Hare Krishna Beloved and esteemed Gurudev,

Please accept my humble obeisances,

All glories to Srila Prabhupada,

What a beautiful time to be in. So much creativity, i sense there is a shifting within ISKCON. Seeing how wonderfully devotees are preaching enlives me up. The Journey Within by Hh Radhanath Swami, Hiding in Unnatural Happiness by Hh Devamrita Swami, Our family business by H Grace Vaisesika Prabhu, Psychology and the sacred by Nios. The new wave is coming! UTSAHA!! 

In the other hand i feel awful cause i feel I'm doing nothing for this movement. Or much less i could do if i were focused.

Preaching is growing nicely here in MDP, we are going out of our centers to different places, schools, clubs, homeless shelters, etc. Many people are coming and programs are growing. We are penetrating more and more into MDP's society, media, governors start noticing our work.

My life is ok for kali yuga in the material world, Manu and Benji are growing nicely healthy and have some sense of KC. Work is fine, i can not find the right pace yet but struggling for that.

I'm chanting 16 rounds, probably 25% acceptable. Little by little I'm catching up with my vrata debt. I'm having problems with illicit sex. We keep with this karma misra bhakti yoga process and We started a strict diet to try to control this. 48 hs of juices, then only 2 meals a week with grains and only ghee as dairy products. The rest just salad and steamed vegetables!!

HpS - For whom are you cooking?

I'm reading Pada padma of SB! Leading BG discussion at El Loft and I'm in charge of book distribution and now Food for life program. I tend to keep busy in the service but sometimes i dont know whether to quit that services and focus only in 4p and 16r. What do you think gurudev?

HpS - If you look at the revised www.jayarama.us/kd/guru-tattva.txt there is a wonderful citation by Srila Prabhupada. He says that like all the other services are choked or illusory unless we are 16/4.    Nothing else will suffer if we focus on 16/4 ... money, fame, entertainment, sankirtan, family, administration...

Thank you so much for always be there for us Gurudev and make huge endeavor for pushing this wonderful movement foward. I really know that purity is the strenght and that is the real mean of conquer. I feel that the only thing i can do is keep trying my best to overcome this anarthas!

I hope you dont kick me off from the shelter of your lotus feet!!!

Trying to purify my service,

Your fallen servant,

Nikunja Bihari das.

HpS - In our current circumstances we get bored and lonely sometimes, so we read stuff from Gutenberg.org, take too much fruit juice and condensed milk...   Somebody else can't stop a heroin addiction. Room for improvement at every level.  Usually there is a good reason why be a subject to greed, lust. What is it?  Probably many valid reasons.  Investigate.Chant HK all the time we are attracted and engaged in our greedy things.

Thank you so much for your association!!!   Respects to everyone.

Your news from MDP is very inspiring.   Who else is there now???