Hare Krishna, Gurudeva
Please accept my humble obeisances
All glories to Srila Prabhupada
I am glad to hear from you, to be able to serve you by following your instruction, even though I am very mediocre in it, but we are struggling to stand upright in devotional service.
I appreciate it very much, and again, thank you for connecting me with the disciplic succession so that at some point I can return home.
There we will meet and play together with Krishna, Srila Prabhupada and the other liberated souls.
I want to start with the bad.
At one point this year I found myself in the situation of wanting to leave the Krishna consciousness process for various reasons, and with that intention I broke a principle to open the exit door, but Krishna did not allow me. That same day, one of my dear godbrothers called me and I told him what had happened. He listened to me with great affection and compassion and encouraged me to continue the process, he said that there was no reason to leave it, and well, here we are, fighting against the agents of Maya and happy to be lucky enough to meet you in this life. and thus be able to do a little devotional service, the most valuable jewel.
ASA/HpS - AgtSP. We must be so purified that the Witch cannot confuse us with any offer. It is possible!
Learn from our mistakes!
We all thank you for your illumination.
At the beginning of the year they gave me a driver's license, I took a driving course for it, but since they gave it to me I haven't driven, I get too stressed, it scares me, but I think it's simply because I don't dare to practice driving a car.
The Digital Communication degree is great, I loved the atmosphere of the institute, it is an artistic institute, they are very close, a more horizontal and practical education. The degree is technical, it lasts two years, but just now the possibility of continuing to study the professional degree that lasts 4 years has opened up. After finishing these two years, they will allow me to validate branches and continue studying for free if I want to.
Within the institute I am already doing an internship in the Event Producer of the establishment and I am learning a lot there, I am also helping a vegan products company to manage its social networks, so I am applying all the knowledge immediately. Doors are opening by meeting different people, teachers, contacts, etc. I like to be active.
ASA - 🌞
I am already consolidating the understanding of my varna, I definitely have a mixture of the 4 natures: 35% Brahmana, 30% Ksatriya, 25% Vaisya and 10% Sudra.
I am also defining my long-term material projects that are connected at the same time with spiritual goals. Sometimes they change in my mind, but they already have limits, there are things that are repeated and that go according to what I am passionate about and what I can give to others.
My psychiatrist is happy with my progress, she is really impressed and well, at one point she glorified meditation and healthy living. We have already reached a balance in the pharmacological treatment, I have a monthly session with her. My psychologist tells me that I'm fine now and that I don't need constant therapy, only when she needs it for specific issues.
As for the crisis I had in the middle of last year, there has been no real progress. Prabhu Jagannath Caran does not want to respond to the concern that you raised about my situation with the institution, he said that he would not respond until the judicial issue is resolved. The problem is that this may never be solved, because they never notified me or anything, a lawyer and other people have told me that this has already been archived and an investigation by the authorities will not continue. I have heard that mother Guru Govinda withdrew the accusations, but I am not clear on that information. Well, I don't know what to do about that, the only thing I'm doing is being respectful. I don't even post on my social networks so as not to generate controversy in the community.
I can't go near the temple, I can't do ISKCON service, I can't even send a letter to mother Guru Govinda. I hope that she is well and I am so sorry to stop taking my meds due to all the consequences that it entailed. I always appreciated her, and I still appreciate her, she helped me a lot in my life, but of course, the impression that was left on her is horrible, maybe it will take 10 years or more before we can talk again.
HpS - Since this is being posted here in the Blog, others may be able to post some useful comments.
As far as institutional work goes I suggest you send the formal news above to Temple President, Jagannatha Carana Das with copy to Jagat guru Das and send the results to us all here.
Lord Caitanya and Nityananda helped Jagai and Madhai. Anyone of us might become victims of this Kali-yuga contamination.
There is no Justice without Mercy.
Among the devotees who have helped me a lot have been Mother Jayasri and Prabhu Maha Bahu, they live near my institute and I visit them twice a month. They have land with native forest, but it is a place that is steep, like a hill, so the flat part that is up is where they have their house and a garden. I help them a bit with masonry, we take prasadam, we do mangal arati and other programs. They are the most constant physical association of devotees I have.
HpS - Obeisance to them.
I am also studying the scriptures once a week with a group of devotees online. I have done a bit of sankirtan too, person to person, and also to my teachers and classmates.
I am getting up at 6.20 on average, sometimes exceptionally 4.00, but usually 6.20, also later sometimes, sometimes around 9.00. But hey, we're struggling with it. I don't do mangal arati daily, but my desire is to be able to achieve the balance to be able to do it and thus comply with his instruction, my psychiatrist and psychologist tell me not to be so demanding on the subject of sleep, since the medicines make me sleep more.
HpS - Yes.
As for the rounds I'm doing well, and thanks to you, Prabhupada and Krishna, I feel taste for chanting, I don't do it as enthusiastically as I should, I don't put full attention, I get distracted, but I'm struggling with it. The principles are fine, just to point out the break I made at that point this year, but from there, everything is stable.
Every day I read the translation of a chapter of the Bhagavad Gita, if I have time I read the translation of a verse of the gita, which I keep a note of and at the next opportunity I read the next verse. If I can, then I read the Nectar of Instruction in English a bit, and I also take time to memorize an English word and a scripture verse. I usually do that in my journeys in collective locomotion. To finish at night I continue my daily reading of Srimad Bhagavatam, but sometimes time does not allow it. And before I sleep I read the Krishna Book in English.
I am also doing puja on my altar daily, an incense and a flower, but the problem is that I am not regular with the schedules and sometimes I cannot do it due to institute issues, etc. When I don't have the time, I do it mentally, but from what I understand, that's for advanced devotees, but hey, it's an attempt to follow the process.
Dear Gurudeva, thank you, I want to be useful to you.
His servant, Piyari Mohan das
HpS - Thanks for the report! Prabhupada says that even a dog can take part in this movement and dance in ecstacy.
Yet, he knows at heart that he has the body of a dog and so he adjusts to that external limit.
I am an America Sannyasi. I will not have the purity that an Indian Sannyasi can have even until the end of this birth.
Wait for some comments direct, in-direct, general on your report.
Thank you.
Go ahead.
You are setting an example for thousands of people.
