Letters to the editor

Hare Krsna, Beloved Gurudeva

AGTSP

PAMHO

I hope this meets U in really good health ¡¡

First of all thank U all so much for being so merciful and give us iur DAILY association in Japa Joe, blog, twitter, Bhakti Vaibhava, etc

I was thinking about to write to U a few times  about this topic. I was wondering if on private may be better but I do not have anything to hide.

In one of your last answer to my NIMSAR’s report U told me if I want to become a Sanyasini  jaja well the answer is NOT YET NOT NOW  jajaja. So at this point I want to be completely honest with U. I want to form a Krsna consciousness family and try to be useful to SP and to iur Sankirtan.  I am an stupid unintelligent romantic lady

My behavior has been questioning sometimes. Last year for instance devotees started to say things about the way I dress , etc.  So I want to be honest:  I work , I like fashion I AM in MAYA jaja BIG NEWS ammm Nevertheless I always keep on mind that I am a devotee and at work for example I just interact with my students I do not have any friend that is not devotee I know that it is not also good that it is better if  I preach but I can not be a person who I am not, I like devotees Krsna katha, I like all that being a Hare Krsna means but at the same time I like to dress well and also go out with friends I am not dating anybody , but I go out with devotees who are my friends male and females  we just go out and take prasadam, go to the movies, walk or  talk a little bit about Krsna and many topics.  In that way I released all my lust and relaxed. I NEVER go  to the disco or something like that … Concerts yes sometimes…

At the same time we do our service, we had our sadhana, lecture, and principles fixed.

And devotees sometimes do not understand and maybe U neither why I am not a complete nun jaja I can not I am not like that I like to serve Krsna and being with devotees and at the temple but also I like to look good with nice haircuts, dress etc. Many many times Gurudeva I had encountered with many devotees who said something and do the complete opposite or are not completely honest but now today I am not selling U a fake candramukhi  I am presenting before U with all my faults as I always do but now in more depth because at some point I was feeling that I was not completely honest with U. And I really really hate that.

It really bothers me that lately many devotees says things like look with whom cmdd talks or what she does, dress etc . For me is more important to work together and try to be good tools for SP. Anyway I just want to be natural without hypocrisy and I absolutely refuse to be one cmdd at the temple and another outside the temple. I follow the etiquette at the temple..

Last year I learned a lot not to trust everybody, to be more cautious in the way I relate to others specially the opposite sex, but I also learned that being honest is the BEST POLICY.  I feel really happy with my saris but at the same time also good with one michelle belau outfit haw haw haw. Maybe I am crazy I am sure that I am but I really feel that I should have written this to U earlier.

I always try to do my best in order to be a better disciple of Yours really. I really try.. I try to be honest first with myself then with U.

So please forgive if I am an embarrassment for U. But this is who am I, and I hope some day I can see U at the eyes and said yes Gurudeva now I want to be sanyassini.

Question : What should be my actitude If someone said: Why she /he is acting like that or not doing something what shall I say to people that are very interested in searching faults in others??? Gossips , etc instead of  trying to be better themselves??? And I have to confess that in the past I was one of those people….

With complete honesty

Always trying to be iur disciple
Candramukhi dd

       HpS - ASA -- AGTSP. Paoho. We read the history of Hannibal, Alexander the Great, BBC History of the English Language (at the worst Rambo and the Temple of Doom), and we try to chant Hare Krsna all the time we do anything to see how our passions can be connected to Krsna. Prabhupada discussed India politics with world historians.

... and . . . we follow very four principles strictly, we're up by 1.15AM daily, 26 rounds/day, SB 2-hours/day, administrative work in the Sankirtana movement, individual counselling, Sankirtan in the academic and cultural areas.

Prabhupada would eat robust Bengali subjis. What is our level? Adau sraddha, sadhu sanga...? By acting on that level we advance.

We PUSH to be more strictly engaged.

Did Devahuti and Kardama Muni need an ariel palace?
 

We are in Madhayma adhikari stage. Kardama and Devahuti had to experiment with material enjoyment. What you describe is very much within what seems like sane situation.

We looked up: michelle belau

Hmmmmm!  Candra-Vogue!

Why don't you invite Michelle Belau to go to India with you for a foto-shoot, maybe she could pose with Ulysses well groomed??? <img alt="smiley" height="24" src="http://hps.monkeywarrior.com/sites/all/libraries/ckeditor/plugins/smiley/images/regular_smile.png" title="smiley" width="24" />

We want to eliminate some things by being austere and "blindly" following the Acharya's instructions, we want to eliminate others by testing them and then realizing their lower taste. We want to keep some after testing them because we realize they can be useful for pure devotional service.

ADELANTE!

AgtSP!

Agt Guru y Gauranga!

Agt Radha y Krsna!

Pamho Maharaja!

Hare Krsna!

Soy Bhakta Pablo del Parikrama, de España.

I wish You are soo good in all aspects, and that Your body health is more better.

I want to say a lot of things, but i will try to be brief without be bad speaker.

First I would like to thank you with all my heart for giving me a formal shelter (just just read the letter), Gurudeva. Dandavats Maharaja. But I would like to say that by His side I never felt helpless. Thank you so much.
On the other hand, I really do not know what I should do now to satisfy you. I would like to give as Dakshina my current Sadhana and my desire to not leave this Sadhana. Maharaja clearly see that I am in a phase of Vaanaprastha not want to leave.

I'm living in the caravan for a few days, but harder than home but more enjoyable. Hopefully in a few months to be on the road to do Sankirtana traveler, and to have more time to have plans.

My relationship with the family "farm" is already completely broken, these 3 years have only given me problems. Also spy that I speak here. For better or worse, my way now I'm alone. 

With Virginia-Varuna, all a bit chaotic, but it will solved little by little, I think.

I have tickets for India (April 29-May 29), but I have no money to even be safe in India (less important) or for VISA, so until the last day if I can not be 100% sure. 

As Maharaja see, all a bit beyond me and I'll never be able to, or should I do until the last moment.

Maharaja-I have a question, please; my deaties ask me more ornaments, opulence and quality, but long ago asked me otherwise. Nityananda want be Balarama and  Chaitanya misses problem backwards, likes do what Nityananda do, but are Avadhuta Nityananda Gauracandra, and they do not see it clear as can be opulent without being Krsna Balarama ( I neither ), while are Avadhuta-Mendicante . Gurudeva, How I can resolve this dispute?? ------- I have 500 gr Silver 1st grade I personally do paraphernalia and I've started the new dresses.

My spiritual life, thanks to you, Guru Maharaja, is increasing, very happy, and trying to follow His steps and dance with every step. I have many personal achievements and ask that only increasing, and that His steps, His feet and Krsna are well clear always before me.

I beg you, please, when you decide to give me the mercy of diksa.

At His feet. 

Hare Krsna Maharaja. 

Bhakta Pablo. 

(The jewels are gifts of Virginia, the mother of my child. Necklace is very special, is Nepal, "Skin Dragon" in honor of the sect Buddhist Nepali. This is a necklace that used a Nepalese family in special ceremonies. The big silver ring is also special, is ceremonial Tuareg, everything, including casting, made by them)

                      HpS - AGTSP Wow!  Your life and letter and more complicated than we can handle. It is work but you have to cultivate some associates locally from whom you can get this detailed advice. It is work but do it!

Agt SP!

Agt Guru Y Gauranga!

Agt Radha Y Krsna!

Agt Gurudeva!

Pamho Maharaja.....o..

Hare Krsna Maharaja, soy B.Pablo del Parikrama, de España.

Sorry to write so quickly, but I would like to tell all my external situation exactly, because many times I am too introspective.

!6 rondas, 4 principios, Mangala arati ( no 2 days, I was extremely bodily tired ), Gaura arati and so happy, sooo sooo happy, but internally. Externally, I am in a heavy situation, but if but if I stand a little more, it'll all be gone, I explain ...

The government has spent months trying to not pay me my share (lol), can not, but they bother me delaying payments (6 months now), by these and other things, I could not pay a fine who got put Virginia (soon I hope to pay it), but I have to go to prison 60 days, is little little money, but the law is the law...haw haw haw and I don´t want my family money more, . This don´t disturbe me anything, really, except that not rot to go to India to Nrshimha to see Radha Krishna Dham and Sadhus....also is that I will to lose the money of the tickets, but really really that is any important to me. Actually I want go in Damodara more...will see what happen ( sure thing I will do. So I have to think and so I'm always thinking. You have taught me well maharaja. )

Virginia is fully possessed by his situation. In a very critical moment of his life, he decided to put his trust in a number of holes, materialists people, and it will cost much personal suffering that decision...

The only reason I do not go elsewhere is Varuna. It is a great person, very sensitive and it deserves the best. I can not leave him among the "pack of hyenas". Now he have 6 to 7 years, within 4 or 5 years, will take about 10 years, then I will continue my path and Varuna decide on its way.

I have many economic problems mainly because I deliberately decided to work with the family, evil doing. Are completely misguided. My father thinks I'm possessed and every time I start to pray Hare Krishna he show like he were praying with the rosary, but he is looking the tv...jajaja so pity. Is totally possessed for his gross gross desires.

My young brother is a nice person but is with the moon at 0 %, then his mind is like the wind and is totally controled for my father, like a child. Now whenever is laughing like mad, because he thinks I can control his mind ... jajaja. Like me elder brother, he live in Boston, had important job he is boss in chip design in a large company of fools, who has taught him that the world can only advance by slaves ... lol totally crazy because of his position and wealth. I laugh at them, all crazy.

A lot of people, many people have much envy me because I'm very independent and I have very very straight. I always say what I think, and if your  company is unbearable I continued " as a ñu "

Like my town, less that 500 persons, very close people, they only only eat fresh, uuuugggg....if you don´t eat meat, drink, and have pig-sex are crazy, any speak to me becouse I am crazy and I do black magic...my Japa, and chant " Hare Krsna "...black magic...jajaja. Are crazy.

If all goes well, within 1 or 2 months everything started very well resolved. I've spent years enduring this, I will not leave now, even if I get into prison, lol I laugh. Consciously or unconsciously all want to I stay away from my son.

When I finish my "obligation", I'll go to not ever back  if Krsna permits. Only Nama Sankirtana, single, Hare Krsna Hare Rama, Hare Krsna Hare Rama .... o ..

This years en medio I wish doing Sankirtan, preaching and distributing Maha-prasadam from my Nice Deaties.

Sorry for the letter soo long, butI have years without tell You details, are sooo horrible, You are not for that, I think, You give me Krsna, Realitation, and I have one eternal deb with You, I do not expect the stupid fools understand it, either my family or other.

Yours, at Your feet, Your servant B. Pablo.

Hare Krsna!

                   HpS - AGTSP. Paoho. Thank you for Enlglish translation. Helps a lot. Seems you are going ahead very, very well with a big battle. It took the Pandavas years to solve their problems but Krsna was using them.

Japa principles, GOOD morning program and get some good counselors, eg. Jayanta, Jara mara, Dandva, so many there. Yadu Swami. Then it will all have been benefit.

AGTSP

paoho   Oink Oink!   Whoop!  Whoop. We are all going to dye. (Take Sannyasa, become civil widows, wear pink, white).

How are you? We are about to die.

It is 7.27PM. Today there were furious snow flurries and then beaming sunshine and then.... It was really impressive, scarey, everybody was freaked!

The ASA Office was freezing except for our little cave. We have to keep the water running a little bit or the pipes freeze and burst.

We are getting more done. After three months (many years) of traveling we are finally settling down to one place until end of July. Then we are thinking 6-weeks on the road to Houston and the Pacific Northwest. Guess September to March again based in Murfreesboro, Tennessee. Then a March +++ tour to Peru etc.

Hmmm.  Europe and India August+++ 2015. Australia?

We only plan to go where our ideas are being appreciated as valuable. If we can't produce valuable ideas then why do we have a human body? Better to be donkeys in Vraja.

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We have intense aching in both sides of our waist. It is like a low pitch strong music. All the pain, and pleasure in the body is just music of different kinds.

Can you live with any kind of music? Can your Bhajan establish supremacy, avoid, use any other music?

That's the art.

We didnt go walking with NGDP today, too cold, so we spent hours catching up on mail.

We also did 2-hours preparing our PPT for Friday.

The Spanich BhVai program with Jagat, LAD, Yugala will be Saturday mornings at 6AM from now on. Join us.

Our Number One Writing Project, 7x9 TPP notebook, is helping  us to develop a Writing Strategy. That TPP Notebook is first. The first one is 90% done. All we need to do now is to review and annotate the entrys. We've started on the second one.

Then, this BhVai looks like Sticks and Stones. Stuff Hanuman picked up to fight with Ravana's soldiers in the Asoka van.

NOI Afterwords is first, thoughts produced by carrying and contemplating Rama's ring.

PdP is the conversations that Hanuman had with Sita about Rama.

LOB/Sankhya is part of the Search for Sita.

Jaya!

O.K!!!!   Arati, kirtan for Radha Natabara.
Thank you so much for your mercy.

M/P - HpS et al..
 

AgtSP!

Agt Guru y Gauranga!

Agt Radha y Krsna!

Please accept my humble oblations Maharaja!

I wish You are nice in all aspects Maharaja!

About the priciples, Yes Maharaja, strictly.

Yours. At Your feet.

Bhakta Pablo.

HpS - AGTSP. 16/4 .. Mangala arati -SB for one year.... You can take initiation.

Hare Krishna dear Gurumaharaja,

All glories to Srila Prabhupada

Please accept my humble obeisances at your lotus feet and hope everything is good for you. 

HpS - ASA - AGTSP paoho. Sorry little slow to answer. 1) Lazy, 2) So much travel. We are making the best use of a bad bargain. We were not born to be happy.

First of all, I want to thank you very much for your mercy, I have had some busy days between medical test and doctor visits for a nodule found in the right breast and last friday I got the results, and because of Krsna's mercy I do not have cancer.

HpS - I was looking in Canto Six where Vrtasura has been mortally wounded by Indra and Indra is happy, but then Vrtasura laughs at him and says, "Indra, I am dying a noble death in combat trying to act according to the laws established by the Supreme Lord, so it is certain that as I die I will go back to Godhead and you will stay in this material world. So who is the winner Indra, you or me?"
So, we can just as well say that you are very unfortunate not to have cancer. If we have to go back to Godhead one treasured piece at a time O.K.

I think Krsna wants me to continue in this world so these days have been of reflexion and I could feel that Srila Prabhupada is always teaching us who we really are spiritual souls, so difficult to understand for me.

My husband sent you a message and because you were in India I understood  You could not read it.  Thank You so much Gurudeva, You are always giving us mercy and we can feel your protection.

Please forgive my offenses and thans again.

Your foolish servant,

Palika Devi dasi

HpS - I got the message and made a special effort to read it because it was from you all. Then we askeed the Candra monkey how you were. We are so indebted to your family that we always try to do some small service to pay off that debt.

I think there are many people that feel that way about. You all.
I think you all would fit into Goloka as cowherd family very well.

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