-ārati, or morning worship, then read Śrīmad-Bhāgavatam, perform kīrtana, and so forth."
https://vedabase.io/en/library/noi/3/#bb5883
Translate.google.com - "En este movimiento para la conciencia de Kṛṣṇa, requerimos que todos se levanten temprano en la mañana, a las cuatro de la mañana, y asistan a maṅgala-ārati, o adoración matutina, luego lean el Śrīmad-Bhāgavatam, realicen kīrtana, y así sucesivamente."
You are making progress in pious life, but not completely fulfilling the requirements to matriculate in Srila Prabhupada's University of Love of God?
Don't worry it is next challenge on the road. The next lesson.
Of course, the next thing is to get your associates to engage in the required morning program if they are not.
Can you talk to them about having a regular morning program.
Maybe start with once or twice a week, or whatever.
It will be satisfying and your mind and intelligence will be purified and then everyone will become addictead.
Right now, all over the ISKCON world, there are about 23,227 people in the same class as you. Graduate first in your class.
O.K.
What do you think?
What do your associates think?
asa[e] - media resources; movies; documentary, biography; GAURI DEVI DASI'S VIDEOBIOGRAPHY
Hare Krishna Gurudeva
Please accept my humble obeisances.
All Glories to Srila Prabhupada!!
I apologize for taking so long to share the video I made for my grandmother, Gauri dd. About 6 or 7 years ago she asked me to put her photos together chronologically and add music to them. She chose the songs by herself according to her stage of life.
In order to have a better understanding of the video, I will provide a brief explanation:
TITLE: "LO QUE EL VIENTO SE LLEVÓ" (GONE WITH THE WIND)
The names of 2 videos "Rukmini's Lost Years" and "Life is Beautiful" are shown at the beginning of the video.
Both were my previous and first video edits.
Then, it is pointed out that this film is based on the life of Gumercinda Miranda (my grandmother's civil name).
Next, a list of the most essential characters appears.
And now, the biography of my grandmother starts:
BIOGRAPHY OF GUMERCINDA (GAURI DEVI DASI)
She was born on January 13, 1949 in Ayavirí, a small town in the province of Yauyos (East of Lima).
HpS - Hey, HHR was born January 12, 1948!
During her adolescence she moved to Huancayo (city in the center of Peru) where she studied in one of the best schools in the area.
She was a very applied student. After finishing school, she met Eurlando Chamilco with whom she married and had 3 children. The youngest is my mother Tarangaksi dd (Tania Chamilco). In 1994, Eurlando, in his quest to learn more about yoga and meditation, met ISKCON devotees. He was a key piece for Gumercinda and Tania to also join Krishna Consciousness.
Gumercinda's parents even chanted the Maha Mantra Hare Krishna. The whole family used to organize Namahattas at home and many devotees and friends attended.
However, in 1996 came a great test for Gumercinda. She had to face the separation of her husband and the consequences that it brought to her family. In order to heal herself, she decided to visit her hometown and then travel to Argentina. She settled in Buenos Aires, in the province of San Martín. For almost 2 years she was working as a caregiver for an elderly lady. On one occasion, on Andonaegui street, she met ISKCON devotees again. She used to visit the temple and attend the programs. In 1999, she decided to return to Peru, since Rukmini was about to be born.
HpS - It is very important that ISKCON has centers all over the world. People make advancement by contacting different centers during their spiritual career. We should see our centers as part of this international web. We give help to people but we may not see the fruit, yet we get people who have made progress in another center.
During the following years, she used to attend Chosica, Shell and Wilson temples, and she performed different services like cooking, arranging vases for altars, making garlands, cleaning, sankirtan, etc.
She was also active in Bhakri Vriksha and Namahatta programs. Due to her intense service to Sri Sri Gaura Nitay and Sri Sri Jagannatha, Baladeva and Subhadra, as well as the mercy of H. H. Hanumatpresaka Swami, she formally received Diksha on February 4, 2015, becoming Gauri Devi Dasi. Everyone remembers her for her enthusiasm, sense of humor, charisma, generosity, among other beautiful qualities.
VIDEOBIOGRAPHY LINK: https://drive.google.com/file/d/18uzIN0xHvo3T1ZGk8ajOP1aPAiaMkil-/view?usp=sharing
Thank you so much Gurudeva for reading this letter.
Rukmini dd
HpS - Thank you!!! Is this your first movie? Will you make more:
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lotte_Reiniger
Hare Krsna, Gurudeva,
AGTSP, PAMHO
more esoteric geetings :Lakshmi Narsingh, Gurudeva or Prahlad Narsingh, Gurudeva
HpS had two questions in (post 14214)
in the current stage of Harsh Pradhan (HP), he feels without being heavily empowered, he might not be able to write anything which might be uplifting to the common man.
he might write bogus scientific papers, contributing to knowledge in mode of ignorance.
moreover, without being in association of scholarly/inspiring devotees he might just be normal person, who chants, eat prasad, make some money, hear some past times and sleeps.
HpS - Abhimanyu could penetrate the Cakra vyuha but did not know how to get out. So he decided that if he just killed the entire Kaurava army there would be nothing left to get out of.
So, just make all the scholarly/inspiring persons around you into devotees and then you will have good association!
HP sees that he is not as sattavic as HpS, Radhika Raman Prabhu or other scholar he has seen.
HpS - If you think like that you are humble. Sri Isaac Newton's first qualification for knowledge.
however muka karoti vacalam, so any thing is possible...
HpS - Yezzzzz! !
so the question to Guruparampara via HpS is
What does Guru Parampara wants HP/haD to write about ?
HpS - Try taking notes about everything funny that happens for one fortnight.
2.Take Sannyasa?
may be , but again here we need Asrama Guru ,
we are not yet firmly integrated with ISKCON.
not sure of married responsibilities
HpS - Point your nose in that direction and start walking.
A Sannyasi can live in ecstacy in Vrndavana.
again-- Panggum Langghayate Girim
may be [email protected] might help to find answers to questions
HpS - Who's address is this?
seeking blessings to become Hayagriva Avatar Das
HpS - 5.27PM going walking with stomach ache, and very very very big eye ache from visiting optometrist.