If a six-month sick dog had then been run over by a truck and still could move, that might resemble our body at this moment.
Hare Krsna. AGTSP.
Paoho.
When we write this we smile. It is a fact. We fight, fight, fight, every day. Do you do the same? I think that you may even fight more bravely than we do. We did FMP today. Read before it for the NOD class. We wrote in the CB. We did a Calendar Session and cleaned up many details. Then we answered Urgent letters and there was one that took a lot of effort.
It was useful, we hope. Such a thing can make your whole day worthwhile. Then we gave the Hawaii class. It also was nice. Then cooked for the Lord, offered Bhoga, Gayatri, honored Prasad. Looked at Ajata's NOI transcriptions. Extracted them. Edited the first one for like an hour. Then the whole file just disappeared even though we were saving it from time to time. Looked, Looked, Looked, blamed Krsna for not taking care of us, but came to the conclusion that He was taking care of what we asked to be cared for.
O.K.
Found our notes on Vais. last BhVai class. They were too detailed to even begin working on them. All the time our senses weak, eyes dying.
Then looked at two more of the Solaris English article translations hoping that the articles might be more simple and better translated, but the translation is barely, barely comprehensible. It is very strange that anyone could speak English so un-naturally. Maybe the translators was only used to converstional English. She seems like a nice person. Maybe she can translate conversations, but this academic stuff seems like it was run through www.translate.google.com.
Hmmmm? NoI, Vais, Solaris.. also talked with Srivasa Pandita and after some struggle sent a file to him with our effort to track down who has what records from our BhVai. group.
So, this diseased, run-over dog read some historical fiction and sees that we may have 20% success today, but at least we know the condition of these different projects now and thus we can make practical decison about how to use our limited strength to achieve practical results.
First, priority: Always chant Hare Krsna!!! We always fall away from that, but there is no other priority for us to try for. It has wonderful results, no?
Very specifically that means to chant 16-good rounds, follow four principles, get up early...
Is there anyone else who holds these principles the same as we do, amongst our God-brothers?
One of our greatest concerns in that ISKCON Sannyasis become pets kept by pious ISKCON householders to satisfy the Grhastha's sentiments: Here is my parrot, here is my cook, here is my Guru.
If you are a Sannyasi you should have a passion to do something new, no? Then, how can the Institution support you, because it is something new, so the Institution has no existence there yet.
None of the instruments we have in ISKCON now will let us move forward.
We try to contact senior men A..., N...., P....., T.... about their projects and their vision. We try to contact R.... in Peru.
No one seems alive on this level, so the only solution is to go back to the roots of our life in Krsna consciousness. Hmmm. Does God have a plan? Does He know the future? Is a war coming, that will break all the rules and leave us only the inspiration of the Paramatma to do anything in this comedy?
Ekasma Das left last evening, back for Nashville, with Bhakta Jesse. He is a very nice artist. It seems like we had about 3-hours association each day he was here. As you get older you collect your experiences into structures, like houses or machines. These you can show to younger people.
Any obstacles we face are Krsna's efforts to put us on better and better paths.
