Letters to the editor

Hare Krsna Guru-Maharaj,

Pamho agtSP

Praying to Radha Damodar for Their blessing upon you.

Please excuse my pushy attempt to get your authorization for visiting the Holydham - Vrindavan this year. Actually at the end of this month.

After a very draining, intense time, we ended up dry, physical and emotionally exhausted. A urgent, revitalising and nourishing spiritual experience is required for our survival, growth, and continue in our service.  At this point, I desperately seeking senior vaisnava association, shelter, spiritual nourishment. We have heard about the glories of Holy Name and Govardhan retreats organised by VIHE. We hope this time we can take part of the latter one. Please  Sir, grand (grant) us your authorization and blessing to do it.  I do not want to commit previous mistake (2 years ago). Visiting Holydham without your authorization, taking charge and responsibility of my spiritual life overiding You.  ...  The proclivity to commit mistake is contantly present as part of my material conditioning, but at least, i should avoid to commit the same mistake again and again. Help me please!!! , So, i can procede with the preparations, getting temple authority permission, booking flights, transport, accommodation that it must be done ASAP..  I am just waiting for your authorization, which at the end means Radhe Krsna and HolyDham authorization, withour it, I can not enter  and being in the Holydham.

humbly, we also request, your advice, how I should be engaged, spending time in the Holydham - Vrindavan?. The idea is to have 8 weeks in the Holydham. After Govardhan retreat, perhaps i can enrol, CHANTING, parikrams.. introspection, critical reflection = self-evaluation.

This is my second attempt to writing you about it. Previously we  failled to use the word URGENT, hope this time.. it works.. Dont know if you can figure out who is writing you,  I am using a pseudo-name, as you suggested. It is weird way to write you, a sort of impersonal, distance.. no satisfactory way to approach to you.. but i do not have another choice..!!  <img alt="sad" height="23" src="http://www.hps.monkeywarrior.com/sites/all/libraries/ckeditor/plugins/smiley/images/sad_smile.png" title="sad" width="23" /> <img alt="crying" height="23" src="http://www.hps.monkeywarrior.com/sites/all/libraries/ckeditor/plugins/smiley/images/cry_smile.png" title="crying" width="23" />  this way of communication yields in me, an intense rejection,  pain, pushing me away.. better to be distance...  Yes, at this point, you probably figured out who is writing. Hope so.

Sorry Sir..

Thank you.   Hare Krsna 

Your, disciple.
HpS - Hare Krsna, esteemed Uknown Disciple!  Do not feel rejected!   If you want to communicate on details then please just tell us so and then we can have a private chat, with maybe association of a Senior Grhastha if we have to adjust the Ashrama situtations.
You are a senior person, so how can you deny sharing your flesh and blood with others?   Yes, please go to the Holy Dhama, if our well wishes have any effect. We also want to go there. We will be in Delhi/Vrndavana from 27th Jan - 1st Feb. Just to be alone in Vraja. Walking down the street. Even if filled with a thousand different crazy street vendors. To smell Vrndavana. To have our bare feet run over by a rickshaw and to lose two and one-half toes and maybe die of gangrene. To rub our face against the 600-year old walls of some nameless building in Loi Bazaar.

We can only suggest to read and contemplate the following link, by the mercy of Srila Prabhupada and Kusa-krata Das.   Make good arrangments for good association there.  Cakori Radha, Tunga-vidya Devi Dasi.  VIHE courses can be nice.

You can always help with cleaning.

Write everyday and then share the results with us and we all will be with you there. Pray to understand you eternal relationship with Radha-Krsna and of course that will illuminate any external relationships.

http://www.jayarama.us/archives/vdm.doc

Hare krsna, maharaja; please accept my obeissances.. i havent write in a long time and pasing de time i feel more and more confused about my dutys and less entusiastic about everythin related with my espiritual life and a subject that i want to coment its about the guru...

i feel a little confused and sometimes i think i have to meet other gurus i dont know if it is because of my mind or mi condition but i feel confused about everything im in a relationshiep and part of all this i think its because of that because im not doing the things right i try to and some times i made it but other times no so much... now i dont know i think i have to chant more and read i know more o less my fails and im working on it but i lost comunication with the guru and im sorry because this fallen condition :/  tryin to follow the steps of the previus acaryas YS: Bhaktin F

HpS - ASA -- Hare Krsna, Mataji. Are you in Mexico???   One foto of your self and friends.

King Satyavrata had a similar problem to you. Read http://www.vedabase.com/es/sb/8/24/46   from Text 46-53.  Krsna is the first Guru, then Srila Prabhupada if you want to accept him as your Acharya, then His disicples on down to the blades of grass, but the above link is a good place to start. Take a few days to read it. Discuss it with some friends. Then write again!  [and take nice Maha-prasad!]

Dearest Guru Maharaj,

Please accept my most humble obeisances. All glories to Srila Prabhupada.

Thank you for your kind reply. I am again most humbled to have your kind mercy upon me. Regarding whose association I have here, I don't have any devotee association here, apart from hearing Prabhupada's kirtan and japa on the laptop and Prabhupada's Bhagavad-gita in hard copy. But I do really want to visit ISKCON Houston when you come in December to get the most precious association.

HpS - ASA --- Jaya!   We arrive 11.45AM, Wednesday the 7th and leave 7.15AM, Monday the 12th. Have you got accomodations etc???  Text us.

When I first arrived at my current place of work, Texas A&M University - Kingsville, Corpus Christi is the nearest large city, which is about half-an-hour from Kingsville (the small university town of a population of around 20,000). I found a facebook page called Bhakti Yoga Society of Corpus Christi, to which I sent a message, but got no reply. San Antonio is a very large city here, the second largest in all of Texas after Houston, with a population of about 1.47 million people. San Antonio is around 2 hours drive from Kingsville and many of the Indian students go to work part-time jobs there and I also went once. I found the address for ISKCON San Antonio and went there, but it was just a house. I am not sure how to get in contact with devotees in these south Texas cities. It maybe that some devotees were running preaching centres or temples here but left after some time so now there is no active centre. Do you know any devotees active in San Antonio or Corpus Christi?

HpS - We just Texted you M. Guru bhakti's phone number and little bio. She can help!!

I wanted to get a tulasi plant for my evening worship. I have seen a Shri Venkateshvara Swami South Indian Hindu temple, but never found any ISKCON centre or devotees in this area. My parents and I would like to dedicate our lives to starting an ISKCON preaching centre under your guidance. For this, I am really hoping I can get a permanent faculty position somewhere, because my current position is contractual (i.e. temporary).

Your humble servant,

Aja Govinda dasa

HpS - Thank you for this super, super news. Contact Mataji and I think she can put you in touch with good associates.

What are you teaching in the University?   What would you like to publish with NIOS???

Hare krsna gurudev.

please accept my dandavats at your lotus feet. 

all glories to Srila Prabhupada.

hope your health is good. I am missing your physical association a lot . hope to meet you when you come to india. 

gurudev i am ok . sadhana is good than i expected. for once i am happy with my efforts. 16 +moderately ok rounds ..mostly finished by morning, 4 regs good , prasadam moderately regulated, mangal aarti, tulsi aarti and srimad bhagavatam regualarly , bhaktisastri classes going ok , wonderfull association of H.G.Mukunda dutta prabhu( he is going to give a seminar on yajya /sanskara that i am planning to join  plus lots of personal guidance ) , personal reading is ok but needs to be more intense ..hope to inprove in this area more once bhaktisastri finishes. Some of my bhaktisastri marks are out ( isopanisad 85/100, deity worship 99/100, NOD 94/95 ...bhagavat gita two papers left).

I am planning to sit for the fire sacrifice that we couldnt do at the time of initiation . H.H.Radha govind swami maharaj is giving initiation on 1st novmber. I seek your blessing . i will confirm my vows in front of the fire and other vaisnavas . I will keep your photo. thank you gurudev for accepting a person like me. i am trying and hopefully keep trying as much as i can to be better disciple. Thank you for tolerating me.I am currently trying to see everyone as a spirit soul and follow the instruction that you gave to chandramukhi mataji to tolerate all insults to the body knowing that no one can actually insult me as i am a spirit soul..it is helping a lot to tolerate my own body and my reciprocations with others . I fail sometimes but keep trying .

In bhaj i have been to barsana, madhuvan , talavan ...druva katha in madhuvan was really inspiring . in vrindavan now many Senior devotees are sharing their realizations of bhagavatam and Srila prabhupada mood as very mercifull...its helping me a lt to build a genuine appeciation and deep love for Srila prabhupada . He is not a fanatic preacher that most people make us feel. He loved everyone irrespective of their conditioned nature. Srila Prabhupada saw the soul and the best qualities in others . Gurudev you definetly are his son because you for me are his perfect representative of his most mercifull mood. I am indebted to you . Please be patient with me .

all glories to you . all glories to srila prabhupada .

hare krsna 

trying to be your servant.

rturaj krsna das.

HPS - We can do austerities, but they must be on the basis of good information. Seems you have that and whatever you lack Krsna will adjust. So go ahead with lord of enthusiasm expecting good results!

Hare krsna Gurudev acepte mis reverencias por favor.

Gurudev el 17 de noviembre estoy viajando a ciudad del este paraguay a cocinar por un año en el restaurante del templo y apoyar en tod lo que se necesite para seguir expandiendo el canto de los santos nombres . 

Por la micericordia de krsna estamos mejorando quedandome en el templo , mangalartik, rondas ,SB , Damodar .

Ya desde hace un año distribuyendo panes en esta ciudad.

Con sus vendiciones espero estar en,brasil para su visita .

Eternamente agradecido por inspirarme a continuar con la predica.

HpS-ASA - Con quien va a asociar en Paraguay?

Hare Krishna beloved Gurudeva,

Please accept my humble obeisances,

All glories to Srila Prabhupada,

Here we are in Mar del Plata, Struggling, Struggling, Struggling so much to get to the platform of nista sadhana bhakti. But somehow we can not get fixed.

4p are ok, but 16 rounds, sometimes we finished them, sometimes not. Our debt is getting bigger. We are so stupid not to put them as No. 1 priority. So many distractions.

I see so much suffering on a daily basis, at work, at the temple, but what is the solution? 16r / 4p.

At this moment we see this blog as our lifeline. We feel very Identified With Nāmācārya's and Harsh's posts. Like we would make the same questions.

I hope That Before end of the year  i can move to the eco house at Sri Govardhan, They are Having morning program every day. I Attend the program every thursday, I'm pujari.

HpS - Yes!!  That's 90% of the solution, no? Get association. Why go out distributing books alone, why try to chant your rounds alone???   Get a partner. Chant together. Wake each other up, by telephone or live in the ashrama. Report how many rounds you have done by 9.30AM each day to each other, when you get the 16-done.
Association!

Finished the course to teach at the university, so there is 90% probability i will teach at medschool. It was intense, I see it as a big challenge.

HpS - ASA --- Prabhupada FORCED B.S. Damodara Maharaja to get his PhD so he could have respect in the Sankirtan field.

We Continue with our services (i wonder what is the use of them if i can not accomplish my first service Properly, 16r)

HpS - Yes, it is like trying to light a fire while pour water on it, but whatever Karma yoga we do will help us get to the Sadhana bhakti!!!!   I know....

Anyway we feel we are advancing. The approach to the process is little bit deeper. Although I see my self as very ill, I feel That I'm going in the right direction, at the right pace. We are maturing, and trying not to step into anyone.

HpS - We feel the same.  We are some times more concerned with not BEING stepped on by anyone (especially our selves), so that we go on.

Manu and Benja are ok, I want to give them as much KC as possible.

Trying to settle a new perspective in life,

Having always your lotus feet (freeway to SP's lotus feet) as our goal,

your so, so, fallen project of disciple,

Nikunja Bihari das.

HpS - We are just settling India trip, then we will turn to South America. Already some strong suggestions from Abhirama Das and his University associates.