On Tuesday, September 18, 2018 02:34:28 PM CDT,
Please accept my humble obeisances dear Gurudeva
All glories to Srila Prabhupada, All glories to you!
HpS - Actually the formal etiquette in ISKCON is that we should be addressed as Maharaja (or Dude). Initiated disciple can use "Gurudeva", but we certainly don't want anybody to think that we are "Gurudeva" for them in any way that eclipses our real Gurudeva, Srila Prabhupada.
Maharaja we are emailing you to stay in touch.. We want to thank you for your association in Boise. We apologize for being so selfish and not being able to serve more nicely while you where sick there. Please forgive my offenses.
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We are coming to grips with the fact we have gotten ourselves into this nasty predicament and getting some understanding how to pull ourselves out of it. We have been trying to cheat and have been caught red handed stealing enough times we are seeing we just can't trick Krsna (Karma Kanda? and 4th class intelligence?). Imagine that! We can't trick Krsna, What a fool we are HAHA.
HpS - Alexander the Great, Julius Caesar et al also tried.
This grihastha ashram is certainly one of those situations. However, we are accepting it and getting some understanding of how it works. Again can't cheat! Learning how we can preach in this capacity. The more we surrender the more Krsna helps us see that it isn't as bad as we think/make it sometimes and there is some advancement to make!
HpS - Rama and Krsna were both Grhasthas!
Winter is coming up here in the Northwest and we think we can feel and see the collective conciseness of the area starting to fall asleep. In the past we have fallen into what we used to call "depression" but we pray with your, SP's and Natai Guranaga's mercy not to go there this time and make it something different! Time for some serious advancement while others sleep????
HpS - Yes! Do a lot of internal programs! Puppet shows! <img alt="Emoji" class="yahoo-emoji-wrapper" data-inlineimagemanipulating="true" src="https://s.yimg.com/nq/yemoji_assets/latest/yemoji_assets/1f601.png" style="padding:0px 2px; vertical-align:middle; width:16px; height:16px" title="Emoji" />
We also have been getting some understanding of what we have been told is "bipolar". We been diagnosed as "bipolar" and we think this so called Bipolar maybe a gift if we can use it for serving Krsna or see it as Krsna's mercy? Or maybe it just goes away? Or maybe some of both? What do you think Maharaja?
HpS - Best thing is to try to use it for Krsna. When you are in the high side you are a fanatic with lots of energy. O.K. Fly for Krsna, and when you are in the down side you can't even answer the door. O.K. Get ready for death. It is a very 'depressing' situation, but .... you can still chant, and now it is your soul that is chanting, not just your mind and intelligence.
In the past we have gotten these big ideas and with it has come some huge frustrations for us. We have gotten ourselves in a BAD situation and aren't very happy a lot of times. However, we were listening to a Srila Prabhupada lecture and he was explaining if we build a nice diamond throne for Krsna in our heart and ask him to sit there, then we bath his feet then THIS IS NOT FALSE! Oh what relief this has given us. We are building temples, making preaching programs in our heart and offering it to you, SP and Nitai Guaranga. We understand we need enthusiasm and are praying to Krsna to make us fit to help the mission. Things are getting more clear. We are hoping for a trip to India this winter, if not maybe we travel there in our heart and offer the best serves we can to Lord Jagannatha!
While in Boise you mentioned that association with devotees can be making Handkerchiefs for Jahanmastami and distributing them. We weren't able to tell you at that time but we have some screen printing equipment in our garage that we received by some arrangement quite awhile ago and have been pondering what is the use for it. It needs a few pieces for the whole process of screen printing but shouldn't take a lot of money to get together. It's with deep sadness that we weren't able to do something for this years Jahanmastami, however, this is in our heart to make proper use of it and in hope please you, SP and Krsna. What do you think Maharaja?
HpS - It might be easier to give the design to others to do, but taking it up as a experiment might be very nice. Engage the whole family.
Oh and this is very funny to us. You mentioned that in the Srimad Bhagavatam it is said that women will appreciate their breast when lusty (i believe it was lusty?) and men their genitals. We had a very difficult time for quite awhile before hearing this that women would put attention to their breast while we where speaking to them or just being around them and we would think we aren't looking at them LADY! We would get all kinds of disturbed by it. Now after you explained it we just giggle and move on. HAHA!
It saddens us how bad of situation we have gotten ourselves into that we aren't able to serve you, SP and Nitia Guaranga better. When we think about you saying you may leave your body soon or 2024 we tear up from embarrassment that we have gotten so tangled up in non-since that we may not ever be able to take initiation. BUT WE WILL DO THE BEST WE CAN! We pray to Srila Prabhupada and Krsna to make us fit to serve you and chant Hare Krishna Maha Mantra with the best attentiveness we can and strive for advancement in that. We are working on our enthusiasm, confidence and patience!
Hari Bol! Hare Krsna!
Bh. Big Foot
HpS - ASA -- That was a sitation from Prabhupada that lust is usually aroused in female body in the breasts, and in men in the genitals. I was especially citing it to show that Prabhupada exposes the naked truth about this reality. He acts as a Sannyasi sometimes.
Really your situation seems pretty good. Just learn how to be a Grhastha and make your current situation more Krsna conscious, then Krsna will give you intelligence how to proceed, eventually taking Sannyasa.
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