Hare Krisna!! Beloved and esteemed Gurudev,
Please accept my humble obeisances,
All glories to Srila Prabhupada,
Having met you and being able to associate with you make my life worthy. Your example, your qualities, are a huge shelter where many many many fallen souls like me can be safe. Your intelligence is so pure. You always push us beyond the limits. We only have to follow your example. So clear.
HpS - Srila Prabhupada made his generals out of mud. With us Monkeys worse than mud he has a harder time.
Here we are back in our ksetra, mar del plata city. Fighting with 16R/4P. LOVE WITHOUT LOVE, SADHANA VAIDHI BHAKTI. Hope one day we develop any taste for the holy name.
I made a vrata for kartik to chant 20 rounds but i couldnt accomplish it, so again I,m in debt, of course this brings me the realization that we will always be in debt with Guru and Krisna.
HpS - How big your debt? We got so many rounds behind from our 25/day because of that Conference in India some time ago. Still was doing 16/day but not 25. Now we have caught up to 92. We will follow your example and catch up. Main thing is getting up early and then chant, read, write . . . Is nice. Peace comes and nice plans for service.
The visit to Peru was super, met with so many nice devotees, shared very nice moments with mother CMDD and of course Sri Sri Radha Madhan Bihari.
We met with mother and sister of CMDD, Ullyses who was always eager to knock me down, and felt very good, such nice people.
We have been in Patrak's prabhu Birthday and visited Ayurvedic doctor Rupanuga das. Then we were talking with LAD about expanding Nimsar to Argentina, and different devotees at Wilson Mandir.
We have improved a lot our deity worship thanks to the advices of mother CMDD.
OUR fixed services are Bhakti vriksa program on mondays, BG class for B vriksa students on wednesdays, Bhakti Sastri, now ISO, Memeber of the local comitee AND recently i'm in charge of the local BBT. I always attend our sunday feast at El Loft. Sadhu sanga ki jay!!
Two months ago i moved SAMA our health center, we are motivated with this new space.
My relationship with my kids is very good, they live with me three days a week, and also i have very polite relation with their mother, peace.
My biggest challenge is my work as a doctor. Balance it with devotional service. I often feel is too much, so many people demanding from me, and most of my patients are women which have a negative effect for my spiritual practice. It drags a lot of energy from me and then i can not have a good sadhana. Often i feel like Arjuna wanting to go to the forest to meditate. But i know i can not escape from my nature.
It is frustrating not to have the spiritual practice i would like to have.
I pray, i struggle to have a fixed sadhana like yours gurudev cause i'm sure that is the solution to every affliction.
I know it is a fact but i have so much material desires that my passionate mind is always pushing me away from that goal.
I have already bought my tiket to chile, arrive friday january 30th in the morning and leave monday february 2nd in the afternoon.
kṛṣṇa se tomāra, kṛṣṇa dīte pāro,
tomāra śakati āche
āmi to' kāńgāla, 'kṛṣṇa' 'kṛṣṇa' boli',
dhāi tava pāche pāche
Running behind you, trying to reach your divine lotus feet.
Nikunja Bihari Das.
HpS - Talk with other devotees, take advantage of people like CMDD and figure out how to do your medical service. Maybe less patients. Train others. You have a unique challenge.
What was the result of your meeting with Rupanuga?
When do you get your rounds done each day?????