Agt SP!
Agt Guru Y Gauranga!
Agt Radha Y Krsna!
Agt Gurudeva!
Pamho Maharaja.....o..
Hare Krsna Maharaja, soy B.Pablo del Parikrama, de España.
Sorry to write so quickly, but I would like to tell all my external situation exactly, because many times I am too introspective.
!6 rondas, 4 principios, Mangala arati ( no 2 days, I was extremely bodily tired ), Gaura arati and so happy, sooo sooo happy, but internally. Externally, I am in a heavy situation, but if but if I stand a little more, it'll all be gone, I explain ...
The government has spent months trying to not pay me my share (lol), can not, but they bother me delaying payments (6 months now), by these and other things, I could not pay a fine who got put Virginia (soon I hope to pay it), but I have to go to prison 60 days, is little little money, but the law is the law...haw haw haw and I don´t want my family money more, . This don´t disturbe me anything, really, except that not rot to go to India to Nrshimha to see Radha Krishna Dham and Sadhus....also is that I will to lose the money of the tickets, but really really that is any important to me. Actually I want go in Damodara more...will see what happen ( sure thing I will do. So I have to think and so I'm always thinking. You have taught me well maharaja. )
Virginia is fully possessed by his situation. In a very critical moment of his life, he decided to put his trust in a number of holes, materialists people, and it will cost much personal suffering that decision...
The only reason I do not go elsewhere is Varuna. It is a great person, very sensitive and it deserves the best. I can not leave him among the "pack of hyenas". Now he have 6 to 7 years, within 4 or 5 years, will take about 10 years, then I will continue my path and Varuna decide on its way.
I have many economic problems mainly because I deliberately decided to work with the family, evil doing. Are completely misguided. My father thinks I'm possessed and every time I start to pray Hare Krishna he show like he were praying with the rosary, but he is looking the tv...jajaja so pity. Is totally possessed for his gross gross desires.
My young brother is a nice person but is with the moon at 0 %, then his mind is like the wind and is totally controled for my father, like a child. Now whenever is laughing like mad, because he thinks I can control his mind ... jajaja. Like me elder brother, he live in Boston, had important job he is boss in chip design in a large company of fools, who has taught him that the world can only advance by slaves ... lol totally crazy because of his position and wealth. I laugh at them, all crazy.
A lot of people, many people have much envy me because I'm very independent and I have very very straight. I always say what I think, and if your company is unbearable I continued " as a ñu "
Like my town, less that 500 persons, very close people, they only only eat fresh, uuuugggg....if you don´t eat meat, drink, and have pig-sex are crazy, any speak to me becouse I am crazy and I do black magic...my Japa, and chant " Hare Krsna "...black magic...jajaja. Are crazy.
If all goes well, within 1 or 2 months everything started very well resolved. I've spent years enduring this, I will not leave now, even if I get into prison, lol I laugh. Consciously or unconsciously all want to I stay away from my son.
When I finish my "obligation", I'll go to not ever back if Krsna permits. Only Nama Sankirtana, single, Hare Krsna Hare Rama, Hare Krsna Hare Rama .... o ..
This years en medio I wish doing Sankirtan, preaching and distributing Maha-prasadam from my Nice Deaties.
Sorry for the letter soo long, butI have years without tell You details, are sooo horrible, You are not for that, I think, You give me Krsna, Realitation, and I have one eternal deb with You, I do not expect the stupid fools understand it, either my family or other.
Yours, at Your feet, Your servant B. Pablo.
Hare Krsna!
HpS - AGTSP. Paoho. Thank you for Enlglish translation. Helps a lot. Seems you are going ahead very, very well with a big battle. It took the Pandavas years to solve their problems but Krsna was using them.
Japa principles, GOOD morning program and get some good counselors, eg. Jayanta, Jara mara, Dandva, so many there. Yadu Swami. Then it will all have been benefit.