Letters to the editor

Dear Maharaj,

PAMHO AGTSP

Yes Maharaj. At that time I was taking guidance under the one ISKCON Guru's Sanga-siksa system. He told me to follow my parents. For consultation with Sadhu, I spoke to my parents and siksha guru (arranged by them and disciple of HH RNS), all told to jump on this marriage opportunity brought by my siksha guru despite everything. And sastra says only Kshatriya women can choose their own husband/parents have right to decide spouse.

I sensed many problematic situations will come from this marriage or maybe my fear manifested them. But I also knew being vowed to solve them will result in much spiritual growth. My friends, intuition and astrologers said don’t do it: His affairs will give you sanyas life. I put my hands up and said if this is what you want Krsna, so be it.

I definitely have grown. 4yrs ago I couldn’t imagine tolerating this. I had to face a lot of internal demons: pride, inferiority complex of cowife, loneliness, attachment to conventional grhasta life, insecurity, uncertainity, anxiety, false shelter etc. I am working to mold my life closer to SP’s discipline and thus becoming more internally satiated with my personal, spiritual and material goals.

Earlier, every interaction with my husband would bite me like this many hooded serpant and I’d get fevers, and insomnia. But since you gave us shelter, we have developed some immunity to this poison and this have better sadhana. And most importantly this problem has brought our heart so much closer to yours 🙏. Serendipity. And perhaps the good is slowly revealing itself.

Your servant,

Yajnaseni DD

HpS - ASA - Thank you for giving some lucid explanation of your experiences. I think that others are getting perspectives on their own lives.

Madhyama Adhikari

1. Loves Krsna.
2. Makes friends with devotees.
3. Preaches to the innocent.
4. Avoids the demons.

Of course, most of us are a mixture of qualities 2-4.

So, best thing in our stage is to become expert at avoiding being bitten. See the neurotic attachment of people kicking in and overwhelming their intelligence, and jumping out of their line of fire.

Eg. "Thanks, Prabhu, love to talk about that. I'll be right back!"

Maharaj, PAMHO AGTSP!

After more than a dozen years of suffering, I’ve come to realise that I will never ever neglect what my intuition is telling me again, no matter what kind of authority is standing in front of me. I will not be intimidated into doing things I can see will end up going wrong because maybe most guides we have currently in ISKCON don’t know the abilities of their second generation. Krsna has given us a certain level of insight, understanding, vision, intellect, perception which a lay beginner devotee may not have and their preaching modules can’t be copy pasted onto us.

We aren’t as clueless; maybe we too can see through things. And depending on this inner insight instead of accepting ‘you don’t know anything’, ‘you’re just a little girl’ propaganda. And when you follow, being told ‘you should’ve known better’, ‘we can tell you, but it’s up to you to follow it’.

ASA - Yes, as soon as we come to the mode of goodness, by birth or spiritual culture, we can begin to trust our insight.

Of course, one of most prominent insights is to accurately evaluate our insights.

Eg. 'That is very practical evaluation of the situation, but my intelligence is also telling me to talk to a couple of people to clarify the idea'.

Whatever inspiration we have should be confirmed by Guru, Sadhu and Sastra - Rupa Goswami.

Get to work!

Create a revolution.

Maharaj,

PAMHO AGTSP!

Bhrigu Nadi informed me one woman from your husbands family is causing problems between your husband and you. I have a feeling my husbands girlfriend has been doing black magic on me. She comes from a part of India where this is very common. Fevers, nightmares, insomnia, loss of home, husband, all enthusiasm to live, inauspicious right eye flickering a lot repeatedly over this year etc. have been a constant part of this year. She’s sitting in my home with my husband and I’m out. Will we loose to a woman using black magic? She has access to all my personal items. Is there a way to stop black magic?

In august my husband was still agreeing to take marriage counselling, But everytime I book tickets to go, I’d get extremely sick.

I feel until my husband hears from legal authorities, he won’t stop. I need to file an FIR to get new passport. Should I pursue legal help at this point?

your aspiring servant,

Yajnaseni DD

HpS - ASA -- AGTSP! Paoho. Again, we, HpS, Tom Brown, Buck White, are 97% incompetent to handle this kind of stuff.

In general, it does exist. Story of Bhaktivinode Thakura and big Tantric is there.

Yet, as Sannyasis we only take shelter of Radha Krsna within our heart of hearts.

Our external Deity worship is very simple, but our internal is more developed than Grhastha.

Let us see if some Grhastha reads this and can give advice.

Legal things again are very individual. Sometimes it is good, sometimes it is bad.

Advice would be better from your father, brothers et al.

Every tiny step you take in improving your Hari Kirtan, Japa, is an permament step forward against subtle influences.

PERMANENT.

Dear Maharaj,

PAMHO AGTSP!

You asked us to read: https://vedabase.io/en/library/noi/preface/#bb5771. The direction I’m getting in my heart after trying my best to follow SP’s discipline is I should try to not stir or provoke situation of police involvement/court as that will bring us near the divorce process. However, I also feel if we do not have any presence there, he will get more settled and so will she in the illusion that this marriage is over. I tried to nicely deal with him, he’s arguing, we will kill him. So if I try to peacefully obtain this house key/access, I should maybe just show up there. If I fail, perhaps I should embrace it like Krsna accepted rejection as Shanti doot by Duryodhana. If he attacks then I will have to act to protect, again not endangering the marriage. This might get tricky to keep everyone peaceful and prevent eruptions. Both my father and my husband’s family and gf all want a boil down. I’m close, but I feel better to postpone inauspicious acts.

I have a follow up question to your answer that Yudhisthira’s desire to uphold dharma also lost to Duryodhana: doesn't Krsna protect vow of His devotees? Bhakta Vatsala?

ASA - Hare Krsna. The greatest asset that we can have is an enlightened service attitude. If Krsna can protect that and augment it then we have to greatest gift.

If we have a service attitude toward belicose family members then we are satisfied in any situation. We have come to help everyone.

Follow up for: ‘should not argue with fool’: he turns a simple request for house key into argument. In favour of not accelerating divorce, I’m considering postponing asking for my rights to my things and house key to a later point of higher clarity. Maybe for now I can compromise having my dance dress and order new documents and book tickets.

Ys,

Yajnaseni DD

ASA - As Sannyasis and B'caris we don't get involved in the details of these things, so we can't give detailed advice.

Chant Hare Krsna and try to do things with the company of several family members and responsible people.

Draupadi won.

Hare Krishna, Dear Gurudeva!

All glories to Srila Prabhupada & All glories to you.

Please accept our humble obeisances. (PAOHO)

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Hare Krishna.

How are U???

HpS - AgtSP and thanks to your association we are keeping the Holy Names behind our actions, so we are fine!

I follow all your tweets and posts in the blog.

Our sadhana is ok. 16R, 4AM, 3P (still working on accomplish one of the four),

HpS - Get a rooster as a pet?

SB everyday (We are on Canto 1,Chapter 11, Lord Kṛṣṇa’s Entrance into Dvārakā).

ASA - Does this help:

http://www.jayarama.us/archives/pdp-csg.docx

?

My family is ok. Baby was finally born. November 7th. My sister name her AITANA MIKELLA.

We thank all devotees for their blessing. Some matajis came some days before to celebrate a ceremony.

We spent a great time. I will send some pictures.

Thanks a lot for everything

EDT (Patrak das & Antuanette)

HpS - Do you chant all your Japa on beads at one time?

Do you chant while you are doing other things?

Gurudev, if you have extra copies of tava pache pache with you. HG Rituraj Krsna Das Prabhuji wants to purchase...it's not available in Indian Amazon.com

ASA/TB - We are printing in India now.