Hare Krishna Gurumaharaja,
Please accept my humble obeisances. All glories to Srila Prabhupada.
I hope you receive this letter in good health and spirit.
HpS -- Just to hear from you is enlivening, but health in this world is the best use of a bad bargain for an Angel like us.
It's been around two months since my last letter went unanswered, and thanks to the guidance of Paramatma, some of the issues connected to the letter have been cleared up during readings of books from our Srila Prabhupada, Satsvarupa das Goswami and Vaiyasaki prabhu. It is the freedom of the spiritual master to deal with his disciple in the way that he pleases. Thank you very much.
HpS - But you can see that we are traveling and so much pressure with meeting devotees. For example we went to Europe and saw a lot students there and you can put URGENT in the Subject Field and we answer! <img alt="devil" height="23" src="https://hps.monkeywarrior.com/sites/all/libraries/ckeditor/plugins/smiley/images/devil_smile.png" title="devil" width="23" />
In His mercy, Krishna has shown me a place to organize a kirtan event. It is a sattvic place near Haarlem close to where we live. Krishna has guided me to do this, and i am surrendered to Him in this regard. This is very kind of Him, and i am practicing to have faith in that Krishna will help me with my situation once i start working for Him again.
HpS - He does! He does!
I am to some extent aware of my foolishness and audacity to place before you some statements that i've sent earlier, and it surely shows my lack of surrender or otherwise mature understanding of guru - disciple etiquette. It seems i must learn by making such mistakes, and i ask forgiveness for any offenses i have made.
HpS - ASA -- Monkey and Piggy forgive you (Foto (3)) below. Also please forgive us!
I am pushing to come up to 16 rounds standard but must admit my lack of strenght in this regard. I am not sure yet what's behind it all, but i'm working on it. It could be connected to the tidal wave of maya in the shape of strong sexual desire, that i hope to learn to tolerate for what it is; pushing of the guna's.
To end on a positive note, it has brought me great transcendental happiness to have seen you and our Godbrother Radhika Ramana prabhu in Krishna Ksetra Swami's project of documenting the Srimad Bhagavatam. Looking forward to more of that.
Your faltering aspiring servant,
Raghava Pandita dasa.
HpS - Jaya!!!! How is the family, Yatra, work????? Make a vow of Japa eg. 11-rounds daily until the next Ekadasi, that you know you can do and DO IT. You will make progress by this process.
