Esperando su Ayuda.

1 month, 3 weeks ago by ngdd. in Personal Sadhana Reports

Hare Krisna Maharaja, Todas las glorias a Srila Prabhupada 🙏🏽 Soy Narayani G. Devi Dasi.

Necesito su ayuda con respecto a su discípulo Vijaya Govinda Das 

Desde hace un tiempo vengo escuchando cosas que está diciendo de mí y de nuestra separación.. quiero contarle a través de este medio todo lo que pasé y lo que me llevó a tramitar legalmente el divorcio, y no solo una simple separación.

HpS / ASA - AgtSP, Thank you, Prabhu. This media is like the devotees who come up around the speaker after a Sunday Feast lecture and wish to talk about more specific topics and not things that new guests and others would want to hear and discuss.

We are trying to discuss these things in a private WhatsApp group with Anandamaya Das, and Rohini kumara Das as a neutral Grhastha approved by both, since as Sannyasis, even though Diksa Guru under Srila Prabhupada's authority, we certainly have some very real personal concern for the situation. We just made AmD an Administrator in the Group so you might participate as you wish. Of course, we are trying to be in good correspondence with Vijay govinda Das and Mother Madhava priya Devi Dasi, whom we understand as Temple President of the Center in Uruguay (or is it Paraguay?).

Let us go ahead and look at your letter. We will certainly edit it and comment if we feel some things are too particular for this Group and should be handled in the above mentioned Group.

Really don't think this place is best for a dialog between participants.

Many participants may chose to just not proceed beyond this point as they chose. Maybe having enough problems just like yours of their own! 🙂

This material world is a joke for the pure spirit soul!

En mi carta anterior mencioné que no quería exponer todos los motivos públicamente pero creo que es conveniente dada la situación. A la vez me gustaría que le pida por favor a su discípulo que me deje en paz.

Él está diciendo a todos los devotos que yo lo engañé estando juntos, pero nuestra separación se dio mucho antes del divorcio… lastimosamente los trámites llevaron un buen tiempo y por fin salió el 02/06/25, antes de eso y a pesar de nuestra separación sin divorcio yo nunca salí con otra persona en un humor sentimental. 

Le envío copia del documento del Divorcio.

Desde los primeros años juntos, él demostró tener problemas con el control de sus emociones, temas que su familia conocía.. y desde siempre fue muy difícil para los dos ponernos de acuerdo en cualquier decisión importante q debíamos tomar.

Él me informó que sufría de depresión y tenía tendencias suicidas, y que ya había intentado quitarse la vida antes… información que no tome con la debida importancia. Creí que con cariño y servicio devocional juntos, eso podría desaparecer. Cuando él se frustraba en cualquier ámbito de su vida (discusiones entre nosotros, su trabajo o sus estudios) él me amenazada que quería suicidarse y buscaba la forma de hacerlo y tenía actos de furia e ira donde rompía muebles; golpeaba y tiraba cosas al piso, gritaba y a veces hasta se golpeaba a sí mismo. Eso me causaba temor y desesperación constante y fue así que le llegué a decir que nunca tendríamos hijos.. lo que me causó mucho dolor ya que mi idea de casarme era formar una linda familia en CK,


ASA - 🤔

pero teniendo a mi lado a un esposo inestable mentalmente, lo veía imposible ya que no soy lo suficientemente fuerte como para sobrellevar la carga de ser madre y además tener que sopórtalo a él en sus crisis diarias. 

Con el tiempo empecé a enfermar físicamente. Mi madre que es psicóloga me ayudó bastante a entender la razón de esos dolores, fui al doctor y no encontraron la causa.. y entendimos que estaba somatizando frustraciones.

Más adelante también empecé a encerrarme en mi misma… y caí en depresión.. sus crisis depresivas ya eran crisis de ambos. Solo quería dormir y llorar.

En esas crisis que él tenía también me pedía constantemente que me divorcie, que yo era cobarde por no hacerlo; y muchas otras cosas más.. todo esto nos llevó a separarnos, y hace más de un año vivíamos en cuartos separados. 

En más de una ocasión él me dijo que ni yo ni nadie lo conocía en realidad, que yo no dimensionaba de lo que él podía ser capaz… que él no estaba mentalmente bien… 

Ya separados este año yo tuve que salir de casa de mis padres donde vivíamos, porque los trámites del divorcio estaban encaminados pero no podía pedirle que se marchara, por miedo a que se autolesione o atente con la vida de mi familia o me ataque en una de sus crisis. Sé lo impredecible que es por sus problemas psicológicos y traté de ser lo más cuidadosa posible, así que avisé a mis padres y me fui esperando que él también saliera de ahí por su cuenta, para yo poder volver.. tardó varios meses en salir y en ese tiempo no pude ver a mis padres como antes. 

Más adelante prometió pagarme un dinero que me debía y hasta hoy en día no lo ha hecho. 

En el templo de Asunción a donde yo iba , varías veces expresé que lo nuestro no estaba funcionando…ya que me veían a veces llorar o no podía ir a hacer servicio, y más de una vez las autoridades del templo me recomendaron que me divorcie; y como también tienen los datos de nuestras cartas astrales ; llegaron a mencionar que en futuro íbamos a separarnos. 

Otros devotos y devotas solo me decían q el matrimonio era así y que debía aguantar.. pero nadie sabía en detalle todo lo que yo estaba viviendo. 

En una ocasión escribí a una madre mayor discípula de usted para que por favor hable con su esposo y con usted para que puedan hacer algo para ayudar a VGD, ya que me amenazaba todo el tiempo, y tenia temor de que se quitaría la vida pronto…. Mi gran error creo que fue no querer exponer demasiado nuestros problemas y cuando pedía ayuda nadie dimensionaba que yo ya no podía sola con él.


En un intento de disminuir sus crisis; él trató de ir al psicólogo pero después de la primera sesión nunca más fue. 

El año pasado fui a india y después de mucho rogarle y llorarle que vayamos juntos, decidió acompañarme. 

Creí que después de ese viaje QUIZA podrían mejorar nuestra vida pero no pasó así.. 

Gracias a Krishna mi divorcio está hecho legalmente en mi país... y me gustaría que me dejen en paz.. yo traté siempre de no molestar a nadie ni meterme en la vida ajena.

Lastimosamente sigo decepcionándome cada vez más de las autoridades del templo de Asunción ya que no les basta con hablar mal de todos los que van a templo incluyéndome a mí y a Vijay, y Vijay mismo lo sabe... ahora pasaron al nivel de querer perjudicar a otros devotos.


Disculpe por favor que haya usado este medio para expresarme pero necesito su ayuda.

Deseando que nuestro Señor Sri Krisna lo proteja siempre, me despido de usted muy atentamente.

NGDD.


HpS/ASA - Wow! Oooof! Let us write in English and then you can use Translate.Google.com to translate. I remember we met in the Transit area when you both were returning from India. Vijaya govinda Das was recovering from some intense anxiety attack, and had taken some help from the medical staff in the airport.

We are too far away from this situation to offer practical, detailed advice. We are just trying to help a little with the four or five communities here in Middle Tennessee with a physical visit for four weeks etc.

Next Vijaya Das may come back and make some contrasting description of the situation from his perspective.

We, and I guess this forum, cannot offer much more to this in practical advice.

We might have been more involved with our limited strength but it didn't happen.

Our obligation is to act as Diksa Guru in ISKCON for AMD and for that we are discussing in the Private Group.

We feel that as Diksa guru we must be involved with these formal varna ashrama relations, such as marriage etc.

When that is lacking we feel that we all are not capable of acting on the real Brahmnical platform that the Parampara we represent requires.

Worshipping Silas, wearing Brahminical threads, is a challenge that Srila Prabhupada directly in his purports delays or limits for his Western disciples like us who have not been born in Brahmana families until we have demonstrated that we have come to that level.


So, we pretty much want to put an end to this discussion in this forum with comment that details of all of this from different perspectives has not been presented here, but anyone who wants to know more for positive help can certainly contact the individuals involved, and we are certain that this process is wonderful for making the very best progress in dealing with the reactions that we have from previous lives!!!

The time

1 month, 3 weeks ago by Radha Japa in Personal Sadhana Reports

Please, Guru Maharaja, accept my humble and respectful obeisances at your lotus feet. You are so merciful! You give us thousands of opportunities to purify ourselves, to listen to you, and I, for so many stupid reasons stemming from my bad karma, fail to take advantage of them.

All glories to Srila Prabhupada!!! All glories to You my adored Spiritual master!!!


Today I woke up at 2. My body has gotten used to it, (due to his mercy Gurudeva and that of the devotees who taught me by example), to wake up at this hour, I feel calm, in peace, I can sing calmly. Sometimes Franco also wakes up at the moment, but especially at 5 he comes to greet us. He rests in his work workshop he is building.


I always put a cell phone in a very high window from where I send a signal to another phone that is inside the house. So I can connect by being inside the house. The phone that Watsap has is the one that I go up to the high window almost like the roof of the house and that sends a signal. Today, foolishly, I thought: I am going to concentrate well on singing rounds and then I look at the messages. And you had done the Goto program!

I thought about the importance of time. Today is the appearance of Srila Bhaktivinoda Thakur!!! I love his songs, his devotion!! I infinitely thank you and Srila Prabhupada! Thanks to you we can honor these days! But one day as important as today, I lost your Gurudeva association at the most beautiful and quiet time for me. How can I wait to sing only the Holy Name?... I just have to run after you! I was very stupid. But I learned this: I should never think that I can. It is only thanks to his blessing that I can sing with determination. Gopal used to wake up quickly but now, sometimes, I have to fight to wake him up and I don't want to bother him either, I wish he was something beautiful and natural for him. It's amazing, but when he falls asleep early he wakes up alone.

You are so merciful, GuruMaharaja, that you are present on these applications like WhatsApp to stay in touch with Your disciples. Before, I had gotten used to doing everything alone, due to my lack of internet connection, but also to the temple. There is a program here twice a month, on Sundays. We never go! Because on Sundays the buses pass every one or two hours, and Franco doesn't want to go because of that and worries a lot about me going alone because waiting for the bus there is dangerous; there are no people. So that's why I don't go. I resigned myself to doing everything at home; I know that's okay too. Because I resigned myself to this, I think maybe that's why my mind got used to thinking that I can do it alone.

This could be a response to your instruction that we go to the Sandya Artik to the temple!

I used to suffer a lot from this situation because in Peru I was so used to being with devotees. But then I was glad to understand that my Govinda put me in this situation, and it's perfect for me now. So I try to make the most of what I can. But these imperfections in my mind can arise, like believing I can do it alone. Today Govinda showed me this. He is always so merciful!! He always gives us opportunities to learn! ❤️

I hope you recover Gurumaharaja! of his throat and the headache... I can only continue singing for you. Thank you eternal for being our spiritual teacher. Today after singing basic rounds and while I started singing Sri Guru Astaka, I fell asleep for 30 minutes and when I woke up I saw: You had done Japa Joe!! I'm very sorry, but I learned: I can't do it alone! Please forgive me if I committed an offense in this letter, unintentionally:

Japa Prati Jalpa Radha Devi dasi


HpS/ASA - Thank you for this news. We could not read all of it, but we are not the only Monkeys in this Circus!!!

A letter from China

1 month, 3 weeks ago by rukmini in Personal Sadhana Reports

Hare Krsna, guru maharaja, please accept my humble Obeisances and all glories to Srila Prabhupada. 

Guru Maharaja, Thank you so much for your efforts in the WhatsApp group.You are so kind to do this .I am fortune to receive your chanting videos and other sharing every day.

HpS/ASA - Thanks, agtSP, also to Srinivasa Das who did such practical work to investigate it and set it up.

Thanks to the Administrators of each Group in the Community.

We discovered that if we go to Settings in the Chat area of WhatsApp we have the option to make our phone number private.

After 5 years, Indian visas for Chinese citizens have resumed, and we are planning to spend a few months in Vrindavan. I haven't been to India before. We seek your blessings and guidance. 


HpS/ASA - 😿

Such wonderful news! So wonderful! Hope you can take the dust of Sri Vrndavana Dhama on your head. Hope your esteemed husband rubs some on your head. Hope you can offer some and water from the Yamuna to your esteemed parents and grandparents and everyone who you love and who has helped you become the upright persona that you are.


The place we are living now is a small city, but natural and simple, Dali, Yunnan Province. This place, there are national parks and herbs used for Chinese medicine. Apparently high altitude gives more strength to herbs and roots. I have been doing Traditional Chinese Treatments for some years. Acupuncture is really beneficial for harmonizing and energizing effect on mind and body. Meanwhile, Through my job, I see people suffering so much physically and mentally. Then they have to spend so much money and time to make themsevles feel better. We try to help them, inviting them to home program. This summer, H. H. Indradyumna Swami, He came to Dali ,5-day programs, it's inspiring. Last year, I got initiation yajña in Bali temple with other devotees. Sorry guru maharaja, after a long time, i write this letter.


Please forgive my offence during the service, I'm a such fallen soul, and Maya is so powerful.Without your shelter, I can't survive.

Trying to be sincere servant

Vanara-rani Anjana DD 


HpS - Thank you. So very nice to hear from you. I feel so strongly attracted to China. Of course, we were born on Guam. Must be some connection with China from previous life. Of course, I have heard, and you must know, that some aspects of Chinese culture are among the worst in the world 😆

China is so big, such variety, must be number one in many things! Light of the Bhagavata can shine very nicely there, no?


Please keep nice diary of your travels and report. If you are pure then while you are traveling with your husband, Krsna will send many innocent people for you to meet and enlighten. Lead them to Srila Prabhupada's books.


https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dali_Town,_Yunnan


https://www.google.com/maps/place/Dali,+Yunnan,+China/@25.5722955,99.9011481,10z/data=!3m1!4b1!4m6!3m5!1s0x3727b8a355da57b7:0xdc4ea8f6c9d7b856!8m2!3d25.6064799!4d100.26764!16zL20vMDF6c25m?entry=ttu&g_ep=EgoyMDI1MDkwMy4wIKXMDSoASAFQAw%3D%3D


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ASA Archives

1 month, 3 weeks ago by srinath in Special Category A

Dear Guru Maharaja


Please accept my humble obeisances. All glories to Srila Prabhupada! All glories to you!


We had one of the biggest Radhastami festivals in Kalachandji Dham. The deities were showered with petals from about 18000 roses as is the annual tradition. About 1300-1500 people attended the festival. It was wonderful.


Srirama and I have been trying to create a framework for a website that will act as the archive for all ASA content which comprises of audio/video classes, ASA Encyclopedia, DTCs, poems, books, movies, etc., of H. H. Hanumatpresaka Swami Maharaja, Tom Brown, Buck White and Uncle Gizmo . As you always say, before we start anything, we have to answer these 4 questions


Who am I,

Who are we,

What is the Plan,

What Resources do we need


Who am I? - I feel the content from ASA is very valuable and needs to be preserved for posterity. This is because ASA acts as a transparent via medium that serves to illuminate the teachings of HDG A.C.Bhaktivedanta Swami Srila Prabhupada. It has helped me understand Srila Prabhupada's teachings better. The perspectives of ASA are also unique in many ways that might not be available elsewhere.


From this perspective, I am interested in collecting and archiving the content. We can then later create libraries from the archives on topics we want to highlight. With this as the starting point, Srirama has created a basic website that can act as the ASA archive.


HpS//ASA - AgtSP! Paoho & bw!! Thank you for your letter. Little sorry that it has taken one week to respond, but I guess we are all about the same level of involvement in the Sankirtan of the present season.

Thank you!

Srirama visited us with Mataji and Dasaratha-baby. Was very very intense, ecstatic and productive. I think they also had very nice visit and met so many devotees like Sri Hari, Subhadra, NgD et al!


We had perfect time to sit and go over this project and others.

We were able to discuss some of the fundamental aspects of the idea and some of the practical details. We were of course on the phone with you some of that time.

I think our fundamental perspective is that it the ASA archive, not the HpSwami archive. the Head of ASA has been HpSwami, but we really consider that as a mostly administrative servant role. ASA definitely is open to anyone and everyone within its Sankirtan participation in Srila Prabhupada's ISKCON.

We also discussed that the webpage and periodicals would not archive everything but would in part be resource for links to other things. Eg. we have done a lot of lectures at Nila-madhva Dhama, ISKCON Houston, and they seem to have some value in illuminating Srila Prabhupada and his great followers. So, the webpage would not archive those, but give links of maybe some intelligence.

We also discussed that the webpage might serve as an ASA Archive, like an aggregate, roughly cataloged collection of stuff, and then from that specific Libraries could be generated. Eg. all the stuff on NoI even including links to Hari Pari ara Das' lectures.


Your comments above are some nice. Seem so clear.

We do not feel it is a priority ISKCON project. Distribute Srila Prabhupada's books! Of course, that requires a lot of people behind each soldier in the field.

Personally we don't feel that we need to leave much of anything behind in writing except the advice to chant the Maha-mantras under the shelter of Srila Prabhupada's lotus feet from the core of your heart.


This is a big task and needs a lot of help. I am writing this letter to see if the members in the Blog would be interested in such an endeavor. Once we have a few members who have answered the Who am I and Who are we questions, we can move to answering the planning and resources questions.


I am always grateful for your association and guidance Guru Maharaja.


Your servant

Srinatha Krsna dasa


HpS - AgtSP! Again, we don't see it as a priority project anywhere as near important as what Jambavati Devi Dasi and Asta sakhi Devi Dasi and so, so, many other ASA friends, members and intelligent enemies have and are doing.

Only because Srila Prabhupada is so, so, kind do we feel that it is one small line that directly connects to Srila Prabhupada's march along the path back to Godhead.

Thank you!

YASODA DEVI DASI ESPAÑA

Hare Krishna, my dear and always remembered Gurumaharaja 🙏🏻

Please accept my sincere obeisances 🙏🏻

All glories to our savior Srila Prabhupada 🙏🏻


HpS/ASA - AgtSP!!!


Dear Gurumaharaja, I hope you are in good health. I always see you well. Although I know you are always smiling for us, your students in the spiritual life.


Gurumaharaja, I apologize for not being able to join the GoTo program these past few weeks, but since the last time I spoke to you, my life has been like a whirlwind, and for now I'm happy about it. I have a few things to tell you; I'll try to summarize:


ASA - 🐵 🐵 🐵


By Radharani's arrangement, we got a larger space to spend the summer season. We are in a village very close to NVM. We'll probably return to NVM in the winter because the owner of the house doesn't want us to install a fireplace (God's arrangements?).


I was accepted for a temporary job (6 months) at the town hall, cleaning in the villages near Brihuega. I am very grateful to Radha Govinda Chandra for the opportunity to collect.


HpS - Super!


I left my service caring for the 92-year-old devotee. We took care of him for two years. It's time to step back and allow others to collect (I feel incredible peace not being responsible for someone else's life).


I still maintain my service at the inn (I really enjoy working with Jambula; he always reminds me of you. Jambula is organized, not a Hare Krishna fanatic; he's protective; he's one of the few best godbrothers I have). I also keep the mini-room so I can rest (I think a woman should always keep her room in her family's home, for safety. Even though I'm married, etc., I'm a single woman in a foreign country and continent).


WHAT AM I?


ASA - WHO.... are you! 😃


Gurumaharaja, I've been analyzing my life in this material world, the various jobs/services I've performed, and I'm still not clear on exactly WHAT AM I? I remember the first time I spoke to you, you asked me, "WHO ARE YOU?" and when I told you my name, you told me YOU ARE A SPIRITUAL SOUL, WE ARE SERVANT DOGS OF SRILA PRABHUPADA (and you showed me the kanti saying that it was our leash) I was very shocked. Every so often that I meditate on the subject I ask you, another day you told me YOU ARE BRAHMANA (my father and brothers are lawyers) VAYSHA (my mother and her family are business merchants) AND SUDRA (we all are) I asked the same question to several devotees and some said "I am a brahmana, I am future vanaprastha (oh no!), I am a leader, I am a grihastra, etc etc" I am not very clear at what stage or what I really am, BUT I know that now I HAVE TO COLLECT.


I've worked as a teacher (15 years), ASA - Brahmani


a waitress in a bar, ASA - Sudra (survive each day!)


my dad's secretary, managed my mom's family business, I'm a wife, I was a pujari for over 10 years, etc., and now a cleaning laborer, ... and I feel tired of EVERYTHING... Once you told me "you're an old soul, you've lived through almost everything before."


In Vrindavan they told me "you're a Westerner, contaminated, you only chant HARE KRISHNA and take prasadam." I feel that THAT ANSWER is the essence of my existence. And one day you told me, "You are my third-class disciple." That's the answer that makes me feel completely happy (whenever I remember you, I AM HAPPY).


HpS - Third class?????? I don't know what that means. You seems to be doing pretty good as an affectionate mother to whomever you meet. Nice person. Someone easy for everyone to love.

Current world is a mess!!!!! Have your noticed! Relatively speaking ISKCON is pretty good. In some respects it is good in that it does not deceive people too much into thinking that it is great.

So, your life is materially chaotic and it is going to get more so. At 77 years plus, mine gets more more chaotic daily. I have control over smaller and smaller world but.... that is GREAT! Sages and Sagginis pray for Kali yuga. No way to get attached to anything more than 27% and just pause and chant:

Hare Krsna

.. in the presence of your Bead Bag. [Keep it nearby, tied up all day] and you are a liberated soul and you are going more and MORE and M O R E back to Goloka.

  1. So, keep chanting more and more.
  2. Look more and more for Sankirtan Partners in whatever institutional relationship.
  3. Be ready to grab the mercy when it passes.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ozX0KazFoDk



INDIA

VRINDAVAN, EXTERNALLY, IS VERY SIMILAR TO PERU... BUT IT IS A SPIRITUAL PERU... Vrindavan is a place I would like to return to... RADHARANI❤️ I think I saw my Gopal in the form of a child in some places in Vrindavan (am I going crazy?).


HpS - Yes.


I had many beautiful experiences and experiential teachings in my short time in India. I felt like I had lived there before. I dressed as a man, and when I went out on the streets, I felt so natural... Wow! Thanks to the monkeys and motorcycle horns, I was able to realize I was in the material world... RADHE RADHE❤️ Without her, nothing happens! RADHE is the queen of everything and everyone!

SPAIN

Gurumaharaja would like to ask you to pray. Please have the mercy to visit us soon in New Vrajamandala (NVM). Gurumaharaja, without you, I feel like I don't want to be in this place anymore... I feel so alone without you... When I clean the NVM staircase, I remember your feet stepping on each step and I get so emotional!!! I remember you staying at NVM and the service I receive seems so beautiful... I beg you, please have the mercy to visit us again... 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻 We will organize everything better than the last time you visited us. We will welcome the godbrothers with more devotion. Please 🙏🏻 We are an HpS team at NVM Yugala, Tarangakshi and I (it's only because of you that I'm still at NVM)

Missing and remembering you every day

In vain, trying to be your third-class disciple

Yasoda Devi Dasi

May Lord Nrisimha continue to protect you 🙏🏻


HpS - We only plan to chant HK. Dream a lot of Sankirtan. Act as a sleep walker in the sensual world.

Seems that we will be Camped in Nila-madhava Dhama, Houston, ISKCON, until December, with another visit to ISKCON Nashville in November. Maybe another in January on the way to Spain. Stay for some time with my heart meds, then go with Yadu Swami to India/Radha Kunda.


Of course, Putin may start a nuclear war, but seems likely because that would stop the internet, and FOX Communications Corporation would not like that!!!