Hare Krsna respected Gurudeva:
All Glories to Srila Prabhupada
Please accept my humble obeisances
I am using a nick name due to I really need privacy, i understand that you as a sanyassi needs protection, I mean not having alone talks with women, but i will not comfortable to talk my personal things in front of another men, and i am absolutely sure that ALL women think like me.....
I am wrting because I have at least 3 female friends that have the same experience that I had... and the 3 of us.. now are really sad and without utsahan really dissapointed, we can not feel the same as before... the point is that we do not feel protected... some so called "prabhus" do not respected us... (while i am writing this i think i did not act also properly) , but in my case i was being lied... I think that when we have a couple at least we deserve respect and I did not receive that, i believed all the things that he told me.. the 3 of us can not understand how fast they are in a new relationships
the 3 of us see machismo on this movement, we try to be transparent and sincere telling you what we did, the mistakes that we made, then we see "prabhus" doing abhishek in the temples and we feel betrayed, we do not see justice... we do not understand why krsna allows this to happen..
Our selfesteem is afected, we spent money in therapists, and the worst thing we do not feel the same as before, we do not have faith in the movement in the process, personally the 2 of us are not chanting rounds , we see many many devotees who drifted apart from the movement.. and now we can understand why
personally i would like to take some time and drift apart some time to heal... because i am really affected.. i do not want to continue if i do not feel the same i do not want to be hypocrit and being in a place in which i do not feel comfortable or supported
i know that you have lots of problems that are caused for some of us, who do not deserve you as a Guru, but at this point i guess that you are just a friend of us...which is an honor for us
i can say that you are the only person in iskcon who i respect and trust... now i feel not comfortable doing something that does not complete me... I feel really sad because i can not believe that this bad experience is taking away the little advancement that i did.. nehabikramo nato sti....also i remembered that you said in one class that sp said "once you come to krsna you will never get away".... please do not let me go
please forgive all my offenses
your eternal servant
sadmonkey
HpS - ASA - We just spent 15-minutes writing an answer to your good letter and then the computer lost it all. We try again. First, in the highest sense this movment although for Life Members who may be eatiing chicken and drinking beer, is really only for the paramahamsas (NOI). That means that we never ask ANYTHING from Krsna. NOTHING, because we realize it is a super, super insult. He is already 16-times more conscious of our suffering than we are. He took a vow that everyone of the people who tried to desnude Draupadi would see their own wives with their hair open as widows.
So, forget your personal distress. What does Krsna need. Obvious. He needs sacrifice. 16-good rounds, and then immediately you are back at 100%! "Ooops, I forgot Krsna".
Yes, I make mistakes, the President makes mistakes, but also disciples don't tell us that they are breaking principles or even if they do they refuse our advice and still go on acting as Brahmanas. We are dealing with these problems right now with arguments about who should be iniciated or not.
This is all preparation for the next drama. There are many universes and Krsna needs Draupadis for all of them. Are you strong enough to play that role. Can you keep your vows and also see how Krsna is using you in the midst of catastrophy. Of course when we fall down from our side how can we put all the blame on Krsna for the reaction. We have to become stronger from both our correct austerities and the mistakes we make.
The real question is not whether Draupadi will have to face public humiliation or not but whether she will be able to keep the 99-saris or not, no?
Joking, but very serious sub-text. Can you laugh in the face of Maya and pick up the pieces and go ahead never giving up on Krsna?