Hare Krsna Gurumaharaj
Please accept my humble obeisances to you. All glories to Srila Prabhupada.
Thank you so much for your reply to our previous message, as usual it is full of insightful guidance, advices and instructions. I pray to you, Lord Balaram and to all Vaisnavas to bestow your blessings upon me, so my spiritual intelligence eventually will awaken, enabling me to honour you by following and serving your guidance .appropriately.
Regarding your possible visit to Australia this December Aniruddha Prabhu (ISKCON -Melbourne TP) is glad to know that you are considering the possibility to visit Australia. He mentioned that December is quite busy time here, besides of SP’s marathon; H.H. Devamrta Swami usually holds a retreat on the last week of the year; H.G. Sankarshan prabhu; Vijay prabhu ( Sankirtan Minister) visit Melbourne during that time. Aniruddha prabhu says the temple can host two special guests at the same time, so there wouldn’t be inconvenience if you come (we can adjust the dates). Gurumaharaj, What about January? H.H. Prahaladananda Swami generally comes on the 2nd week, then it is a bit more calm; and Ratha Yatra on February.
In other words, we are very much grateful and happy that you are thinking of visit Australia. Please Sir, come!!. Despite of lack of qualification, we are ready to assist and serve you. I could start contacting devotees, gathering suggestions and help from enthusiastic devotees (Druvananda prabhu could be one of the key persons). by July 18th you will get more precise info – dates about your schedule in India. We hope that Australia visit will fit in it.
Previously, we mentioned about our experience here. Krsna’s plans = many changes full of intensity and lessons. To me, it is like Krsna shaking grounds but at the same time giving enough tokens of encouragement and assurance that He is here to protect us. I have been receiving a lot caring and reassuring exchanges from Krsna. He allows me to have devotees association in an enthusiastic and supportive community. It seems to be more unity and sincerity in the spiritual practice, which is exemplified by temple authorities. Of course, it is no perfect, its growing stage with improvements and many deficiencies (we are learning to accept them as part of the package; is not this a cynic attitude, so called “realistic one”?). In overall, this is a good temple.
It is more than 6 months that I submitted a formal appeal to ISKCON Australia - National Council regarding to the allegations against me. Despite of receiving verbal support from them, there is no formal response. Aniruddha prabhu said it is due to an institutional problem, lack of an organisational system with an autonomous entity within Iskcon which can deal with these issues, it is unknown when it can take place. So, my case is in standby. I am losing hope of getting fair treatment. For the authorities there are other priorities. What is Krsna’s message in this case gurumaharaj? Is it my karma? I cannot deny it, it still hurts. Ummmhhh! Krsna has His own ways and time. By Krsna’s arrangements Varanayak prabhu and Somendra Prabhu were force to present their resignation. Varanayak prabhu is no anymore Sydney TP, An investigation process was conducted due too many devotees complains. Now there is no TP but a committee where Ghanashyam Govinda das is taking part. It is hard for me not to get confused. There is a conflict of emotions within my heart. I sincerely, prayed for Varanayak prabhu’s spiritual well-being (it is no easy time for him now). I cannot understand Krsna’s plans, ways; they are beyond my understanding. I am still thinking that it is unfair, but at the same time, who am I to say what is fair or unfair. Looking at my sinful- misdeeds, perhaps I do deserve worse. .. But, how to avoid not going down in ignorance, hurting myself? I thought and felt that Krsna forgave me. Is this deceiving tendency of the mind, in order to avoid responsibility? But, what should be responsibility for me in this case? I do accept that I am guilty of my past sinful misdeed, I won’t do it again. But, should I torture myself for that always? Is it right to look for a healthy and mature emotional well-being within Krsna Consciousness -ISKCON?
I have been requested by the temple authorities to look after the young girls as brahmacarini ashram leader. We have a need to contribute and support Srila Prabhupada’s movement, would be artificial to say I do not have ability to do it? Somehow and other, due to your and devotees’ blessings I do have some abilities though, they should be used in the service of devotees. .. Does this statement sound too proud? I am praying to the Lordships for help, I am aware of my contaminations that many times obscure my character. I don’t want to hurt devotees, just be useful. There is a tendency to be too lineal or too strict. The Aussie, OZ way is more relax in many cases. So what is the right way to educate= facilitate? . . .
HpS -ASA - You are presenting a lot of topics for just one letter so we are to the end here and answering. Jaya! \'o'/ Very nice letter.
This message has become too long, and still many good important things to report. With your approval the next message would be a report of my personal sadhana, chanting HARE KRSNA.
Please forgive me for this passionate message, no need to make up my life?
Sorry. Sir - Gurumaharaj.
Thank you
Your child
Madhumanjari dd
HpS - ASA -- Thank you very many for your letter. Your experiences are very, very important for all of us on this Blog. Considering the kind of media that is this Blog it seems best to deal with one or two themes in each letter, no?
We try to answer within three days. It is a place to write amongst family, think about the answers, and write again.
Bhisma deva told Yuddhisthira - "As far as the women class are concerned, they are accepted as a power of inspiration for men. As such, women are more powerful than men. Mighty Julius Caesar was controlled by a Cleopatra. Such powerful women are controlled by shyness. Therefore, shyness is important for women."
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Talking a lot with Yadunandana Swami, the word is "recatada" not "timida".
So, there is the basic answer to your question about relations with the opposite sex. Basically you just need to be a proper demur young lady and give all your passionate impulses to Krsna. Of course, what this means, as you probably have a lot of realization, grows and grows, all the way to Goloka if you want to be that level of servant.
Deal with the institution the same way. Any institution in Kali-yuga will have problems but if you see it as an instrument for Sankirtan, then you can separate the problems from the truth. Be a proper lady and deal with it.
Practical details of administrative situations you can also present here for consideration and advice, but local help is essential. Work with your friends in the administrative Yatra.
Who knows why we are getting harrassed. What about M. Parikshit? What about about Draupadi? Have you had to go through her trials? (What happened to the 100-saris?).j
Thank you for news of Sankirtan situation during December. First is to wait for news from President of India and Gaudiya-matha, five days.
Taking post of advisory for younger girls seems O.K. I would have the job description put in a simple written form and several people agree to it and then try it for ... ? ... six months. After that it will be easy to see how to make changes.
You could have left ISKCON. You could have gotten a job and be a rather elevated person in some corporation. Of course, you would probably be smoking a little etc. etc. but it was your choice to stay in ISKCON and not go for material development. So you have practical experience to offer to others.
Hope this has been useful letter. The next ones will be better.
HpS - ASA
