Hare Krishna, my dear and always remembered Gurumaharaja 🙏🏻
Please accept my sincere obeisances 🙏🏻
All glories to our savior Srila Prabhupada 🙏🏻
HpS/ASA - AgtSP!!!
Dear Gurumaharaja, I hope you are in good health. I always see you well. Although I know you are always smiling for us, your students in the spiritual life.
Gurumaharaja, I apologize for not being able to join the GoTo program these past few weeks, but since the last time I spoke to you, my life has been like a whirlwind, and for now I'm happy about it. I have a few things to tell you; I'll try to summarize:
ASA - 🐵 🐵 🐵
By Radharani's arrangement, we got a larger space to spend the summer season. We are in a village very close to NVM. We'll probably return to NVM in the winter because the owner of the house doesn't want us to install a fireplace (God's arrangements?).
I was accepted for a temporary job (6 months) at the town hall, cleaning in the villages near Brihuega. I am very grateful to Radha Govinda Chandra for the opportunity to collect.
HpS - Super!
I left my service caring for the 92-year-old devotee. We took care of him for two years. It's time to step back and allow others to collect (I feel incredible peace not being responsible for someone else's life).
I still maintain my service at the inn (I really enjoy working with Jambula; he always reminds me of you. Jambula is organized, not a Hare Krishna fanatic; he's protective; he's one of the few best godbrothers I have). I also keep the mini-room so I can rest (I think a woman should always keep her room in her family's home, for safety. Even though I'm married, etc., I'm a single woman in a foreign country and continent).
WHAT AM I?
ASA - WHO.... are you! 😃
Gurumaharaja, I've been analyzing my life in this material world, the various jobs/services I've performed, and I'm still not clear on exactly WHAT AM I? I remember the first time I spoke to you, you asked me, "WHO ARE YOU?" and when I told you my name, you told me YOU ARE A SPIRITUAL SOUL, WE ARE SERVANT DOGS OF SRILA PRABHUPADA (and you showed me the kanti saying that it was our leash) I was very shocked. Every so often that I meditate on the subject I ask you, another day you told me YOU ARE BRAHMANA (my father and brothers are lawyers) VAYSHA (my mother and her family are business merchants) AND SUDRA (we all are) I asked the same question to several devotees and some said "I am a brahmana, I am future vanaprastha (oh no!), I am a leader, I am a grihastra, etc etc" I am not very clear at what stage or what I really am, BUT I know that now I HAVE TO COLLECT.
I've worked as a teacher (15 years), ASA - Brahmani
a waitress in a bar, ASA - Sudra (survive each day!)
my dad's secretary, managed my mom's family business, I'm a wife, I was a pujari for over 10 years, etc., and now a cleaning laborer, ... and I feel tired of EVERYTHING... Once you told me "you're an old soul, you've lived through almost everything before."
In Vrindavan they told me "you're a Westerner, contaminated, you only chant HARE KRISHNA and take prasadam." I feel that THAT ANSWER is the essence of my existence. And one day you told me, "You are my third-class disciple." That's the answer that makes me feel completely happy (whenever I remember you, I AM HAPPY).
HpS - Third class?????? I don't know what that means. You seems to be doing pretty good as an affectionate mother to whomever you meet. Nice person. Someone easy for everyone to love.
Current world is a mess!!!!! Have your noticed! Relatively speaking ISKCON is pretty good. In some respects it is good in that it does not deceive people too much into thinking that it is great.
So, your life is materially chaotic and it is going to get more so. At 77 years plus, mine gets more more chaotic daily. I have control over smaller and smaller world but.... that is GREAT! Sages and Sagginis pray for Kali yuga. No way to get attached to anything more than 27% and just pause and chant:
Hare Krsna
.. in the presence of your Bead Bag. [Keep it nearby, tied up all day] and you are a liberated soul and you are going more and MORE and M O R E back to Goloka.
- So, keep chanting more and more.
- Look more and more for Sankirtan Partners in whatever institutional relationship.
- Be ready to grab the mercy when it passes.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ozX0KazFoDk
INDIA
VRINDAVAN, EXTERNALLY, IS VERY SIMILAR TO PERU... BUT IT IS A SPIRITUAL PERU... Vrindavan is a place I would like to return to... RADHARANI❤️ I think I saw my Gopal in the form of a child in some places in Vrindavan (am I going crazy?).
HpS - Yes.
I had many beautiful experiences and experiential teachings in my short time in India. I felt like I had lived there before. I dressed as a man, and when I went out on the streets, I felt so natural... Wow! Thanks to the monkeys and motorcycle horns, I was able to realize I was in the material world... RADHE RADHE❤️ Without her, nothing happens! RADHE is the queen of everything and everyone!
SPAIN
Gurumaharaja would like to ask you to pray. Please have the mercy to visit us soon in New Vrajamandala (NVM). Gurumaharaja, without you, I feel like I don't want to be in this place anymore... I feel so alone without you... When I clean the NVM staircase, I remember your feet stepping on each step and I get so emotional!!! I remember you staying at NVM and the service I receive seems so beautiful... I beg you, please have the mercy to visit us again... 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻 We will organize everything better than the last time you visited us. We will welcome the godbrothers with more devotion. Please 🙏🏻 We are an HpS team at NVM Yugala, Tarangakshi and I (it's only because of you that I'm still at NVM)
Missing and remembering you every day
In vain, trying to be your third-class disciple
Yasoda Devi Dasi
May Lord Nrisimha continue to protect you 🙏🏻
HpS - We only plan to chant HK. Dream a lot of Sankirtan. Act as a sleep walker in the sensual world.
Seems that we will be Camped in Nila-madhava Dhama, Houston, ISKCON, until December, with another visit to ISKCON Nashville in November. Maybe another in January on the way to Spain. Stay for some time with my heart meds, then go with Yadu Swami to India/Radha Kunda.
Of course, Putin may start a nuclear war, but seems likely because that would stop the internet, and FOX Communications Corporation would not like that!!!
