Dear Maharaja, Please accept my humble obeisances. All glories to Srila Prabhupada! I hope you are doing well. I was reading a few of your DTCs and you have some inflammations on your throat? Well, all I can say is that it must be Krishna's mercy :) just like living in the material world is His mercy even though it sure doesn't seem to be. Alas, our karma is ever astonishing. I am writing an update to my last letter regarding my husband to be. From your response I realized that him and I definitely did not have Krishna in the centre of our relationship. You mentioned that the basis for varna ashrama is Bhagavat dharma. It makes sense 100%. We suffered because we did not seem to have the same aim in life. I wish in the future it can be like that. I do have one concern which I wish you can help me with. You mentioned aso in your response of how it is ideal for girls to marry a "sane" dude. Well he has been gone for three weeks kind of getting some good devotee association and he will be coming back very soon. We had a brief conversation over the phone in where he mentioned that he thinks that the best thing for us is to be apart and engaged at the same time. This seems odd because I don't understand that logic. I guess his real ing is that the place where he will be going is going to give him a better environment to flourish devotionally. But from what I have heard it's not better off than where I am. Im just afraid that he might dwindle in his KC. Maybe for my own selfish reasons I would prefer for him to stay here with me but it might be good for him to go. I thought husband and wife should stay together. Anyways, my plan is already in action. I have found an apartment to live in. Al I have to do is move out next month and start school. I will hopefully work at the temple during school to cover the rent and also still have devotee association. I will see what Krishna's plans will unveil for me in the moths to come. Your aspiring servant, Princess sunshine of the north

HpS - Jaya!       AGTSP   pamho.    I always remeber that Srila Prabhupada says that in the beginning things are a little impersonal.   We are     ABSORBED    in material "personal" variety, so when we take to KC the transcendental form is little difficult to see.   We can really see it through the Deity worship. If we are more advanced we can see it through the potent Sankirtan, how Lord Nityananda is personally helping us.

      So, in the beginning we should be a little bit happy that our family is not in bars in adulterous relations and our Sankirtana is not yet floating in Goloka, but the books are going out and we are meeting nice people.

     Some patience.   But most important is enthuiasm. So try to develop good communication with fiancee, fiancee's mother...   Work on having a fun relationship.  Hari bol!                Some patience.     But work on things.     Then Krsna will make it     OBVIOUS     if we have to go to a different Temple or get another Mother or Father or dog or parrot or fiancee!

Tom Brown / Buck White.