Hare Krsna Gurudeva!

I hope you are doing very well in every way.

HpS - Wow! That is a big hope!

I'm fine. My spiritual life very well thanks to Radha and Krsna.

I have not written to you before because I did not know what to say without repeating myself, or without being as ugly-analytical as I am.

I love your handwritten KDs ... you once gave me one when I asked !! ... they are beautiful, they remind me of children's books. So simple, so cute, with such funny drawings. Avatars ?? Hahaha!

HpS - Hmmm!

With the pandemic, I go for a run almost every day, 8 kilometers. I swim in the sea almost every day. Now the water is crystal clear thanks to the fact that the currents are colder, not like in summer. With your eyes open, one can see almost as if wearing diving goggles. It just makes you want to play in the water. It is as if one were in another world in those moments.

Times when sunlight is crystal clear and yellowish-white. It seems the light of the brahmajyotir of the mystic yogis.

The waves, soft, as if not wanting to break the moment, break on the shore as if they were felt on marble. The sea in these months is like a swimming pool, a dream.

HpS - Sounds like the Yamuna with Krsna!

Algae, so ugly for many people, is as if they were the sea's invitation to play with one. And in the background, an airplane of the military academy of the air (it is very close) raises and lowers revolutions, and in height, with its training propeller motor, as if a bird, noisy or enraged, did not stop making sounds, losing itself and approaching in the heights.

In my mind, it's like hearing a sound in my gut. Sunday sounds, clear light and crystal clear waters. Smell and sea breeze, with sand stuck on clothes, and on the knees.

It is impossible for me to understand how people allow themselves to be carried away by their imaginations, to such an extent that they do not behave like real living beings.

Lately, when I read your Twitt's, I remember the Goswamis. And from one of their phrases, I don't remember if it was from Rupa Goswami exactly ... something like "I no longer know if what I say is true or a lie," as if only Krsna knows.

I have had some strong experiences in recent months, spiritual, . . . the material ones, I don't even count them anymore, and every day I am more aware that the only network of reality is Krsna and his networks (associates, worlds, thoughts ...)

I have to admit that I am very happy, and I don't know why.

HpS - I guess we have to all accept that Lord Caitanya's mercy goes to the fallen!

I understand Krsna's wishes in Caitanya Mahaprabhu's mood about this world, but right now, I think the only thing that would be worthwhile now is to go back to Vrndavan Parikrama and never go out again, with people like You, and many other devotees, from deep and human soul that I admire. Some famous, others not. Some young, others not.

I hope you have a very good morning in this material hell.

At Yours feet, my obeisances.

Hare Krsna Maharaja!!

HpS - Thank you!!! Do you read CC??? Does Krsna send innocent people for your to talk with?

P.D: Here I take a bath almost every day. Of all beaches, the best!!! hahaha

Todas las glorias a Goura Nitay

Todas las gloria a Srila Prabhupada

Hare krishna Gurudev comienzo mi reporte, me esta costado dormir a la hora que lo hacía antes sigo despertando temprano para mis rondas y el programa de la mañana pero mi cuerpo debe descansar en momentos inadecuados, debe ser por el encierro, estoy con distintas técnicas para mejorar la situación leche tibia con cáscara de naranja, lavanda, melisa etc... lograré mejorar esto, debo regularlo por salud he estado muy bien con respecto a la epilepsia así que es necesario volver a mi descanso anterior, pasando a otro tema, sigo con lectura diaria, estudiando segundo canto Bhagavatam aprendiendo nuevas técnicas de resumir, memorizar, esquemas etc..., continuó con el trabajo por zoom en lecto escritura dos veces por semana haciendo plantillas por powerpoing para motivar a los pequeños , por último sigo predicando por telefono lectura de un libro que las chicas escogieron krishna book además de contenerla en su vida espiritual trato de hacer un buen trabajo para que estén cómodas y sepan que estoy para ellas gracias por su atención preocupación e inspiración se despide su humilde sirviente Raman Reti devi dasi

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All glories to Goura Nitay

All glories to Srila Prabhupada

Hare Krishna Gurudev, I begin my report, it is difficult for me to sleep at the time I did before, I continue to wake up early for my rounds and the morning program but my body must rest at inappropriate times, it must be because of the confinement, I am with different techniques to improve the situation warm milk with orange peel, lavender, lemon balm etc ...

I will be able to improve this, I must regulate it for my health I have been very well with regard to epilepsy so it is necessary to return to my previous break,

...moving on to another topic, I continue With daily reading, studying the second Bhagavatam canto, learning new techniques of summarizing, memorizing, diagrams etc ...,

HpS - ASA - Wow! [Guau!]

... he continued with the work by zooming in reading writing twice a week making templates by power-point to motivate the little ones, finally I continue to preach by phone reading a book that the girls chose, Krishna book, (smart girls) in addition to containing it in their spiritual life I try to do a good job so that they are comfortable and know that I am here for them, thank you for your attention, concern and inspiration,

your humble servant,

Raman Reti devi dasi says goodbye.

HpS - Thank you!!!! The Encyclopedia Britannica says that Lord Caitanya was a 'religious epileptic'. So funny. Hmmm. Maybe Raman-reti Devi Das, Madhu-mangala et al are actually covering their intense spiritual ecstacys with medical excuses. Hmmf. Epilepsy, old age, they are both good chances to exam the body and understand how to use for Krsna, even in the next life. Super success with your Sankirtan. Krsna may be preparing you for a big battle.

Hare Krishna dear Gurumaharaj,

Please accept my humble obeisance and gratitude to you, again and again.

All glories to Srila Prabhupada!!.

While visualizing you to the extend [extent] that our limited perceptual capacity allows us and appealing to your kind and compassionate nature, [we actually have a very selfish demonic nature but by Srila Prabhupada's intense love it is under control and diminishing] we write this as another attempt to approach you.

It is like a mischievous dog after wandering and sniffing around got its muzzle smashed; then, it runs, looking for its master for safety and when it is almost nearby, it crawls towards the master carrying a straw with its teeth along with remorse and embarrassment.

HpS - Sounds like a Bengali dog, Rupa Goswami's dog.

PLEASE FORGIVE me GURUMAHARAJ, due to my rebel attitude, false ego and pride I kept myself aloof from you, starving myself from your direct protection (looking at you from a distance and wishing to be close to you = self-inflicted pain). Please Gurumaharaj help me to COME BACK AND TAKE SHELTER AT THE SHADE OF YOUR LOTUS FEET FOREVER. I don't want to be away anymore!!

HpS - ... and Narottama Das Thakur confesses that he is lower than the Jagai and Madia. I feel that I probably have the same attitude toward Srila Prabhupada in so many ways.

This is a public confession of my mistake = faults.

HpS - Not public, this Blog is only comprehensible to members of the Anjana Suta Academy, a pioneering branch of ISKCON.

Due to your compassionate, practical and visionary nature, one of your instructions to all of us is, to write and contact you using this Blog. There are many reasons for it; mainly, everybody can derive benefits by reading your responses to ours letters; yet, out of false ego, pride and selfishness I dared not to follow your instruction and questioning its validity; excusing myself by saying 'THE BLOG BLOCKS ME', alleging the need for confidentiality (what the heck, Madhumanjari?).

HpS - As far as I can understand, the desire to be an intimate associate of Guru and Krsna can have two elements: Pride and Natural impulse. We remember Srila Sanatana Goswami writing that... every cowherd boy thinks that he is KRSNA's closest friend, and this bothers him... "How can Krsna deal with me like this??? There are so many other boys greater than me, who love Him so much more than I do?".... So he thinks, "I am Krsna's closest friend!?!", and Sanatana Goswami says, "By the nature of the internal potency it is a fact".

So this is a reality. You, me, we ARE Krsna's closest friend. Srila Prabhupada's closest associate. Sikhi-mahiti's sister was one of the 3-1/2 closest associates of Lord Caitanya (try and top that), but as a Sannyasi she never got within smiling distance of Him. Iskcon is OUR movement. Its health and success depends on us.

... but material desire for fame (I am worse than you {I am the most fallen, Ha! Ha! Ha!}) also motivates us to be a 'special disciple of Guru/Krsna. Of course, that very stewpid desire keeps us from becoming and intimate disciples, gotta keep sweeping it out.

This is GURU-APARADA. I have offended you again Gurumaharaj and deprived myself from your guidance and protection, putting myself at risk. Please forgive me Gurumaharaj!!!. I am really sorry!!

Despite of my offences, there is a bit of spiritual consciousness in me, which is there only because of you Sir, you care for us (your disciples), you hold us all alive. I give witness of that.

In spite of my stupidity, the thoughts of you, remembering your example of dedication, service and surrender to Srila Prabhupada, your selfless and intense preaching, by remembering your compassion and forgiving nature, your purity and transparence in your dealings with devotees and people in general, your knowledge, witty and wisdom, your all encompassing and visionary approach to spirituality, your humble and meek attitude, your firm conviction and faith in Srila Prabhupada's books, your deep faith in the Holy Name - Maha mantra HARE KRISHNA, your taste for chanting and remembering Krishna, your creativity and out of the box view of life and death, your constant effort for taking care of us (your disciples) in a personalized manner. The remembrance of all these and more gives me the strength to face my weakness of character and to surrender to you.

What a great fortune!!!

HpS - AGTSP who can use devils as instruments to deliver a pure message.

Due to causeless mercy, we have the great fortune to have you Gurumaharaj as our spiritual master. It is only because of you that we can have the opportunity to be engaged in devotional service, giving real meaning to our existence and be part of Srila Prabhupada's movement (with all that that implies) - ISKCON (Srila Prabhupada's offering to his spiritual master Srila Bhaktisiddhanta Sarasvati Thakura). It is because of you that we all eventually will go back to KRISHNA. For all these and more, THANK YOU SO MUCH GURUMAHARAJ!!.

Gurumaharaj, I pray to you, Srila Prabhupada and Krishna that this attempt to follow and please you, it should not remain just as an attempt rather it should become a constant attitude and a fact.

It seems that this became too lengthy. Sorry Sir.

HpS - It is O.K. It is in English! (😎) Good English.

I planned to write you about many points, but got stuck with this important one; thus, now there is another reason to push me to write you soon.

Please forgive me for all my offences and kindly bless me.

Thank you Sir.

Your aspiring servant

Madhumanjari dd.

HpS - Thank you for giving us some perspective on how to go ahead in our own relation to Krsna and Guru. Honestly we face challenges. Because we are taking this role of Diksa guru for Srila Prabhupada we should comment that we have been able to follow the four principles since before initiation. Of course, in the beginning there were so many bad dreams and etc, but that goes away. However, until death lusty thoughts will not go away, as long as we have this Western body. We get 16-rounds done.. well... but so often have to catch up from day to day.

We have confidential confession from so many disciples about their very unfortunate falls into Maya, but we always remember what we read, that Rama told Laksmana: There is no mistake we can make that we cannot correct.

If we pay for the murder of cows to be served as beef we have to approach them and apologize and compensate for the damage we have done to them until they are happy with us.

Thank you! I think you have done pretty well. At least 65%, maybe 95%. Like you say we have not been too much Siksa guru for your good self, but that is O.K. if you have been taking advantage of others eg. Devamrta Swami? Anniruddha Das? ... Diksa is keeping the link by 16/4. We are your servants!! AgtSP! Next letter.

https://youtu.be/l_UegL1R3X8

It is all nice but from 1.50'' it really starts. What did you think of it in terms of ISKCON Education? Hansadutta Swami told us that Srila Prabhupada said that if you want to understand word power, read Shakespeare, and that he could be taught in the Guru kula. I think we heard the same from Gopi-parana Dhana Das.

Hare Krsna.

Here is the link for the class we did with ISKCON Hawaii. We tried to consolidate our perspective on Sannyasa in ISKCON at the present times. Presenting and listening to comments it becomes very satisfying with depth.

 https://stme.in/embim1c2fH

AgtSP! Paoho. We received by Yahoo mail:

Basu Ghosh Das, Wed, Oct 14 at 10:24 AM

Sivaram Maharaj has just come out with a 38 minute video where he expresses his detailed opposition to the GBC authorization of FDGs. Here is the link to the video. I urge all IIAC members to watch it! Here is the link: https://youtu.be/3Jj4-8or_tA

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HpS-ASA -- We watched it while chanting Japa. It inspired about 11-notes. We agree with many points, but again our essential difference is that we feel that Diksa-guru should be taken more as a formality, not a meaningless formality, and principle Vartmana-acharya guru 'usually' becomes Diksa guru.

We, I, are, am, just trying to be one lens on Srila Prabhupada. If you are accepting me as Diksa guru under Srila Prabhupada, then the contract is very clear and formal, and in that perspective I encourage, expect, all of my 'disciples' to accept Srila Prabhupada as an Uttama adhikari guru, and judge us in terms of his instructions.

Jaya! Back to work.