Bhakta LeRoy writes:

Very very dear and beloved Gurudeva, I want to tell you that it's okay not to take diksha with you because currently I'm established on chanting 10-12 rounds a day, I must increase to 16,

I'm consuming cbd cannabis in food or oil or vapor (the last time I smoked was on September 17, 2022), it's my understanding that the gbc currently allows initiations for iskcon members who meet the requirements and are medical cannabis users demonstrating the treatment prescribed by the treating doctor;

ASA/UG: https://www.cdc.gov/marijuana/featured-topics/CBD.html

...and I also know that your main reason is your retirement and I think perhaps the need to change the mode of preaching and prepare for your departure from this world... I want you to know that I accept your decision but at the same time I cannot lose hope to obtain the mercy of your diskha,

because I will make the efforts to continue progressing and during this first semester to establish myself in the 16 rounds and improve my sadhana... then perhaps when that time comes where I already be established myself at the minimum level and be able to demonstrate that I'm really ready to commit myself totally to you and to the minimum demands, perhaps you will change your mind and you want to give me diksha,

I will insist and also I ask your forgiveness for wanting to insist... and if I don't achieve my goal, then I will wait some time and talk to the swamis that you recommend...

and if I don't achieve my goal, the truth is that I will always consider you my guru maharaja, I will always worship your photo that I have on my altar and that you sent me with devendra das when he came to los angeles, I will always try to follow your instructions and tell the world about srila prabhupada,

HpS - Advancing in KC means seeing more and more, ultimately everyone, trnad api sunicena, as our Guru. Radharani wants to be the servant of everyone in the service of Krsna.

We learn to see many kinds of gurus and how to fit them in the proper proportion in our heart so that they, we, all feel happy and practical.

I will always carry the upadesamrita in my heart and I will try to follow your steps and read and review your tava pache pache,

if you agree I want to get a sample of your voice from one of your classes to use in one of our songs as long as you agree,

HpS - Seems O.K. to us!! We try to speak for public utility!

I also want to use some of your poems and rhymes to integrate into some of our songs as long as you agree and it seems appropriate to you.

I want to be able to have some conversation with you during this year and then publish a book with our conversation as long as you have the time and energy available...

HpS - As KRSNA permits, seems fine to us and the ASA Supreme Absolute Undifferentiated Commando. (SAUC).

I will always be grateful to Krishna and Srila Prabhupada for allow me having met you and having your valuable association and having received instructions and having performed some service for your sankirtan,

these experiences are among the most fundamental in my biography and are my inspiration...

I apologize for being so stupid and so slow in advancing and taking so long to reach the minimum level qualification;

HpS/ASA - This maybe be our seventh lifetime trying to follow Srila Prabhupada!

I always remember, and today it weighs on me, when you asked me here in Los Angeles if I was ready to enter the fire, but I wasn't because I was still smoking cannabis and you told me very lovingly "it's okay, then we have to wait"...

I just hope to reach the minimum level and obtain your mercy, and if I not, then I will accept what corresponds to me... and I only ask God to always allow me to support the srila prabhupada's movement in some way and also to nios and asa...

thank you very much for everything gm, I always carry you in my heart and in my prayers, you are the most remarkable man I have ever met in my life and srila prabhupada is the biggest man of the 20th century and for the next 10,000 years, he is the spiritual master of the world... pamho agtsp hk ❤‍🔥

HpS - Obeisances to devotees in LA. The 21st Century Bhajan Band et al.

Would you be satisfied being a dog in Nabadvipa in your next lifetime with Nimai et al?