Hare Krsna Gurumaharaja
Please accept my humble obeisances
All glories to Srila Prabhupada!

In the occation of your Vyasapuja I want to thanks that I have the mercy of your association, showing me the path, being an inspiration, and a representative of Krsna, of the guru parampara. Thank you for accepting me as your disciple, although I don't deserve it. In this age, we have the biggest fortune, that common and materalistic people like me can have contact with vaisnavas like yourself. Thank you for giving us your association through the blog, reports, webex... It reminds me that real life is in Krsna Conciousness. It reminds me that Krsna Conciousness is deep, intense. That devotional service for Krsna is very serious business. I pray I can make progress in my love (service) for Krsna and Srila Prabhupada under your guidance, in order to be your real disciple.

Report:
Marathon finished. I don't know yet my score exactly. It is not much much, around... 1800 small book, 120 LOB, 20 big books, 17BG... I am ashamed because I didn't my best. I did not work so hard. My mind becomes tired soon and I didn't push it to the limits, only some pushing to the mind. Now I feel sad and ashamed, because other devotees made more for Krsna, and it is not only for the result or honor. But there is a satisfaction when you give everything to Krsna, I see other devotees can taste this, but because I am "miser"(avaro) I didn't gave everything to Krsna, I kept attached to my comfort in mind and body, so now I cannot taste this spiritual satisfaction of having made a big endeavor for Krsna. So I feel sad. I feel ashamed with Prabhu Aravinda, because I think he expected more. He didn't tell anything of course, but I feel sad I cannot offer a better endeavor and result to my authorities and Krsna . Compared to other matajis I did half... But at the same time I am very grateful I could make something for Krsna, I am grateful for each book I gave, I tried to do it with as much devotion as I have. I hope, if I cannot go beyond the limits of my mind and body, at least I can become steady, and do this service all my life, and improve my love and devotion to my service, in order to really please Krsna.

I gave my email to some very interested people in the marathon, and they wrote to me with very nice comments about the books. One person even came the 31th to the temple (but I think he also had a motivation for me as mataji... so I tried to talk to him with other devotees present, and to preach to him very clearly, showing that it was to share spiritual knowledge that we approach people. He took a BG. But I was thinking what to do in this cases?)

Thank you Gurudeva
All glories to your service to Srila Prabhupada!!!!!!!

Your servant, Nitya Kisori dd

HpS - ASA -  AGTSP   paoho.   Thank you very much. I think that if you go ahead with this attitude you will solve all your problems. You will be able to render pure devotional service unmixed with passion for short term results.   Thank you so much.  Adelante.