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Hare Krishna Maharaja Por favor acepte mis más humildes reverencias.

Todas las glorias a Srila Prabhupada Desde su ultima visita a cusco y que tome refugio en usted ,han pasado muchas cosas ,tal como usted nos dijo a prabhu Amala Karuna Das y mi que nos casaramos , intercambiamos guirnaldas ,en abril nos casaremos civil ante el juez y ya que usted llega en agosto y si lo permite nos pueda casar por fuego.....Gurudeva estamos esperando un bebe ya tengo casi ocho semanas ,viaje a Lima a traer a mis dos hijos niños aun para que vivan con nosotros y hacer las cosas bien ,en ese viaje me puse mal me internaron en el hospital,y me dijeron que mi salud no es buena y corre riesgo el bebe y yo ,tengo un embarazo de alto riesgo,en algun momento Maharaja pensaron en interrumpir la vida del bebe y yo no acepte ,estoy cantando 20 rondas hago servicio ,atiendo las deidades de Jagannath Subhadra Balaram,aun asi Guredeva con todo esto en mi cabeza no canto buenas rondas con seguridad o me pierdo en el pensamiento,deseo y debo hacer lo correcto,a pesar de todos estos inconvenientes me siento muy feliz con mi servicio y la asociacion de los devotos ,luego nuevamente me gana la mente y olvido que no somos el cuerpo y que ese bebe es un alma ,hay momentos en los que mis pensamientos son vacios y el Maha mantra lo repito talvez por inercia ,por eso pido un consejo , Gurudeva una palabra suya es muy importante para mi para poder guiarme y hacer lo corecto...... Me despido, su sirvienta bhaktin Amparo Hare Krsna.

HpS - TlgaSP. Pfanrh. Su nombre significa "refugio", no?  Si, claro, la Mama tiene fuerte responsibilidad protejar la alma en embrion en su vientre. Pero claro, si va a dejar su cuerpo en el processo, es base pensar sacrificar el cuerpo del bebe. Es algo intenso. Tiene consultar muy bien con muchos. Arjuna tuvo que matar milones de tios, primos, sobrinos...!

Y claro, claro, claro, necesita mucho ayuda de Krsna. Como va a obtener si no canta buen rondas. Eso es el Kali-yuga Dharma. Canta bien para inteligencia y tambien directamente para salud!  Es un hecho, su bebe va a oir, beneficiar, del sonido de Krsna katha, SB, K book etc.

Muy buena suerte con gran felicidad en sus desafilos.

AGTSP
paoho & bw.   Life is like a Battle of Kuruksetra, no?     Ooof!  Maya kicks us and bites us and we kick back and bite and run away and....      We only hope that Krsna as our General and Srila Prabhupada asa our Captain we can be of some use.

All the mail answered up to 5, 3 days ago!!!

5.22PM.   We have to do a PPTX for this evening's BhVai class. Pack to go to Hari-lila's tonigt and Tennessee tommorrow. Tommorrow FMP will be on-line. Visit to Houston has been great. We also have to call Visvambara, Nirmala Mataji, Kartamasan and Radhika-ramana Das about this next Educaiton SYmposium here in Texas.

We have to update our Calendar for the Kapi-dhvaja and do a little BhVai, Cantro Six work.

Hare Krsna!!!

We are dying a happy death.

See you in the FMP.

Hare krsna maharaj.

All glories to srila Prabhupada

All glories to you H.H.Hanumatpresaka swami maharaj.

please accept my humble dandavat pranam at your lotus feet.

HpS - ASA - Potato feet.

Respected maharaj

Hope you are in good health.   I am very sorry that i had not written to you for so many days. I always remembered you in my mind .Thank you for the letter that you wrote to me in email. I am eternally gratefull that you have decided to take me as a future disciple knowing my problems.

I didnt want to write because i couldn't keep up to the standards . Few days i didnt chant my rounds .

HpS - Then keep track of your debt and begin to pay it back. Chant an extra round each day. We only neglect chanting because we are stupid, no? It will give us all kinds of benefits!

But now i am back on track. Did my rounds and trying to wake up for mangal aarti . Recently i saw your kapi dwaja and ABC Curriculam . I made a time table for myself keeping mangal aaarti , tulsi aarti etc and the books you mentioned in the ABC curriculum in my daily schedule. I am so gratefull to you  maharaj for making it so easy for me and others.

Since i last wrote to you i went to mayapur dham twice. It was blissfull expirience. So many wonderfull things happened there with me. Second time i went during kirtan mela . I  got to see H.H.Radhanath maharaj , H.H.Sacinandana maharaj , H.H.prahaladananda maharaj, H.H. Candramauli maharaj etc .didnt talk with them as i didn't know what i could say . Just paid my pranam and heard there classes. During sivaratri night H.H.Candramauli maharaj gave me his maha Garland iN Jagannath mandir. I also attended the kirtan mela but couldn't see the the panch tatva deities crying ( i went outside ISKCON to take darshan of radha gopinath and get maha garland in gopinath gauriya math....i was greedy for the garland so i missed the mercy of mahaprabhu... should have stayed in ISKCON only, sorry maharaj).

regarding my service . I did book distribution in train while going and coming back from mayapur dham. during nityananda trayodasi and gaura purniima cooked for the deities and also prepared fruit juices for abhishek. by the mercy of pujari pabhu he allowed me to do abhishek of gaura nitai during gaura purnima. About regular service in temple i mostly do cooking when i go as there . Once i got chance to cook for giriraj ji also. 

Recently i heard a lecture that you gave on JAPA from youtube. It was so inspiring . I could really connect with the concept of homunculus and also how we can worship our japa beads and consider them as like massaging krsna's toes. Thats like we are getting to touch krsna even though we are not brahmin . It was such a awesome lecture maharaj. Thank you.

I saw in your calander that you will be comming to india on 6th of may and visiting sri vrindavan dham. Maharaj please allow me to come with you and be with you during that time . Please maharaj allow me to stay in your association. Out of excitement i already booked my train tickets to mathura on 1st may. Maharaj how can i contact you when you arrive at delhi.

HpS - ASA - I guess we can burden Harsh with job of communication secretary. 919910579879, 919930034241. Se you there!!

I have never been to delhi before alone . Will you be having any phone number that i can call and meet you in delhi and vrindavan or your personal helper's number that i can call . 

I am so excited to meet and visit sri  vrindavan dham with you. It was a dream that i aspired for in my heart to visit vrindavan with you maharaj . With your and srimati radharani's grace i might be allowed to enter Vrindavan and that too with you. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.

Maharaj i have a request . Can i call you Gurudev from now ?

HpS - ASA - No..... ISKCON rule is only when one is a Formal Refugee. That means following for 6-months and get letter of Recomendation from Temple President. O.K?  Maharaja is fine!!!

Sorry for the long letter . I just couldnt stop writing .

Dandavat pranam maharaj. ALL glories to you .

your aspiring servant.

rituraj majumder

shillong

p.s. photos of bhoga offering from nityananda trayodasi.

HpS - ASA - You news is so inspiring. You are on the correct path. You only have to proceed further!!!!

TODAS LAS GLORIAS A SRI SRI GAURA NITAI

TLGSP

MIS RESPETUOSAS REVERENCIAS A USTED GM! ¿COMO ESTA USTED?

HpS - ASA - TlgaSP!!!!     Pfanrh..... Sufriendo de los sufriemintos del cuerpo y mente pero occupado en servicio devocional entonces podemos tolerarlos y tener esperanza volver a un concepto puro de quien somos!

BUENOS AIRES 30 GRADOS DE CALOR <img alt="blush" height="23" src="http://hps-d6.monkeywarrior.com/sites/all/libraries/ckeditor/plugins/smiley/images/embarrassed_smile.png" title="blush" width="23" />. HOY DESPERTE A LAS DEIDADES MANGALA ARATI,LUEGO RONDAS, CLASE, PUJA DE 12.30HS Y LUEGO LECTURA DE BG!

HpS - Mire foto uno!

GRACIAS POR SU RESPUESTA GURU MAHARAJA ETERNAMENTE AGRADECIDA, SU AYUDA ES EL REMEDIO A MIS INQUIETUDES Y LOCURAS!!! GRACIA GRACIAS GRACIAS GM.

HOY TORTA DE CUMPLEAÑOS HECHA POR LOMASA RSI, ESTOY FESTEJANDO MIS 21 AÑOS GM!!! :) CADA VEZ TENEMOS MENOS TIEMPO DE VIDA, YO PIENSO.

DISCULPE POR HACERLE PERDER SU TIEMPO GM,DIA A DIA LE ORO A GAURA NITAI PARA QUE SE ENCUENTRE MUY BIEN, MIS RESPETUOSAS REVERENCIAS A SUS PIES

                                                  SU PEQUEÑA HIJA Y SIRVIENTA   ter kadamba devi dasi.

PD: MI HERMANA BERNARDA LE ESCRIBIO UNA CARTA.

HpS - ASAS - Si, hemos visto, no?
Solamente es una cambio de perspectivo. Foto number two. Do you see vases or faces?

Do we live in Goloka with Nanda Maharaja or in Buenos Aires with Christina?

Mas noticias despues de unos dias!!!

      Hare Krishna Maharaja, por favor acepte mis más humildes reverencias.Todas las glorias a Srila Prabhupada

      Gracias por responder a mí carta, en la cual me pregunta cual son mis ocupaciones diarias. Le diré que tengo 56 años casi 57 pues los cumplo en el mes de abril, actualmente me dedico a cuidar un matrimonio de personas mayores él tiene 92 años y ella 82 y es ella la que más cuidados necesita, los atiendo todos los días de 10 a 16 h y

      luego por las tardes hago distintas actividades ,visito a mis familiares o amigos etc me suelo mantener bastante

      activa. Procuro hacer todas esas actividades teniendo conciencia de Krishna pero algunas veces me resulta muy

      complicado.

      Me pregunta por mis padres, ellos ya hacen años que han abandonado el cuerpo pero tengo una familia extensa

      tengo 3 hijas y 6 nietas, somos una familia de mujeres. Las niñas van creciendo pero nos hemos juntado con  

      todas casi iguales pues en 6 años han nacido las 6 una cada año y un año no nació ninguna pero otro año 

      nacieron mellizas,

      Mi vida desde que conocí la CDK es totalmente distinta, hay momentos que siento que avanzo y otros que voy

     retrocediendo pero llevo todo con alegria pues me siento mucho más feliz

     Me postro a sus pies 
HpS - ASA - Grrrrrrrracias.  Super carta. Claro, si estamos cantando buenas ronda temprano, entonces cualquiere cosa que realizamos va a ser en la conciencia de Krsna, y todos nuestros asociados va a experiementar esta concienca y puede rechazar o accepar. Mejorar su Japa. Lea el SB. CC. Ofrcer puja a sus Deidades. Mejorar sus rondas, ayuda el mundo y despues de dejar su cuerpo ....  la misma!!!

On another note I feel a need to confess a lot of things to you. I held back on all this information because I felt for many years that I could fix this problem myself without doing anymore damage telling others, especially devotees. I've done enough damage already, but who really is my trivial soul in this vast ocean, which itself is like an atom floating in another infinite ocean. I think this letter might be too much, or I'm being proud, but I can't think of a good way to trim it down.

I think 2011-2014 were some of the worst years of my lifetime so far. To be truly honest HpS Maharaj, I contemplated a lot of things, to come to grips on understanding what I wanted to do. I actually don't regret that abominable incident I told you of years back. I do not blame anyone else, if it was a trick of the witch Maya then I am grateful. It's simply a reminder of the fallenness of my position, even if I hadn't committed it.  I contemplated leaving ISKCON, attempted castration to become eunuch or to killing myself and forgetting Krsna again. After years of writing, depression and thinking about my qualifications, I told HDG Srila Prabhupada the last time I met him in my dreams: he encouraged me to become a good servant of Krsna, but I replied that I think it would be better to become a good servant of the devotees. He had a very grave pause, then replied "Yes, that is correct."

I can only say that I'm not the servant of Krsna, nor Radha or any of their associates. Not lord Gaurahari or Nitai or their associates. I find my only hopes and shelter in a place among aspiring to be a good servant of HDG's servants, servants, servants, servants, servants eternally. I rest on the shelter in serving vaishnavas. Overcome all material desires and find that eternal desire to love and serve devotees in my stone cold heart. No more than that. I'm sorry I do not even truly desire that aspiration enough. Material life weaves a comfortable illusion of immortality, forgetfulness and complacency in myself. If I died today, tommorow or however, whenever, I pray that I will not forget this desire, ever.

I'm sorry to confide in you this idiotic and brutal honesty/sentiment from my material mind. I just wanted you to understand where I'm coming from, in hopes I can truly desire to aspire to be your disciple and serve your servants, somehow, someday. I thought confessing this would help for me to increase my desire to serve, get to my steady 16-4, and to be fair that you should understand what I think if I want to aspire to your lotus feet. I respect you greatly. Anyhow I'm just an idiot, I wish I could've and could do more. That I didn't have a stone heart and could really be the servant I want to be. Thats what I hope I'm going to school for, trying to be a better student, finding skills to serve.

I apoligize again if I offend you Maharaja. I'm not looking for sympathy or praise, just straight talk.

I want to humbly ask that this not be published publicly.

Please accept my obeisances at your lotus feet,

all glories to Srila Prabhupada

your aspiring fallen servant,

HpS - Well, we can't do that. Pretty much whatever letters we get have to publish unless people ask us not to publish them BEFORE they reveal their secrets. But we will publish in a different section with no name, but you have a little hearty ness, a little sincerity, so work with that. Go on with your Karma, don't let it bother you to much. Be as much a servant of Krsna or the servants of Krsna in consciosness of their purity of relation with Krsna and where than finishes try to be a good person. Then you WILL MAKE PROGRESS and taste the happiness of satisfying Krsna.