Please, accept mis mas humildes y respetuosas reverncias.
At the moment Im chanting 5 rounds daily, but I know in an offensive way, because I dont follow the regulative principies extrictily. I want to talk to you abuot that especificly:
-Eat meat: cow meat: no, chicken anf fish, sometimes.
-Intoxication: drugs and alcohol: no, cigarrettes: yes
- Ilicital sex: sometimes, not to much.
-" Juegos de Azar": no
I think and hope, since more rounds I chant I will stop do this things, but at the moment is the best I can do. I know is to few, Im so " caida" and ignorant, please, give me your mercy.
Dear Maharaja, why when Im chanting my japa I feel so happy, and then, when I finish, sudenly, an emptyness comes in my heart, and then I have but thinkings? like ghost in my mind?? like remembers of my past? I dont understand it good, I remember one day Prabhu Kanu Pandit told me this: " when you start to clean your house, the dust come over, is it like that? I think is like that, because is that I fell, the ghost of my mind and my heart are going out because Im cleaning my heart?? can you explain me this?
19 March Goura Pornima in Chosica Mnadir!!
JAYA SRI CAITANYA MAHAPRABHU!!!
JAYA SRILA PRABHUPADA!!!
With all my heart and devotion, your eternal sirvient Cristina ♥
HpS - Jaya! A G T S P ! ! ! I was wondering how you were. We had not heard from you for some time. We just got back to Texas after three very, very, very intense days in Mexico. Now we should be able to slow down a little bit. We will be in USA for three months.
Yes, we have these addictions to stupid habits, and yes, the best way to get free from them is to chant Hare Krsna. Of course, we should also try to stop them just because we know they are stupid, but real essence is getting higher kind of life. While we are smoking for example we can chant, and then very quickly we will give up the habit.
I don't know the details of your life, but yes, it is a sure fact that as we begin to get a higher life the lower life becomes more obvious. One man said, "I can't stop smoking when every I want to. I've already done it 18-times." <img alt="" src="http://hps-d6.monkeywarrior.com/sites/all/libraries/ckeditor/plugins/smiley/images/a04.gif" title="" />
Even with such a simple thing as smoking we don't realize how attached we are until we stop. So then, when we start to examine deep things about our life: Am I a good person? Have I lived my life in vain? Then we may start to see how shallow our life has been.
So, basic thing is to just chant as much as you can on beads. Chant as much as you can at important moments. Read some regular books. Have lots of association with devotees.
Seems to us this Gaura-purnima Festival in Choseka is going to be something incredible.