Hare krishna!! Dandavats Pranam !! Jay Srila Prabhupada ki jayy !! Dear Gurudeva, Please accept my most humble and respectful obeisances unto your lotus feet.
HpS - AGTSP...... paoho...... little bit swollen feet.
I beg you for forgiveness... Please!!. I'm a fallen soul and I’m not regular in my sadhana and also in my reports,
ASA - You will, perhaps take birth as a frog in Kolkatta and live in a pond with other frogs near the ISKCON temple eating flies!
i recognize that everything is my fault but even if i don’t write you, I'm always reading the Kapi-Dhvaja and i'm always thinking about you and Radha and krishna !! But still i recognize that i have to become more serious in everything!!
ASA - Yep, its a fact. Kamsa was always thinking about Krsna, but well if you read the Kapi Dhvaja always then you will perhaps again at least take birth in Kokatta near the temple.
.... I need your mercy Gurumaharaj!!
ASA - You already got it!!!! Are getting it!!! Gotta use it! Whoop! Whoop!
....Only by your mercy i will surpass everything, I'm always trying and trying.....to do my best but i always fall down because I’m not strong enough, i desire to become a good devotee and help in this wonderful movement of lord Caitanya Mahaprabhu, sometimes I’m very strong and enthusiastic and i feel so happy in that moment but suddenly i fall down because I don’t have good bhajan. This is very difficult for me. And I think for everyone who has attachment for material desires. I’m such a rascal and I’m not serious. I always pray for mercy to Lord Gouranga and Nityananda , Radha Madhava and Lord Nrisimha deva and you too.
I always pray to Lord Krishna for keep me close to the Vaishnavas and in this Krishna consciousness movement!! I understand that this is a process and I have wait and just keeping chanting and serving the lord Krishna and his devotees.
So please Gurudeva I need you to pray to Krishna to let me reach my goals in this life and in Krishna consciousness, I need intelligent for do the right things and for that I need to read more Srila Prabhupada’s Books.
My sadhana sometimes is very good and sometimes very bad, but somehow by the mercy of the Guru and vaishnavas. I’m still chanting Hare Krishna maha mantra and doing my sadhana !! Now- feeling happy because I understand so many things about life, Iskcon… etc.
I’m very fortune for stay here in the holy-dham for long time and whatever is happening to me now, it’s just mercy by the Lord Gouranga and Nityananda. Thank you Gurudeva for everything and even for appear in my dreams sometimes and chanting and remembering me to chant the holy name of the Lord Hare krshna……… maha mantra. when sometimes i feel sad, alone and etc. you and my family are always with me.
Vanca kalpa!!
Your servant- Caitanya Candrodayada Das.
ASA - Whooop! Whoooop.... We fall down and eat ice-cream when we shouldn't. Just work hard when the modes are good and go fast and your best to not fall down as much as you could when the modes are bad. Then....... we make progress..... we become more and more our natural, spiritual, servant, selves. Keep struggling. Help your father!
