[KDPC] Recharge to be able to Give and not need
Dear Maharaj,
Please accept my humble obeisances and all glories to Srila Prabhupad!
Dear Maharaj, thank you for being that pillar in our life that gives stability, security, ability to breathe, sleep and even live in the most turbulent times, when no one or nothing else can.
HpS - Again we would be nothing without contact and pulllllling of Srila Prabhupada.
Such is your grace, saints like you selflessly live for others. You keep yourself pure so others can find some solace and relief from material miseries. Thank you for your kind and most valuable association which we do not deserve.
It is Krsna's causeless mercy, for probably the sins we have performed, we may not deserve anything good. Yet He is so merciful, He has given so much love and affection through His dear devotees. Relationships with whom, I realize is the most important possession without which one is unfortunate, and very poor.
Hence having spiritual relationships like with you is the actual wealth of the soul. Nothing of this world can equal or surpass this sustainence, without which material nature will factually render us insane. I'm going through a difficult time, but I pray that when this phase ends, I never ever forget this one thing I have in my life from the spiritual world.
My sadhana: able to chant 16 rounds, some hearing, working on improving reading and morning program (really a struggle when living with my husband). I need your relationship the most ever in my life now as I realized marriage is where Im supposed to only give, but only when I myself am full can I give.
My batteries feeling depleted often, I wonder how to keep recharged. How to make this spiritual transformation in my being and interaction with others from needing (myself in center) to serving (the other in center). It's really difficult for me to do any more sadhana than the above due to insomnia that I've developed dealing with the issues in my marriage.
Is this small amount that I'm able to do enough to find my heart shelter? To recharge me and fill me so I can serve as required? I am desperately looking for ways to become equipped to continue my service? How do I recharge?
Your aspiring servant,
YajnaseniDD
HpS - AGTSP... Paoho.... I experience the same thing. I want to fall into material sense gratification, read a story about Mickey Mouse and Donald Duck, or something, materially gratifying OR painful.
But then I apply the years and years of personal efforts to apply, prioritize the lessons I have received from Jayananda, Srila Prabhupada et al, et al. Rick Warren et al, and I am able to go ahead a little more.
So, there is no magic bullet.
Chant 16-rounds, reading a honest amount daily. These are so potent that NOTHING can stop you from becoming a Paramhamsa. It just takes time, but if step back and stop pushing forward to save your husband from becoming a character in a computer game in his next like, then you will see that you have actually made a little ETERNAL progress.
Then back to the battle.
Lean more.
Becoming a world class Guru is not easy, but it is something that you carry forward life after lie.
Good luck on understanding how to grow you war machine!
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