Hare Krishna Guru Maharaja, please accept my humble obeisances. All glories to Srila Prabhupada!

Still relishing our time with you in Houston. A fire was lit and we are keeping it stoked. Some times there are just red coals and other times there is a lot of light. Maintenance and steadiness is our constant work. Internally crying selfish tears half the time, though. Noticing everyday and sometimes many times within a moment, how I am like a spoiled brat. An ungrateful child in the hands of so much mercy. Not fully taking advantage of what I have been given. A kind of purgatory. And then your voice comes in..Durga has given the reins to Radharani. And your illuminations are remembered. A few things I know by heart and text 3 and statement in the purport of NOI comes to mind/heart: devotional service is so pure and perfect that once having begun, one is forcibly dragged to ultimate success.

Wow.

I endeavor to be dragged? Enthusiasm is more important than patience as I’ve heard you say. We’ve observed that when most rounds are done before breakfast and there is class then that momentum carries and we are able to actually give to others. Otherwise there is nothing to give really and it can feel like hell or purgatory. I don’t want to waist this life that you have given.

A lot of exciting new projects and pioneering work ahead here in New Biharvan dham. Our dear Kalakantha Prabhu has made Boise his number one focus for Krishna House and Krishna Lunch. Him and his good wife Jita Mitra Prabhu will be living here for a year and they are bringing other angels and experts to give us a strong push to get things going.

The New Biharvan perspective and bonsai tree is growing nicely despite so many challenges and opposition. I think about what you said a lot when I am feeling unhopeful..the temple is Sat Cit Ananda. I try to just lean into that and do my duties. Sing to God in His home, fix things here and there and be the janitor. Pretty good gig! Hope to just keep doing this after I die? Long row to hoe..

Here is a song/poem(it will change to fit music) I wrote for you this morning:

Profoundly Dying 

For you, we are trying 

But there is no try, there is only do? 

Well I know what will be done 

Can be done more for you  

Giant steps, baby steps 

Or a slow and steady crawl 

A leap of faith, an effort made 

or a care free flippant fall 

I want more with you 

And connection to that line 

Disciplic succession 

No more waiting for a sign 

It’s you, the one I will die to follow 

It is me, the false ego 

Many bitter pills to swallow 

To garland your shadow 

What is the need? 

When the root is watered 

And it grows from the seed 

Lighter, brighter days ahead 

And the mercy river flows 

Saintly joyous attributes 

From the crown down to the toes 

Rising above the gunas

Your arms stretched out like wings 

Attention sharpens 

If I can only hear you in the mornings 

Divinity blues sung in the darkest hour 

Preservation, cultivation 

Then the light comes rushing in 

As I offer you a flower 

Now it’s a good day to die, to die profoundly 

Thank you Maharaja for the constant inspiration. Your enthusiasm keeps our fire bright and illuminates Srila Prabhupada’s teachings for us. Praying that you heal quickly from the dental surgery! Transcend~dental

Eternally grateful and indebted, your aspiring servants,

Nitisara das, Anadi and Yamuna

P.S. We got the Improvisations for the Theater book like you suggested and have started trying out some of those exercises/games on our own and at Krishna Lounge. Thank you for that suggestion! Amazing young people coming each week and a very very sincere ex Christian.. hallelujah/hare Krishna!

HpS - The beginning part is very nice, where she talks about the fundamental principles of drama theory. she capitalizes the word Environment.

It think it is Paramatma yoga???

Very nice news.

You see we have been drowning in blood etc.

Yet getting to this wonderful mail, no!!