Letters to the editor

Hare Krishna Maharaj,

PAMHO, AGTSP,

it was our great fortune to meet somebody like you, in our life. your qualities are indescrible by us both we trust you because primarily of your humility (bg 13.8)and criticism free minds set (NOI 5).

anyways we were talking to a hypnosis, and dream analyst. we came to conclusion that according to Transaction analysis( parent, child ego) harsh pradhan's

-child state is pre-dominant, he took his biological parents just as guardian. his child state is revengeful, impulsive, oscillating, kanistha faith , task oriented , short term pleasure seeking, ir-responsible, escaping

HpS - Wow!

• his parent state is critical , chastiser, slapper, controller, but sacrificing (with expectation to obey, like Indra).
• his adult state was never developed, never made friend, so his balance is missing....

we tried to find parent in you, there is no doubt that. I dont know when can we approach you just as a spiritual father or master.

You have BW, TB, UG, we know these are subtle companions. Can you kindly describe who are BW, TB, UG... esp we never understood who is BW:

HpS - They all were generated from a little discount book we ready many years ago which we late discovered was like a kids "Journey to the West".

Buck White, Piggy, is like the body. In our case he is usually more sane than Monkey, our mind. More reasonable and down to earth and not prone to gross desires.

i think we also need to name our child state.. he is feeling like orphan, its all Karma coming back.

our child state tends to make us sahijya often. we can not end this gross body, because problem is with subtle body..

if their one can do subtle suicide, leave his mind and intelligence , if not false ego. ?

HpS - Huh? Very esoteric statement and I think maybe not in American English!

monkey salute,

we love to see as our father, but not qualified enough.

HpS - We are in Richmond and forced to use a Mac, which has no pictures, and different keyboard!! Also, seven programs every day! More when we get back to the cave.

Seems like a good psychologist. Is devotee (of some one)?

Respected Maharaja,

Please accept my respectful obeisances.

All glories to Srila Prabhupada.

All glories to Sri Guru and Gauranga for giving the most valuable gift of the Holy Names to everyone in this fallen age, without seeing any qualifications.

Dear Maharaja, I firstly wanted to really thank you a lot for guiding my wife. She has had a really tough, past 8-10 years in her life.

Although her parents did what they thought best for her, by uprooting her from USA and bringing her to India, the manner in which it was done has left deep scars in her.

As you know her, she always tries her best to follow her authorities, no matter how tough it gets for her, similarly she is trying to follow what you told her, with respect to maintaining this marriage no matter what.

She has many good qualities, with respect to her dedication and desire to follow, but somehow, with me, the worst part of her nature manifests on an almost daily basis.

I've made a very big mistake in getting married to her, without realising what it would take to keep her happy. I thought I could get better in spiritual life and earn her respect, but have failed miserably in doing so.

Although I chant 16 rounds almost everyday (barring one or two days in a year) the quality is very bad and has perhaps only deteriorated over the years, due to many factors, one major factor being the constant fire fighting needing to be done in marriage.

She has very very different expectations from a husband than who I am - she wants some one who is in constant awe of her and admires her more than anything in his life, who works when she desires and spends the rest of the time with her, in exactly the way she desires.

Working in India, I don't know anyone who can do this, even in government jobs, what to speak of in private jobs.

On top of it, there is constant friction with her finding it tough to adjust with India.

She has very expensive tastes (eg. The only flat she liked in India, is costing 1000 US Dollars a month) and is somehow under the impression that she doesn't, and despite trying hard to provide for all of it, she is very unhappy. When I had met her, with her parents, she was happy living in 1/5 th of such expenses and her lifestyle was much humbler. But I never say this to her.

The toughest thing to deal with, are her constant mood swings, which get very violent, very frequently. Even the smallest of things, can touch her ego and then the entire day and night will be the most miserable, excruciating experience one can imagine, in which I have to constantly hear her verbally abusing my Spiritual teachers and my parents - constantly.

Even if she is upset with something I did (or did not do as per her expectations) or said, she will bring in my Spiritual teachers or parents or all of them and start abusing and villifying them. If I say something to explain their point of view, it gets even worse.

If I try to go to other room to avoid her saying such bad things, she will follow me there. If I try to goto other room and lock myself, she will get even more agitated and try to break things or hurt herself .

If I try to keep quiet, to let her vent out, she gets agitated that I'm ignoring her as I'm not saying anything. This goes on entire day/night. If she can't sleep due to some mental or emotional distrubance, she can't let me sleep either.

Even though I try to say things to pacify her, I'm an utter failure in that. I don't know how to pacify her, despite trying my best, and praying to Krsna to give me intelligence in what to speak or do, I daily miserably.

Like this, there have been many sleepless nights irrespective of whether it's a weekday or weekend, whether I have to work next day or not. Then next day, obviously I'm late to work, work late into night and that escalates things even more

I'm pleading and begging you to please, kindly reconsider this situation. I'm willing to accept all responsibility and consequences, all bad karma of legal separation in this marriage, please allow her to do so. I don't think this is what you meant when you asked her to make the marriage work, but I think it's beyond both of us to make it work, and we have tried a lot for past 3 years to make it work.

I really really cannot keep on hearing the bad things she has to say about my Spiritual teachers and my parents on a regular basis (at least 2-3 times a week). Earlier the frequency was even more.

I am really falling at your feet and begging you to please allow this. I don't have any peace of mind or heart.

By separating , at least there is a chance of my being able to improve my Sadhana and her not committing Vaishnav offence on regular basis, by thinking and speaking ill of my Spiritual teachers due to all the bad feelings I cause her, being in her life.

In my opinion she is trying to follow the instruction of making the marriage work, but it's well beyond her capacity due to our differences and all that frustration is coming out in anger towards me, my parents and my Spiritual teachers.

I'm an insignificant person Maharaj and I made mistake of marrying her, she cannot be happy with me, nor even neutral with me, despite my best efforts.

I've really tried what best I could do Maharaja, and I'm not saying I've done a lot, I just have a lot, lot of shortcomings and I don't think she can be happy with me. I tried to be as honest as possible before marriage to tell her all of my shortcomings and never tried to cheat her or hide anything from her, before marriage, and even until day of court marriage I had asked for her consent for marriage. But obviously, all of this is insignificant/irrelevant now.

Apologies for the very verbose letter Maharaj.

Apologies for taking up so much of your time for my insignificant life.

Just wanted to end with begging you to, please, please reconsider. Please.

Your incapable servant,

Go-dasa

HpS - ASA -- Hare Krsna! Ooof. Finally we have a chance to hear things from your lips. I think I know who you are and it was very nice to meet you. I was impressed that you are a very nice person, and from the beginning I had some sense that some of the conflicts that you describe might be there.

Honestly speaking, in the Kali Yuga, it seems that any marriage means compromise and conflict. I had a similar experience, but one time was enough. I feel that I and my wife really tried our best to adjust the situation but in the end she seemed fixed on the idea of "four principles or me". Of course, this was in the 1970s in the USA and generally if your were vegetarian people thought that you must be a homosexual or a Russian Communist agent.

Knowing what I know now, I think I could have made some basic adjustment that would have made a practical situation for everyone involved, but.... I didn't know then what I know now and neither did anyone else, so in the end it seemed that everyone moved ahead to their proper situation.

I remained as a b'cari and took Sannyasa, she got remarried after six years (which Parasara says is Dharmic in Kali-yuga) to a man who seemed to be in more psycho-social compatibility with her good self.

The dog was adopted by a farm family and never looked back,

My son???? I have a thought of him every day etc.

So... we cannot give detailed advice without detailed knowledge and that is very difficult to obtain in these circumstances.

Of course, in our culture there is no such thing as 'divorce'. The husband may take a second wife, but he must give proper live and affection to the first. Of course, that is independent of the fact whether see is sane or insane. Until we learn to lover everyone we will never be worthy of everyone's love.

It is our independent free choice.

Of course, in the Madhyama adhikari stage this means learning to avoid the things that make us hate them. That is part of our independent process of love.

What about physical separation for some time.

Your good wife lives with her Fathers family for some time and you cook for your self?

Again, we are just giving friendly advice to everyone involved. We do not have a formal relationship with anyone.

I hope that when you say "Go-das" you mean that you are servant of Krsna's cows.

Vibhisana told Rama that living in Lanka as a Vaisnava was like being a tongue surrounded by sharp teeth.

😎

Dear Maharaj,

PAMHO AGTSP

Some very humble choreographic work on a bhajan from Abhay Charan sharing here on the blog as per your guidance: https://youtu.be/cG5fOotZqx4.

Ami jamuna Puline:

https://youtu.be/0Jz-djpML6E

Odissi Sarasvati Mangalacharana: https://youtu.be/jhYSjkz2zYU

Maharaj, I have been working with the Odissi repertoire and have spent the past decade contemplating how to give it our Vaishnava perspective/flavor (this is a draft video, narrative needs to be adapted to final video):

https://youtu.be/z-I9dqRvA2w

Maharaj, I humbly seek your guidance 🙏. How am I to institute a Vaishnava pedagogical system that I can practice and teach that has KC significance for our coming generation?

HpS - Awk!! We don't know much. Parama karuna Das may read this! He was professional dancer with the National Ballet of Argentina and Peru. Radha prati jalpa Devi Dasi has been dancer for many years. She writes here. We will try to get her involved.

I'm currently working to create a pedigogical system and documentation within a book, and before I make any decisions I seek your transcendental guidance. We have some pure dance items and steps that are neutral (non-expressive) that are used to just teach student mind-body coordination/rhythm, balance, limb-isolation, strength, flexibility. Currently in my Natyasala Academy, I teach body conditioning and Odissi basics, theory, and repertoire. In a traditional odissi repertoire: 1) Mangalacharana, with kadachit Kalindi lyrics 2) Battu/Sthai, pure dance item, choreography string of postures to rhythm 3) Pallavi, pure dance item developed further by more complex rhythm and raga 4) Abhinaya: pastimes of Radha and Krsna, Dasavatar etc 5) Moksha, pure dance item ending in 'om'.

How would we envision/reinvent this repertoire from a Vaishnava perspective? I am delighted waiting eagerly to hear from you :) 🙏.

HpS - Again this way, way, beyond us. I don't know any devotees who are working on. Of course Manipuri devotees might be a natural resource for this. Please send a note by WhatsApp to remind us to send contact for devotee in Manipura. She is senior professor of biology at Manipura Medical College and about your age I think. She may be both a good technical resource and a good friend.

Maharaj, if I may, I want to ask one more question: what is my duty with regards to Odissi and KC? Please shed some light 🙏. It seems both have come to my life on their own accord and under your guidance I have found glimpses of a meaningful connection between the two. I request you to please shed some light on how I may serve, my occupational duty 🙏?

HpS - Basically the same answer as in the above comments. Of course, it is nice as we can find an audience to appreciate what we are doing. Basis is good rounds. Sincere rounds even if they are not good. Ask other people for advice. From my perspective we chant good rounds and then Krsna can get the advice through to us. It is like turning our head in his direction.

Your aspiring servant,

Shatakshi

Todas las glorias a Srila Prabhupada Todas las glorias al mobimienro de Sankirtan de Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu.

Muchos saludos, espero que éste con bien,

Soy consciente de mis dibilidades, sin quebrantar los principios regulaticos. En el templo practico poco servició pero voy cada semana: lunes y martes - lo aplico como pujari, y me gano la vida elaborando pan el resto de la semana creo qué gurudeva lo sabe, claro, no sin antes cantar mis rondas temprano. Escribí una carta, antes de esta a este blog, pero no se si ya la leyó.

Y hoy le escribo para pedir su consejo y aprobacion, para salir de México, en plan de trabajo" en plan se trabajo devocional " en el templo de Nueva Vrndavana, tengo una invitacion de la autoridad de ése lugar para trabajar en la cocina.

Y me piden entre otros requisitos una carta firmada de mi maestro espiritual, corroborando o confirmando las fechas de mi iniciaciones, esta carta la estamos haciendo en mexico, casi esta lista para que se la envíe de "algún modo"

Posd: perdon por el atrevimiento y por las incorrecciones que encuentren en estás cartas. Su inutil airviente Jayadeva goswami das.

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All glories to Srila Prabhupada

All glories to Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu's Sankirtan movement.

Many greetings, I hope this is well,

I am aware of my weaknesses, without breaking the regulatory principles. In the temple I practice little service but I go every week: Monday and Tuesday - I apply it as pujari, and I make a living making bread the rest of the week.

I think that gurudeva knows it, of course, not before singing my rounds early.

I wrote a letter before this one to this blog, but I don't know if you've already read it.

HpS - ASA - Yes, we read it but as we remember we could not give much detailed advice because we don't know the details of your situation.

Also, please forgive us that we are a little slow in answering.

And today I am writing to ask for your advice and approval, to leave Mexico, in a work plan "in plan of devotional work" in the temple of New Vrndavana, I have an invitation from the authority of that place to work in the kitchen.

And they ask me, among other requirements, for a signed letter from my spiritual master, corroborating or confirming the dates of my initiations, we are doing this letter in Mexico, it is almost ready to be sent to them "somehow"

Posd: sorry for the audacity and for the inaccuracies that you find in these letters. His useless airvient Jayadeva goswami das.

HpS - Be sure that you know the people who will be sponsoring you well. Otherwise it is a big investment of your resources and it may not be an improvement. On the other had it can be a good experience! Like Narada Muni in the first canto you will be able to see all the different creations of God.

Can we be of anymore help??

Hare Krishna Gurudeva

Please accept my respectful obeisances

All Glories to Srila Prabhupada

After trying different methods of self-knowledge and experimenting with different services, I think my nature is clearer.

HpS -AgtSP!!

For the most part my tendency is Brahminic and all other tendencies are servants of it. Preaching is what motivates me and communication is my strength. I must begin to cultivate more brahminical qualities and be exemplary.

ASA - !

Then there is my Ksatriya nature which is also very strong. It is mainly oriented towards organization and communication skills. It is used to carry out different preaching projects and congregational development.

I have a Vaisya nature as I have skills to sell. I still have a hard time doing it, I feel that there is always some deception in business, but I think it is the way to sustain myself in this life. I also have a connection to the earth, I want to learn more about plants and how they help with health.

And lastly, Sudra. My hands are my source of work, drawing, playing instruments, cooking, etc. It is necessary that I do these activities daily to maintain my health, my mischievous mind asks me to do so.

Analyzing all this, I believe that the best way to generate resources is to have a business.

I am creating a company that allows me to put all my skills into practice. The main focus is preaching, but reaching people in an engaging and innovative way. It will be an intercultural platform oriented to personal and interpersonal development and care for the environment, based on Vedic wisdom and its connection with other cultures.

That is what I have thought so far, just like you, I think a lot. I have to keep busy, I have a lot of energy.

ASA - Hmmm! Sounds too general for a Business. A business should be like, "We Sell Soap". Intangibles like life insurance are harder to start with. Specific service like auto mobile repair are nice. Doctor.

PS: In my dream with Prabhupada that I had commented to him, he gave me an instruction that I did not fully remember, but now I know it: "Become famous, take care of what others have started, follow the legacy and modernize the way to reach the community."

Thank you very much Gurudeva

Your little servant

Piyari Mohan das.

HpS - ???? Think you should look for one specific focus that exemplifies the general perspective. Chant! See if it manifests in the world around you. Eg. start a motion picture production company.

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Hare Krishna Gurudeva 

Por favor acepte mis respetuosas reverencias

Todas las Glorias a Srila Prabhupada

Después de estar probando diferentes métodos de autoconocimiento y experimentando en diferentes servicios, creo que ya mi naturaleza está más clara. 

Mayoritariamente mi tendencia es Brahmínica y todas las demás tendencias son sirvientes de esta. La prédica es lo que me motiva y la comunicación es mi fuerte. Debo comenzar a cultivar más cualidades brahminicas y ser ejemplar. 

Luego está mi naturaleza Ksatriya que también es muy fuerte. Principalmente está orientada a la organización y a destrezas de comunicación. Sirve para llevar a cabo diferentes proyectos de prédica y desarrollo congregacional. 

Tengo naturaleza Vaisya ya que tengo habilidades para vender. Todavía me cuesta hacerlo, siento que siempre hay algo de engaño en los negocios, pero creo que es la manera de poder sustentarme en esta vida. También tengo una conexión con la tierra, quiero aprender más sobre las plantas y cómo ayudan en la salud. 

Y por último, Sudra. Mis manos son mi fuente de trabajo, dibujar, tocar instrumentos, cocinar, etc. Es necesario que yo realice estas actividades a diario para mantener mi salud, mi mente traviesa me lo pide. 

Analizando todo esto, creo que lo mejor para poder generar recursos es tener un emprendimiento. 

Estoy creando una empresa que me permita poner en práctica todas mis habilidades. El foco principal es la prédica, pero llegar a la gente de una manera atractiva e innovadora. Será una plataforma intercultural orientada a el desarrollo personal, interpersonal y el cuidado al medio ambiente, basándose en la sabiduría védica y su conexión con las demás culturas. 

Eso es lo que he pensado hasta ahora, al igual que usted, pienso mucho. Debo mantenerme ocupado, tengo mucha energía. 

PD: En mi sueño con Prabhupada que le había comentado él me daba una instrucción la que no recordaba por completo, pero ahora ya la se: “Vuelvete famoso, cuida lo que otros han empezado, sigue el legado y moderniza la manera de llagar a la comunidad” 

Muchas Gracias Gurudeva

Su pequeño sirviente

Piyari Mohan das. 

AGTSP!

paoho

We are sitting in our room in Sri Sriman Subal-sakha Das and Mother Krsna pramodini Devi Dasi's Ashrama in the great forest of Richmond.

It is snowing outside and there are 16,108 bears standing in line across the street to get cups of hot soup before they head off to Brazil to get the gold and bring it back for the seven story tall Hare Krsna temple that Visvakarma and Hari-narayana Das are building here.

It will be something special, made of crystal with the gold like growing from it in natural feathers!

We are really intent on seeing Krsna within our heart.

You too?

It seems as we do that, we may lose all consciousness of the Bahir-anga Zakti and all the bodies that everyone has there. I guess we'll see everyone in their Zvarupa.

However, . . . a pure devotee lives quite happily within the material world seeing everything as a replica of Vaikuntha.

We humor the other maniacs in this mental hospital, and become more and more purified ourselves.

In SB 1. 15,16 M. Yuddhisthira send Arjuna to see the Lord to understand what is His next plan of work.

Then, our engagement in the dummy hall stimulates our real connection with Krsna in our hearts. We stay here because Krsna wants the battle, material works.

You don't have to get Karuna virus to die.

You can just stop breathing.

Okay.

Time for a short nap.